Entry#2: Life of an "Emo" kid by Patrick Valenzuela https://padlet.com/patricktrent75/yt6oov8qvybe The story of an isolated kid en-us 2018-03-03 09:05:03 UTC 2018-04-16 13:13:38 UTC hello@padlet.com June 25, 2001 patricktrent75 https://padlet.com/patricktrent75/yt6oov8qvybe/wish/237664803 2018-03-03 09:19:56 UTC https://padlet.com/patricktrent75/yt6oov8qvybe/wish/237664803 patricktrent75 https://padlet.com/patricktrent75/yt6oov8qvybe/wish/237665023 on that day, the one you know and hate is born me, Patrick Valenzuela.]]> 2018-03-03 09:23:17 UTC https://padlet.com/patricktrent75/yt6oov8qvybe/wish/237665023 patricktrent75 https://padlet.com/patricktrent75/yt6oov8qvybe/wish/237665501 I was born in San Juan city and I was raised in a barangay called West Crame.]]> 2018-03-03 09:30:47 UTC https://padlet.com/patricktrent75/yt6oov8qvybe/wish/237665501 2002-2006 patricktrent75 https://padlet.com/patricktrent75/yt6oov8qvybe/wish/237665946 2018-03-03 09:37:25 UTC https://padlet.com/patricktrent75/yt6oov8qvybe/wish/237665946 patricktrent75 https://padlet.com/patricktrent75/yt6oov8qvybe/wish/237666616 I lived like a kid most of the time, playing and interacting with people. but there is something different I was a very morbid and a nihilistic child, while most kids were play without worries in life and indoctrinated to believe in God, I have this lingering thought on my mind, wondering if God really exists or does anything matter at the end, since we're all gonna die in the end. ]]> 2018-03-03 09:47:57 UTC https://padlet.com/patricktrent75/yt6oov8qvybe/wish/237666616 patricktrent75 https://padlet.com/patricktrent75/yt6oov8qvybe/wish/237667367 Even still I appeared as if I had no such thoughts in my life, i just looking like an everyday kid, with no worries about anything.

]]> 2018-03-03 09:58:39 UTC https://padlet.com/patricktrent75/yt6oov8qvybe/wish/237667367 patricktrent75 https://padlet.com/patricktrent75/yt6oov8qvybe/wish/237667614 I was never a planned child, my father even admits to it

]]> 2018-03-03 10:02:03 UTC https://padlet.com/patricktrent75/yt6oov8qvybe/wish/237667614 2007-2013 patricktrent75 https://padlet.com/patricktrent75/yt6oov8qvybe/wish/237667670 2018-03-03 10:02:58 UTC https://padlet.com/patricktrent75/yt6oov8qvybe/wish/237667670 patricktrent75 https://padlet.com/patricktrent75/yt6oov8qvybe/wish/237667910 I lived my life as this time as a kid who was bullied and made fun for being different. I had no real friends, I was always alone wanting to find my people, but always fail in the process.]]> 2018-03-03 10:06:21 UTC https://padlet.com/patricktrent75/yt6oov8qvybe/wish/237667910 patricktrent75 https://padlet.com/patricktrent75/yt6oov8qvybe/wish/237668681 I was enrolled on Brittany Christian Academy, the school was bad, filled with problems and I'm still wondering how it became a school in the first place.]]> 2018-03-03 10:14:49 UTC https://padlet.com/patricktrent75/yt6oov8qvybe/wish/237668681 patricktrent75 https://padlet.com/patricktrent75/yt6oov8qvybe/wish/237669334 I was called things like Special child, gay, weirdo and so many much, to this day I still feel pain when I hear that]]> 2018-03-03 10:21:04 UTC https://padlet.com/patricktrent75/yt6oov8qvybe/wish/237669334 patricktrent75 https://padlet.com/patricktrent75/yt6oov8qvybe/wish/237669703 We have a pretty bad family problems. Random arguments from my parents, financial problems]]> 2018-03-03 10:25:19 UTC https://padlet.com/patricktrent75/yt6oov8qvybe/wish/237669703 patricktrent75 https://padlet.com/patricktrent75/yt6oov8qvybe/wish/237669795 I also have this thing called daddy issues. I hated being a disappointment around people,  my father wanted me to be his sporty son, but I was not that kind of person. I told him that I'm not the son that he wanted, and he was fine about it but I wasn't, I feel bad about not being the son he wanted to be.]]> 2018-03-03 10:26:34 UTC https://padlet.com/patricktrent75/yt6oov8qvybe/wish/237669795 patricktrent75 https://padlet.com/patricktrent75/yt6oov8qvybe/wish/237670654 I want to please people, to remind my self I'm not a disappointment.]]> 2018-03-03 10:35:11 UTC https://padlet.com/patricktrent75/yt6oov8qvybe/wish/237670654 patricktrent75 https://padlet.com/patricktrent75/yt6oov8qvybe/wish/237670885 As a kid I wanted to help people be it a large or small task in order to see people's smile. Seeing people's smile means the world to me, my emotions are directed to the people around me, if someone is sad I am too, that is why I like seeing the joy of someone.]]> 2018-03-03 10:37:00 UTC https://padlet.com/patricktrent75/yt6oov8qvybe/wish/237670885 2013- early 2017 patricktrent75 https://padlet.com/patricktrent75/yt6oov8qvybe/wish/237671373 2018-03-03 10:40:54 UTC https://padlet.com/patricktrent75/yt6oov8qvybe/wish/237671373 patricktrent75 https://padlet.com/patricktrent75/yt6oov8qvybe/wish/237672601 I struggle to find meaning in this life, everyday thinking the same thing, wondering when this boring life will end.

]]> 2018-03-03 10:49:54 UTC https://padlet.com/patricktrent75/yt6oov8qvybe/wish/237672601 patricktrent75 https://padlet.com/patricktrent75/yt6oov8qvybe/wish/237672859 Bullying is getting worse, I hated everyone. now instead of wanting friends and connections, I wanted to cut my ties to this world,  I isolated my self from everyone, wanting to be alone, i became used to it and ended wanting it. If people can't see anymore in there lives, they won't make fun of you anymore. But the unexpected happen]]> 2018-03-03 10:51:41 UTC https://padlet.com/patricktrent75/yt6oov8qvybe/wish/237672859 patricktrent75 https://padlet.com/patricktrent75/yt6oov8qvybe/wish/237673229 On the day of our prom dance practice, the upperclassmen noticed me, alone in the corner. They were wondering why I'm alone and showed general concern which I was shocked to see.]]> 2018-03-03 10:56:00 UTC https://padlet.com/patricktrent75/yt6oov8qvybe/wish/237673229 patricktrent75 https://padlet.com/patricktrent75/yt6oov8qvybe/wish/237673373 They gave me advice and told me that some people have it worse than I am, it made me feel worse, they made it feel like a competition.]]> 2018-03-03 10:57:41 UTC https://padlet.com/patricktrent75/yt6oov8qvybe/wish/237673373 patricktrent75 https://padlet.com/patricktrent75/yt6oov8qvybe/wish/237673686 So i decided, to make myself be happy on my own, I accepted myself, If my life is forever cursed with loneliness, I don't need other people to make myself happy.]]> 2018-03-03 11:00:25 UTC https://padlet.com/patricktrent75/yt6oov8qvybe/wish/237673686 patricktrent75 https://padlet.com/patricktrent75/yt6oov8qvybe/wish/237674245 after all that, It made me feel somewhat good, I tried to be active. I also tried to talk to other people and go with the flow, I have tried to make the best of my life. ]]> 2018-03-03 11:04:15 UTC https://padlet.com/patricktrent75/yt6oov8qvybe/wish/237674245 patricktrent75 https://padlet.com/patricktrent75/yt6oov8qvybe/wish/237674695 One of my long time bully became my friend, he seemed like he cared for his friends more than himself, and I'm still wondering if i was the problem.]]> 2018-03-03 11:09:09 UTC https://padlet.com/patricktrent75/yt6oov8qvybe/wish/237674695 patricktrent75 https://padlet.com/patricktrent75/yt6oov8qvybe/wish/237674976 Even though I stated, I made a friend, I did not make a true friend.]]> 2018-03-03 11:12:53 UTC https://padlet.com/patricktrent75/yt6oov8qvybe/wish/237674976 patricktrent75 https://padlet.com/patricktrent75/yt6oov8qvybe/wish/237675016 I then moved schools, to iACADEMY ]]> 2018-03-03 11:13:34 UTC https://padlet.com/patricktrent75/yt6oov8qvybe/wish/237675016 2017-Now patricktrent75 https://padlet.com/patricktrent75/yt6oov8qvybe/wish/237675197 2018-03-03 11:16:10 UTC https://padlet.com/patricktrent75/yt6oov8qvybe/wish/237675197 patricktrent75 https://padlet.com/patricktrent75/yt6oov8qvybe/wish/237675329 I first struggled to find my group of friends, I was going where the wind blow. I eventually landed on a group people like Carl, Miggy, Eriond and etc.]]> 2018-03-03 11:17:49 UTC https://padlet.com/patricktrent75/yt6oov8qvybe/wish/237675329 patricktrent75 https://padlet.com/patricktrent75/yt6oov8qvybe/wish/237675449 iACADEMY has a great community, won't judge you if you're different, they accept it, which i deeply liked]]> 2018-03-03 11:18:58 UTC https://padlet.com/patricktrent75/yt6oov8qvybe/wish/237675449 patricktrent75 https://padlet.com/patricktrent75/yt6oov8qvybe/wish/237675791 One time when I was having problems, Carl was there and helped me through it. it made me feel kindness and care, which was a new concept for me.]]> 2018-03-03 11:21:27 UTC https://padlet.com/patricktrent75/yt6oov8qvybe/wish/237675791 patricktrent75 https://padlet.com/patricktrent75/yt6oov8qvybe/wish/243404668 Summary: I have been made fun of my whole life, no friends, no one to lean on and etc. But everything changed when I transferred schools. Seeing people who like me for me, made me quite happy inside, it made me feel real like I actually exist in this world]]> 2018-03-19 11:07:08 UTC https://padlet.com/patricktrent75/yt6oov8qvybe/wish/243404668 1. Is there a "center" or central theme in your timeline and life? if you will give a title for your timeline what would it be and why?: patricktrent75 https://padlet.com/patricktrent75/yt6oov8qvybe/wish/243405413 My whole life revolves around finding things and failing, but in the end I turned around my life and became the person I am right now, I will never regret my past, if my past problems didn't happen I wouldn't be here today. "if you fall, you will rise" my life is about failure but i eventually found my place in this world]]> 2018-03-19 11:09:50 UTC https://padlet.com/patricktrent75/yt6oov8qvybe/wish/243405413 2. Identify the turning points in your timeline. what were the thoughts , feelings and actions that you experienced? patricktrent75 https://padlet.com/patricktrent75/yt6oov8qvybe/wish/243406652 The time when the upperclassmen were trying to help me be happy, and it honestly didn't help, at that time I wanted to change myself to be more outgoing and be myself. ]]> 2018-03-19 11:13:47 UTC https://padlet.com/patricktrent75/yt6oov8qvybe/wish/243406652 3. Who are/were the most significant people in your life? How did they influence you? patricktrent75 https://padlet.com/patricktrent75/yt6oov8qvybe/wish/243426454 For me it was Carl and Eriond. Carl stood up for me and I felt care and kindness from a friend for once in my life. Eriond has this jolly attitude always smiling and being cheerful, I try to be like him.]]> 2018-03-19 12:07:10 UTC https://padlet.com/patricktrent75/yt6oov8qvybe/wish/243426454 4. What would you change or add, if you could? How would each of this changes or additions affect your life, or even change it's present course? patricktrent75 https://padlet.com/patricktrent75/yt6oov8qvybe/wish/243428182 I wouldn't change a thing, if not what happened to me in my life, I wouldn't be the man you see today]]> 2018-03-19 12:10:26 UTC https://padlet.com/patricktrent75/yt6oov8qvybe/wish/243428182 5. Where do you want to be in a year? 5 years, and 10 years? what do you expect your future will be? patricktrent75 https://padlet.com/patricktrent75/yt6oov8qvybe/wish/243429707 I don't really much from my life, I just go where the wind takes me.]]> 2018-03-19 12:13:09 UTC https://padlet.com/patricktrent75/yt6oov8qvybe/wish/243429707