Recently, i've been warming up to pictures (mind you, I was paranoid by cameras before) But that doesn't mean I consent to you posting my pictures (i'm looking at you friends and family).

I listen to music mostly through a playlist that I have in Spotify. If you take a closer look at the song choices, you'd be shocked to see antheses everywhere. Jazz beside Electronic Rap, R&B beside Opera music, so on and so forth.

Don't get me wrong, i'm not trying to act "unique" in some way or another, because i'm not the type to care what people think.

So far, I've only gotten my student's license, but sooner or later, I'll be able to get my driver's license and will be able to go on long road trips while singing my heart out without being judged by anyone.

If you're a happy and enthusiastic person, then let's be happy together! If you're introverted and quiet, I can be quiet and nonchalant as well.

I hope by the time you're reading this, young adult me in 15-30 years, you're reading this as a doctor, and you're currently either in the hospital working overtime, reading this, or you're in a high-rise apartment with interiors akin to those you see in YouTube shorts. I also hope you're helping people get better every day you enter work. The thing that drives you to become a doctor isn't about money or prestige, but because you care, and you want your patient to leave the hospital with a smile on their face and hope that they can still continue living with their loved ones. By this time, you'll also start taking care of yourself, and you'll have achieved a normal BMI and a healthy body.

You have strong relationships, strong bonds, and lots of people who have your back. You are kind, helpful, funny, caring, sensitive, and compassionate towards others. You are also with the love of your life. She's not the prettiest or the most beautiful, but the kindest, sweetest, and most gentle human being you know. You love her and give her the love that she deserves. You give her flowers or chocolates once per week, and you go on reading dates, talking about science, geography, and history. You are adept or knowledgeable in almost every subject out there. Humanities, Physics, Social Sciences, Mathematics, etc. You fulfilled your promise of getting to know every single piece of information that you can learn. You also speak 5 more languages and have mastered the 4 you're already speaking.In all seriousness, though, I hope you're still alive in the very least. These achievements mean nothing if you don't have anything.

I am scared. Not scared of you, but scared of what the future did to you. I wish nothing but the best for you. This letter might not be formal or in perfect format, which I know you're gonna hate, but deep inside, I know this will put a smile on your face. Because I know you, I know what keeps you going is not prestige, praises, or superiority, but the chance that one day, you'll help the people that you always wanted to help. You get to finally help that kid you saw starve, you get to apply the first aid you wish you knew when you saw that family get into a road accident. You get to help your grandmother live a fun and happy life after sacrificing her entire life just for us. You can finally treat your mother after you saw how she skipped meals when money was short. You can finally make your father proud. All of these things might seem farfetched to achieve, but I know you can do it because I know you never give up when trying to achieve your dreams, I know you always do your best, I know no matter how tired and sick you are, you keep on pushing. The future might be grim, but I rest easy. Because I know you're strong.

Sincerely, Xian