Advice/Thoughts/Quotes/Venting by prupl

Suicide.

prupl — 2022-03-15 14:36:22 UTC

suicide is very selfish. That may sound bad right now but let me explain. No matter who you are there is always someone who will be affected by your death. It does not matter how many people it is or who they are. Once you die they will be affected. before you're about to kill yourself think of yourself once you die watching over your family while they are staring at your dead body screaming because they didn't know you were suicidal. Watch progressively start to hate themselves as life continues because they should have done better. Before you die think to yourself "Is it worth it? Is it right to put people through worse pain than what i'm feeling right now?" i don't care who you are or what you've done or what life's done to you, its. not. worth. it.

Trust.

prupl — 2022-03-15 14:43:06 UTC

Trust is very important with any type of relationship with anyone. Whether it may be your significant other or just a friendly relationship. If there isn't a base of trust should you really call them your friend? When I was young I was a pretty big liar, but over time I've realized that lying genuinely doesn't do anything for you. Most of my old friends are still friends with me because I have never broken their trust, and I never will. If you've broken someone's trust who is close to you, don't worry it is very possible to gain it back. Gaining trust back will not be the same, however. Once someone's trust is broken there will always be a thought in their head "Well they've broken my trust before, what stops them from doing it again?" So the next time you are thinking of lying (I know most lies are in the moment, but who would I word that) try to keep that thought in mind

Greed.

prupl — 2022-03-15 16:26:57 UTC

Have you heard of greed? maybe not, but most likely you have. MOST of the big businesses are run by greedy CEOs. Apple and Samsung are great examples. BP (the gas company) is one that I am very aware of though. The world isn't doing so well, and you most likely know this as well. Because these huge companies want to keep their precious money they won't do the world any favors or even try to fix a little problem. Greed is the most annoying thing for me, I am aware that its a thing but the thing that bugs me is that i can't do anything about it. Im not rich, and even if i were a CEO of some business (very unlikely) I still wouldn't be able to do anything. I'm paralyzed with helplessness. These companies are the reasons the world is how it is today. This isn't really advice but I'm just bringing it to everyone's attention :D

Padlet.

prupl — 2022-03-15 19:24:15 UTC

Don't get me wrong i like padlet, but it has a lot of flaws. Pedo's, too many little kids, creepy white dudes, racism(A lot for some reason), etc. Padlet is also very distracting from schoolwork. because of padlet my grades kinda dropped alot. I know that's, not padlets fault, it's my own. Padlet has a lot of great things too. The people I've met here are pretty great. Some of them not so much but we don't talk about those :D. I do hope the developers of padlet go in the direction of padlet becoming a text website but I hope they don't do it so drastically so that schools don't find out. In my opinion I don't think anyone under the age of 12 should be on here its not really safe for those. Maybe even higher idk but its whatever. In conclusion be safe on padlet :D

online dating.

prupl — 2022-03-15 19:43:40 UTC

ok, this is a weird topic to me. Online dating isn't that bad in my opinion. Sure almost all of them break off after a week. but there is a 1% chance you might marry them. big jump but I'm not mapping out a relationship it does not sound interesting to me. Here are some rules I think you should follow if you want to get into online dating. 1. Know the person for more than just a month. Even a month is low but I still think you should get to know them before you ask them to be your gf/bf. 2. Do you actually wanna be with them or are you desperate? 3. ( This is for if someone asks you to be their gf/bf ) do some sort of background check. Make sure you know that they aren't gonna be weird 4. if someone breaks up with you or vice versa, just leave it at that. Don't get back together. I don't know many relationships that had a breakup in them and lasted. 5. ** This is a bit of a sensitive topic so If this is a triggering topic you might want to stop reading. ** Alright if you are a person who says you'll kill yourself if your gf/bf breaks up with you, I hate you. Idc who you are I hate you. People who do that are filthy manipulators who shouldn't feel love. I've helped a few people dealing with this so i have a bit of experience but I'm not an expert. My best advice if your dealing with a situation where your bf/gf is threatening some sort of self harm to you are themselves get the police involved. They handle it way better than anyone you will ever know (unless you know someone in the lawforce). I guarantee you the police will take you seriously and help you with this. Don't be a manipulator!... dating is all about finding someone to be with so if you feel like online isn't the right idea you can easily disagree with me that's normal. People have opinions.

purpose.

prupl — 2022-03-16 14:40:31 UTC

Life... although it may be confusing as to why you're here, you always have a purpose. No matter what you believe in, religion, random opinions, literally anything, you always have a purpose. Purpose may come to you at the age of 5, or it may even come to you at the age of 38. It's different for everyone. Finding your purpose isn't necessarily hard, it just takes a long time for most people. I don't know if you have seen the movie Soul, but If you haven't I highly recommend it. It talks about topics most movies avoid even going near it. Soul describes purpose as sparks and you find your spark by exploring, and that is what you're supposed to do in real life. I personally found my "spark/purpose" when I was like 12. I got lucky because I'm in school every day and realized teaching is my passion. If you haven't found your purpose I recommend asking your parents or guardians or literally anyone(who isn't younger than 14 or 15) about what jobs they explored and the experiences they have to skip a few processes. Sometimes your passion doesn't make much money as a job, that's when you make it into one. Think of those original YouTubers. Some of them wanted to be something else in life but they found youtube and posted what they did and got famous from it. You may think something is your dream in life, and then that changes throughout life. That's normal. A ton of people switch their occupations in college after finding out what they have to do the get there, or what that job entails. I don't really have anything else to say about this topic and I don't know how to end it :D

Love.

prupl — 2022-03-16 16:04:12 UTC

Love: an intense feeling of deep affection. I am 100%, not someone who knows anything about love or how to love someone, but I do have some thoughts on it. I've watched people change, break, try to off themselves because of the outcome of a relationship. I think if you're in a relationship with someone and you want to break up with, do it right. Try explaining why you are breaking up with them if they did anything or you just fell out of love. Let them know what they did right so they can do it in future relationships. Don't manipulate someone for personal gain, which I thought was common sense but you would be surprised. I'm the quiet kid at school so I think I'm a pretty good listener, I hear stories of breakups, get-togethers, and just a lot of things. I don't like listening to people bash on other people without knowing the full story or even bash on someone for breaking up with them, it's stupid. Doing that does nothing for both sides. I think you should take relationships seriously so you don't affect the person you are with or even yourself against your partner. Just be mindful when your are with someone and you should be alright, but who am I to say anything?

school.

prupl — 2022-03-18 15:29:59 UTC

this may or not be a rant idk. There will be some advice here somewhere if you're interested in reading that far. Alright school... so I've been in school for a while. I'm a Sophmore in high school so I wouldn't say I know everything about school but I know enough. I've switched schools 3 times, and I'm glad I switched to the first school because some bad things went down there and we left a year before. If you have never switched schools before its the worst. I had a ton of friends at my 2nd school. My 2nd school had only around 100 students (VERY SMALL) and the school im going to now has over 700. Going from a big school to a small school was one of the most stressful things I've ever had to do in my life. I literally changed my entire personality, now I'm the quiet kid. I used to be obnoxious though so I'm not sure if it was a step up or down. If your parents are planning on switching schools, I have some advice for you. Try to make friends when you're in the new school don't try to change who you are. Also, think of it this way. Everyone is nervous not just you. Sure it may not be their 1st year at that school but it's always nerve-racking when you go back to school after 3 months. I didn't know that when I first came to this school. I thought I was the only one who ever switched to that school and I thought I was the only one who was going through mass amounts of stress.

If you are in 8th grade or if you just want some tips for high school this is for you. No one's opinion matters more than yours. People are GOING to say something about your looks no matter what. It's just life. I know, it's stupid, why does the world work like that? idk it's just how reality has morphed over time. What I do is just laugh with the people who are trying to make fun of me, they stopped making fun of me when they realized I wasn't affected by what they were saying so they weren't getting the reaction they wanted making them not have fun anymore. Do your
work. it's not really that hard, sure I struggle sometimes but everyone does. In the long run its worth it to just finish up these 4 years of high school so you have the diploma so you can get a job and make money to do things, you want to do. don't worry about college even if your parents are pressuring you. College isn't a necessary item in your life, if you want to skip it you can. There are MANY jobs that don't need a college degree that can still make you more money than some jobs that do need a college degree.
If you need any help with high school or just more school advice let me know I'd be willing to make another one of these.

Relax.

prupl — 2022-03-18 15:59:43 UTC

Don't try to do everything at once! Make a schedule for yourself with at least 3 projects to do, no more than 5. By doing this you can check off what you have been doing giving yourself the credit and reassurance you need to keep you going through the day. Sometimes you need a break, THAT'S OK!!! Taking a break is essential every day. If you are nonstop working the entire day without a break your work will start to lose its efficiency and accuracy and at that point are you really working or just doing something? A break can be a lot of things, eating a snack, taking a nap, watching tv, etc. Taking a break is also healthy for you so it's a win-win :D!!!

societal.

prupl — 2022-03-21 18:53:34 UTC

Being anti-social can be amazing if you genuinely enjoy it, but I don't recommend it. Being social is way better for your mental health and overall well-being. You just can't pick the wrong people, which is definitely hard but worth it in the end.

Internet.

prupl — 2022-04-04 17:24:03 UTC

Oh my gosh the internet, what a topic! The internet is a very great thing for the world but also a HORRIBLE thing as well. Many crimes and messed-up things happen on the internet every minute. While im making this post someone is probably getting scammed for their money. The internet is very unsafe!!! (imagine I just said this post is sponsored by Nord VPN) I've witnessed alot of bad happen on the internet, but alot of good too! Social media is a horrible place in my opinion. I think there is way more bad than good on social media, but that is for another post. I like the internet though, through all the bad there is gonna be some great things the internet does. Like gofundme is a great website where people in need can get money for something important. donating money is awesome, which could technically be done without the internet it's just a much longer process. I guess I don't really have anything else to talk abut this topic so im just gonna say be safe and try to limit your time on the internet :D

No sleep (a poem by Ribbit :D I did not write any of this)

prupl — 2022-04-08 15:31:09 UTC

It's never enough..
Hours
1
2
3
4
5
6
7
8
9
10
11
12
...
It's never enough when you
Wanna die
but too many people need you
Wanna leave
but too many responsibilities
Wanna just lay
but too many things to do
Wanna do things
but your body and mind is just too tired
Wanna be better
but ur brain fogs what's right and what's wrong...
Never enough..
1
2
3
4
5
6
7
8
9
10
11
12
...
Just wanna wake up
and be
Awake
Just wanna wake up
and feel
Alive
Just wanna wake up
....
It'll never be enough
..
Will it?
.....
😴

Sebastian_Luv — 2022-04-13 13:55:42 UTC

"What if I just..

left.

Didn't keep up with people.

Make sure people couldn't see me.

Like I'm a ghost.

You know, how when you're above water.

You can barely see people?
But when you go under, and you're close enough to see them.

Your eyes are shut tight.

Sometimes I feel less visible than that."

So many people think this, including me

for anyone else thinking this, dont. It's very hard to think about, and I know this from personal experience.

Even right now, as im writing this, I think about this same topic.

If you ever need to talk to someone, just tell someone you're close too.

But don't pressure them

★-𝔯 ★

Stress and Anxiety

Sebastian_Luv — 2022-04-13 14:04:41 UTC

Stress isn't new, we've all felt it.
Weather it's monsters
being alone
heartbreak

It's easier if you talk to someone.
Stress activates at different times and it's hard to deal with.
I and so many others know this.
Monsters are real
Ghosts are real
But these monsters are the ones we keep inside
And sometimes,
They win

★-𝔯 ★

Sebastian_Luv — 2022-04-13 14:08:03 UTC

My parents are divorced, but I get to see them both.

I feel selfish for wanting to see my dad more.

Some people dont get to see their dad.

am I selfish?

I'm sorry.

Does anyone else feel like this?
Well I want you to know now, you're not selfish.
Parents being divorced is a serious thing, and its hard to deal with.
Don't worry, you're not alone in this.
Everyone who you can trust will give you support.
Dont worry about it.

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Sucde/Rant

2022-04-17 04:02:06 UTC

sometimes, i wish i wasnt alive.
but i end up feeling selfish.
is it bad the only thing stopping
me is the worry of being selfish..?
that my friends are usually the last
in consideration?
im i really a bad person?
im sorry. im sorry dad. im sorry ashley.
im sorry kaylee. im sorry toby. im sorry.
im a bad person deep down.
many people dont know who
i am deep down. what i do.
how i feel. what i say. i am a terrible
person and im sorry. but im not.
this is who i am. but i turn out to
be a liar who is scared to admit
the truth even after i've been
confronted and will still continue
to lie. the day I die, I hope my mother
blames herself. i hope *blank* will miss me.
when I die, I will finally know if people actually
care or not. dad. mom. i hate you both.
i want to run away from the bed I'm sitting in
. i don't deserve to have what I do. i don't deserve to be friends with toby. i don't deserve the wonderful stepmom I have. i deserve the pain. i deserve the trauma. i deserved it all. i deserve the way I treat myself. i deserved it when *blank* hurt me. i deserved the cuts.

Friendship

2022-04-19 15:36:14 UTC

So
There’s this girl I’m no longer friends with
But when we were friends she would always try to make me and others take blame for her mistakes
And then she would threaten with like “and oh our friendship depends on this too”

And I always knew I needed to drop her and not associate with her but it was always so hard cause we had been friends for a good while.

With this I say, it’s hard, rough, exhausting, you might rebound- but in the end- it’s worth cutting the toxic people out of your life.

Don’t forget to love yourself, drink plenty of water, eat some food and take your meds if you have them!

Telling a person to be happy bc others have it worse, is like telling someone to be sad bc others have it better.

Ikigai_925 — 2022-08-08 18:59:36 UTC

Just ponder on that for me.

True Gratitude

Ikigai_925 — 2022-08-08 18:59:46 UTC

Ppl say "be grateful cuz others have it worse" or "you could be dead rn, be grateful you're still living" and like, yeah. I could be dead rn with all the shootings and crap, but at the same time, I don't think we should feel grateful bc of someone else's shortcomings. I don't think that's true gratitude. Bc we only realized that bc someone else had it worse. If we were genuinely grateful, we could just look at what we have and say, "yk what? I'm grateful I have this". It comes from the heart, it comes from within, not from someone else's shortcomings. It's like "hurt ppl hurt ppl" except we're not hurting or hurting ppl(I hope). We just looked at their downfall and we were grateful to be climbing. So when someone says to "practice gratitude" tell them to do the same.

Trauma

Ikigai_925 — 2022-08-08 18:59:53 UTC

In my eyes, trauma doesn't have a fixed definition. Bc someone else's trauma may not seem like trauma to you. That's bc we're all different. Sometimes we smile bc we're happy, other times we smile bc we don't want others to judge our trauma, or be a burden to them. Remember that ppl, stay kind.

some of you may know me some of you may not, i was here last year and the year before i have done alot of things i wasnt supposed to and got caught in a rabbit hole, so i came back to get to know yall because some of yall r new and hopefully save you from anything like that. im always open to give you advice and help you through thing you just got to let me know:)

2022-09-09 19:26:51 UTC

Nothing Is Perfect

SerenaFinnie — 2022-09-15 18:40:45 UTC

don't cater to other peoples needs if its causing you harm :D

prupl — 2023-01-09 14:36:39 UTC

Idk

luvv_rae — 2023-02-15 02:27:10 UTC

A man cannot handle the same hurt he gives a women a lot of these men will put a good woman through so much and expect her to stick around because he said he's going to change its not a women's obligation to stick around while you mature and become the man she deserved from the jump but she does it because she loves you and already invested so much but it's funny because when a woman makes a few mistakes a man is so quick to cut her off and call her disloyal he can't handle that hurt and lacks the ability to forgive his woman some would call it ego or pride personally i call it hypocrisy if you don't want your woman to do it you shouldn't do it either mutual respect period

just to add to this, its not all dudes. I was thinking of not approving it but it's got a decent message for a lot of genuinely hateful guys. -prupl

too often we enjoy the comfort of opinion without the discomfort of thought.

SwApStEr1 — 2023-03-03 18:43:29 UTC

-jfk

Ikigai_925 — 2023-05-25 04:22:31 UTC

"Knowing when to walk away is wisdom.

Being able to is courage.

Walking away, with your head held high is dignity."

- Quora

"You breathe on air, not people." -Me <3

2024-01-13 01:42:12 UTC

vent

ILOVEVAMPS — 2024-01-15 01:22:46 UTC

my family doesn't care I feel alone my mom doesn't care about me nobody cares about me my friends I'm too scared to tell them how I feel cuz I feel believe me my crush who is my best friend she's the only thing that's keeping me from killing myself and I love her if she didn't I would not be here right now bye

Still waters run deep

Ikigai_925 — 2024-01-23 00:53:55 UTC

I understand you now. Still hate you, but I understand you. I can empathize with you. You're mean because you're traumatized, hurt. I, an innocent kid back then, found myself not understanding that. That lack of understanding led to our broken friendship, me getting hurt, and you to feel betrayed.

I wonder if you felt as if I caused that trauma to you again when I tried to bring peace and accept all. I say this because what you did to me and It would be the exact same thing I would do to It after that was done to me. After It did that to me.

Did you feel unseen?

Not heard?

Like it was happening to you again?

Don't get me wrong, I still hate you. You're still that manipulative, selfish bitch who's downright evil, but in everyone's life they're the protagonist, and the person who hurts them is the antagonist. I believe I'm an antagonist in your life. Don't worry though, it's reciprocated. It's just... I see what made you evil. I think I do at least. You're still hurt and traumatized. It's strange because I almost have the heart to be your friend again. I can forgive what you did to me, and the trauma response that was revealed to me ever since that second end. What you did to my friends was too far though. I can't forgive you for that one, which is one of the reasons I hate you. The other is that, even when we were friends, you were manipulative and gave the cold shoulder to anyone who disagreed with you (some of my oldest friends on here may know who you are now, haha sorry). Did you do that because of... It? It's so... innocent looking. It has a vibe that would make you want to believe she's good, pure, when she's the exact opposite. She's insane (and, I never thought I'd say this but, more manipulative than you). And you're both so out there that, on that specific platform at least, it's pretty much a team deathmatch. All her friends, to you, are people who forgave her for she had done or didn't think she'd do that. And by believing her, they ignored your trauma. Is that right? When I tried to be the peacekeeper, it was a gunshot to your heart (Apex reference, I'm sorry lol). You felt betrayed. You may've been scared that I'd go on It's side. Which is why you decided to hurt me, threaten me, frame me, spread lies about me and so on. Because I was pacifying her behavior by trying to be peaceful.

Wow... I never thought I'd understand you. Or at least get a lead to understanding you. I hate you less now, in that I don't want to see you dead now (can't say the same about It though).

But... this isn't a reconciliation. I don't want to be your friend nor do I want anything to do with you. And don't try to take this direct leave me alone as an invitation to be my friend again like you did last time, because now I know how to say "no". And I won't feel bad. I won't feel bad for saying "no".

But I do feel you deserve an apology. I react to this feeling by saying I'm sorry [REDACTED]. I won't say your name for your privacy and you hit me as the type of person who would try to bring me to court for this public message. As a final goodbye and fuck you, I would like to say this:

You're still evil, but you're hurt. You're traumatized and you haven't healed. I'm the same (though I hope I'm not evil), though my girlfriend's helping me heal. I don't know what I'd do without her. I hope that someday there's someone to help you heal too. I can sincerely say I hope you get better. And I can sincerely thank you and (not so sincerely) thank It for helping me understand you, wish you the best, and hate you less. Well... it's more of a dislike now.

Long story short, I forgive you, River (I think River's a nice pseudonym for you. It suits you well. Not It It but yk- lowercase it lol). I forgive you, I'm sorry, and fuck you, it was nice while it lasted.

very quiet in here...

2024-02-20 22:38:46 UTC

-jj

I miss you guys.

SEGAA — 2025-03-15 04:34:39 UTC

-Mayo/Cam/Cami

Split — 2025-05-09 02:14:05 UTC