Purpose. I was always the leader of my friends. With this reality, it gave me purpose, with a lack of guilt. I was always, from the time I can remember, the one who dove head first into the deep end. More often than not, as a child everyone followed.

The resolution to this state was finding a strong identity through stereotypical behavior. This may not have been the most effective or truthful manner to live in, but it gave me a set of ideas to base my actions upon. Ultimately, gaining confidence in the character I created. Steering me away from confusion.

The resolution to this state has not yet been solved. However, I am somewhere in between the two. The solitude I spend with myself is used to create an undeniable character by sifting through my trauma and habitually constructing the man I want to be. Acquired through positive daily habits. Now, I am able to enter the presence of interpersonal relationships momentarily and bring a magnitude of inspiration. However, I am not completely healed. I still have biased views on romantic and other interpersonal interactions that must be sorted through. This must happen in order for me to pass over to the next stage. 

The resolution to this state has not occurred yet. However, I am quite certain my life experience will keep me away from stagnation. I will use the early years of experience I gained from driving my life to the greatest lengths possible and gift that to others. To be able to believe in others outrageous dreams when nobody else will. Wanna know why!? Because I am accomplishing outrageous goals. Just recently I ran a 50 mile ultra race and got first place! On May 15th I am going to be running from Gary Indiana to New Orleans Lousina. The belief I build in these times of adversity now will give me the blessing of passing down inspiration to youngsters .