Well, I feel relieved and hopeful somehow, I don’t know why but one thing I’m sure of is that I feel this way. because I am growing as I always wanted to be, just a normal person aiming for a big dream and goals. I always observe myself or my feelings rather. I tend to know if I am doing just fine, if I, myself, is going through the right path for my future. 

Is life hard lately?

Sometimes I consider that life could be really hard lately, but all I could think of is that it really is a part of our life. To test us if we could still keep on moving forward everyday. I know that there are some times that I struggle because of the challenges that I have faced, knowing that it really is just a phase in our life that we will experience and learn from. There is always a time when I have to face some difficult challenges and what I have learned or kept in my mind is that even if we face some difficult challenges, If you never get through it, you wouldn't make it this far. Because for me, life is full of challenges and unexpected opportunities for us people. This would really help me develop more on myself and learn new things based on my own experiences. I also want to share that my favorite quote about not giving up is that “ We should learn to rest, not to quit.” because learning how to rest well even help us more about to think thoroughly on how we could survive and face that challenges in our life, I also believe that every challenges has its own meaning for us to learn and acknowledge in our life.

What is my purpose or main goal?

To be honest, my only purpose in life is that I just wanted to live normally. I want peace and a happy life that I could live with. Because growing up, for me it is really hard and I could say that I really struggled with life with a broken family. I never got the validation, love and support that I needed. Yet, I am still thankful because of my parents, because they had me. Even though growing up struggles me, I tend to learn things from others and develop myself. I could proudly say that no one really knows me other than me. What I feel, What I act, What I think and do. It will always be about me, about putting myself first because no one ever did. I am always thankful for myself for being capable of doing the things I never knew that I could do or imagine, this is one of the main reasons I want to know more about myself and do what I really wanted to. To achieve my goals and to help myself in struggling because of fear.

What is my biggest fear?

 My biggest fear isn’t any monster that could probably crawl up onto my bed, or be in a dark place. It is somewhat far worse than that, it is the fear of being irrelevant. Of also being too different from other people on how they see me as me. To the point that it always keeps me up at night. Having the thought that my efforts and passions will only lead to nothing. Having the feeling that no one will remember the joy I brought, the kindness I showed and the love that I shared. It’s the fear of not being able to leave a mark, of not making any differences. That is the fear that I tend to always struggle with. But I know that having this fear will also tend to help me to push myself to be better, create and leave my comfort zone. To guide me in my cruel world and to help me to be the most unique person that I could ever imagine myself that I could be someday.

What is that one thing I want to improve myself about?

Today, I have reflected on some point for self improvement, and that one self improvement that stands out is my time management. I noticed that now I always tend to be productive everyday because I manage to fix my schedule and planning it on how to achieve all of the tasks that I gave myself. It really helps me a lot that I manage my time because this also guides me on being able to think critically on how the outcome of my plan works. I am also willing to actively practice more and how I could know my lifestyle habit.

What is your MBTI personality type and how do you think it reflects who you are?

My MBTI personality type is ENFJ-T, this reflects me on who I am because this personality type possesses a unique blend of charisma, empathy, and idealism that sets "me" as a person apart in any crowd. So this sums up on how my MBTI personality reflects on who I really am, because it also specifically means that I have the natural ability to inspire other peoples and lead others to encourage them to make a positive impact on the world around us.

In what ways can understanding personality type help me improve my relationships, decision-making, and personal goals?

The possible ways that will help me understand my personality type to also help me improve is that as an ENFJ-T it is also known for being an understanding person being empathic and caring. This will help me understand why I might doubt and overthink interactions or take things personally, yet I also often make decisions based on values and on how choices could impact other peoples, but this will help me on balancing my emotions and breaking down big decisions into smaller steps to reduce overwhelming. I also as an ENFJ is driven by the desire to make positive impacts so ensuring my goals that are achievable and is aligned with my values as a way that could help me understand more about my personality type.

What challenges did I face, and how did I overcome them?

As a student, the challenges that I have faced the most is my academics and its validations. I tend to struggle with my academics because I lack of self-discipline for myself. It is hard for me to keep up with it that the reason behind it is that I also had other responsibilities to take care of, but how did I overcome them? I chose to help myself with what I struggle with and I became more discipline about myself. This helped me focused even more on my mental and physical health, it made me realize that being aware and academically active is important because you could get to learn and acknowledge more things and for me it also helps me enjoy what I'm doing. Let's say by doing this journal right now even if I have other school works to do, including this journal, this also really helps me to bring out my emotions and it eases my stress. I am also very proud of what I become this far and how I overcome those challenges that I have faced before.

What am I grateful for today?

Today, I am grateful for the simplest yet meaningful things that I have achieved, even though it is simple I could still say that I did my very best to achieve such thing such as accomplishing my school works and by waking up every morning and doing the same routine that I have always planned to do. I am also thankful because god is always there for me, whenever there is a time that I struggle and couldn't think of any possible way to correct my wrong doings, I just tend to sit in a quiet corner and asked for god's guidance to also help me figure things out and ease the heavy pain that I am feeling.