https://padlet.com/Alex_Poet/Random_and_Insanity Made with a bold sensibility, a hate for people, and all the love you can get! en-us 2018-05-28 15:14:16 UTC 2025-03-17 02:32:19 UTC hello@padlet.com https://padlet-assets.s3.amazonaws.com/icons/Doubleheart.png Alex_Poet https://padlet.com/Alex_Poet/Random_and_Insanity/wish/264052906 Once upon a time, two children were walking home. "Look up there! It's a children's tale!" One said. "No way! There is no way that a children's tale would be all the way out here!" the other exclaimed. They stared at the Children's tale until they realized that they were sleeping and it was all just a dream. 'I knew it was too good to be true,' they said when they woke up.]]> 2018-05-28 15:21:06 UTC https://padlet.com/Alex_Poet/Random_and_Insanity/wish/264052906 Alex_Poet https://padlet.com/Alex_Poet/Random_and_Insanity/wish/264052961 my little children,
Have many reasons,
And if you question them,
They will tell you treasons.

Many children ago,
When the world was filled with light, 
Those children would have said,
They would rather fight.

If you're feeling down,
and want to lay around,
Remember the many reasons,
that even those children never found.]]> 2018-05-28 15:21:32 UTC https://padlet.com/Alex_Poet/Random_and_Insanity/wish/264052961 Alex_Poet https://padlet.com/Alex_Poet/Random_and_Insanity/wish/264053072 A drawing I made on the computer of Lady Irene fron Aphmau's Minecraft diaries]]> 2018-05-28 15:22:32 UTC https://padlet.com/Alex_Poet/Random_and_Insanity/wish/264053072 Alex_Poet https://padlet.com/Alex_Poet/Random_and_Insanity/wish/264053204 I may or may not have a thing for Phantom of the Opera and Billdip... Also, this is Elentori's art, check her out on Deviant Art!]]> 2018-05-28 15:23:24 UTC https://padlet.com/Alex_Poet/Random_and_Insanity/wish/264053204 Alex_Poet https://padlet.com/Alex_Poet/Random_and_Insanity/wish/264053301 this is just a random picture I found while searching the internet one day. I immediately thought of Garrence/Larroth when I found this. What do you think?]]> 2018-05-28 15:24:09 UTC https://padlet.com/Alex_Poet/Random_and_Insanity/wish/264053301 Alex_Poet https://padlet.com/Alex_Poet/Random_and_Insanity/wish/264053742 Why did you continue reading this? I was really hoping to keep your mind out if the gutter. Please stop reading, especially if when you read something depressing you get depressed yourself. This, I promise you, will get depressing really quickly. So quick that once you read the first line you will be sad. Turn away now. Please?]]> 2018-05-28 15:26:04 UTC https://padlet.com/Alex_Poet/Random_and_Insanity/wish/264053742 Alex_Poet https://padlet.com/Alex_Poet/Random_and_Insanity/wish/264054406 Thinking about my life makes me sick. I mean, who would want to care for a child who has so many problems they don't even know if what they think is true about them is a lie they told themselves so that they could sleep better at night? Who would want to care for a child who doesn't care about their body, much less their mind? Who would want to care for a child with problems they bottle up inside of themselves and tells everyone 'I'm fine' even if they feel as though they should be dead? Who would want to care for someone who goes online who is so desperate for someone to listen and care they go online and just make something where they just rant and not do what they even want to do in the first place? Who would want to care for someone who doesn't even love themselves, much less have the capacity to even think about loving someone when they know that they will never actually tell them anything truthful? Why should my life even matter to anyone? Why should people want my life to amount to anything when I know that all my life won't amount to anything, UNLESS I finally die, then it would be the cause of death that would make it worth it. I told you you didn't want to read these, and yet you still read them. Good Job!]]> 2018-05-28 15:30:15 UTC https://padlet.com/Alex_Poet/Random_and_Insanity/wish/264054406 Alex_Poet https://padlet.com/Alex_Poet/Random_and_Insanity/wish/264055082 This is the full picture of my profile pic!]]> 2018-05-28 15:34:55 UTC https://padlet.com/Alex_Poet/Random_and_Insanity/wish/264055082 Alex_Poet https://padlet.com/Alex_Poet/Random_and_Insanity/wish/264055465 A little thing I found that I really liked, even though the story behind it is really sad.]]> 2018-05-28 15:37:36 UTC https://padlet.com/Alex_Poet/Random_and_Insanity/wish/264055465 Alex_Poet https://padlet.com/Alex_Poet/Random_and_Insanity/wish/264127757 I look at my computer screen and I see 'The Forever Love of a Dog One of the great things about owning a dog is their unconditional love. Dogs are loyal, they don't judge and are' and it cuts off there. I feel like my computer is torturing me, because I had a dog once, but I had to put her down. I loved her with all for my heart. and now the computer is killing me for it. I hate that I had no choice but to put her down or watch her suffer, but I still think I made the right choice. I know that what I allow people to see is fake because I smiled when I told people I had to put my dog down THE DAY AFTER CHRISTMAS. I'm really not looking forward to next Christmas, because we would always put stuffed animals in the tree for Moxie to take out, and we put bells on the lowest level of the branches so that we would know when Moxie was getting into the candy canes. I still miss her, and it hasn't even been a full year since she died. I love her to pieces, even when she's gone. Why are you still reading this? I told you it would get depressing very quickly.]]> 2018-05-29 01:20:53 UTC https://padlet.com/Alex_Poet/Random_and_Insanity/wish/264127757 Alex_Poet https://padlet.com/Alex_Poet/Random_and_Insanity/wish/264128690 My life is just so fucked up. My father tried to burn down a shed in front of me, and the we left. Shortly after, my mother married a fucking junky and he would abuse me. I can't bring myself to trust any man or boy fully without thinking about how it might end up like one of them. I'm just so fucked up I barely even trust myself. I need some help, but everyone who is there just to help I push away. I used to feel as if I would be able to trust people, but then I realized what was going on and was only able to trust my brother with everything. Then we moved, and now I don't talk to anyone anymore.]]> 2018-05-29 01:29:51 UTC https://padlet.com/Alex_Poet/Random_and_Insanity/wish/264128690 Alex_Poet https://padlet.com/Alex_Poet/Random_and_Insanity/wish/264380181 I am such a FUCKING idiot! I broke the tablet I was using for Wattpad and things like that. I just- UGH! I hate myself! I mean, if broke a tablet on accident, what else might I accidentally break? A bone? My heart? My sanity? A loved one? Or maybe I won't just break, go beyond that. Kill myself or a loved one. I know these are getting boring, but I break at even the slightest of comment or action. Like this, because it wasn't even my tablet I broke! I'm a fucking loser, and I deserve nothing, not even all the love and help I've been getting. I have a friend who tries to help, but she barely does anything when I know I can't reach her. I'm a worthless piece of crap, and I would rather die than make any more people suffer from my actions.]]> 2018-05-29 22:07:02 UTC https://padlet.com/Alex_Poet/Random_and_Insanity/wish/264380181 Alex_Poet https://padlet.com/Alex_Poet/Random_and_Insanity/wish/264381218 I want something sweet,
Sweeter than you.
I want something sour,
Less than you.

I want something hard,
Unlike your persona.
I want something cold,
Much like your heart.

I want something better,
better than you could give.
I want something loving,
I want someone better.]]> 2018-05-29 22:16:49 UTC https://padlet.com/Alex_Poet/Random_and_Insanity/wish/264381218 Alex_Poet https://padlet.com/Alex_Poet/Random_and_Insanity/wish/264918103 Once upon a time
i believe it was a Tuesday
when i caught your eye
we caught onto somethin'
i held on to the night
you looked me in the eye
and told me you loved me

were you just kidding
cuz' it seems to me
this thing is breaking down
we almost never speak
i don't feel welcome anymore
baby what happened
please tell me
cuz' one second it was perfect
now you're half-way out the door

and i stare at the phone
you still haven't called
and you feel so
love you
can't feel nothin' at all
and you flashback to when
we said forever and always
oh, oh

and rains when you're better
though everything is wrong
it rains when you're here
and it rains when you're gone
cuz' i was there when
you said forever and always

was i out of line
did i say something way too honest
make you run and hide
like a scared little boy
i looked into your eyes
i knew you for a minute
but i'm not so sure
so here's to everything
coming down to nothing
here's to silence
that cuts you to the core
where is this going
i knew for a minute
but i don't anymore

and i sit at the phone
you still haven't called
and it feels so
love you
can't feel nothin' at all
and i flashback to when
we said forever and always
oh, oh

and it rains when you're better
though everything is wrong
it rains when you're here
and it rains when you're gone
cuz' I was there when
you said forever and always

but did you mean it baby
I don't think so
oh, oh

(x2)
oh back up
baby back up
did you forget everything

cuz' it rains when you're better
though everything is wrong
it rains when you're here
and it rains when you're gone
cuz' I was there when
you said forever and always

oh, i stare at the phone
you still haven't called
and you feel so
love you
can't feel nothin' at all
and you flashback to when
we said forever and always

and it rains when you're better though everything is wrong
it rains when you're here
and it rains when you're gone
cuz' I was there when
you said forever and always

but did you mean it baby
you said forever and always
yeah

(I don't own this song, but i've had it stuck in my head for a VERY long time. as in, over four years long. I kinda memorized every lyric in the song, so I didn't use something to get the lyrics. I start to sing this song to myself when i'm scared or upset. please don't judge!)]]> 2018-06-01 00:57:39 UTC https://padlet.com/Alex_Poet/Random_and_Insanity/wish/264918103 Alex_Poet https://padlet.com/Alex_Poet/Random_and_Insanity/wish/264921494 Dear Evan Hansen,
We've been way too out of touch.
things have been crazy,
and it sucks that we don't talk that much
but I should tell you that I think of you each night
I rub my nipples and start moaning with delight

why would you write that

i'm just tryin' to tell the truth

these emails have to be perfect, they have to prove we were actually friends, just...
i'll do it


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