my my my. you know, let me just say something before starting to write something very deep and heartfelt. let me just tell you, you are just flawless, baby. honestly, when my eyes first saw you i was in such awe with your outer beauty, but as time went on i started to be in such awe about your inner beauty that never fails to amaze me to this very second. isn't it crazy how we knew each other way before ever thinking we would end up with together? never did i think i would end up with someone i asked to join a roleplay to complete snsd. never would i have thought that i would fall so deep in love for a woman who chose others before me. never did i once think that i would be this happy with someone who only wanted the same thing i ever wanted. i never could've imagined this. could you, babe? 

i never could've imagined because i never knew i could be this happy. baby, let me remind you again; you are my number one. to have someone so supportive, caring, funny, sweet, cute, and just amazing in my life makes me realize how lucky i am to have someone afraid to lose. yes, i did reuse that sentence because it is the only truth. if i lost you, i would be losing someone who i gave all of my love to. you give me a reason to wake up and smile about being alive another day. you give me a motive to better myself, a motive to see my self worth just how you see it, and the motive to become a better husband to you and a father to our baby girl, penelope.

i know you love caramel macchiatos, spyro, lemonade, white cheddar popcorn, sweet corn, seventeen, blueberry cheesecake, black pugs, teacup pigs, stephen curry and his family, kisses, hugs, romantic dates, rough/kinky sex, and a lot more, but overall i know you love me and our baby. i know you try your best to be the best wife and mommy you can be. i truly see how tired you can get, baby, but please remember i am always here to help you however i can. i will be there to put you to bed when you are too exhausted to even walk to the bed after putting leppy to sleep, you know i will always help when i can. i want to be your shoulder to cry on. i want to be someone you can trust and confine in when things get tough, because you are that person for me. you are just my all.

we have been through quite a lot together already in our relationship, don't you think? but honestly, the way we handle and get through it is health. we have communication. we have trust. we have pure love. there is not a moment where i don't trust you because i know you would never want to hurt me and i would never want to hurt you either, babe. to many many more months of being together. let me steal one of your quotes for one second, sweet pea. "you are my own definition of forever, meixin."

love,

your baby, husband, baby bear, king, sweet pea, darling, babe, baby daddy, daddy, and most importantly your forever, shim changmin. ♡

i love you, shim meixin. to many more months.