I'm awaiting trial in Nuremberg. It is cold and dark in this holding cell. I have just enough light to see what I'm writing. I have no remorse to what I have done to those undeserving Jews. Although I know the consequences are going to be terrible. I'm writing this the day before I'm going to take my own life. 

  I have just been fed what seems like cleanup from a pig sty. I despise this place, but it will all be gone in a single day. I still feel no remorse for my actions. I have nothing to do in this cell but write. I'm considering taking my life earlier. 

 

  I'm going to be released tomorrow. I'm overwhelmed with but also wonder. What could this strange war-free world be like. I will finally be able to go to my family. I will finally be able to see a film. Or go to the store. 

  Before, I was always across the world. I was always stressed. But now I can go home and enjoy life. Instead of having to always stress abut planning moves and struggling financial moves in the army. 

  I'm 1 year into my 12-year sentence. This has been dreadful.  I am already regretting the past 10 years of my life. I have been placed on the same hall of murderers and famous thief's. 
I am pondering how I could be put in the same category as some of these people. 

I have started to realize that I am going to be here for 11 more years. The fact that i also must accept is that there is nothing I can do about it. I am questioning my entire life choices. I'm also pondering why and how did I even get into this. 

 

 

  I am a day from escaping this stone box with metal bars. To think that I will finally be out of dreadful place is unfathomable. I think that the guards are on to me. That just may be a suspicion. I am becoming paranoid, at least I think. 

I am only a few hours from escaping this box. My gut is filled with excitement but also fear. I feel as if my legs are paralyzed and I cannot move. I can't even force myself out of this bed. The fear has overwhelmed me.