you're great at channeling affection, hal-hal yang aku rasain itu feel pacarnya berasa, karena kamu naturally posesif agaknya, jadi merasa di claim banget, sukaaaa. kamu selalu perhatiin juga, sama selalu hati-hati sama ucapan dan tindakan, kayak beneran di jagain banget kayak barang pecah belah wkwkwkw (but obviously i'm not, okay?) enggak banyak orang yang bisa kayak gitu, tapi kamu bisa. keren banget deh ini, asli enggak pake gimmick gimmick aku juga suka banget caramu nge-treat aku. babying kamu tuh harus dinobatkan nomor 1 alias juara banget! terus ketambahan omongannya tuh kayaknya dibumbui gula dulu ah sweet banget tolonggggg. walaupun kamu tuh kerja ya, tapi beneran kayak bikin ngerasa kita tetep deket walaupun kita gak tiap saat komunikasi. makanya aku nggak nemu hal yang perlu dikritik sih, you're perfect already! ditambah, mas enggak lupa sama bagian terpenting, yaitu komunikasi. sederhananya ya kayak selalu ngomong kalau misal ada kerjaan, atau suka cerita di kerjaan ada apa aja... it's far than enough for me. sama kamu juga terasa santai banget. kamu bisa banget menyesuaikan sama aku yang kadang loyo dan nggak terlalu suka ribet, eh tapi kemaren anehnya aku enggak loyo lho walaupun ngetik panjang gitu 🤭 it means i'm comfortable with you, pokoknya mas harus bangga sama diri sendiri karena berhasil bikin aku gak loyo sama sekali! 😡👊

aku nggak tahu harus bilang apa lagi, karena honestly kamu itu worth bangett!!!! makasih banyak ya, mas, udah nemenin aku kemarin. aku berharap kita bisa ketemu lagi lain kali, kalau ada kesempatan. kalau kamu mau, tentunya :3 kalau soal rating, aku bingung banget mau kasih berapa, bintang 5 aja gak cukup, terus aku harus kasih berapa??! 1000??? plis aku bingung harus dikasih rate berapa. oh iya, maaf kalau selama ini aku ada salah kata atau tingkah laku. semangat kerjanya yaaa mas? semangat juga buat semuanya, semua hal yang mas lakuin akhir akhir ini dan kedepannya, jangan lupa makan yang banyak, minum yang cukup, dan jangan sampai loyo loyo apalagi sakit. sampai ketemu lagi kalau Tuhan menghendaki ❤️❤️❤️❤️

okaaay, before that i'd say buunchhh of thankssss to you for accompanying mee froom 2 days ago until now. I really enjoy spending my precious time with someone as amazing as you, Kian. you treat me soooo well and i feel sooo loved by youuuu 💗🫂 I love the way you called me "cantikku, manisku, Kayshilaku, sayang". I loveeeee the way you pamper me in all the ways that make me really feel sooo comfortable when I'm with youuu. I LOVEEEE THE WAY YOUUU APPRECIATED MEEEE AND ALSOOO I LOVE THE WAY YOU MAKE MEE FEEL THAT I AM WORTH SOMETHING 🥺🤍 apayaaaa kamu tuu udah cukup sesuai sama kriteria yang akuu tulis diformat, malah diatas ekspektasia aku. you always can make my heart flutter.... APALAGI TYPING KAMU RAPIH SEKAAALIII. Kian juga selaluuu nanggepin cerita akuu dengan baik, aku beneran berasaa didengerinnn. Kian juga kaloo mau off lama ngabarin akuu, bahkan pas Kian lagi sibukpun Kian masih berusaha ngebalesin chat aku. Kian bener-bener menghargai aku selama kita ngejalanin sesi. for service, of course I'll give you 100/100!!!!! ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐ untuk Kian karena afeksi yang Kian kasih beneran sampaiii ke akuuuu

untuk PDA nya juga kenceeengg bangeettt, aku dipamerin dimana-mana. Kian jugaa suka pamerin little gift yang aku kasih ke diaa, entah ituu ke story ataau base. jadi aku merasa lebih dihargain dan makin senengg kasih Kian video gemes ditambah lagi Kian juga ngasih akuu sweet words, icons kissed by, dan video-video gemessss, I really love that. you can always make my heart feel so melted and my lips always smile every time I read all your messages or receive something from you. thank you so much for all the good things you give me Kian... I really appreciate you. I will always remember and keep all your gifts well

gaada kritik maupun saran dari aku, soalnyaa Kian udah ngelakuin yang terbaik, ngebuat aku bener-bener happy selamaa sesi dan afeksinya sampai ke akuuuu, good job, Kian!

kakak, you are the best thing that’s ever happened to me. i love you so, so much, and i can’t wait for the millions of days ahead with you and honestly? i have zero complaints about you, kakak. like, literally none. kamu udah lebih dari cukup, bahkan lebih dari yang aku pernah bayangkan. everything i wanted in a lover? you checked every single box, effortlessly. i don’t know how you do it, but you just get me. you understand me, you make me feel loved in ways i never even knew i needed. you’ve set the bar so high, no one could ever come close.

but maybe… this is where we have to part ways, ya, kak? even though, deep down, in the very deepest part of my heart, aku selalu ingin ketemu kakak lagi. always. because for me, you’re not just someone who passed by in my life. kamu bukan sekadar nama yang akan pudar seiring waktu. you’re someone i’d want to meet again, over and over, in every possible lifetime. aku gak tau kapan, di mana, or in what way, but let’s meet again in another chance, ya, kak? please wait for me. no matter how long it takes, no matter what happens in between, just know that somewhere in this world, ada aku yang masih mengingatmu, masih menyimpan semua rasa ini dengan baik. aku gak akan pernah lupa, not a single thing. semua kenangan, semua tawa, semua hal kecil yang kita bagi, semuanya akan tetap ada di sini..

thank you for everything, for every little and big thing you’ve given me. for all the love, the warmth, the happiness, and even for the silent moments that felt so comforting just because you were there. aku sangat-sangat menghargai itu, lebih dari yang bisa aku ungkapkan dengan kata-kata. i love you, kakak. always. and maybe, just maybe, in another time, in another place, we’ll find our way back to each other 🤍🌷

but no matter what, i just wanna say... i’m really, really happy selama pacaran sama kakak. that’s why when today finally came, I'M SO DOWN BAD SAD. but at the same time, my feelings haven’t changed at all since day one. kakak selalu berhasil bikin aku happy, giggling, blushing.. just feeling loved every single day. even though we couldn’t flex our COTY moments in st because of that dumb drop policy for non-prem users, tapi gapapa, IDGAF, karena kakak tetep pamerin aku di base-base rental, and every time aku lihat mengfess kakak tentang aku lewat, aku langsung WOW. DAMN. BLUSHING. SMILING LIKE AN IDIOT 🫠🫠

and what i love the MOST about kakak is how you always listen to my endless rants and actually give me the best responses ever! I REALLY REALLY LOVE IT! 🖤 anddd whenever aku tiba-tiba off terus lupa ngabarin, kakak always looks for me and IT’S THE CUTEST THING EVER AAAAAA! every little thing you do makes me feel so loved, and i appreciate that so much, kakak! 🫂

thank you, kakak. like, really, THANK YOU. for everything. for making me feel like the luckiest, for always being so sweet, for all the little things that honestly mean the most. you’re the best, and i’m just so grateful to have spent this time with you. and even though this might be the end for now, aku beneran berharap kakak selalu dikelilingi orang-orang yang sayang dan appreciate kakak, just like how you always made me feel. semoga kakak selalu happy, selalu sehat, and always get the love you deserve. and who knows? maybe one day, we’ll cross paths again. but until then, just know that you’re always gonna be one of the best things that’s ever happened to me. i love youuuu! thank you for being my safe place 🖤

aku seneng jugaa mas gak kayak love bombing gitu jadi mas tuh bener bener stabil dalam mencintai akuu, mas nunjukkin kalau katanya cowok cintanya tuh 100-0 tapi mas tuh enggak, mas nunjukkin kalau cinta mas buat aku 100 dan akan tetap 100. cintanya mas bener bener stabil dan gak bikin aku drained karena love bombing, aku seneeng bangeett!! mas juga keren bangeet masih punya banyak energi untuk respon yapping aku walau mas capek kerjaa, i really apreciate it!! kayaknya menurut mas pekerjaan irl tuh bukan halangan dan alasan untuk mas gak mencintai sepenuh hati...

mas juga tipe cowok yang maniisss bangeet, i always giggled everytime we had conversation... mas juga suka banget praising pacarnya dan mas seems like a man who really enjoyed around children jadinya aku gak ragu buat keluarin inner child aku setiap sama maas, i really felt you're not just be my lover but at the same time gave me a father figure and make me believe there's still a good man in the world and you're the good man i can trust...

overall aku gak ada kritikan dan saran sihh soalnya mas udah sesuai sama formatnyaa and that's a good point!!! you deserve all the stars in the universe for your servicee, have a nice day maas don't forget your breakfast and take some break if you feel exhausting, okaay?? ❤️🔥💞

Thank you so much for making my day filled with color, as I've said in my writings ; you are a new variable of life I never expected to come, you make my day feel less miserable with you in it. I usually just go straight to bed after a day of work, but you make me want to always on my phone and talk about so many things. You listen to my rambles and respond to them perfectly. I love every second we spend together and never for once regret it. Thank you so much for an absolute perfect (infinity if I need to rate) experience, it's such a pleasure to talk with someone as amazing as you, may we have the chance to talk again (i will make sure it's on the weekend 😂) see you when I see you, Svarhen. Apologize for any of my wrong doings if there's any, and thank you, thank you for your hard work to make me feel loved in such a unique way. ❤️ Have a wonderful days ahead, love!

gak kerasa udah selesai aja sesinya sama maas.... SEDIH DIKIT..... selama sesi sama mas, it feels forever... it feels like i finally found the right person for mee!! seneeng banget re-rent mas dan gak ngerasa 'bosen' selama sesi, you're still the same person kayak yang aku rent pas pertama. kamu gak jadi seenaknya karena aku re-rent dan itu nilai plus banget!! A++ buat mas :3

i feel sooo loved pas samaa mas, mas juga pacar yaang protektif dan perhatian bangeett, aku berasa diasuh sama maas hehehe... walaupun mas ada kesibukan kayak kerja gituu, mas tetep luangin waktu buat chat akuu jadi low maintenance rls yang gak low bangeett sampe gak chatan sama sekaliii, suka suka sukaaa :>

aku jugaa seneeng deeptalk sama maas, aku lari ke pelukan orang yang tepat buat deeptalk sedikit!! mas juga bener bener menghargai pemberian akuu... aku seneeng bisa bikinin icons couple sama storyboard couplee sama maas!!

jangan lupa jaga kesehatan yaa mas?? kalau berangkat kerja harus bawa jakett!! kalau kerjanya bagian siang kan pulangnya malem, jadi tetep harus bawa jaketnyaa!! minum obat terus sampe 100% sembuh yaa maas??? jangan sampe sakit lagii.. makasih mas udah mau nemenin akuu sebelum aku lba hehee, seneeng kesan terakhir aku main telegram tuh pacaran sama maaas, see you when i see you yaa mas!! thank youu sooo much <33

first of all, adek mau bilang terimakasih yang teramat banyak buat mas ahen karena udah mau nemenin adek 3 harian ini. adek gak merasa menyesalin sama sekali karena udah melabuhkan hati adek ke kamu mas. kamu bener bener sesuai sama apa yang adek pengen, you treat me so well. perkataan kamu yang bilang kamu jago ngebabying and pampering memang nyata adanya, dan bukan sebatas pengakuan belaka. makasih banyak ya untuk hadiah hadiah manis yang kamu kasih ke adek, makasih juga karena udah sering mamerin adek. adek beneran ngerasa disayang sama kamu, aduh adek jadi sedih. oh iya, kamu juga selalu punya banyak hal gak bisa adek tebak yang bikin adek makin jatuh cinta sama kamu. kamu selalu berhasil ngebuat adek senyum senyum gak jelas karena salting, dan siapa sangka kalo kamu juga ternyata lucu banget orang nya. walaupun kamu emang bukan tipe orang yang suka ngelawak, tapi entah kenapa tingkah kamu tuh lucu aja gitu dan bisa bikin aku ketawa. anw adek juga suka banget pas entah ini kamu sadar atau engga, tapi terkadang mas juga ngeluarin sifat manjanya mas. itu bener bener gemes banget, dan adek juga suka ketika mas juga nyeritain balik tentang harinya mas atau kehidupan mas. karena dari situlah adek ngerasa beneran deket sama mas, dan berasa kalo kita ini gak asing. next, adek juga mau minta maaf ya kalo selama sesi ada perlakuan ataupun ketikan adek yang kurang mengenakkan buat mas. apalagi adek juga suka kirim banyak bubble chat ke mas, pasti buat jawabnya nguras tenaga mas banget ya? tapi kerennya mas tuh selalu excited pas bales bubble chat adek.

okayy lanjut ke rate. rate yang bakalan adek kasih ke mas udah pasti ∞/10 tanpa kritik ataupun saran karena service kamu emang udah sebagus itu dan pas banget buat adek. dan kamu layak banget buat di rent seumur hidup hehe. oh iya ada pesan nih dari adek, kamu udah sering banget kan pasti ngebahagiain orang lain? tapi jangan lupa buat bahagia juga ya mas, selalu jaga kesehatan dan tenaganya jangan terlalu di forsir karena kamu juga masih manusia. nah ini adek juga punya hadiah kecil buat mas, mungkin gak sebanding sama hadiah yang mas kasih ke adek. tapi adek harap mas tetep suka ya

kita udah lama ngga interaksi, and honestly, i thought it'd be awkward. i was lowkey nervous, like, what if things don't feel the same anymore? what if the comfort's gone? but turns out, talking to you still feels so easy. everything came back so naturally.. the warmth, the way we click, the way i could still laugh at the little things you say. it's like the space we used to have was still there, waiting for us to step back in. and that... that felt really comforting.

i didn't realize how much i missed this feeling, being around someone who listens the way you do, who makes the ordinary stuff feel a little more special. kakak masih jadi tempat cerita yang aman, tempat di mana aku bisa be my full self without overthinking. your attention, your responses even your silence when i needed it... i t all reminded me why i've always felt safe with you. no pressure, no drama, just a kind of connection that feels genuine and calm

makasih ya, kak. for being that person again, even just for a little while. semoga kamu selalu diliputi hal-hal baik, dikelilingi orang-orang yang bisa sayangin kamu dengan tulus, and may you never forget how much light you bring into someone's life, including mine. please rest well, eat well and be kind to yourself like you've always been kind to me

Now personally as a customer, I ust wanna say a huge thank you to you, Ahen. You've treated me so well kavak airlfriend pada waktunya dan profesional di saat yang tepat juga when it matters. That balance is something rare, and I really appreciate it. Thank you for sharing bits of vour dailv life with me. I genuinely enjoy every moment we've spent together, especially when we talk about our likes, dislikes, & all those little things yang somehow buat dua hariku terasa lebih hangat. Indeed kayak udah 7 tahunn. You're fun to talk to. That's why aku bikinin kamu ini, hanya sebuah obat biar kamu gak sakit-sakitan soalnya aku kasian denger kamu capek gitu dan sekantong cookies enak as sweet as you nyam nyam. Aku harap mimpimu baik and not the kind that wake you up tired. l'm really glad I got the chance to know you, even just for this short time. Thanks juga udah memuaskan hasrat bluebunn aku (soolia) I'd give you 5 stars if 1 could, but there are a million stars in this galaxy, I'd rather give you all of them. You deserve nothing less.

Kakak tuh beneran kaya PACAR AKU, sering aku kasih kabar, aku yapping ke kakak, dan lain sebagainya. Dan kakak benar-benar mendengarkan aku, menyimak dan merespon apapun yang aku sampaikan ke kakak. Aku suka setiap kakak kabarin aku kalau mau apa-apa, jadi aku ga khawatirrr. Jujuuuur, SBZHSBZHS banget kalau dikabarin kakak tuh, apalagi pas waktu ngantuk kemarin, LUCU??? Sempet-sempetnya pap ke aku dulu, gemassss. Kakak juga suka nyariin aku kalau aku ngilang sementara, maaf ya kakak... Soalnya kadang notifnya suka gak muncul...? Terus aku suka ke distract sama temen-temen aku tuh, sebel! Padahal kan mau pacayan sama kakak ;) Kakak juga tipikal orang yang beneran bisa jadi tameng buat pacarnya, kalau kita ikut kesel DIA LEBIH KESEL MASA? Terus aku suka pas kakak udah kasih compliment ke aku, apalagi tiap aku kasih pap, nanti kita buat Beautiful In White itu sampai 100 juta ya, kakak? HEHEHEHE.

Apalagi ya... Oh iya, waktu main Roblox kemarin, BENERAN AKU KETAWA TERUS TAU? Abisnya kakak lucu, apalagi waktu main Violence District, hehe maaf ya kalau aku jadi killer obsessed, YA GIMANA YA orang ketemu terus? Mana gerak-gerik tim kakak ketebaaak, jadi aku gancang terus 😭 Selera kita banyak yang sama ternyata kak. Mulai dari Risol, bahas Kebab, terus ternyata... sama-sama... suka... nonton... Afif Yulistian... Dan aku jarang nemuin yang nonton Afif. Aku tunggu pokoknya buat nobar bapip sama kakak 🤛🏻

Mungkin sudah cukup? Intinya terimakasih sekali lagiii buat kakakkk, hari-hari kemarin beneran bikin aku seneng dan enjoy banget, dan tentunya berhargaaa buat aku. Kakak, semangat kerjanya yaaa. Tetap jaga kesehatan di tengah gempuran kerjaan dan cuaca yang tidak menentu ini. Makan nasinya jangan sampai ke skip kalau habis buka!!! Terus juga minum air putihhh jangan sampai terlewat, okaay? Kalau capek, usahakan buat istirahat sebentar, jangan terlalu paksa diri kakakk. Kakak sudah melakukan yang terbaik sejauh ini, bahkan sampai detik ini, kakak udah keren banget. Tetap menjadi diri kakak yang seperti ini, ya? Dan semoga hal-hal baik selalu mengelilingi kakak. 🤍

JUJUUUUURR, suka banget dengan segala nasehat dan makian lu. Pls yang baca review-an ini jangan salah paham, soalnya emang aku yang minta dimaki permasalahan love story ku yang masih seumur biji jagung. Lu ngatainnya berdasar soalnya, bukan ngatain yang ngatain aja. After dikata-katain, gue ttp dikasih saran mantep. Sampai gue ga berani buka chatnya lama, soalnya masih denial HAHAHA. Beneran segacor itu jadi temen.

Terus yaaa, buat saran dan kritik mungkin dari aku pribadi nggak ada Sham. Beneran nggak ada yang perlu diperbaiki, karena gue udah klop aja jadi temen lu gitu. Nggak ada awkward awkward, bahkan gue dibantu buat cerita juga HAHA. Makasih yaa sham. Gue minta maaf kalau selama sesi bikin lu kesel atau bikin lu nunggu gitu. Sumpah maaf banget. Semoga di lain waktu kita ketemu lagi yaaa 🤯

hiii kaaaaak astagaaaa thanks yooou for these daaay yaaa ^_____^ it’s means a looot soomuch sumpaaah. you’re purely kind and funnnnyyyyy 😙♥️ andd you don’t havee to bee sorry okay! alsoo please takeee care of yourself yaaaa nduut </3 to be honest, aku bener beneer happy tau ketemu samaa kamu. no gimmick koook ini, beneran you’ve show me and treat me like my dream boyfrieeend. aku akui kamu #MantepBanget! 🥇 iniii juga first time aku dapet banyak hadiaaaaaah bener bener yang banyakbanyakbanyak bangeeet astaga… huhuhuhu i love you a lot i sweeaaarr, aku jadi ga enak cumaaa ngasi itu :< (MANIPSNYA & CHIBINYAAA LUCU BGT IM DOWN ONNNN MY KNEES HELLOOO) akuu juga minta maaff kalau aku bikin kamu kangen terus karena akunyaaa ngalor ngidul, jujuuur aku masih mau ngobrol banyaak sama kamu tapi i think waktunyaaa belum pas sooo i can’t wait too see you next timeee kaak astr ishaaam! nanti kita ratain dunia lagi yaaaaaa. once agaain.. thank you for eveeerything okaay? and please takee care of yourself yaaapyap

t_____t ain’t nooo way ini TOO CUTE TOO HANDLEEEEEEE, astagfirullah ini apaaa lucu banget… berkah apa nyang aku lakukan sampe dapet SEIMUT INI….. AARRGGGHHGGGG nangis nih aku sumpah lucu bgt i loveee both makaasi yaaa kaaak <3 huhuhuh aku kaya beneran pengen nangis, ini imuuut bgt AAAAKU GAKUAAAAATTTTT MAMAAAAHHHHH.. ini durasinya 24jam yaa? takbir lucu bgt aku sukaaa banget superduper sukaaa bangeet. makaaaasih yaaa, and i think makasih ajaa tuh not enough buat describe how greatful i am ♥️♥️♥️♥️ huhu makaaasih banyak kakaaaaaak

anddd so far i didn’t have any critics or suggestions for yooou since you’re puree, kind and unpredictable (simply read: perfect!) ♥️ soo you don’t have to beee sorry okayokay? you’re (VEEERYYYY) more than i expected sumpaah. my sweet-ragebaiter babyyy <3 times feels flies sooo fast when i talk too you, i would love to talk moreeee if i could btwww. cause sharing stories with you feels like coming home… 🤞🏻 there’s no judgment, no pretense, just the easy comfort yeaaay! you know howw to make my heart feel like it’s doing somersaults of joy, just itching to burst into a river of happy tears.. 💧💧💧 thank yooou (again) for always act like i’m important in your life yaa, all the words you say to me, all the way you treat meee. i also appreciate you A LOT karenaaa, you’re always replying all of my bubble texts dan kamu bisa cairin suasanaaa kaya yang i expected WKWKWKWK. soooo, see you when i see you yaa?

tapi jujur..... kakak cukup kok, banget malaj.. jangan pernah mikir kakak kurang ya... SERIUS, suwer... ✌🏻✌🏻 aku harap kakak juga jaga diri baik baik ya... jangan terlalu keras sama diri sendiri.. istirahat yang cukup ((((HARUS)).. take care ya... please stay safe.. dan yaaaah... semoga kalo emang ada waktu lagi nanti... kita bisa ketemu lagi dalam keadaan yang lebih baik.. 💛🧡💙

HUHU oke... jadi.. gimana ya ngawalinnya... aku kasih rating 1000/1000 deh perfect banget bintang sepuluh.. sangat GACOR pacaran sama kakak..... ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐

jumjur.. aku enjoy sekali pacaran sama kakak walaupun cuma 3 hari.. (aku ingin lebih TP waktuku tidak memungkinkan #Sendgril).. 💧💧 pas awal tuh ya Kaka beneran sesuai request aku kalo awal ngechat kayak pacaran udah lama aja gitu.. jadi ngga bikin aku canggung.. 😁✌🏻 aku tuh beneran nyaman... kayak ngobrolnya ngalir aja, ga dipaksain gitu.. beneran kayak udah lama pacaran..... terus ya kakak tuh... GIMANA SIH... bisa banget bikin aku senyum senyum sendiri 😭 cara kakak ngomong, perhatian kecilnya, terus afeksi yang kakak kasih tuh kerasa banget bAnGet BANGET... dan ya ampun kakak tuh sweet talker & soft spoken BANGETTT......?¿ aku tiap ngepap dipuji mulu, ya gimana ngga meleleh coba.. 🫠 beneran deh kak, hati aku tuh tiap hari gejedar-gejedur gara-gara kakak... tapi ya, kakak juga bisa kocak sih WAKSAKAKWKWKW.. ada aja hal yanh bikin aku ketawa.. intinya mah dari aku pribadi, 3 hari ini tuh SERU BANGET... aku enjoy banget, ga ada yang bikin aku ngerasa ga enak sama sekali... malah pengennya lanjut terus #JUMJUR #amselij no fek fek 😭

makasih ya kak... udah jadi salah satu hal paling menyenangkan di beberapa hari aku ini... makasih juga udah ngerespon celetukan aneh atau kata-kata ngga nuambung dari aku #bawaanlahir #izin.. apalagi sama typingku yang FREAK & alay ini.. sekali lagi #ProudToBeWeird #Freedom.. sehat-sehat ya kakak.. don't push yourself too hard.. HARUS ISTIRAHAT JANGAN KECAPEAN KERJA.... nanti tak datengin bos mu lho, nyuruh anak orang kerja mulu.. :/// i love youu, kakak, this is not our last ((((aku percaya)))).. see you next time.. 💛🧡💙

being with you makes me so, so happy, kakak (Brown with heart) like, genuinely happy in a warm way. i don’t think you realize how much you’ve become part of my everyday life. the way i look forward to talking to you, the way my mood instantly gets better when i see your name pop up, the way everything just feels a little softer when it’s you

thank you for being patient with me, especially on days when i overthink, when i get quiet, or when i don’t even know how to explain what i’m feeling. thank you for not giving up on me, for choosing to stay, and for trying to understand me instead of walking away. that means more to me than you’ll ever know

and also, thank you for loving me the way you do. for making me feel seen, for making me feel enough, even when i don’t feel like i am. you make me feel safe, like i can just be myself without having to pretend or hide anything. that kind of comfort is rare, and i’m really, really grateful i found it in you

aku seneng banget kalau itu kamu. kayak, dari semua hal dan semua orang, entah gimana akhirnya tetep kamu, dan itu bener-bener bikin aku senyum lebih dari yang bisa kakak bayangin. you’re not just “the best boyfriend” to me, you’re someone i genuinely cherish, someone i care about deeply, someone i want to keep choosing too

i love you, more than i usually say, and more than i probably know how to explain. i just hope you can feel it, even from something as simple as this

i want to say thank you too, for all the little things you did, for every moment, every conversation, every time you were there for me. i never took any of it lightly. you made me feel seen, heard, and cared for in a way that felt really genuine. i’m really happy i got to have you in my life, even if it was only for a while. it still means a lot to me. i’m sorry too, if there were times i was too much, or if i ever made things harder for you. but i want you to know, everything i felt was real. when i said i cared about you, i meant it. when i was happy with you, it was real. and i don’t regret us, not even a little #KakIshamTillIDie.

thank you for being my safe place, even if it was only for a moment. thank you for loving me in your own way. thank you for making me feel like i was enough. beneran aku berterimaaa kasih sekali, yaaa. apalagi kamu beneran dengerin ocehannya semua kayak 😭 WKWKWK. panjang banget sumpah, tapi aku ucapin banyak terima kasih. berjuta-juta terima kasih aku ucapkan ke kakak

thank you. duh maaf kak beneran mau bilang makasih banyak karena aku beneran berterima kasih yang sangat amaaaaat dalam. really, thank you so much. i feel like every time i try to put it into words, nothing ever feels enough to match how much i appreciate you. but the most honest thing that keeps coming out of me is just “thank you.”

i just want to say thank you for these 20 days :3 lama ya. ngga expect. you showed a kind of maturity and calmness that honestly surprised me in the best way. i can be loud, extra, dramatic, and send a whole playlist of voice notes, yet you never made me feel like it was too much. you listened, you stayed present, and you made it feel effortless.

you carry yourself in such a respectful, thoughtful way. the way you talk, the way you respond, the way you make someone feel seen, everything feels intentional and warm. there wasn’t a single moment where i felt belittled or brushed off. instead, i kept finding myself thinking, “wow… people like this really exist.” #jujur #TolongPercaya

yang paling aku notice tuh, kakak selalu bikin aku ngerasa dihargai apa adanya. makasih ya? aku gak harus nahan diri atau mikir dua kali sebelum ngomong. kakak tuh enak banget diajak ngobrol, dewasa, dan cara kakak ngejaga kita nya tuh wow. eh maaf wow wow terus tapi beneran WOOOOW. beneran nyaman banget dan aku seneng banget selama ini sama kakak, beberan senang

and honestly, that line “i bet your mama would be proud of you” fits you so perfectly. you’re genuinely a good person, and it shows in everything you do, kak

i don’t have anything big to give back, just my genuine gratitude. i just want you to know that all the little things you did, i felt them. they made my days lighter, and that means more to me than you probably realize. so, thank you. sincerely. gently. and from the deepest part of my heart :D

— L.

sumpah, ketemu sama lo itu bener bener bikin apa yhh,,, spark yang gue inginkan tuh ada gitu loh sama lo. dan lo bisa banget menggonjang ganjingkan hati gue. kakak kakak yang beda 2 tahun ini sama lo 🙄 ketemu 2 hari sama lo rasanya kaya udah kenal lo banget. dan lo juga rasanya kaya udah kenal gue banget. lo bukan AI kan? wkwkwk bercanda. ini love story yang bener bener gue inginkan. dan gue berterimakasih banyak karena setelah sama lo gue bisa mewujudkan ini. lo bener bener ngebuka pikiran gue yang selalu mikir bahwa older gf is not suit to younger bf. gue juga banyak terharunya dengan kata kata lo yang selalu bilang i deserved love blablabla. since i have lil bitt 🤏🏻 trust issues about ‘love’. and i didn’t believe that i deserve to get that ‘love’. isam sehat selalu yaa. semoga bisa libur di tanggal merah WKWKWKWK. dan semoga kita bisa ketemu lagi (kalo lo ga bosen) wkwkwk.

with love,

N

you’ve always felt like the older man to me. yes, indeed, you are, but there’s something about you that makes me feel like I can always count on you. somehow, I become this spoiled little baby princess around you, while you’re this mature kind of man with the softest heart =] maybe that’s why I can’t bring myself to call you by your name properly. even if I did, there’d still be a “kak” attached somewhere. thank you for letting me see that you’re human too. that you can get tired, be weird, rant, and simply be yourself. I almost thought you were some kind of angel in a man’s form lol. somehow, knowing you’re just human makes your softness feel even more special.

and to anyone thinking about having a session with him, let me say this loud and clear: yesss, absolutely. he’s the right choice. even coming from a man-hater, that says a lot. he’s the kind of person who can make you reconsider your entire perspective on men, not because he tries to prove anything, but simply because he shows you what it feels like to meet someone who treats you right. you’ll eventually understand the difference once you meet the right person. and yes, he is! I think that’s enough from me before my eyes completely give up. thank you so much for still being here, kakak sayang. thank you for being you, and for all the little things you probably don’t realize mean so much. please take care of yourself, ya.

kakak, i also want to thank you for loving me in a tender and loud way—just the way i wanted to ^~^ to be honest, i already have my eyes on you ever since i saw you on my menfess's comment section in rentalgram, i am captivated by you from the first sight! #honestconfession *ups* *hehe* :P to be precisely, i am captivated by you because of your warm and gentle personalities that i can feel even sole through your writing, even from afar. and thereafter, turned out you indeed have those personalities. you are such a calm and soft person; it feels like you are a gentle breeze on a hot summer day :D these two days, you always shower me with abundance of affection and attention, you always whisper me your sweet phrases, you always appreciate every single thing that i've done, you always show me off to the world. most people said "to be loved is to be seen", and i somehow can feel that when i'm with you, i feel seen by you, i feel genuinely loved by you, thank you yaa kakak? you perhaps may be be bored to see how many thank-yous that exists within this paragraphs, but i really mean it! you brought immense glee and glow into my dimmed days, and i feel thankful and blissful of it! ⭐️ and amidst all these thank-yous, i also want to sincerely apologize to you for any wrongdoings i ever made or any other things that perhaps makes you feel bothered during these past two days, i am truly sorry yaaa. i hope you won't harbor any regrets for taking the chance to meet me and spending your time with meee heheheheh. ;)

aaand anywaay, don't forget to take care and be kind to yourself too yaaa, kakak? i am pretty sure that throughout all this time, you've been spreading kindness and taking care of every souls you've met, and it's important to give the same compassion and the same love upon yourself too. you've also been putting in your best efforts so far and it is okay to take some rest if you suddenly feel tired and exhausted, don't push yourself too hard okay? may the world be kinder to you, and may a plethora of happiness and lovely things embrace you eternally kakaaak, you really deserve that! please eat well, stay hydrated, and be happy always yaaa. <3

even though we have to reach the end of our chapter right now, i hope we can continue writing our tale in another chapter, in another book, at another time yaa kakak. and when we finally get that chance, i hope that chapter will be a little longer, and the storyline a little more endearing. see you when i see you, kakak ashy-ku! 🧸♥️

even after the seas have drifted us apart momentarily, the second the both of us landed on the same shore, i could feel the warmth that you always had inside of you slowly engulfing my fragile state, turning me into a wondrous constellation of golden elegance, blooming white lilies, and a joy made unbearable because of how it overflows.

the love you give me, darling—i still find it difficult to believe, but you’re so hard-headed. my beautiful stubborn boy. perhaps it’s your relentless love and defending of me that makes me feel safest in your arms. with you, i simply know that there is a place where i belong. right in your arms.

this time around, you made my special day so much more special. i always hesitate talking about my nerdy interests, but with you, it just came so easily. you’re so understanding, sugar sweet, and you never once judge someone immediately. i don’t think i’ve talked so much about my nerdy interests before—and even though you were new to them, you still showed fascination and even complimented me. what a sweet-talker you are! (but, that’s one of my favourite parts about you.)

but more than anything, i love the side of you that’s human, that’s vulnerable. it’s so unbelievably radiant (ironic) and there’s nothing that could make me happier than knowing that you trust me enough to lean on me. my love, i know things are hard, but together—let me carry your burden with you.

every part of you, my love, makes you into the person i admire so much. every. single. part.

and i hope, i always hope, that we’ll meet again. because it’s you. it’s always been you.

— lilbee