https://padlet.com/hallegrace/wm64nx0tvai7 our memories en-us 2017-11-13 16:36:56 UTC 2023-03-20 01:43:12 UTC hello@padlet.com https://padlet-assets.s3.amazonaws.com/icons/Doubleheart.png hallegrace https://padlet.com/hallegrace/wm64nx0tvai7/wish/206338934 weekends with my best friend are always the best. i suppose that's every weekend then. i honestly don't think we choose to spend a day apart other than when we are forced to. most people refer to sean as my boyfriend, which i guess that he is. however, i like to call him my best friend because that's my favorite part about us. we are best friends, inseparable, and click together like peanut butter and jelly. typically, if you are looking for me, i am with sean. i don't mean that metaphorically, but literally. i see him every day, out of school, in school, during the night time. if he isn't working, we are together. i feel safe and secure with him. he is the light at the end of what seems like a never ending tunnel. i would be forever lost without his love and support in my life. he's there for every mood, and he never leaves, even if i tell him to. i love him so freaking much and i would never change a thing about him, ever. he is like an angel that was sent just for me. just for me.]]> 2017-11-13 16:41:15 UTC https://padlet.com/hallegrace/wm64nx0tvai7/wish/206338934 hallegrace https://padlet.com/hallegrace/wm64nx0tvai7/wish/207298909 sean was once again the greatest friend in the entire world, and brought me both chick-fil-a and taco bell because something bad happened to me. something really bad. but he knew what to do, to make me happy. food is the key to my heart and soul. he has the key and i have the lock. thank god for taco bell's naked chicken chips. ]]> 2017-11-15 16:47:28 UTC https://padlet.com/hallegrace/wm64nx0tvai7/wish/207298909 hallegrace https://padlet.com/hallegrace/wm64nx0tvai7/wish/207300479 I GOT A LATE NIGHT HAPPY MEAL FROM SEAN. literally at 11:30 at night. i freaking love this kid. CHICKEN FREAKING NUGGETS!!!! yay me!!!!!]]> 2017-11-15 16:49:45 UTC https://padlet.com/hallegrace/wm64nx0tvai7/wish/207300479 hallegrace https://padlet.com/hallegrace/wm64nx0tvai7/wish/207302516 sean met my sister, Izabelle. for some odd reason, people call her Belle now. NO, she will always be Izzy to me. we went to eat food, and bowled. i can't bowl. they both beat me. like what the heck. but i had so much fun with them. honestly we deserve to get kicked out of the places we go. anyways, sean is the driver, i am the passenger, and izzy is the unfortunate tag along who i'm sure if terrified of how crazy we are. ]]> 2017-11-15 16:52:45 UTC https://padlet.com/hallegrace/wm64nx0tvai7/wish/207302516 hallegrace https://padlet.com/hallegrace/wm64nx0tvai7/wish/208187122 we went volunteering at the SPCA today, like a typical wednesday, unless something comes up. they have two new bunnies named astra and copper. sean always calls him cooper but it's NOT COOPER, IT'S COPPER BUD. i love him though. we cleaned all of their cages/kennels, or whatever you'd like to call them. for some odd reasons, sean didn't want to place his hands on the pee or poop without gloves. slightly understandable, i guess. i have had many guinea pigs throughout my life, so i'm not afraid to get my hands dirty and touch poop and pee. bunny poop is quite similar. it's little tiny balls of poop for christ's sake....how can you freak out over that? afterwards, we went to chick-fil-a, hell yeah. i got a spicy chicken and waffle fries. i couldn't answer what sean got though. who knows. we went to the valley mall too. unfortunately, i wouldn't have stepped foot in the yankee candle store if i knew my pinkie was going to halfway be destroyed by a medium sized candle that was heavier than it looked, i would have never went in. sean asked to smell the fricking candle, and instead of catching it with his hands, he drops IT ON MY FINGER. my pinkie took the entire fall and now it's severely bruised. at least the candle didn't break, lol. because i would've had to call someone to come and pay for it. sean hasn't gotten paid yet. BUT ANYWAYS, the moral of the story is always be prepared for falling candles. ]]> 2017-11-17 16:34:27 UTC https://padlet.com/hallegrace/wm64nx0tvai7/wish/208187122 hallegrace https://padlet.com/hallegrace/wm64nx0tvai7/wish/208193282 for whatever stupid reason, i always worry about sean. i know that he is quite capable of taking care of himself, but i don't ever want anything or anyone to hurt him. so when i found out adam redman threatened to fight sean (gabe's words, NOT MINE), i lost my crap. do not touch him or i will end you. mhmm. i'm psycho.]]> 2017-11-17 16:42:59 UTC https://padlet.com/hallegrace/wm64nx0tvai7/wish/208193282 hallegrace https://padlet.com/hallegrace/wm64nx0tvai7/wish/208244712 sometimes i wish that it was still summer 2017. sean and i didn't really have to worry about anything and that was the best part. i knew it was going to be the greatest summer we've had so far, since this coming summer, he will start preparing for college, and then he leaves. i tried my absolute hardest not to waste any day away this summer, since nearly everyday was spent with sean. everyday is still spent with sean unless something else comes up, which usually we still find time for each other, which i love. i remember in june, when we were friends but we weren't even half as close to each other as we are now. we started going to the pool a lot. i think that other people, like abby and our other friends, were busy. we weren't busy so it was like, "hey, okay, we're going to be best friends now". it wasn't rushed, but it was quite instant. we would drive around together, he does all the driving because i can't yet. i remember singing stupid songs together, usually whatever was considered "today's hits". now i feel as if i'm talking about the super far past, when in reality it was like three freaking  months ago. 

we went to the pool a lot, and tried to get people to go with us. a lot of time it was just us, and tyler since he is a lifeguard there. tyler has also since then, became one of my best guy friends. 

jj's was also common. sean was the one who convinced me to walk up to the window since i got fired from there, lol. it was awkward but at least i did it. 

trips to target and purchasing really stupid things was also one of the many things i lived for, and still do. the giant strawberry floaties are amazing, and one of them i'm pretty sure is popped. it's not exactly big enough for his butt and my boobs to fit in. if i remember correctly, he was dumb enough to spend like one hundred dollars on a karaoke machine. damn i would never do that, even with a stable enough job. you'd have to meet me halfway somehow, because i don't even like doing karaoke unless i'm flat out drunk first.

the nights playing board games outside and trying to do every summer activity we could before the day ended, which seemed to last forever since the sun stayed risen. 

when he stayed the night for the first time and we sort of accidentally walked into a trap of, "holy crap, my mom is naked. she just did it with her new boyfriend while i'm upstairs with my best friend." it's awkward because that's what everyone would expect sean and i to do. total opposite it seems.

his birthday came too. i cried for two days because i felt like i couldn't give him what he wanted because i think that he deserves it all. i ended up scrapping together a cake, that i made myself, and got lots of help from micah (ew) and literally none from brady who was there the entire time but too fat and lazy to provide the assistance i needed. i tried to make a seventeen on the cake with seventeen candles because HE TURNED SEVENTEEN ON THE SEVENTEENTH JESUS CHRIST THAT IS TOO MANY SEVEN'S. yeah the wax got all over the cake. i even made him a giant poster card. i was mad at myself though. i tried to make up for something that wasn't going to be there in the first place. i feel like he hated it.. i tried hard but it's not what i wanted for him and it sucks i still feel that way. i probably won't be able to spend the next birthday with him. what a crap best friend.

the night of the county fair was very fun. i walked around alone for a while to the point that i was in tears because i was scared to be alone. i ended up finding sierra, she was the only friend who wanted to acknowledge my existence. eventually, sean came and found me in the middle of a half-alive anxiety attack. i didn't let him know how i felt, i just wanted to ride all the rides we could. for whatever reason, this kid hadn't rode half of the rides there. like what kind of childhood did you experience? locked away in a tower like rapunzel? clearly it's my job to expose him to all the good that the county fair has to offer. i mean we almost got sick and i was tired of walking, but all in all, it was a great night.

then school started and my entire mood went to shit. rip halle's happiness 2k17. it lasted a couple months.]]> 2017-11-17 18:33:15 UTC https://padlet.com/hallegrace/wm64nx0tvai7/wish/208244712 hallegrace https://padlet.com/hallegrace/wm64nx0tvai7/wish/209170420 BOWLING, POOL, SLAP JACK, you name it, i suck at it. i can't stand the fact that i suck at competitive games. i have the overwhelming desire to win and destroy the hearts of others by winning. like i am a total sore loser. the fact that sean always wins at every freaking game we play, is ridiculous. like why?!?!?!?!?! i lost to sean every time, and sometime to gabe. most of the time, i won my default. i also tended to get a lot of cocky leads that were short lived. woo hoo. anyways, we went to benny's to get pizza but i wasn't hungry. now i am, just thinking about their massive pizza slices. those things are freaking HUGE!!!! like it's five dollars for a slice the size of my head. the boys can eat probably three at a time, but i can only eat one, barely. the funniest thing happened, though. there's a big sidewalk step when you come out of benny's and me being the idiot that i am, didn't pay attention and totally missed the whole step. i laughed for a good ten whole minutes. it was hilarious. as you can imagine or may have heard, my laugh is disgusting. absolutely horrid. i still had fun though. i took sean to the friendly city food co. op. for the first time. he got dried fruit and organic cola. the cola was great the fruit, not so much. i love sunday's because we always do something crazy. they're fun days. once we arrived back at my house, i put a face mask on sean for the first time. he kept complaining that it burned. beauty hurts, sean. you're a weenie. ]]> 2017-11-21 16:35:37 UTC https://padlet.com/hallegrace/wm64nx0tvai7/wish/209170420 hallegrace https://padlet.com/hallegrace/wm64nx0tvai7/wish/209174286 we look so fracking cute.
omgggggg.
i love us.]]> 2017-11-21 16:43:33 UTC https://padlet.com/hallegrace/wm64nx0tvai7/wish/209174286 hallegrace https://padlet.com/hallegrace/wm64nx0tvai7/wish/210969643 sean and i went to a community thanksgiving together. it was pretty cool for the most part, i guess. i was kind of overwhelmed because of the mass amount of people there but for the majority sean helped me calm down by reassuring me that i look like a total idiot. my anxiety was up for no reason, and i'm glad he was there to tell me i'm an idiot. that isn't sarcasm, by the way. funny thing too, we went down a twisty slide! we discovered a large playground at the church we went to with a big yellow twisty slide and omg was i happy. sean made me go down first, which i gladly accepted that offer. it was so fun! i went down more than once, for sure. there was another green slide that literally made sean and i fly off of it, because of the speed we were going at. 
we left the community thanksgiving early because it got boring for two teenagers. we went back to my place and started baking for my thanksgiving dinner i was having later that evening. we both made our own batch of pumpkin cream cheese muffins! mine turned out absolutely amazing, and not just with taste. the texture, and the overall appearance of the muffins made me really happy :)
unfortunately for sean, his muffins' appearance was total crap. they tasted great, but the way he topped his streusel wasn't superior enough. he always says baking is a "woman thing", but when we have competitive baking contests, he always does great.  
after our thanksgiving dinners which were rather entertaining for the both of us, we went black friday shopping with my other best friend, gabe. it wasn't as bad as i anticipated, but it was still nuts. no one was fighting over tupperware, which was sort of disappointing but i'd rather it be that way. we went to every store there is in harrisonburg, and then McDoanald's for a late night dinner. there was so much that i wanted to buy and so many great deals, but i didn't have money! neither did sean, since chick-fil-a is closed on thanksgiving. he usually gets paid on thursday's. it was still fun to go though. BUT..... we did buy one thing for twenty-five dollars. A MINI TRAMPOLINE. yeah, best money i've ever spent. it was so fun, lol. we were jumping on it for a while in the cold. most people would say we're insane, but i think that we're just adventurous and light-hearted. we got to stay out until 12:00, which our curfew is typically 9:30 on weekdays, and 10:00 on weekends. i had a really good time that night. it's definitely a black friday i will remember. ]]> 2017-11-28 15:51:03 UTC https://padlet.com/hallegrace/wm64nx0tvai7/wish/210969643 hallegrace https://padlet.com/hallegrace/wm64nx0tvai7/wish/211938389 last night was fun. it was a typical wednesday for us. sean is off work every wednesday and we always make plans to do something. he had to stay after school until 4:30, but he took me home first, so i decided to have a little beauty day of my own until he came back to pick me up. when he came to get me, we drove to downtown harrisonburg to walk around and shop because we enjoy it. and by shop, i mean shop for food. originally the plan was to get ice cream from dream cones, but they were unfortunately closed. instead, we went to shirley's to get popcorn! we got cheddar flavor which is kind of basic due to the amount of flavors they have available for you to choose from. we left and went to the library after that, because i love going to the library in harrisonburg. there is a much bigger selection and i don't have to wait for a book to come to me if i decide to put in on hold at the broadway library. i checked out four books, books that i have wanted to read for a while now. sean also found out something about me that i was hoping to keep a secret due to embarrassment and pass experiences of telling people and then getting made fun of. i volunteer at the local library a lot, and i love it so much. i ended up coming clean about it when he was asking questions about how i know where literally anything is in a library. apparently he doesn't comprehend the dewey decimal system like i do... now he calls me his cute little librarian and it's slightly embarrassing but part of me really likes it.
we also went to chick-fil-a, per usual on wednesday's. i got the same as i always do, and sean got the same as me. the funny thing was, i saw three people i knew there. one being abigael peltonen who sits behind me. she was in the drive thru and saw sean and i eating in a booth and sent a snapchat video of us eating. it was really funny.
once we left chick-fil-a, we went back to bway and to the basketball game. it wasn't as near as eventful as i 'd hoped. i don't even understand basketball. i think we won?? whatever dudes. after that, we went to see the christmas lights in broadway since we didn't attend the tree lighting that took place at 7:00. THERE ARE SO MANY FREAKING LIGHTS AND IT MAKES ME SO FREAKING HAPPY!! there was a giant sleigh and sean and i went to sit in it. you could literally take a nap with four other people in that thing. maybe five. 
eventually we went back to my house and just shared memes for a while.
this is my idea of fun and a time well spent. most people think differently, but i'm content with it.

OH WAIT, i forgot to say that the suckers come from the dollar tree. i kept insisting we get them and he finally caved. yay! ]]> 2017-11-30 16:33:34 UTC https://padlet.com/hallegrace/wm64nx0tvai7/wish/211938389 hallegrace https://padlet.com/hallegrace/wm64nx0tvai7/wish/216224604 okay so sean and i went on this "official date" thing. it was so weird. i don't do dates man, they suck. it's nothing to do with sean whatsoever. it's me. i'm sort of kind of terrified of dates, and i have no idea why. 
we went ice skating at generations park, which is super pretty! sean does pretty okay at ice skating, but me on the other hand, that's a different story. i could barely stand up straight. i fell only once and was like, "just drag me out of here please. i'm an embarrassment. i made it around the rink two times, not letting go of the wall or using the walker which i could barely move on my own. i looked so stupid! three year olds were skating better than me. it was a total disaster! i literally was like, "okay let's leave because this sucks."
after that, we spent 4709127440 years trying to decide where to eat per usual because i am the definition of a typical woman :)
we picked o'charley's and i got the same thing that i always do, even though sean begged me to try something different. lol, no son. 
the carolina gold bbq chicken sandwich is my favorite of all time and i will continue with that option over all other ones.
i love days like these because i am really happy and not worrying about myself, my environment, or anyone else. it's nice to just be content sometimes.]]> 2017-12-14 16:32:30 UTC https://padlet.com/hallegrace/wm64nx0tvai7/wish/216224604 hallegrace https://padlet.com/hallegrace/wm64nx0tvai7/wish/217010856 sean and i have been rather argumentative lately and it hurts a lot. i feel like in the past week, all we ever seem to do is argue, or disagree. i hate arguing with people and i especially hate arguing with sean. it's been over stupid stuff, and big stuff too. i just feel maybe it's the stress of the holidays, the fact that we need a break from school, and him applying for colleges. enjoy a photo of a happier moment because there's been a lot less of those lately.]]> 2017-12-18 16:32:53 UTC https://padlet.com/hallegrace/wm64nx0tvai7/wish/217010856 hallegrace https://padlet.com/hallegrace/wm64nx0tvai7/wish/218577069 holy balls christmas break was much needed.
not saying that i am ready for school or anything because i am most definitely not.
sean and i went through lots of hills and bumps over christmas break but we somehow got through them like what??
we went out to eat a lot over break. we generally just do that a lot anyways. 
we also went with our friends tyler and caleb to see the new Jumanji movie on christmas day! it was one of the funniest movies i had seen all 2017. sean and i also went to golden china on christmas day because neither of us really do anything big on christmas. he hates sushi and i hate lots of it in front of him. it was hilarious watching him gag. 
christmas eve we went shopping and laid in my room doing nothing for like four hours. 
we hung out a lot, like sitting in my room and doing not much of anything. i got the stranger thing monopoly game that i wanted for christmas and we played that a lot. let's just say, the board got flipped everytime. he is a dirty cheater!
we also stayed awake new years, but he had to leave.
my mom and my grandfather are assholes, and they forced him to leave. he literally told sean to "get the hell out of his house" which isn't fucking okay, and i was really infuriated and upset about it. sean went to tyler's to wait for the ball to drop, and i was alone in my room crying. i hated that night with a burning passion. it was stupid anyways. i'm glad sean went somewhere though, i don't ever want to stop him from having fun or anything. i wanted him to have fun. i hope my grandad didn't like, ruin his night or anything. my night was completely torn to shit and nothing could've fixed that.
the next couple days were better. i was more content with myself, and i'm just glad that they're over. thank god. i don't really remember as much as i thought that happened over break, but i know most days were spent with sean and that's how i want my thoughts to remain. ]]> 2018-01-03 17:27:38 UTC https://padlet.com/hallegrace/wm64nx0tvai7/wish/218577069 hallegrace https://padlet.com/hallegrace/wm64nx0tvai7/wish/229671994 these months have been shit, this week has been shit, this day has been shit. sean, i miss you. even though i see you still i feel like i don't see you enough. i feel like something is wrong, something is missing, something is different. you feel the same as you usually do, i think.
i want to apologize for my mother's actions but why should i? i wish i understood her reasoning behind loathing you so much. i don't understand how anyone could not love you, not like you. it's hard for me to understand other people's views because i hold such a high opinion of you. i have never been best friends with someone like you. we seem to be polar opposites but in reality, there are more similarities than differences. 
i wish gabe would have never told my mom the lies and exaggerated accusations that he did, about the both of us.
i wish that cps would've never came. i'm fine with suffering until i'm 18, i have done it for so long i'm nearly immune to it, i would be okay without the involvement of cps.
i wish that my mom wasn't such a bitch to you. she says the nastiest things about you and the craziest and wildest allegations that i can't even begin to fathom what is going on in her head.
i have this desire to make everyone i associate with love you like i love you but that isn't going to work. 
i feel like this is my fault. i want to apologize for everything my mom has said or done to anyone, and take the blame for it. she is ridiculous. i feel like ever since this even happened, you don't want to be near me. you're wary about being around me, coming about me. i hate this, it's bullshit. i miss how we used to be. things change so quickly and i hate it.
maybe i'm overreacting.
maybe i'm crazy.
i'm going to apologize again.
i'm sorry.]]> 2018-02-08 16:40:27 UTC https://padlet.com/hallegrace/wm64nx0tvai7/wish/229671994 hallegrace https://padlet.com/hallegrace/wm64nx0tvai7/wish/232406029 oooh boiii i am so excited for Valentine's Day, even though it was two days ago.
on Wednesday, sean had to work but we still did cute stuff. 
homeboy literally got me TWO HUGE HEARTS of chick-fil-a chicken mini's and they were bomb as hell. i ate them before the school day was even over, and if you think about it, that's kind of pathetic. i can literally eat them all day long, especially with chick-fil-a sauce. HE WOKE UP EARLY TO DRIVE TO HBURG AND GET ME THIS STUFF TOO LIKE OMG AW, I LOVE YOU.
i got sean a mason jar filled with candy and a really cute letter that i spent like forever on because i wanted to ensure that it was perfect. i cannot help that i am a severe perfectionist. sometimes i think it's a disease. 
today is the sixteenth of february and we are going out to Olive Garden, or maybe the Joshua WIlton house. the second option is ridiculously expensive and formal. it's like a whole ass twenty dollars for an appetizer. i don't question that he can afford it, but i question that he's slightly insane for taking his girlfriend out to a fancy restaurant. maybe that's more appropriate for married couples?? it's been six months for us. i would honestly prefer Olive Garden because i reeaaallly love their breadsticks and soup and salad. it is amazing. my mouth is watering just thinking about it. not to mention all the pasta dishes that i absolutely adore. i could have olive garden for dinner every day of the week. UGH I WISH I HAD IT RIGHT NOW.
everyone is pushing me to go to the JW House but i don't know if that's something i'd like. money and nice restaurants don't impress me anyways. it's the quality of time spent that matter's the most to me. and i don't think the Joshua Wilton house allows you to wear converse with a dress, but that's what i want to do. don't get me wrong, i would be extremely thankful, but my anxiety tells me to keep it as casual as possible. i'm weird like that. i'm looking forward to eating out though. what do you even talk about on like an 8th date?? we literally know everything, and are always up to date on everything with each other's lives. i guess we can tell stories of crap that has happened to us, seems interesting enough but him and i already know that about each other too. i am having 8th date blues.]]> 2018-02-16 16:34:11 UTC https://padlet.com/hallegrace/wm64nx0tvai7/wish/232406029 hallegrace https://padlet.com/hallegrace/wm64nx0tvai7/wish/248922771 since Valentine's Day 2018, not much has happened. sean and i have gotten significantly closer, in a relationship way. i don't think that we could get any closer as friends than we already are. we've went to see movies,  like Fifty Shades Freed, Midnight Sun, The Shape of Water, etc. I love movie dates with him (even though we never officially claim them as dates), because they're relaxing and he finds my reactions to the movies to be absolutely hilarious. we have went to chick-fil-a, taco bell, and mcdonald's more than him and i can count. what can i say, we both love to eat. he wanted to be one of those professional eaters as a child. i wouldn't say we've done anything extremely significant together like get married, but we've done lots of new things together.
we have explored lots of beautiful parks, places around the valley, and we even drove to Maryland one day.
it was one of those unexpected road trips that neither one of us told our parents about. i told my mom i was going to the mall, but i didn't say which one, lol.
we drove to apple blossom in winchester. it wasn't nearly what i expected, but still better than the crap we have in harrisonburg. it was larger in size, but i was expecting it to be like 3 stories. i guess i shouldn't expect THAT much here in this area of VA. once we were back on the interstate, sean asked if i wanted to drive to hagerstown. 
it took me a moment because i had to remember that hagerstown is in MARYLAND. i thought he was crazier than hell to want to drive to a WHOLE NOTHER STATE. that's ridiculous! my mom already didn't even know that i was in winchester.
i of course agreed though. i have this bone in my body that wants me to be some sort of dangerous badass.
long story short, we drove the hour to maryland and then spent the day shopping in the outlet mall.
then we ate at this AMAZING PLACE CALLED NOODLES AND COMPANY. IT WAS AMAZING!!!! like a fast food place for NOODLES. i wanna go again.
i hope that i can do more random and spontaneous adventures soon without informing our parents because we feel like we're "cool".]]> 2018-04-05 15:33:42 UTC https://padlet.com/hallegrace/wm64nx0tvai7/wish/248922771 hallegrace https://padlet.com/hallegrace/wm64nx0tvai7/wish/252628087 on sunday, sean and i went to tyson's corner. for him, it wasn't the first time. for me, it was. we stopped in front royal to get some mcdonald's. of course, me being the woman that i am, i said i wasn't hungry. WHICH I WAS NOT AT FIRST. but then he got two large fries and a 10 piece nugget that i obviously couldn't let him consume all by himself. way to be a typical woman, halle.
 i was literally shook af due to the size of it all. surprisingly, it was bigger and busier than i anticipated. i've been to nyc, which was HUGE. this was kinda like a smaller new york city, in a way. the parking decks are absolutely ridiculous. i liked that there were red and green dots above which parking spaces were open or closed. i'm sure you can infer the color correlation, lol. we finally found a parking space, despite the people that couldn't drive and there were originally around 900 spaces avaliable, with only 13 left on the first level. wtf.
sean didn't tell me to bring a jacket even though i insisted, and of course, i was right. it was freezing and windy. 
we walked into the barnes and noble side which was really awesome. they had full sized restaurants INSIDE THE FREAKING MALL. that's insane. not to mention, it's three stories. 
i went in to literally every store that seemed interesting to me, and the ones we don't have around here.
the whole reason why this trip happened in the first place was so sean and i could go to build a bear workshop, which we both hadn't been in years. i built a bunny and named her olivia, and he built a bear and named him oliver. we both got birth certificates and outfits. mine says happy birthday, as this was part of my birthday present from him. his said congrats grad because he's graduating this year. 
afterwards, we went to the american girl store. i love that place because that is what i liked the most when i was a little girl. i saw the molly doll, and she is an original of the bunch. my little sister's name is molly-kate, and she's always wanted one. unfortunately, they discontinued her in the nyc store. i felt i couldn't leave there without it so sean and i split the cost, and bought her it for her birthday which is on may 6th. 
afterwards, sean and i went to lush and bought bath bombs. everything in there is all natural. i'm so excited to use mine!!
once we finished our long three hour shopping trip, we went to friday's, which is one of my favorite places to eat. we don't have one is harrisonburg and i hadn't been there in 2 YEARS so it felt nice to eat there again. i literally love that place. however, i was very hurt that they didn't have sweet tea. i guess once you hit northern virginia, you kinda just stop with the southern traditions. damn.
on the way back home, we experienced bad weather. it was raining pretty violently while we were on I-66. i wasn't scared though. everybody was saying how there were tornado warnings in augusta county, which kinda freaked us out but we were WAY north. we only experienced rain, and no thunder/lightning/hail. 
this was one of my favorite memories that sean and i have made together and i really like shopping so i'm definitely going to this place again.]]> 2018-04-17 15:32:34 UTC https://padlet.com/hallegrace/wm64nx0tvai7/wish/252628087 hallegrace https://padlet.com/hallegrace/wm64nx0tvai7/wish/254887239 thursday was wonderful with sean, and we didn't do much of anything. he left for atlanta on friday morning, and i've been adjusting ever since. it's strange for me to like, not have somebody here that i spend everyday with. i've realized that most high school couples don't get the opportunity to spend everyday together, but we do.... i think that's why when we're separated, it's the end of the world for the first couple of days. i've made plans, i've spent some time by myself, and i've rekindled friendships since he's been gone. i should see him again thursday morning but, i feel like i've gotten used to the idea that he's not here anymore. i love him so much but the time alone was very medicinal for me. once he leaves for college and i finish my senior year here at broadway, i've got to get used to the idea that my best friend/boyfriend is leaving and i need to make adjustments to my daily schedule. i miss him right now but i feel like time apart is normal, and healthy. i know it is. i want him to have a good time in atlanta and not think about me, because that's what he's supposed to be doing. he should leave all those feelings to me because i'm still here slaving away in a classroom with absolutely nothing to do after school. i hope this is how it goes for me when he leaves for college. i was so upset saturday and sunday about him leaving, but after yesterday, i have gotten used to it. i feel lonelier. like a chunk (such a weird word) of me is gone. when he's at school, i focus on him and drown out the sounds of other people. now, everyone seems to be louder at lunch, louder in the hallways. but when it's quiet, it's QUIET. everything is quiet, less rambunctiousness, less excitement. this is exactly how it's going to be when he leaves for college and that's something that i need to get used to. i'll be okay.
someone told me this weekend that the chances of us spending the rest of our lives together are slim to none. i know that. i think i have this perfect little world planned out for him and i, but the chances of that falling through and being successful are so slim, it's not even funny. i shouldn't have to rely on someone else for my happiness, but i unfortunately do. i hope that these last few months we spend together are some of the best ones because i know that long distance relationships don't work and i know that what we have is going to come to an end. i have to put on my big girl panties and move on, find someone else who can make me happy that is here, and close. we both are growing up and life isn't fun and games anymore. 
i just don't know how i'm going to do this. i already feel alone with him not being here and i don't want to feel like i'm spending college and the rest of my high school career alone. i'm scared, i guess. i'm scared of being alone.]]> 2018-04-24 15:31:39 UTC https://padlet.com/hallegrace/wm64nx0tvai7/wish/254887239 hallegrace https://padlet.com/hallegrace/wm64nx0tvai7/wish/258958727 omg last night was one of the best nights i have ever had in my life.  first, sean and i went to his house and he grilled us dinner. it was italian dressing seasoned chicken, which sounds kind of gross but it was REALLY GOOD. i was honestly surprised that he could even have the capability to do that well at grilling. maybe it's a man thing or something. however, that chicken wouldn't have been as good as it was without my constant marination. he can't just take all the credit. 
he finally showed me some baby pictures of himself and i was SO MAD that he wouldn't let me take any pictures because HE WAS ADORABLE. now, he has dark brown roots (nearly black), with chestnut hair on top of his head and brown eyes. HOW ON EARTH WAS HE BORN WITH BLONDE HAIR AND BLUE EYES THEN?! he was a very smiley baby and he always looked happy. like omg he was ALMOST as cute as me!!
afterwards, we went to a school board meeting so sean could get a 100 in his gov honors class. he leaned over and asked me if i was bored...
yes, sean. I AM VERY BORED.
he then promised me ice cream after we left the meeting so i remained attentive for the rest of it.
we decided to go to Packs in New Market and i got a chocolate and vanilla swirl cone which they really stacked high. sean got these two nasty flavors and i think he did that so i wouldn't eat any of it and he could have it all to himself. 
we went to the New Market Park and played on a playground. literally, we played. of course, the boys always chased the girls so that's how we did it. i was really out of breath because i have asthma and i'm already out of shape as it is. but it was very fun. there were no other children present so it was definitely less weird. i loved the feeling of it. that will probably be the last time that i play on a playground like that. it felt good to experience that again.
once we left, of course we had to drive past McDonald's. i started craving chicken nuggets really bad but i didn't want to pester sean because he had already gotten me ice cream.
THEN OUT OF NO WHERE, HE ASKED ME IF I WANTED TO GET SOME CHICKEN NUGGETS.
if this is love, this is amazing. 
how he read my mind/cravings is beyond me but i did not object to getting chicken nuggets. of course as we are ordering, he asks if we should get fries too.
yes, honey, we should definitely get some fries too. 
we took our food home and he literally begged me to play the game of life with him even though i objected because i was really super tired. i did it anyways and i somehow managed to survive the entire game, yay me.
the best part of yesterday (besides the whole hanging with my boo thing), is the fact that i still have chicken nuggets left ;)]]> 2018-05-08 15:31:35 UTC https://padlet.com/hallegrace/wm64nx0tvai7/wish/258958727