I live in darkness

A place where one feels trapped in the endless pitch black depths of the sea 

I live so deep in my own thoughts 

It’s almost like i'm drowning

In search of air

In search for the long lost light  

I follow the stray stream of light and hope cautiously knowing its consequences  

I decide to give reality one more chance as I glide so peacefully through the rigid waters 

I begin to race upward as I feel my emptiness take grab of me again 

I am almost to the surface when suddenly I break the tension

My eyes are blinded by the light

My skin burns from the sudden glow of the sun

But my lungs, my lungs become filled 

My body becomes relieved and lifted from all pressures 

And once again I feel at peace 

As my eyes begin to adjust I see the great wonders of the world apart from darkness

I suddenly feel like I belong 

Until once again I feel the sudden smack against the water

A smack that caused a tidal wave to my life but only a ripple to others

Because after all it's just a never ending cycle  

A cycle of hope and disappointment 

Where every reach for the light

Is just a sudden fall back into the darkness