I used to float, now I just fall down
I used to know but I'm not sure now
What I was made for
What was I made for?

Takin' a drive, I was an ideal
Looked so alive, turns out I'm not real
Just something you paid for
What was I made for?

'Cause I, I
I don't know how to feel
But I wanna try
I don't know how to feel
But someday, I might
Someday, I might

When did it end? All the enjoyment
I'm sad again, don't tell my boyfriend
It's not what he's made for
What was I made for?

'Cause I, 'cause I
I don't know how to feel
But I wanna try
I don't know how to feel
But someday I might
Someday I might

Think I forgot how to be happy
Something I'm not, but something I can be
Something I wait for
Something I'm made for
Something I'm made for

The reason why I choose this song is because how it's make me feel how related is the song with me, I know it's kind weird but the way the lyric just make me goosebump somehow. Every time I heard this song play it's make my inner child happy, the feeling that I don't know how to explain, but one thing that I can say i'm happy that all💗.

"Dr. Alpha Male" is Anjell's fourth and most famous contemporary romance and romantic comedy novel, written in Bahasa Malaysia and published in 2018. It's a bestseller and considered an evergreen read in modern Malaysian literature.

The story follows Tristin Hazel, a pretty, spunky, and funny girl distinguished by her rare hazel eyes. One day, while buying her favorite Magnum ice cream, she collides with a tall, masculine man, causing her ice cream to fall. Devastated, Hazel scolds the man, who scolds her back, and they part ways, each thinking the other is rude. Later, Hazel discovers the man, Hilman Ukasyah, is one of her new lecturers.

Hilman, an almost perfect man, handsome, charismatic, intelligent, and confident, is known as an alpha male. Initially, Hazel and Hilman clash frequently, with Hilman often scolding Hazel for her clumsiness and childishness, even making her cry. However, they eventually become friends, and Hazel learns that Hilman is her neighbor's son, living with his father after his parents separated.

One night, Hazel is nearly sexually assaulted, but Hilman rescues her. After this, Hazel faces more threats, a break-in, a threatening note, and another assault attempt, making her feel unsafe and scared. Hilman becomes her protector, proposing marriage, which Hazel accepts. They marry and fall in love, but the stalker continues to terrorize Hazel.

The stalker, who attacks any man near Hazel except for Hilman, becomes increasingly creepy. The mystery deepens as Hazel and Hilman try to uncover the stalker's identity and motives.

I always has the feeling to explore and learn a new thing, but that all just a feeling my introvert will never let me doing something new or more correct is something that is out of my comfort zone. I feel sad with that, but however it is I still love myself. 💗

Yes I currently studies here but before all of this, KPPN always been my dream school and until now I don't even think I deserve to be here. I'm just and average student and when I know I been accepted to this school I cry the whole day, happy but at the same time thinking is it my self deserve to be there. 💗

I know how hard it is to get there but this is just dream right. It was my biggest dream to get and studies on there law school. 💗

Japan such a great place to visit, how there polite and clean place make me feel in love with them. 💗

There my everything, my first friend in my life the one who always been my listener and motivator. I can't even imaging how my life will be without them. I love them so much. 💗

To be honest I don't really have any interest in sport. Even i'm a boy I don't even liked and know anything about football. The only sport that I liked to play is petanque. 💗

( if I being selected again )

In "King Haidar" an action-romance novel, Suria Andreana, a freelance makeup artist, is heartbroken when she discovers her boyfriend, Raja Haidar, is engaged to someone else. Seeking a fresh start, Suria moves to New York, only to encounter Haidar again during a vacation in Amsterdam. Despite his efforts to win her back and his claim of no longer being engaged, Suria remains wary.

Back in New York, Suria is shocked to find Haidar as her new neighbor. Strange events begin to unfold: she gets into an accident, her drink is spiked at a party, and she's attacked in her apartment. These incidents are linked to a mysterious figure known as Ghost X, who seems to be targeting her.

Suria is left questioning who Ghost X is and why they are after her. Adding to the mystery, Haidar's true background and occupation are unclear. While Suria only knows him as a sailor, her brother’s friend, Inspector Najmi, suggests Haidar might be a criminal. Suria must navigate her feelings for Haidar while uncovering the truth behind Ghost X and Haidar's secrets.

"Dia Tetap Sempurna" is a contemporary romance novel featuring the girl-meets-boy trope.

Dara Nailufar, the female protagonist, receives an invitation to a high school reunion party on a cruise. Initially, she hesitates to attend, fearing she might encounter her ex-boyfriend, Safwan, and his girlfriend, Raina, her high school enemy. Safwan had once broken Dara's heart by cheating on her with Raina, and they are now rumored to be getting engaged.

Dara's best friend, Suria, insists she attend and suggests hiring a pretend boyfriend to accompany her. Dara agrees and enlists her new friend, Audi, who fits her criteria of being good-looking, tall, rich, and charismatic. However, Audi, who has a seasickness problem, secretly arranges for his step-brother, Eskandar Arasyah, to take his place.

On the cruise, Dara is surprised when Eskandar shows up instead of Audi. Eskandar, tall and handsome with dark brown hair and puppy brown eyes, is more charismatic than Audi. This isn't their first meeting, Dara had met Eskandar before when he saved her from a cat. Initially, she found him rough and rude.

As the cruise progresses, Dara and Eskandar become friends, and Dara starts to like him. Eskandar makes her happy and likes her in return. However, Eskandar warns Dara that he has dark secrets which he fears might make him unacceptable to her. The story unfolds as Dara learns about Eskandar's secrets and grapples with whether she can accept them.

"Dheo's" is an adult contemporary romance novel with modern-day fairytale vibes, despite its dark beginning. It incorporates three romance tropes: bad-boy-and-innocent-girl, forbidden love, and second chances. The story is written in Bahasa Malaysia, with dialogues in English and Italian.

The story begins with Nurissa Rose, an innocent beauty, waking up from a year-long coma caused by a tragic accident. Rose suffers from amnesia and doesn't remember anything about her past, including her name and her father, Mr. Nuriman.

Three years later, Rose leads a happy life with her father, despite her memory loss. She doesn’t remember her mother, who passed away when Rose was a child. One day, Mr. Nuriman dies from a heart attack. A week after his death, Rose discovers her father was on the verge of bankruptcy and had transferred all his properties to a man named Dheo Han. Curious about Dheo's relationship with her father, Rose decides to confront him at his luxurious hotel, La Prince.

Dheo Han is a cold-faced, enigmatic man with dark hair and eyes, a unique way of speaking, and a scar on his forehead. He has many enemies and intimidates most people. When Rose questions him about her father's decision, Dheo simply states that collecting properties is his hobby and that Mr. Nuriman owed him something valuable. Rose is unsatisfied with his vague answers but remains silent. Dheo agrees not to touch Rose's beloved I's Cafe, on the condition that she becomes his personal housekeeper at La Prince. Reluctantly, Rose agrees to save her cafe.

As the story progresses, Rose develops feelings for Dheo, drawn by his magnetic aura. Dheo secretly harbors deep feelings for Rose as well. Rose begins to suspect that she knew Dheo before her accident, feeling a sense of déjà vu. She wonders about their past connection and Dheo's true role in her life, was he her lover or her enemy? And what are Dheo's true intentions in making her his personal housekeeper?

There are days when I miss him deeply, especially during important moments and family gatherings. Even simple things like having meals together or talking face to face feel very precious now. Sometimes, the house feels quieter without his presence.

However, I am proud of him for working hard and making sacrifices for us. His strength motivates me to stay strong as well. Even though we are far from each other, we stay connected through calls and messages. Distance has taught me to appreciate family more and to be grateful for every moment we share.

I hope that one day, we will be reunited again, stronger and closer than before.

To celebrate her graduation, my father surprised her with a special gift, a BMW 530i. It was more than just a car, it was a symbol of appreciation for all her sacrifices and efforts. Seeing her happy and touched by the surprise made me realize how much she deserves this reward.

This moment reminded me that success comes from patience, commitment, and strong support from loved ones. I am truly inspired by my mother’s journey and grateful to witness such a beautiful example of love and encouragement in my family.

I hope that one day, I can achieve my own dreams and make my parents just as proud.

At Hard Rock Hotel Penang, the atmosphere was lively and energetic. The music-themed decorations and vibrant environment made the place feel exciting and different. We enjoyed walking around, imagining how it would feel to stay there and relax by the beach.

Later, we visited The Ritz-Carlton Kuala Lumpur, which had a completely different vibe. It was calm, elegant, and luxurious. Everything felt peaceful and comfortable, from the interior design to the quiet surroundings. Being there made us appreciate the beauty of simple luxury and quality time together.

What made this trip special was not just the hotels, but the moments I shared with my mother. We laughed, talked, and enjoyed each other’s company throughout the day. It reminded me how important it is to spend time with family, even through simple activities.

This experience may have been spontaneous, but it became one of my favorite memories with her. It showed me that sometimes, the best moments come from unplanned adventures.

The color suited her perfectly. The soft pink reflected her cheerful, warm, and confident personality. Seeing her smile when she received the car was a moment I will always remember. It was not just about owning a new vehicle, but about feeling loved and appreciated.

This gift symbolized my father’s care and support for her, as well as his recognition of all her sacrifices and hard work for our family. Even through simple gestures, his love is always shown in meaningful ways.

The new EV also represents a new chapter in my mother’s life, embracing modern technology and a more sustainable lifestyle. Watching her enjoy her new car reminds me that happiness often comes from small but thoughtful moments.

I am grateful to be part of this beautiful memory and to witness such love between my parents. It inspires me to value family, appreciation, and togetherness.

At first, I felt nervous and unsure. It was my first time flying such a long distance without anyone beside me. From checking in to boarding the plane, I had to manage everything on my own. Even though it was challenging, it taught me how to be more independent and confident.

During the flight, I had time to think about many things, my family, my father, and how much I missed being together. Looking out of the window and knowing that I was flying toward them made me feel both excited and emotional.

When I finally arrived and saw my family waiting for me, all the tiredness and nervousness disappeared. It was a moment filled with relief, happiness, and gratitude. Being reunited with my father after being apart for so long made the journey truly worth it.

This experience showed me that stepping out of my comfort zone helps me grow. It reminded me that even when things feel scary at first, they can become beautiful memories in the end.

I have grown a lot, not only in age, but in mindset, courage, and confidence. I learned how to adapt, how to let go of things that no longer serve me, and how to appreciate the people who truly matter. Some days were difficult, but they shaped me into a stronger person.

I discovered new interests and passions that helped me understand myself better. I started to see life from a wider perspective and became more aware of my dreams and responsibilities. I am still learning, still improving, and still figuring things out, and that is okay.

I hope that when you read this, you will be proud of how far you have come. Remember the struggles, the tears, the laughter, and the small victories that built you. Never forget the courage it took to grow.

No matter where you are in 2026, stay kind, stay grateful, and stay true to yourself. Keep chasing your dreams and believing in your worth.

Alhamdulillah, everything went smoothly and there were no major complications. The doctors and nurses took good care of me, which made me feel safe and comfortable throughout the process. I am truly grateful for that.

Now, it has been almost a week since the surgery, and I am feeling much better. My body is slowly healing, and each day I feel stronger than before. The pain has reduced, and I am able to move more comfortably.

This experience reminded me how important health is and how easily we sometimes take it for granted. It also taught me to be more patient with myself and to appreciate the support from my family and loved ones during recovery.

I am thankful for this journey and for being given the chance to heal properly. Alhamdulillah for everything.