But no. What started off as a promise to handle it at home turned into an argument between my parents about the fee. I think they've misunderstood me again. I just want to finish it before the 30th September. They made me dragged it all the way until the 29th September.

Isn't it such a grand old time, huh? To think my own parents, the ones who were suppose to aid me and guiding me ended up me decided to just do things on my own. Forget about handle the mara documents, I'll do everything myself. Because in the end, the only person I could trust from now on is me, and God. Everyone else are only standing in my way.

I don't need others.... Right?

I just want to complete the important stuff before the deadline.

Why did it end it with a fight between them?

It's only 1:15 pm, so whatever happens after this, I don't want to care. I don't want to comment it.

Thanks, mom and dad. You made me want to stay at the hostel forever.

Funnily enough, my own classmate was there too and she ended up in the hospital for further treatment. I hope they're both doing okay.

I was only there as a visitor, but boy I got lost easily. Please don't make me go there again. The floor layout is confusing.

Today really got me wondering, "What the hell is wrong with me?" but maybe the real question is, "Why do I still keep my toxic positivity and optimism?" I guess the world wouldn't have to know because even I don't know.

In any case, the deadline got extended so yay, time for another misery.

But when it was time for me to leave with the children, I could feel this anxiety of mine rising like a wave swallowing my stomach that it made me feel like vomiting. I did made sure they entered their neighbourhood safely but I didn't keep an eye on them long enough to make sure they're safely home. I hope they're okay. My anxiety only makes it worse...

Today was a bit unfortunate that made me feel anxious, but it all worked out.

All in all, she's getting her treatment, so me and Lily found a surau to sleep for a bit until morning.

I might stay up the whole night but meh, I don't mind a bit. They're more important anyway.

But I know for a fact my mom will kill me if she finds out about this.

She finally tried to eat her food, and not having too much stress. Or so I thought, because she ended up throwing her phone against the door after her family made her feel pressured.

In any case, I managed to get her to sleep for quite a while so that's good. Now, I'm gonna focus on myself because my body finally said "girl, you're unwell." Yay.

I remember asking a "how are you" question to a friend but instead of saying good or bad, they ended up talking so much that I was like "bro, I asked a yes or no question, not history lessons." After they talked, I asked "so, it was mid?".

Honestly, just be straightforward. No need elaborated details unless absolutely needed.

In any case, I always cherish my friends and will always do my best to be there for them, even if it'll cost an arm or a leg. I'd do the same for my family, I'll be fine.

How am I still mentally sane? I'm not sure either. But hey, I'm still happy.

I'm glad I learned how to use an online food delivery app. I hope I can continue doing this a lot. Am I locking myself up? Yup, but I prefer indoors than outdoors so, I'm okay with it.

I did try to drink lots of water, but it didn't last for too long. Sigh, it hurts so badly, I don't know what else to do. I might even have to go to the clinic but after that, what? Oh well, it's not like it's the end of the world, right? Ugh, I hate sore throat. If I get a checkup, will they see another ulcer? If yes, then ice cream for days.

Hm, I wonder how long it'll take for me to actually discover more of this beauty?

On the side note, my body has been a bit of a doozy and prefers to stick on the bed most of the time. Tiredness? Maybe. But bedtime is always a fun time.

Maybe I'll get myself a burger and enjoy it. I'll end up forgetting this day as well, who knows?

Most games I played are fairly simple, with some have auto battles so you know well that I'm gonna abuse that feature. My favorite game of all is Honkai Star Rail, a turn based rpg game with the best story telling ever. I don't want to stop.

New characters can be collected by doing some rolls or in some people's eyes, gambling. I don't mind since it's just data, but some people are scary enough to spend real money on it.

I wanted to see how far I could go with my English, so I tried to remember my old results. It's always A or A+? That's fine with me.

Maybe I should see how this semester go since it could be different despite I understand most of these stuff already.

Oh yeah, I should watch "If Everything Was Off Brand" skits from StevenHe. He's real funny, especially the accent. You can't not get a laugh from watching him. It's relatable too.

My hair has always been weird. I thought it was fine, but the hair thickness variations are scary. And it kept falling down like autumn. Is there something wrong with my hair?

.... Maybe I should get a hair cut after all?

So, today wasn't that bad of a day. Starting off with an early morning class is all. Then, I ate my usual breakfast of bread, eggs, and some milk tea. I do want my favorite Vanilla Blue drink, but I can wait. It wouldn't be that bad, right?

Then, the evening came and I lay face down on my bed. It feels so nice.