(I tried it a second time because the first time made me lightheaded/dizzy)

On the first activity I had no reaction to it, probably because I pretend to sleep everyday so it really has no effect on me mentally and physically. Screaming into a pillow just made my ears ring, I do not like loud noises. Ironic because I blast music into my ears when I have headphones in. Laughing out loud just made my mom ask me "Aren't you supposed to be in class?"

I don't ever pretend to sleep but when I do, I actually start sleeping. It's relaxing. There has been a real shortage of laughter in my life, and I can relate deeply to screaming, just internally, not into a pillow. No further explanation will be given.

You're a loser, a failure, and an idiot, but that's okay. We all still love you for your effort, better luck next time. Give yourself some breathing room and we can start from there. No further explanation will be given.

I'm just a lonely loser, pulling all-nighters left and right, forgetting things, going slightly more insane each day. No further explanation will be given.

This week, I intend to align my life to these three values, feeling states, or guiding beliefs: Hapiness, relief, and faith.

I wish they understood the way I helped them and other people and how I worked hard to get to the place I am.

Dear younger self, 
I wanted to let you know that they hard work pays off and follow your path because you will end up in a good place. Don't give up yet and keep learning. If you keep learning everyone will be proud of you and also make lots of friends because they are important just be sure to make the best like I did. BE respectful and listen to your parents because they are always right. Keep being you and don't let anyone bring you down. 

From,
Older self (Nick)

#3. drawing what makes me happy

a paper airplane, a new design