i wasnt planning on this, but certain events make me think more of where my life going right now, i ask myself, “if i continue getting on here on the daily, spending most of my time checking messages, and doing horrible in school, where would i end up?” i’m literally in class typing this, and not paying attention, right now its December 8 2022, tomorrow I will be gone, i just want to share the message of this whole thing we got going, our reputations on this site, our friends ships, our relationships, they really dont matter in real life. i know some people think different and i respect that. the thing is im actually both sad and happy im leaving, cause there are benefits in leaving, but im sorry i got back together wit u lux, i never should have, since we would have to break up the day after, since im leaving, my old homies, batmane, nardo, isaiah, cositrix, cookies, mischkeymouse, jazzy, KingLegend, lia, bree, cup, babyoda, silver (pegasus) and many more, (im sorry i cant think right now its been so long) and my new homies, jeremy, curries, zoonie, korbin, exshake, cayez,  blooms, both vals, lore, mila,cammy (ionk if we cool, i think we is now), im writing in a hurry, but the ppl i didnt list, yall know who u are and i love you all. i wish the best for you, you will be good in life, you will succeed, keep pushing. its not because of the people that im leaving its just that i really dont get the point of this padlet shit no more. my main dream ive had since i was a little kid was making music. im going to continue it, and i swear on my life, ill come back to this site, to tell u i made it, i go by HonestlyCrazy (update: NoIAmJacob), im thinking of changing the name, but my songs will be linked to that name.

I remember in 2019ish when i moved from minnit.chat to padlet, we were playing nitrotype, and scamming each other for fun and lowkey just chilling, when i look back to those days even if we did go thru struggles i have to admit i miss it, i wish i could go back, im pretty sure ill miss these days too, back in those days, nitrotype was everything, now padlet is everything, and i dont want that to be my everything. we went thru covid together, went thru the 2020 election, stayed all night looking at the votes percentage, went through sad times when we’re feeling down because of family problems, mental doubt, etc. almost everything, and when we had struggles we would talk to each other and help each other out. and even people i’ve known for long time that i dont talk much to anymore because we got on each others bad side with certain situations, just know that i still really love you, and i care about you, so since now im leaving nothing matters, ill tell u everything about me, i was born in 2008 i am korean, i was diagnosed with ADD and bipolar disorder, i played nitrotype for 5 years, and i been dissing the ppl who play now, i really cant be talking i know i know , the thing i regret the most is the toxicity, i have no fucking idea why i was so toxic to random people i just met online, i apologize for all of that, i guess this online shit made me a really bad person to be around or just talk to. i used to go by the name Hyper.. nobody knows, ive told som ppl, but they havent believed me, since i changed the way i act and my name, and som believed me and tried exposing me 😂

i also played nitrotype too much i think i got carpal tunnel - a weakness in my arms from typing so much 💀 im such a loser, now 2022 and im still on this shit, smh.

i hate myself, i really, really hate myself but i will change, i will become a better me ..

YT: https://youtube.com/channel/UC31d78frcDW1LxorwAhJGIw