My exquisite padlet by Alexis Lopez https://padlet.com/alexis031605/vcpsvd34ooeail89 Made with a wish on a star en-us 2021-08-14 22:47:25 UTC 2024-07-26 01:52:19 UTC hello@padlet.com I want to change feeling like I am too exhausted to function. I want to feel motivated and stable, because I often feel like I am drowning, which at times, seems inescapable. alexis031605 https://padlet.com/alexis031605/vcpsvd34ooeail89/wish/1679189008 2021-08-14 23:03:43 UTC https://padlet.com/alexis031605/vcpsvd34ooeail89/wish/1679189008 I hope that with proper therapy and time, I'll be able to decrease those thoughts, which will help me maintain relationships, be stable, and stay focused. In the future I want to have friends who are able to stay in my life, as well as being able to not fall behind in my studies, and feel like I can keep going. alexis031605 https://padlet.com/alexis031605/vcpsvd34ooeail89/wish/1679192629 2021-08-14 23:18:58 UTC https://padlet.com/alexis031605/vcpsvd34ooeail89/wish/1679192629 I developed this thought reaching adolescence, which is when I felt most isolated. I couldn't seem to expand socially past my few friends, and this was because I always lacked the energy to go through with plans and overcome my anxiety regarding bothering others. alexis031605 https://padlet.com/alexis031605/vcpsvd34ooeail89/wish/1679193636 2021-08-14 23:24:35 UTC https://padlet.com/alexis031605/vcpsvd34ooeail89/wish/1679193636 Yes, it often makes me feel like I can never complete anything, and makes me like I shouldn't let people into my life because of how unstable I am. I don't want to go into someone else's life when I know I'll end up making them feel ignored or unwanted, so I end up keeping people at a distance. I look at myself as unstable, a burden, and out of reach. alexis031605 https://padlet.com/alexis031605/vcpsvd34ooeail89/wish/1679194766 2021-08-14 23:30:48 UTC https://padlet.com/alexis031605/vcpsvd34ooeail89/wish/1679194766 A lot of things reenforce this behavior, which is why I tend to just stick to it. I always end up losing connections, because of my down periods, which make it virtually impossible to get out of bed. alexis031605 https://padlet.com/alexis031605/vcpsvd34ooeail89/wish/1679195822 2021-08-14 23:34:57 UTC https://padlet.com/alexis031605/vcpsvd34ooeail89/wish/1679195822 I have, but since I wasn't able to have the proper help, it ended up just repeating itself. I hope that with the aid I have now, I can change it this time around. alexis031605 https://padlet.com/alexis031605/vcpsvd34ooeail89/wish/1679198048 2021-08-14 23:44:44 UTC https://padlet.com/alexis031605/vcpsvd34ooeail89/wish/1679198048 Hopefully I can maintain friendships and relationships, as well as keeping up with school. I would feel stable and like I have become a functioning human being. alexis031605 https://padlet.com/alexis031605/vcpsvd34ooeail89/wish/1679198489 2021-08-14 23:47:03 UTC https://padlet.com/alexis031605/vcpsvd34ooeail89/wish/1679198489 I would look at the mistakes I made before, and try to avoid making them again. I would also try to keep myself from feeling like a bother, and understand that people do want me in their lives. alexis031605 https://padlet.com/alexis031605/vcpsvd34ooeail89/wish/1679198713 2021-08-14 23:48:08 UTC https://padlet.com/alexis031605/vcpsvd34ooeail89/wish/1679198713 I need friends who understand how I am affected at times, as well as understanding from teachers about how detrimental this can be for my energy. I am also in therapy, and am on medication but this does not completely cure me. alexis031605 https://padlet.com/alexis031605/vcpsvd34ooeail89/wish/1679199919 2021-08-14 23:54:06 UTC https://padlet.com/alexis031605/vcpsvd34ooeail89/wish/1679199919 I will often tell myself that, "This will pass," to ensure I know that this feeling isn't permanent and I'll be able to make through it, just like I have before. alexis031605 https://padlet.com/alexis031605/vcpsvd34ooeail89/wish/1679200356 2021-08-14 23:56:21 UTC https://padlet.com/alexis031605/vcpsvd34ooeail89/wish/1679200356