End of the second week, I find Cady coming and sitting down next to me in the yard.

I am building a structure out of lego which I found at Red Gate. I see that Cady has food: some pickles, cheese straws, and leftover grilled tuna from the new Clairmont kitchen. We decide to not go on the roof since it’s just the two of us. We open the containers and line them up on the edge of the dirty porch. I start talking about trying to build Hogwarts out of Lego. Or a Death Star. Or, wait! Even better is a lego tuna fish to hang in New Clairmont now that none of Grandad’s taxidermy is there anymore. That’s it. Too bad there’s not enough Lego on this stupid island for a visionary project such as this.

I do prefer doing this instead of talking about that day, not that she can remember. Then she asks me: “ Why didn’t you call or email after my accident?” I don’t know if she was planning to say this. I answer “ Oh, Cady” I can’t really answer until she remembers. I ask “ You don’t want to talk about Lego tuna fish instead?” She replies with “ I thought maybe you were annoyed with me about those emails. The ones I sent asking about Gat.”

“No, no.” “ I disappeared because I’m a jerk. Because I don’t think through my choices and I’ve seen too many action movies and I’m kind of a follower .” She looks at me and says “ Really? I don’t think that about you.” I respond with “ It’s an undeniable fact.” I drink some water until she says “You weren’t mad?” “I was just a stupid person. But not mad. Never mad. I’m sorry, Cadence.” And I mean it, I do. She answers with thanks. I pick up a handful of Legos and start fitting them together. 

She then asks me “Why did  Gat disappear? Do you know?” I sigh. “That’s another question” 

“He told me I don’t know the real him.” I responded with “ Could be true.” I mean in some ways that is true. Then she asks me a question I don’t want to answer. “ He doesn't want to discuss my accident. Or what happened with us that summer. He wants us to act normal and like nothing happened.” I look down and start lining up my Legos in  stripes: blue, white and green. I try to ignore the image of a burning house and the smoke suffocating, so suffocating. I say “Gat had been annoying to that girl Raquel, by starting up with you. He knew it wasn’t right and he hated himself for that.” She responds with “Ok.” She didn’t look convinced. “ He didn’t want to be that kind of guy. He wants to be a good person. And he was really angry that summer, about all kinds of things. When he wasn’t there for you, he hated himself even more.” “ You think?” “ I’m guessing.” I say. “Is he going out with anyone?” I reply hoping to make the tension loosen:” Aw Cady, he’s a pretentious person. I love him like a brother, but you’re too good for him. Go find yourself a nice Vermont guy with muscles like Drake Loggerhead.” Then I start cracking up. She starts laughing and says “ You’re useless.” I wink and say “ I can’t deny it but you’ve got to stop being such a worry-always person.

Feeling very blue got nothing to do 

Lost my lover what should I do

Hopped on a train and met a man (Bruno)

Who was feeling blue too

Drunk and sad 

Got a grand plan

To kill my man (father)

Exchange murders  

What a plan 

Wanna be free 

From this evil man (father)

Need his money 

To feed my tummy 

Took a trip

So I don't kill

Got a letter

Got convinced 

Killed his man (father)

Then felt guilt 

I got pressured 

Because I killed 

My partner passed 

So I had to confess

What horrible things 

I committed and felt.

This song I made relayed the events on the train of when Guy Haines went on the train to divorce his unfaithful wife to then marry the love of his life Anne but then on the train he met Bruno who hated he father and wanted his father’s inheritance. Then Bruno got an Idea to kill for each other so Guy laughed to make the conversation appear as a joke but Bruno was serious then when Guy was on vacation with Anne he received a letter from Bruno which said that Bruno killed Guy’s unfaithful wife Miriam by strangling her and how Guy had to now kill Bruno’s father otherwise he would get framed by Bruno that he killed his wife. After Guy killed Bruno’s father Bruno passed away and Guy felt guilt so he confessed his actions.