https://padlet.com/rubygault044/dont_open_ Made with panache en-us 2021-06-01 15:57:38 UTC 2021-06-03 01:49:52 UTC hello@padlet.com https://padlet.net/icons/png/1f643.png rubygault044 https://padlet.com/rubygault044/dont_open_/wish/1576757333 Im slowly dying inside with all those emotions my parents told me were in valid! I wrote myself a long frigging paragraph last night on my phone of all the things i want to say and do but i was to scared to say anything abou it to my parents and friends my friends would probably think im annoying if i told them any of this so here i am! Im also really scared to do anything ive been going through so many rabbit holes! My parents also told me i cant have my phone in my room and i cant have my phone after 9:00! I cant lsten to my fricken music anymore which is my free therapy and if i listen to my music on my alexa i have to scream at her to get ger to cue up something or  to pause her. ITS SO FRIGGEN ANNOYING!!! I don't even have anyone to tell about this because Alyssa just went to a friggin funeral! And donavan he doesnt need to hear all these emotions I have 24/7 they both dont need to be as sad as i am at the moment! I hate this and also to add to all my emotions already my parents are getting a divorce! That took a toll on my mental health! As if i was already doing ok and I really just want someone to come up to me and tell me its all going to be ok but no thats only in fairy tales people in this world, they want to watch the world burn!  This world wants to shame you for your pain and how big you are or how you talk I dont want to live here i didnt ask for it and i most certainly  didnt want it! I have trouble fitting in i think im annoying and  i think im weird these are litrerally the thoughts that keep me awake at night!]]> 2021-06-01 15:58:27 UTC https://padlet.com/rubygault044/dont_open_/wish/1576757333 rubygault044 https://padlet.com/rubygault044/dont_open_/wish/1578406611 I was called fake, jealous, pathetic, and mean by Danna and Hope, Im going through a lot they think im jealous of their relationship with donavan? They dont even know how to spell his name! They didnt know hes not the touch feely type and they didnt know his favorite color and then they told me i was lying. ]]> 2021-06-02 03:45:22 UTC https://padlet.com/rubygault044/dont_open_/wish/1578406611 rubygault044 https://padlet.com/rubygault044/dont_open_/wish/1578413518 Why am I so annoying why am i so pathetic why do i seek attention why do i get so anxious why do i need current reasurence why am i so weird why cant  i be normal why cant i be quiet why cant i stay still why cant i focus why do i need someone by my side why havent i learned anything about any of these things i wrote down why hasnt therapy worked why have i gone through so many friends why havent i shut everyone out why am i such a perfectionist why am i such a loser why am i such a cry baby why am i such a bad friend why am i such an observant person why am i such a bad person? ]]> 2021-06-02 03:49:14 UTC https://padlet.com/rubygault044/dont_open_/wish/1578413518 rubygault044 https://padlet.com/rubygault044/dont_open_/wish/1581219531 I'm doing it im cutting off all my social media im blocking/deleting or not answering my friends and im just going to be a background person im going to focus on writing my story *sigh* I'm just tired ]]> 2021-06-03 01:43:20 UTC https://padlet.com/rubygault044/dont_open_/wish/1581219531