Journals by TENZIN PALDEN https://padlet.com/tpal2301/uhsml7jmo71unusm Made with charm en-us 2020-04-20 20:35:01 UTC 2020-05-29 18:28:39 UTC hello@padlet.com April 21st Journal tpal2301 https://padlet.com/tpal2301/uhsml7jmo71unusm/wish/524022605 Since quarantine started things have obviously been different. Things that I used to do I can't do it as much. I have to do online school and it's not the easiest thing in the world. I feel like teachers think we can just magically understand everything that is being given to us. Some things are brand new to us and I feel like they expect us to already know this stuff. I don't understand anything and even if I did ask for help I know i still wouldn't get everything. 
For me some stuff is really easy when I get the hang of it, however not the same for everything. It takes a while for me to learn things online sometimes and I just prefer to learn in a classroom setting, but don't get me wrong I don't want to do zoom calls or anything. I think I just prefer to be in a classroom to learn things. Yes I can get annoyed in class because of certain things, but I do like learning with the teacher explaining it in person to everyone. I just think sometimes the things that are assigned to us is unfair. I know we do this amount of stuff in a normal school week, but it's always going to be different since some people really don't know how to manage there time well. For me it can be the case sometimes, but I usually get it together before my grades starts getting affected. 
I really hope it will start getting easier and things will start to become a routine. It's always hard to adjust to new things and hopefully I can get through this roadblock like time. I'm sure everyone misses their friends and going to school to see them I do too. I guess I have to take this time to figure what I'm going to do for myself during this time to become a better student and to become a better individual. I wish I could just be relax and not have to worry about my grades like how some other people do, but I can't. I realized I can't do anything that I know I might regret later, so I have to do everything the best of my ability. ]]> 2020-04-22 19:30:53 UTC https://padlet.com/tpal2301/uhsml7jmo71unusm/wish/524022605 April 23rd Journal tpal2301 https://padlet.com/tpal2301/uhsml7jmo71unusm/wish/526809279 Since the virus got called a pandemic my family had to be very careful because of my grandma. Since my grandma is a senior citizen and she has health problems we have to be a lot more careful around her. On top of all of that she also still works and the place she works is no other than the hospital, so that doesn't make things any better. My grandpa wants my grandma to just stay at home and finally retire, but my grandma just doesn't like to listen and is very stubborn. However, in my grandpa's case he is older than my grandma and also still works, but he is in way better shape than my grandma. My grandpa doesn't have any health problems that are as big as my grandma's. My grandparents remind our whole family to keep washing our hands and wear masks when we go out. 
The virus is a big problem for my family. All of my mom's siblings live in Minnesota, so I'm really close with my mom's side of the family. My brothers and I are really close with our cousins from our mom's side and we talk a lot. Since we are all very close we meet up a lot since we all kinda live close to each other. We like to have family gatherings and just have some small little parties. The virus has stopped us from being able to see each other, so we tried zoom this one time and it was crazy. 
Since the beginning of the corona virus things have obviously been very different. This has affected everyone in some way. I honestly feel like I'm in a movie and it's just something that is being filmed, but it's not it's real life. This has made me feel very distant from certain friends while I'm getting closer with others. The transition to online school is also still hard to get used to. At times everything is kinda just weird and unfamiliar, but it also feels the same in a way at the same time.
]]> 2020-04-23 20:00:03 UTC https://padlet.com/tpal2301/uhsml7jmo71unusm/wish/526809279 April 28th Journal tpal2301 https://padlet.com/tpal2301/uhsml7jmo71unusm/wish/536806460 These days I've been really worried about my grades. They're always a really important thing to me, but now it's getting harder to keep them up. In times like this it's hard to get the help you want since I'm a face-to-face type of learner. Everything has to be explained to me step by step and then I also need written directions so I don't forget. Now everything is online it makes things a little different since there seems to be way more assignments than usual, and I don't have friends by me right now to ask questions. 
If I don't understand how to do something I will either ask my friends around me or the teacher that is in the classroom. I can't do that anymore so it's more difficult to adjust to the change. These days even my friends are confused or I'm not in the same team as them so it's harder to get hep. Even if I email my teacher I don't always get it when they try to explain stuff to me. It's really hard to get everything that is being assigned because of this and the new stuff that is being piled onto everything else.
It gives me a lot anxiety because now I have to be really careful about my grades which is kinda hard since everything is online. I can't really change the grades I get since you can't really do retakes of tests anymore. There isn't any extra credit being assigned since everyone already has their plate full. It's all just super chaotic and I don't really know how to deal with everything since it's not the same as before. This is going to be our new "normal" for the rest of the year and I hate it.]]> 2020-04-28 15:52:48 UTC https://padlet.com/tpal2301/uhsml7jmo71unusm/wish/536806460 April 30th Journal tpal2301 https://padlet.com/tpal2301/uhsml7jmo71unusm/wish/536856252 Recently I am really grateful for a couple of things. For example my friends because I can have someone I can talk too. I might just go crazy without them they're almost like the world to me. My family because they're supporting me to keep going with my schoolwork and it's ok sometimes to have family bonding stuff. I'm really grateful for be privileged enough to have my own devices and internet to get done with the stuff I need to do for school. I know how tough it is to get done with things without any internet or a device to use.
These are the people that are with me no matter what. They also support me no matter what in everything I do. They keep me going physically and mentally and I don't know what in the world I would do without them. My family was there for me since I was born, but my friends are also there for me when I needed them. They are the people that keep me sane and they keep me alive. Without these people in my life I honestly don't think life is worth living for.
There are tons of things that you can see, hear, and smell in this world, but it's all pointless without them. They are my rock that helps me stay kept in place and alive. It's all useless if they aren't with me through thick and thin. I can't imagine my life without any of them because it's like losing apart of me. There is no me without them so I'm very grateful and appreciative to them since they're the ones that keep me going.]]> 2020-04-28 16:07:40 UTC https://padlet.com/tpal2301/uhsml7jmo71unusm/wish/536856252 May 12th Journal tpal2301 https://padlet.com/tpal2301/uhsml7jmo71unusm/wish/568837661 I understand These days I have started to realize that I have been taking a lot of things for granted. I didn't know how important it was to have a teacher with you to teach the lessons. I also realized I took my friends for granted. At times like this I feel it's important to see your friends at school and talk with them and stuff. I know there is things like FaceTime and etc., but it's not the same as being in the same place as them. These days I'm learning that some people are really stupid and think that everybody who is asian has the corona virus. I've gone out before and seen people give me that dirty look even though they didn't say anything you can just tell what they want to say to me. 
I've also learned there are a lot of stubborn people that don't understand having non essential jobs should be closed a little longer to help prevent more cases of the corona virus. I've also learned that our state officials are taking the corona virus very seriously and are trying their best for. us the people. I think Governor Tim Waltz has been doing a great job by keeping us updated and making executive orders to help lessen the cases of the corona virus. I understand that life won't be exactly back to normal after all of this because it's something that happened all of a suddenly. I know a lot of people will be a lot more careful after this, but this doesn't apply to everyone. Moving forward if something like this happens again(hopefully it doesn't) I know what I need to do for me and my family. 
These days I've been feeling kinda down. I don't really know why, but I have this feeling of void. Even though I'm at home all day long I don't have the chance to go outside. I feel like I'm always stuck in my room sleeping, doing homework, or just watching videos on YouTube. However, my family has been doing a better job coping during the corona virus and I don't what they are doing that's different from what I'm doing.

]]> 2020-05-12 23:19:08 UTC https://padlet.com/tpal2301/uhsml7jmo71unusm/wish/568837661 May 14th Journal tpal2301 https://padlet.com/tpal2301/uhsml7jmo71unusm/wish/578146131 I'm hating quarantine right now. I think I might go crazy with being with my family. My brothers are so annoying that I just want them to stay at my dad's house for the rest of the year.  I'm getting sick and tired of getting yelled at for what my brother's are doing. I hate being the oldest from my siblings since my younger brothers never listen to me. They both come to me yelling to settle a fight for them, but when I tell them both something they don't want to listen. My mom's not home because she is at work, so it's my siblings and I with my grandpa and aunt. 
I honestly am starting to hate my whole family because they are being so annoying that I don't want to deal any one of them. I'm finally starting to go crazy in quarantine with my family. I want this just to be all over so we can go back to being away from each other at school. I honestly hate school sometimes too since I don't always love being in the class, but it's better then being at home with my brothers.  I don't know how much longer I can last with my brothers. One minute we are all fine and everything is fine and then the next they have to find something to fight about and the whole house is chaotic. 
I'm sick and tired of my brothers. I hate being their older sister. I feel like I'm powerless and they just think I'm some sort of a push over. I hate having to be involved with their stupid fights and then getting dragged into the blame by my family. I have literally done nothing and I'm also getting in trouble with them. This is honestly so unfair in so many ways and I'm just all this to be a bad dream, but it's not and that's what makes it worse.]]> 2020-05-17 17:29:01 UTC https://padlet.com/tpal2301/uhsml7jmo71unusm/wish/578146131 May 19th Journal tpal2301 https://padlet.com/tpal2301/uhsml7jmo71unusm/wish/589623476 I'm worried about my GPA not being affected since this quarter is going to be a credit or no credit grading thing. My grades right now is a lot better than my other grades, so it would be really convenient for it to affect my GPA since my grades are so good. The district decided this would be better, but I disagree. It honestly just puts more stress on kids trying to raise their GPA to be better than it is now. Distance learning isn't easier than being at school, so it doesn't make any sense why it shouldn't be accounted for in our GPA. Distance learning is honestly harder than being at school since I have to do things without the teachers help and without any peers around to help either.
I'm really sad that I couldn't finish my very first year of high school and I'm sure the seniors are even more sad not getting the graduation that they worked for over 12 years. I'm sad that I can't see my friends at school anymore and we can't really see each other outside of school either so it's just a lot harder. I can't go to dance class to see my friends that don't go to the same school as me and that really upsetting to us. The new memories we could have made together is all gone. The things we wanted to do this year we can't do together even though we planned it a long time ago. We were all stripped away from opportunities that could have been given to us. 
I'm really anxious about how the rest of the year is going to be like. I'm glad that the school work will be ending soon, but there is still so much to worry about. We don't know when there will be a vaccine for this virus and we don't know if our loved ones are safe. I don't even know if I'm safe and that's really scary. I'm someone that stays home a lot, but there are a lot of times when I just need to go somewhere or else I feel really stuffy. We all don't know if everything will really be normal again after all of this or if this doesn't go away we will have to make this our new normal. It's just a time where everything is confusing and we don't know what to do.]]> 2020-05-22 19:24:44 UTC https://padlet.com/tpal2301/uhsml7jmo71unusm/wish/589623476 May 21st Journal tpal2301 https://padlet.com/tpal2301/uhsml7jmo71unusm/wish/589624154 I've been realizing lately how we all need that place to kinda just get away sometimes and for me that was school, but now I don't have that place. It gets really frustrating at times, but there are also really good times too. It's just a big mess right now and we just have to see if we can get through it. It's a mix of a good and bad dream and we just have to learn to deal with it even if we don't like everything. I just have to remember it's not just me that is having a tough time everyone else is as well.
I got the chance to reflect on myself and how I should change. I realized that I lack in a lot of ways and also have a lot of good attributes. It's a time where I actually can actually figure out what's important to me and finding myself in a way. I have been finding out things that interest me and also looking into a career I can follow and set up a path for myself. This distance learning time has given me the opportunity to do things that I have been putting off for a while since I'm home the whole day now. 
I've learned recently that our city mayor is making an order to have to wear masks outside in the city of Minneapolis. It was said to be emplaced on this coming Tuesday. I see that politicians in our community are making decision that will help stop the spread of the virus in our city. It's obvious that our city is taking it really serious since the mayor is making this an executive order for everyone that comes into or lives in our city. It's really reassuring that they putting these orders in place because now I know that it's a little bit safer than normal.

]]> 2020-05-22 19:25:13 UTC https://padlet.com/tpal2301/uhsml7jmo71unusm/wish/589624154 May 26th Journal tpal2301 https://padlet.com/tpal2301/uhsml7jmo71unusm/wish/595025925 It's been really hot these days and my room is burning up. Last night it was so hard to sleep because it was so hot, but when I woke up my whole body was covered by my blanket. In the past 3 days we found two big bees or wasps or whatever it was. I was so scared I almost didn't even want to go downstairs and when my mom caught it she scared me with it. My younger brother that's the middle child left to go to my dad's house and my youngest brother and I stayed at my mom's house. I have been doing searching of new houses because my family might be moving soon so I thought I might help them. 
These days my family are going vegetarian because it's the month in my culture that is very auspicious and we celebrate it by praying and not eating meat or eggs. I'm not like my grandparents and mom so I gave up on the second day, but I will be not eating meat and eggs on the days that are really important during the month. I honestly had the hardest time trying to be vegetarian because I'm not used to doing it like my grandparents and mom. My grandma did want me to  do it the until the 15th day, but I couldn't do it. I even dreamt about eating meat and I felt so bad in my dream thinking it was real, but then I woke up and realized I didn't eat it yet. It was the same day I gave up being vegetarian.
I also remembered today is the day when in Minneapolis you have to wear a mask overtime you go outside because of the new rule. I have been wearing my mask when going to public places like the grocery store and I just have it with me at all times when I leave the house. I bring just in case I need it or if I'm going be out of the car for a while or something like that. My mom has been making my brother and I to do crossword puzzles these days since we kinda have been slacking off. She is also making us go on walks and stuff so we don't just stay locked in our rooms or playing video games all day.]]> 2020-05-26 15:19:20 UTC https://padlet.com/tpal2301/uhsml7jmo71unusm/wish/595025925 May 28th Journal tpal2301 https://padlet.com/tpal2301/uhsml7jmo71unusm/wish/601697010 Our community is outraged these days because of the death of George Floyd. South Minneapolis is burning because people feel like this will bring justice for George Floyd. There are people being shot by rubber bullets by the police. There are people getting teargassed by the police. The first person to start destroying property was actually a police officer. It's crazy how Mr. Freeman said there is "other evidence" that makes them unable to charge the officers with the murder of George Floyd.
I don't condone people destroying property and more. However, the first Target did refuse to sell milk to the protesters to help with the teargas and that caused an upraise. They were saying that they agree with what the police is doing and ended up getting looted, robbed, and destroyed. I do feel bad for the many employees that no longer have a job anymore because of the decision the higher ups made. I also think it almost unacceptable for people to burning buildings and stores. There are little kids living in these areas and think about how scared to death they are because of this whole situation. Some people are not thinking about how the innocent workers and neighbors have to deal with all the damage they caused.
I'm not saying that the police officers weren't at fault, but I also don't think causing all this destruction is the best option. It was suppose to be a peaceful protest, but some people are ruining the whole point of the protest by causing all this destruction. The girlfriend of George Floyd even said he was a very peaceful man and thinks he would be sad by all the things that are happening right now in Minneapolis and in Minnesota in general. Doing all this shouldn't be honor of George Floyd because he didn't want this. He would have wanted justice and if people continue to keep doing this it might become really hard for just to happen. This whole incident has the attention of the whole country and other countries and it's crazy what social media can do. It's bad that people are destroying things, but I also understand where they are coming from. I understand they feel very hurt, angry, frustrated, and furious, but it's not the innocent workers and neighbors fault.]]> 2020-05-29 18:11:24 UTC https://padlet.com/tpal2301/uhsml7jmo71unusm/wish/601697010