Ans: My past relationship ruined my utopian idea of a relationship, you have as a kid, i did feel things but i felt a lot of sadness and betrayal too. My current relationship feels like something i always wanted, to be in peace while being with someone, to be loved, adored, been bought roses without even asking for, i do feel some sadness here and there but thats longing, this pain is not of betrayal or being treated wrong.

2. About his going to abroad, my mind says... but my heart says...

ans: my mind says it for his/our betterment; he needs to learn a lot of things while being on his own. My heart, on the other hand, is scared of losing him to the distance because it has happened to me before.

3. My biggest worry is ..., but the reality might be...

ans: my biggest worry is feeling like what if i am not worthy enough in my life as a person, as a person with a career but the reality is i know i am worthy of everything i get, i hace given a lot of effort for it no matter what it is, i deserve happiness in all standards of my life.

4. Things I want to do for myself while he’s away are…

ans: i want to work on my career, he made himself a better person for me and thats exactly what i want to do, I want to work on my emotions so i don't annoy him way too much because i know he has too much on his plate. I want to be his support in other words.

5. One reason I can trust this bond is… because my insecurities are nothing like before, its just my projection of my past but in reality this is the kind of bond we yearn for, the kind of love we don't know we need or desire until you have it.

2. If I could write an unsent letter to my boyfriend about my worries, it would say…

ans : Dear Arvil,

I know I've had been a lot to tolerate since you left for higher studies. I also know that you know this isn't me. I have been trying to heal myself from that. When you were near, I sort of knew my issues, but it had never been a bigger problem because, obviously, your attention was physically accessible to me, but now that it isn't, I have become a person I knew I could become but never believed. I am glad you treated me with only respect, love, and attention. I am glad that when I said that i don't want you to feel the burden of my past issues, you stood your ground and said that you have accepted me with my burden and you are ready to feel them too. I know I don't appreciate you enough, but you are a miracle of a human being. I wish I never lose you to any circumstance. Sometimes I feel that you being who you are is what scares me, how can i ever not be scared of a thought about losing you to someone else when i know all that person will feel with you is happiness? You are an angel, i don't appreciate you enough but i hope you know you have made my heart a better place.