If I could travel anywhere in the world for free I would go to the Maldives. They are a chain of islands of the coast of India. Clear teal water and huts on the beach, sound like the perfect getaway. They have white sand beaches, and fine sand. At night the beaches light up, there is a microscopic animal than lights up as they wash up on the shore. The beach looks like the sky, like it is covered in stars. A place somewhere in the world that is so beautiful, peaceful and serene. It will be a dream come true when I go. I told myself that I would have my honeymoon there, just need to work hard to achieve that goal. Anything can happen and I for sure will make this happen. The beach and the water call me in. A week without any outside world communication just my husband and I, it will be a dream.

4/29/15

There is so much stress involving school and getting a good education. I
have several classes where I have been studying for major tests. Aside from the
SAT's and the ACT's, so much studying has to be done. If one of these tests are
failed than you are done, you can retake but how do you stop being nervous and
how you do study everything perfectly. Forget about a life or any
extracurricular activates you want to be involved in. All your time has to be
focused on studying and doing your homework. The smart kids that are smart
naturally and can play sports and do have time because they get done with
school fast. but for me studying and completing homework takes such a long
time. It takes me a lot longer to register and understand some information so,
I end up wasting a lot more time only because studying comes harder to me.

5/1/15

I am so nervous about college. I do not have much experience with the
outside world, how am I supposed to pull out a major out the top of my head. We
are supposed to know what were are good at and what we like. I don’t know what
is out in the world or what might interest me. I am expected to know what I want
to do with my whole life and for the rest of my life hopefully. There is also
an option of military and getting military experience, and getting your
education that way. How do I know what I want or which I can be capable of
doing? It is an internal struggle, do I go to college or do I take 4 years and
get great experience and take some time to think about what I want to do. I
want to start my life get my college degree as quick as I can, but at the same
time I want to go into the military and take time off and work and save up some
money. This decision is crucial and I cannot seem to make up my mind.

5/4/15

I love Netflix. I could watch movies all day long without getting tired, I have
some shows I’ve watched several times from beginning to end. The movies on Netflix
are perfect, there are so many Disney movies I watch and a lot of old classics.
People were complaining that the movie mean girls was not on Netflix. The Netflix
Company found out and they put the movie mean girls on there only because all
they want to do is to please the public. If you complain long enough and get a
group of people you can get any movie you want! Netflix is awesome and cheap, I
watch movies throughout the day and its mostly for sound and something going on,
that is how focus. I watch movies while I do my make up in the morning after I come
home for school when I eat, and of course when I do my homework! It helps me
focus and at night fall asleep. Netflix is great it gives me a variety of
movies and I love movies and shows!

Prom is such a hard time in my family, my step dad is so old fashioned and
thinks it is ridiculous to spend so much money on prom. I understand it adds up
to a lot especially for girls but it’s a once a year event. For two years. I think
I should be able to go without any problems. The dress the hair the ride the
dinner the accessories the nails and so on, it is a lot to ask for but it’s a special
day that shouldn’t be messed with. I hate feeling bad about going, because my
parents make me feel bad about going, but if I called it off they would be mad
because I am not going. I cannot please them. I want the day to be perfect I want
to be tan slim and look gorgeous in my dress. I just want to be truly happy and
have nothing bother me. I wish that I wasn’t feeling down about going to prom
because how ridiculously expensive it is.

5/8/15

I am so excited for summer! The warm weather, long nights, no school almost
no responsibility. Summer is the definition of a perfect vacation whether you
stay home or go somewhere summer will always be fun. I go to Russia on the 20^th
and my last regents is on the 19^th of June. I won’t have time to sit
around and whine it will all happen so quickly. I am so excited to travel, to
go back and see all of my family, but I am not excited for fluent Russian 24/7.
It will be easy but I know some random words I just won’t be able to remember,
and it will be embarrassing. So I go there for two weeks come back on July 4^th
and Denzel comes home July 6^th! So again I don’t wait much everything
is right in order and working out perfectly. He will be home for a week, than I
will rest, and middle of July I have plans to go visit my sister in Washington
dc. Finally In august I will have my birthday and I will also visit NYC. So everything
so far is planned out, and going to be fun.

5/11/15

It is so hard getting up in the morning to go to school half the time, I am
debating whether I should pretend I’m sick or just go. I hate missing school
and making up work but I also hate going to school. I hate trying to put on
clothes in the morning and get ready for a long hard day. School is pretty much
never fun and I’m always so angry, and lazy in school. I always get enough
sleep I am falling asleep around 9:30 or 10. I get a good 8 hours of sleep every
night but I am constantly tired. I am not even lazy just exhausted. I feel like
I do so much during the day that I always nap after school and there is always
so much going on, I just want summer where I can relax and just do nothing. Cannot
wait for summer literally.

5/13/15

I have a cat named sunny. She is my best friend,
she is fat and cuddly! It is ironic because she is a grey and white cat but
when I got her from the shelter her name was Sunny! I never changed it because I
thought it fit her well. Sunny is my girl and only my girl she doesn’t like
anyone else in the family but with me she is amazing. She goes to bed with me every
night and I wake up with her still by my side! She never leaves me and doesn’t whine
too much. When she is crying for food though she makes it clear she is
hungry. I have to drop whatever I am doing to go feed her! I do overfeed her
but only because I love how fat and cuddly she is! She is the type of cat you
can pick up in your arms and she will not move. I could talk about my cat all
day but I have written enough, she is amazing and it is as simple as that.

5/15/15

I love to do make up. I am very artistic and doing a smokey eye is my favorite thing to do. If I could do makeup all day I would. If I had a job as a makeup artist my life
would be fulfilled. It is more than a hobby I have spent so much money on
makeup already it is becoming an investment. I’d like to start an Instagram
account and a youtube account. I did my make up for prom and every single
person commented on it thinking it was done by a professional but I did it
myself. Coming up with different looks is so exciting for me. Knowing about
skin tone, skin type, shapes of eyes, color combinations and so on. My boyfriend
and my mom support me because they have seen firsthand how passionate I am
about make up. It might seem silly to some people but to me it’s an art to me a
lot goes into coming up with a full face of makeup. I am figuring out whether I
can realistically do this for a job or just have it as a hobby.

5/18/15

I do not know what to write about. I am very angry my paragraph for my English class is lost, that I spent half the night writing, I saved it on my computer somewhere no name nothing so I cannot find it I was planning on just opening the Microsoft point but my computer did updates so there was nothing in the tool bar. I am so mad because I will not write another one, I cannot do it. I will take a zero and a bad test grade but
once I wright something I cannot rewrite it not just because its extra time but
I cannot. I cannot have the exact words I had in my last one and that part
kills me, yesterday I had a good day with word choice as well. I really can’t
rewrite it and I am so mad because I spent so much time got so much evidence,
from the story!

5/27/15