Eyes of endless spirals 

Always watching 

Filling my dreams with sorrow 

As if i am soon to face my end 

But not by deathly means 

 if i am no longer human 

As if i simply lack emotion 

Yet I feel pain..

I feel sorrow

I feel anger 

Yet i don't feel love like i used to 

All those i used to love i despise

Even those who have always been there 

Which is what i hate the most 

They always try yet fail..

 the constant failure 

It makes my heart ache for them

As if i'm in the ocean 

They try to save me but end up pushing me deeper into the water 

Coming back to try again 

Save your breath 

Swim up my dear 

You are worth more than I 

You will do greater things than I

Not that i'm pointless but risking yourself for me is in vain

Save your energy

All Saviors make Sacrifices 

Which is why you will never be my savior 

I will not allow someone so precious to risk anything for me 

I do not deserve it 

As i said before My life does have meaning 

But Your light is brighter Than Mine 

You have kindness and patience 

All of you 

I Will try to swim in this Sea of Sprials 

But if I sink don't dive in after me 

A mothers job is to protect their children

 until they can live on their own 

You have to trust me to swim 

If i Sink i tried 

But your Job is done i Release you 

Does one even really know what it means at all? 

Seems as if its a heat mirage 

Always so far yet never attainable 

Some people say they reached the water but is it true?

Did you? 

Did you reach the glorious pond?

Or was it a fountain?

Did it satisfy you?

You will need to drink again 

Some move from one fountain to another

Some stay at the same fountain until it dries and they are forced to move on with their guilt

Some reach a fountain but in fear of poison continue to walk

Others Have tasted the poison fountains and do not trust the others

Some have drank the poison so many times that they have become the poison themselves 

Some have only ever tasted poison and continue to drink it thinking its water

I have tasted the foul poison from friends family and partners

But you..you truly do something to me

I want to be around you however i can 

you're intoxicating 

your laugh your smile 

your dumb jokes 

All else be damned you're all i want 

you are my lake 

I would face fire to see you smile

I would jump the highest heights if you asked of me 

you are My all