I was, I am and I will by Taryna S. Tofil https://padlet.com/tarynas22/s9p657lden7b Always be sleepy. en-us 2018-02-22 16:29:00 UTC 2023-03-10 01:14:00 UTC hello@padlet.com My Five-Year Plan. tarynas22 https://padlet.com/tarynas22/s9p657lden7b/wish/236852313 In five years time, I imagine myself to be opening the doors to my luxurious penthouse, located right at the top of a sky scraper somewhere in the heart of Kuala Lumpur city. I’d make my way to my huge bedroom, immediately being greeted by a 100 million USD Van Gogh painting hanging on the wall above my queen sized bed, complementing the room’s elegant furnishing. After placing the dozens of shopping bags that I had been carrying for half a day, I take off my diamond embellished gold Dior earrings.

That’s when my alarm goes off and I’ll have to wake up from my dream. I won’t realise it at first, laying there on my single bed, questioning the realness of my current surroundings. When it finally hits me, I’ll check the time on my phone, reading 5:03 am. Ah, right, I’m a fifth year medical student, not some rich kid born with a silver spoon in her mouth. Then, I’ll proceed to lay there for another 15 minutes questioning my life decisions before finally starting my day.

In five years time, I’d still be studying while my friends are working. On weekends, I’ll be writing case studies and reports while they go clubbing. I’ll spend my free time catching up on sleep after turning down their offers to hang out. 

Yet, in fifteen years time, while they open the doors to their terrace house and face a grumpy mother-in-law, I’ll be coming home to my penthouse and my precious Van Gogh painting.

Patience.

]]> 2018-03-01 11:58:11 UTC https://padlet.com/tarynas22/s9p657lden7b/wish/236852313 jeremy34 https://padlet.com/tarynas22/s9p657lden7b/wish/237230008 Brilliant! Sounds like a plan. Really well-written.]]> 2018-03-01 23:37:37 UTC https://padlet.com/tarynas22/s9p657lden7b/wish/237230008 A Day In My Life. (First Update) tarynas22 https://padlet.com/tarynas22/s9p657lden7b/wish/237521835 It’s almost 2 am as I write this, in the comfort of my bedroom with the air-conditioner on full blast. Two in the morning, a time when most of the people on this side of the world are asleep, is ironically the time my brain functions best. This is my first night home after spending almost two weeks at my college’s varsity lodge. During that period of time I had missed my parents, my pets and the home itself. Makes you think doesn’t it? About how the human mind can form attachments to objects and even feel a strong love for it. Makes you realise that love comes in so many forms, yet people tend to confine it to only romantic love. Maybe it’s just the fact that the varsity lodge has mosquitoes constantly buzzing right next to my ears or how I toss and turn each night due to the hot weather (and lack of air-conditioning). Sadly, as much as I missed my mother, I missed the chance to see her before her flight to London. So here I am waiting for my brother to update us (my family) upon her arrival at Heathrow Airport.

[3rd March 2018]
]]> 2018-03-02 17:48:02 UTC https://padlet.com/tarynas22/s9p657lden7b/wish/237521835 My Favourite Quote. tarynas22 https://padlet.com/tarynas22/s9p657lden7b/wish/243589931 “RATHER THAN SAD DAYS, WE HOPE TO HAVE BETTER DAYS. THAT’S WHAT MAKES US LIVE. THAT’S WHAT MAKES US DREAM.”
-Kim Namjoon.

Seeing this quote was a form of comfort to me. It made me heave a sigh of relief and made the burden on my shoulders a lot less heavy. Just like everyone else, I have bad days, days that seem as though nothing would work out. Days like those, sometimes get to you so much that you feel like whatever it is you’re working towards is not worth the pain you’re going through. That’s when the quote above comes in. It reminded me that sad days, or tough times are only temporary and that the real thing that we keep working so hard for, that we want to keep living for are the ‘better days’ that awaits us and gives us hope, like the rainbow after the rain.

During those sad days, no matter how hard they may be, no matter what life throws at you, I want you to know that after all, it’s a hard moment or a hard day or a hard week, not a hard life. Those ‘better days’, wherever they may be, I promise they are waiting for you.

So please, promise yourself that you will keep living and keep dreaming.
]]> 2018-03-19 15:57:24 UTC https://padlet.com/tarynas22/s9p657lden7b/wish/243589931 A Great Article tarynas22 https://padlet.com/tarynas22/s9p657lden7b/wish/243636835 As psychiatry has been my ambition ever since I was 11, articles like this always interest me. In this article, they discussed the hardships experienced by a person with borderline personality disorder(BPD) and let readers in on a sneak peek of living with BPD. Out of all the articles I’ve read, this is still one of my favourite as they had interviewed a real BPD patient, hence its content is as its title suggests; emotionally raw. Borderline Personality Disorder, despite being first discovered sometime during the middle of the 20th century, still remains as a rather misunderstood mental illness, causing its patients to be misdiagnosed very often, just like Beth McMullen(the interviewee) had been. Ms McMullen also went on to share her experiences of being correctly diagnosed, treated and how she has been coping with it ever since her diagnosis. For being brave enough to share and speak about such a dark and personal topic, I really respect Ms McMullen.

In a world where the youth tend to romanticise things like depression and suicide and the older generations simply scoff at mental illnesses, I believe articles like this can be very eye opening for a lot of people. Mental illnesses are not ‘cool’, ‘unique’ or ‘just your imagination’, however they are very real and are ruining millions of lives out there. This is why articles like this are so important as it also highlights the seriousness of mental illnesses like BPD. I hope that in the near future, people are more well-informed and understanding when it comes to issues like these. 
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