To dear Ann

I am in the army but I can not concentrate one hundred percent on what I have to do here when I feel not part of my family.

 A few moments ago I learned that my father and yours are related to the affair with the pilots , and I feel so bad the people here judge me they are not sure they can  Trust me and I just want to kill my dad.

 for what he did and what makes me more angry is that my mom also did not think to send me a letter where she tells me about it they treated me like I am not part of the family, how my dad can sit and do business every day three Four soldiers go and do not return.

 Dear Anne I just want you to move on they will probably declare me missing but you have nothing to wait for me because I am not going to return.

Today all the soldiers and all my friends received letters and packages from their families from home.

And those who did not receive a letter from home read a newspaper.

The headline of the paper was "Murderers of young pilots" and it appeared in all the major newspapers.

I didn't understand anything. none of my parents wrote me a letter.

The whole base turns its back on me, and looks at me with accusing eyes.

As if they tell me "like a father, like a son!".

I can not bear his guilt anymore i need to do something.

And what hurts me the most is that  The person I have adored all my life is the "killer".

My father killed 21 young soldiers. little kids.

He only cares about his money and his business.

What's going to happen to me and Chris? What will they say about us?

In a few hours I will go on a mission and I will not return.

Do not feel sorry for me, and do not wait for me .

i want you to start new life.

father has to pay for what he did .

Loving, Larry