but i think i’ll just be that kind of friend for you instead. i’d like to say i could be there at your lowest (i would be if you’re willing), but i’d rather you find comfort in me who knows nothing but to pick up your pieces without the need to question what’s up. i hope you’ll continue to find healing and comfort from the time we get to spend with hee, and know that i’ll always have your back (as i train to be a better juno… please for the love of god i just always find you getting beaten up like BACK UP AND WAIT FOR ME MAN) appreciate you a lot for the time we’ve known each other, and i hope we get to be closer and good friends for a long time!

enjoy your day, get some rest, and game lots. happy birthday! ♡

with love (as a friend),

vien.

-faye

wow, crazy how time flies srsly. i rmb when we first gamed together it was through naomi and it continued to be that trend for a while. the three of us on league... and then eventually we got on valorant too LOL. and then i realized you were on NA for valorant and we started playing more and it spiraled from there. it took you... what? a month? before you vc-ed with me for the first time and i rmb feeling honored asf becuase you ALWAYS had your mic muted. i was like omfg... i'm srsly finally getting to befriend him. :'( <3

that being said, my LORDDD have we gamed. my val duo/carry fr, i'll never find someone like u on this degen game bruh. :'( i love playing w u cuz it's always fun. we make silly jokes and talk about the craziest things, it's a good way to wind down from a stressful day. we haven't gotten to play as much recently cuz i've been busy and i miss it man. </3 even when it's you running around cluelessly on soulblade for like 7 hrs and ending at lvl 2. LOL. any game is always fun with you. league, valorant, overwatch 2, apex (one day... i'm manifesting). even just watching movies or sitting around and listening to music is a blast. you match my sense of humor fr, which is crazy because i don't even usually converse w jaehyuns... ALSGBAKJSDB.

if you ever need a pick-me-up, i'll always be here my guy. whether it's an ear to listen, a shoulder to nudge, or a duo to 'we can't end on a loss' with, i'll be there for you just like you're there for me. i appreciate you as a person and as my friend a whoooole lot and i'm glad to have met you this year. i hope we can continue being friends and i hope that today and the upcoming days are filled with nothing but happiness for you, bestie.

you're amazing and today's special because you make it special, king. may the crash outs end soon and may a hot aespa gf find u soon.

and hey, if u're ever homocurious.. ;)..

lots of icbf love,

shu boo <3

p.s: remember. black mirror season 5 ep 1... without the homosexual stuff... that's us fr... platonic baes... ;)...

p.p.s: thanks for letting me join in on ur aegi yeoja moment. just so you know, if u ever wanna flip ur coin and turn into what u desire, i support u 100%. like srsly, who needs hdns!!!!! PLEASEPELAPSELAPSLEPALSEPALSEPALSEAES PUT THE HDN HAT DOWN I'M BEGGING U PLEASPELAPSLEPALSEPALSEPLASEPL whoa sorry my dog ran over my keyboard lol.

p.p.p.s: i'm so tempted to post that one clip i have of u losing ur mind as iso because of ur lack of sleep. However, because i am such a sexy and awesome person, i will opt out of it for now. live ur life in fear though, for i could post it whenever... wherever... (jk i'm not like dat)

p.p.p.p.s: had to re-edit this because why'd ivy try to beat me with a thousand periods

i know that we don't talk much but it always a pleasure to see you around! i hear about you a lot from shu and what can i say.. you are a very funny fella.. like you srsly kill me whenever shu sends a ss and is like "this guy kills me" i hope that i can continue crossing paths w you (and let's be real i probably will..) so i hope you have a great birthday (please don't crash out on your birthday...) also i shall try my best to hop into vc more often while you guys play val or ow or wtv game you guys play tgt. (pls dont be scared of me... i'm so harmless and non scary T__T) once again, happyyyyy birthday jae!! - saki :3

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just kidding ofc. will i be mei's friend if i don't replicate her yapper tendencies? but it's true that i don't know you well enough to appreciate you as a person. i just know that i've enjoyed my time as pre-friends (idk how to spell aquantancists) with you! i know you're a special one, only because i know mei doesn't just keep anyone around and if there's one thing i know about her is that she's never wrong about her judgement on people ;) in any case, based solely on our interactions, i can tell you're a kind person! i don't know if you can notice but you've never said no to a request from me, whether it be a stream of a specific game, or an icon request, i can count on you to be Obedient. That's right, Omega. it says a lot about someone when they're being this kind to a complete stranger, while expecting and gaining nothing in return! you should also know that my confidence in streaming valo comes from you—the first time i streamed, you happen to be there and complimented me T__T thank you so much jinjja now i will stream for my gfs any time they ask me to (even when my aim is not It that day) i will be thinking of you and how you at least believe in me. i care u and i appreciate u for realsies.

i guess it's safe to say that you earned a lot of brownie points from me? i don't know you that well but i'm very excited and open to creating more memories with you and getting closer, friend-in-law! if you need someone to nerd out to, or if you're looking for bad advice, a quick pick-me-up, or a completely unbiased opinion, my dms are open (but only for 20 mins i have mild adhd smh.) btw my tiktok is full of iris by the goo goo dolls rn your impact fr king

again, happy orbit jae! ౨ৎ˚₊ for today i'll wish you good health, good food, more streams and valorant wins, maybe at least one overwatch win, and a girl to save you from this iris addiction. or maybe a dude. still manifesting your Striking Vipers era with shu lol (jinjja a good black mirror reco from me i YEARNED and PAINED for u to be there when we watched.) pls stay alive for as long as i want you to be <3

4ever loyal stream watcher who pays attention for sure for real guaranteed,

ivy ♡

I had to start this off with a title that would make you want to kick my ass tbh. You know I cant miss a single opportunity when it comes to teasing you, luv ya.

I know I dont say it as often as I should but I appreciate you so much. You were there for me when I felt like I was at my lowest and reminded me every time of my worth and I hope one day I will be able to return the favor. You're such a gentle soul and I wish nothing but the best for you, because you deserve the world and much more. Nonchalance hates to see you coming because you're a lover boy deep down and you deserve to have someone return the same energy that you put into them.

Originally, I thought we were just going to be temp yapping partners but then you started popping up everywhere I was at (stalker much???) and I thought I guess I'll keep talking to you and I found myself happily replying to you even though I had to keep switching accounts to engage in every conversation with you. I enjoyed your company and you slowly became someone I couldn't go a day without bothering because you were a joy to be around and I appreciated the energy you would put into each convo. We have only known each other for a few months but you're someone I refuse to let go of (haaaa bitch you stuck with me now :3).

I'm not going to compete with your huzz and their yapping because I fear you may crash out from the love you're receiving rn. Are you crying yet? Bffr rn, I bet you are. I hope you are because you deserve to be loved and appreciated after all the energy you have put into the people around you and if anyone hates you, im setting their house on fire because they're stupid idiots who are wrong and wrong people dont deserve their homes. Lowkey tempted to post all of my favorite quotes of you sayin the dumbest shit or saying shit that you know I will double down on, but since youre emotionally unav, you gotta keep up that energy.

tldr. you suck at aiming and you need to do better bruh. Like god forbid you get robbed, your ass gettin beat and now youre going to be broke. I'll be your sugar mama tho!! LIKE FR !! LIKE ON GOD !!

luv ya <333

dewey

ps I dont have one, shu was making me feel fomo

pps remember, you posted me first so now youre stuck

ppps hehehe peepee

crash out guy (cog), it's crazy how i've heard about you first—your existence—before even meeting you. don't even ask me about the specifics. let's keep everything mysterious. ^^ oh! oh wait, let me just add that they're all good things, so you don't have to overthink about that.

i remember the first time you invited me to watch your stream. was not expecting a personal invite cause i didn't expect my annoying "where's the stream?" "why are you playing without streaming?" "let me watch???" would be taken seriously. (i do bug THE GAMERS, but i was also kind of anxious y'all will be annoyed by my presence/constant requests). i really appreciated that gesture! although the severe fomoism started there. like no matter what i'm doing, whether i'm at inki or touching grass, i couldn't not click 'watch stream'.

and do you know how nosy you are btw? AOGHSDIOGHSF. i did not ask this to call you out. i asked because it's so funny and endearing at the same time. we got to know each others faves because—you've probably forgotten that bit already—your nosy ass asked why i and aria were locked in. bad news though...i might gatekeep sunghoon from you too. emphasis on might. anyway, feel free to ask me about cardbot stuff if you're gonna come back one day and decide to outrank me on the leaderboards of our faves.

i'm slowly building my pc now so hopefully, i'll end the streamer-watcher relationship. /j not really. i'm lying. i think nothing can replace the delight i feel whenever i watch my favorite streamers on their full degen mode. :hearteyes: but yeah! let's play lots of games until it's 5am for you and for me (and my girlfriends). more games, less crashouts amirite?!

ah, before i forget...if i ever made you feel like i'm mad at you, i'm sorry. i genuinely never had that ill feeling towards you. don't piss me off though. <33333333

anyway! congratulations on your successful trip around the sun, you taurus-built menace. hope i'll be there to greet you on your next completion. look forward to receiving a journal full of your small and colossal crashouts compiled by yours truly. and maybe a song to replace iris. jfc remove it from my fyp please? you're basically dragging us all down. i don't need a repetitive Relapse. jaykay. on a more positive note, i hope you never stop giving a fuck about the people you care about. that nosiness? keep it. it makes you you. i also wish you're always surrounded by comfort and laughter. and maybe a partner soon. aha, hey. i know a spot someone. keep your head high, king. best is yet to cooooome.

HAPPIEST BIRTHDAY, JAE.

xoxo,

bambi

thanks for always being there when i needed to play marvel rivals, overwatch, valo, or wtv latest game of the day. i wanna play more games with you in the future. i hope we can hold hands and hug and squish and squash. please know you're so special to me. your streams make my days better. every time i see you streaming, i always feel fomo especially if i can't join to watch. but when i can, i feel at home and warm inside. its the same with our music sessions. even when everyone gets sick of iris and jumps your ass for it, i don't. i find it very endearing the way someone can love a piece of art so passionately. i think this is just a sneak peek at how loving and caring you can be. i admire that about you. the softness you exude in every aspect of yourself. please don't ever change that about you no matter what happens. it makes you beautiful, they way you bring a warmth to a world so cruel and cold. #cornball_moment

If you're Mr.Crashout I wanna be cornball. cornball x crashout moments <3

I wish only the best for you and for you to have brighter and happier days. My heart aches each time I see you down or withdrawn like you don't feel well enough to be around your friends. You are a precious gem to me and I just wish for your health and well-being to be okay. I know days can get tough, trust me when the shibal shibals, it shibals real damn shibal ass shibal shibal....

thank you for everything and more my fake hdn jaehyun prince. you will always be the only jaehyun for me everrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. also please dm me more before i kms. do i have to fc a woman for you to gaf about me.

love your shibal cornball,

jisung/hex

“Jaehyun, is that a new song?” Jisung asked, his voice full of curiosity.

Jaehyun opened his eyes, flashing a grin. “Oh, Jisung. Didn’t hear you come in.”

The younger boy stepped closer, peeking over Jaehyun’s shoulder at the piano. “It sounds nice. You’ve been playing it for a while now. What’s it about?”

Jaehyun paused, the smile fading slightly as he thought about it. “I don’t know. It’s… just something I started, but it doesn’t feel finished. Like there’s something missing.”

Jisung tilted his head, thinking for a moment. He was always the observant one, able to catch the smallest details that most people missed. “I think I know what’s missing,” he said with a mischievous smile.

Jaehyun raised an eyebrow, amused. “Oh? And what would that be?”

With a grin, Jisung grabbed Jaehyun’s hand, pulling him away from the piano. “Me.”

Jaehyun blinked, not sure where this was going. “What?”

Jisung quickly sat down on the piano bench, his fingers moving to the keys, creating a playful melody that contrasted Jaehyun’s earlier tune. “You’ve got the serious part covered, but I think it needs something a bit more energetic. A bit more fun.”

Jaehyun chuckled, watching as Jisung’s fingers danced across the keys with a speed that surprised him. Jisung had always been good with music, but he was often too shy to show off. It was nice to see him like this—confident, carefree, and genuinely enjoying the moment.

“Alright, alright,” Jaehyun said, stepping back. “Let’s see what you’ve got.”

The two began to play together, Jaehyun’s serious tone blending with Jisung’s lively one, creating a dynamic and unique melody. It felt right, like they were both creating something new, something that neither of them could have made on their own.

As the song played on, Jaehyun couldn’t help but smile. Jisung’s energy was infectious, and it made everything feel more alive. Maybe the song wasn’t finished yet, but with Jisung’s help, it felt like it was getting closer to being something special.

When the final chord played, both of them leaned back, breathless but laughing. Jisung looked up at Jaehyun, his grin wide. “See? Told you it needed me.”

Jaehyun chuckled, ruffling Jisung’s hair. “You were right. Thanks, Jisung.”

The younger boy beamed, his cheeks turning slightly pink. “Anytime.”

Rain hit the windows in heavy sheets, blurring the city lights into a wash of gold and grey. Inside the practice room, Jaehyun stood with his back to the door, head bowed, fingers curling into fists.

He couldn’t even remember what the argument had started over. Maybe a missed step during choreography. Maybe the mounting stress of endless rehearsals. Maybe—deep down—something neither of them had ever dared to say out loud.

Jisung’s voice still echoed in his ears.

"You don't get it, hyung. You never have."

Jaehyun had turned away too quickly, afraid that if he stayed, he would say something he couldn't take back.

Now the room was empty except for him—and the cold realization that he might have broken something fragile. Something he didn’t know how to fix.

**

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Across the building, Jisung sat alone in the stairwell, arms wrapped around his knees. His chest hurt in that tight, ugly way it always did when he fought with Jaehyun. He hated fighting. Especially with him.

Hyung probably doesn’t care, Jisung told himself bitterly. He’s Jaehyun. He can be with anyone. He doesn’t need me clinging to him like some stupid kid.

But the thought didn’t bring him any comfort. It just made the ache worse.

For as long as he could remember, Jaehyun had been the steady center of his universe—warm smiles, reassuring touches, the person who always looked at him like he was more than just the youngest.

And now? Now he felt like he was losing him.

Maybe he already had.

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It was almost midnight when Jaehyun found him.

The stairwell was dim, lit only by a single flickering lightbulb. Jisung didn’t look up when Jaehyun opened the door; he just hugged his knees tighter, like he could make himself smaller, invisible.

Jaehyun crossed the space slowly, each step feeling heavier than the last.

"Jisung-ah..." he said, voice rough.

Jisung flinched, but didn’t answer.

Jaehyun crouched down in front of him, heart cracking at the sight of Jisung’s tear-streaked face.

"I’m sorry," Jaehyun said immediately. "I was... I was wrong. I should’ve listened to you."

Finally, Jisung looked at him, eyes glassy but burning.

"You don’t get it," Jisung whispered, voice breaking. "I wasn’t mad because of the dance. I was mad because... because you keep pushing me away like I don’t matter."

Jaehyun’s throat closed up.

"You matter," he said fiercely. "You matter more than you know."

Jisung shook his head, a bitter laugh escaping. "Then why do you act like you're scared of me?"

Jaehyun didn’t answer right away. He couldn’t. Because the truth was too heavy. Too terrifying.

Because if he admitted it, there would be no going back.

But looking at Jisung now—small, hurting, brave enough to say what Jaehyun couldn’t—he realized something:

He didn’t want to go back.

He wanted this. Jisung. Always had.

With shaking hands, Jaehyun reached out, gently brushing Jisung’s hair back from his forehead.

"I’m not scared of you," he said softly. "I’m scared of how much I love you."

Jisung’s breath caught audibly.

"You..." he croaked. "You love me?"

Jaehyun smiled, tears stinging his own eyes now. "Yeah. I do. I’m sorry it took me so long to tell you."

For a long, suspended moment, Jisung just stared at him. Then, with a choked sound, he launched forward, wrapping his arms tightly around Jaehyun's neck.

Jaehyun caught him, holding him so tightly it almost hurt, but neither of them minded. The weight between them, the fear, the misunderstanding—it all dissolved in that desperate, clinging embrace.

"You’re my home, hyung," Jisung whispered into his shoulder. "You always have been."

Jaehyun closed his eyes, breathing him in.

"And you’re mine," he whispered back. "You always will be."

Everyone expected alphas to be rivals.

Especially Jaehyun and Jisung.

Both of them were strong. Talented. Charismatic in ways that made people instinctively look at them the moment they entered a room. They were praised, compared, pushed against each other even without meaning to be.

Alpha instincts were supposed to clash.

But somehow, they didn’t.

From the start, there was something different about the way Jaehyun and Jisung fit together.

Like two storms circling the same center of gravity — dangerous if they collided the wrong way, but unstoppable when they moved in sync.

**

It started late one night, after a showcase.

The afterparty was loud, full of noise and scent and energy. Too many people. Too much heat. Jaehyun felt it prickling along his skin, that restless Alpha urge to move, breathe, get out.

He caught Jisung’s eye across the room — sharp, intense — and without a word, Jisung understood.

Minutes later, they were outside, walking in silence through the empty streets, the city lights painting gold across their faces.

"You okay?" Jaehyun asked, voice low.

Jisung nodded, but didn’t look at him. His hands were stuffed into his jacket pockets, shoulders tight.

"You?"

Jaehyun hesitated. Then shook his head, smiling a little. "Not really."

A beat of silence.

Then Jisung let out a breath that sounded almost like a laugh — tired, real. "Same."

That night, they ended up at Jaehyun’s place, sprawled out on the couch, a bottle of water between them. Neither one talked much. They didn’t need to.

The air between them was heavy but not uncomfortable. Tense, but electric.

Jaehyun caught himself staring at Jisung’s hands — the way they moved, restless even when he was sitting still. He wondered what it would feel like, to hold those hands. To let go of all the unspoken rules that said alphas were supposed to dominate, to fight for space.

He wondered if Jisung felt the same pull — the same maddening curiosity wrapped up in longing.

**

Weeks passed.

The tension grew.

They started training together late at night, long after the others had left. Sparring. Dancing. Testing each other’s strength in ways that left Jaehyun breathless, aching, wanting.

Every brush of skin, every glance held a little too long — it built between them like a storm on the edge of breaking.

One night, after an especially brutal sparring match, they stood facing each other, both panting hard.

Jisung’s shirt was half-untucked, his hair a mess, his lips swollen from where he’d bitten them in concentration.

Jaehyun stepped closer, pulse thundering in his ears.

"You don’t back down," Jaehyun said, voice rough.

Jisung smirked, but there was a flicker of something vulnerable in his eyes. "Neither do you."

Their scents tangled in the air, thick and heady — two alphas challenging, testing, pulling each other closer with every heartbeat.

"You drive me insane," Jaehyun muttered.

And then, before he could think better of it, he grabbed Jisung by the collar and