It's been 182 days where I write you a letter that my therapist said would help me get over you. Not sure how this is supposed to help me, but here I am. It's been 7 months, 8 days, and 3 hours since we broke up. Kind of sick I know this exact number honestly. I wish I could forget this number. I have tried hard to forget. To forget how we met. To forget how your hugs felt. To forget the fact we clearly fell in love without even having the chance to date properly. To forget how much space you took up in my heart. It hurts. I had hoped the hurt would have ended after 4 months, but it never did. I hoped it ended when I left to do some mandatory work, but no. I don't think this will ever get easier for me. I miss you.

I miss the smiles you would give me when we saw each other. I miss our pet names we gave each other. I miss your kisses, your hugs, the way you didn't judge me. I don't think I will ever stop loving you. I just think I may try finding the love you gave me in someone else. I hope in every other universe we are happy and in love because I know we couldn't find it here. I just sincerely hope you find love in someone else. That you give them everything you gave me and more. I hope my thoughts can reach you since this letter never will be seen by you. Take care of yourself.

- Love, Taeyang

P.S - You are doing great in your drama, Seoham. I'm proud of you. I always have been.

Taeyang had set down the pen that was in his hand. Staring down at the journal that was on desk, his tears clearly sliding down his cheeks as his chest tightened. The same line he wrote in every single entry because he meant it. I hope in every other universe we are happy and in love because I know we couldn't find it here. He had hoped it was true. He did his best to close the journal that was clearly filled with more than just pages. Mostly having photos he had printed of Seoham and him that he had taken when they were together. It was nice memories but Taeyang knew why he had them in there. To make himself suffer and think about how good they had it together. About how stupid Taeyang was to just run away from the one man who loved him more than life itself. How stupid was Taeyang that he had even went to a hospital to get tested and was ready to show the man the truth until his own family convinced him it was a bad idea.

His family... The people who saw how happy Taeyang was with Seoham. Who heard everything about how much this man loved him. The people who told Taeyang that the moment he told Seoham he was an omega that the man would leave him. His chest had tightened as he was brought back to that moment where he was shaking at home in fear. "He loved me.... But he would have left me too.." Taeyang mumbled to himself as he tossed the journal somewhere out of sight. Covering his face on his desk before he got up to slip into bed. "Get over it, Taeyang. You'll never meet again... Not in this universe at least."