my journal by Wolfielie

day 1

Wolfielie — 2024-09-18 13:58:08 UTC

not much happened, but some assholes were trash talking me behind my back. It makes me want to STRANGLE THEM.

11/6/24

Wolfielie — 2024-11-06 20:52:19 UTC

WHO KEPT ON FREAKING PUTTING POSTS HERE?????T^T i cant believe i forgor to turn off writing permissions T^T and what..... the stuff i saw there T^T but, nothing much happened today, but the school counselor i was close with came back :> I found out trump won the election and i am scared for my safety :( also bye literally all my rights TwT

11/12/24

Wolfielie — 2024-11-12 15:10:04 UTC

I don't know how to word this, but i kind of don't feel myself. like not my thoughts or feelings or even my DNA. I'm a therian and when i reconnect with my roots, i feel at home but then a realization kicks in like no other. I'm just a visitor in this world. Just a traveler. I try and try to get it out of my head but nothing works. The longing to just be, to just run with no worries. To be without knowing the burdens of the world. Its overpowering. I feel wrong...

11/14/24

Wolfielie — 2024-11-14 15:06:08 UTC

nothing rly happened so far, but some guy kept on barking at me in the hall... like what? idk -shrugs-

11/26/24

Wolfielie — 2024-11-26 15:19:03 UTC

Honestly i don't see why its fun to make fun of someone that's different. that just makes you look like a jackass. not cool. but, recently i got obsessed with this song, "mesmerizer" and it clearly depicts my life right now TwT. hopefully I can get over this depression. but that time is not now.

12/13/2024

Wolfielie — 2024-12-13 15:13:11 UTC

god..... why am I like this.... so, i kinda cut myself yesterday... and i just feel generally like a asshole T^T my depression meds are wearing off, and i'm having more su1cidal thoughts than usual... sorry if i'm wasting your time, i just wanted to get this off my chest.... I just don't know what to do...

1/15/25

Wolfielie — 2025-01-15 15:29:57 UTC

Im trying to figure out my persona and i think im narrowing it down :) but not as much has happened ig. the increase in the meds are working :3 ...

1/31/25

Wolfielie — 2025-01-31 15:11:19 UTC

god i hurt myself again and ughhhh T^T idk what else to say but its kinda annoying to hide it :< welp seeya

1/26/25

Wolfielie — 2025-02-26 15:34:32 UTC

UH HELP???? i just found out they are sending trans KIDS to concentration camps. aren't those places where you DIE? I FEEL REALLY UNSAFE AND A BIT SCARED. FUCK TRUMP IDC IF U LIKE TRUMP OR NOT HES KILLING KIDS AND COULD KILL ME GOD

5/14/25

Wolfielie — 2025-05-14 14:23:24 UTC

Hey! it looks like i haven't been on this in a long time, but for an update, everything is going pretty smoothly! :3 Im going to the II x TPOT tour (EEEEEEEEE), i started kandi and its helping as a calming down thing, i changed my name and some people are actually trying to use it, and i just genuinely feel ok! :] There's still things like my sleep catching up to me, and loads of homework to do but overall everything's going fine. cya

9/19/25

Wolfielie — 2025-09-19 11:40:51 UTC

One of my teachers took a point off my assignment because I put my name instead of my deadname. WTF???? like, IM SORRY? And her excuse was that "People will deadname you all the time! you need to get over it". BUDDY WHENEVER I HEAR THAT NAME I FEEL LIKE SHIT. WDYM? some kid also asked me but i thought your name was 'deadname'. 17 times. I counted. LOL. bro also told me to tell my bf that he was gonna fight him. That's not a good idea considering that our friend group is like the size of vegas. But, high school has been okay otherwise, I'm in a lot of classes with my friends and I'm having fun. Cya guys :p (oh and btw the 2nd day of school i hurt myself. I think i just have trauma- ToT tho im fine now btw)

12/4/25

Wolfielie — 2025-12-04 14:01:42 UTC

wow... it's been a while guys... i... sigh... a lot happened i don't even know where to start. first, that most big thing. I overdosed. like, seriously tried it. It was a bad experience. I... don't know what came over me at that time but i'm trying to get better. I have IOP and group therapy now, its helping i think and my friends keep me sane. heh... Well i worked out a thing with a friend too, with me making others uncomfortable. It was a much needed conversation and both of us feel better about it. were figuring it out but yeah. Im getting better slowly. Haven't relapsed in a bit so that's a plus! wish me luck gng. bye