Epilogue by Lylah Flores

Epilogue by Lylah Flores https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p Mansion- My mind is a house with walls covered in lyrics, they're all over the place There's songs in the mirrors written all over the floors, all over the chairs And you get the uncut version of life when I go downstairs. en-us 2019-01-25 00:44:57 UTC 2023-07-02 15:12:13 UTC hello@padlet.com Heaven s145710 https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/324196273 Awake, wide eyed
I'm screaming at me
Trying to keep faith and picture their face
Staring up at me

Without losing a piece of me
How do I get to heaven?
Without changing a part of me
How do I get to heaven?
All my time is wasted
Feeling like my heart's mistaken, oh
So if I'm losing a piece of me
Maybe I don't want heaven?
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Without losing a piece of me
How do I get to heaven?
Without changing a part of me
How do I get to heaven?

All my time is wasted
Feeling like my heart's mistaken, oh
So if I'm losing a piece of me
Maybe I don't want heaven?

]]> 2019-01-25 00:46:11 UTC https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/324196273 The Village s145710 https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/324196479 No, your mom don't get it
And your dad don't get it
Uncle John don't get it

And you can't tell grandma
'Cause her heart can't take it
And she might not make it

]]> 2019-01-25 00:47:50 UTC https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/324196479 s145710 https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/324197262 2019-01-25 00:49:41 UTC https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/324197262 Bad Liar s145710 https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/324197395 So look me in the eyes, tell me what you see
Perfect paradise, tearin' at the seams
I wish I could escape, I don't wanna fake it
Wish I could erase it, make your heart believe

But I'm a bad liar, bad liar
Now you know, now you know,
That I'm a bad liar, bad liar
Now you know, you’re free to go

]]> 2019-01-25 00:50:47 UTC https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/324197395 Climb s145710 https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/324197502 There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waitin' on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down,
But no, I'm not breaking
I may not know it,
But these are the moments
That I'm gonna remember most, yeah
Just gotta keep goin',

And I, I gotta be strong
Just keep pushing on]]> 2019-01-25 00:51:42 UTC https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/324197502 21 Questions s145710 https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/324197674 My mood's dictated by our conversations,
And if you don't text I get too frustrated.
I want you all to myself this time.
Conflicted looks good on me.
I'm trying desperately.
I want you all to myself this time.

I never have to
Carefully shape sentences
When I've got some words to say,
They're falling from my mouth from the time
That they hit my brain.

'Cause we built a picture made for frames.
We live in chemistry away from all the wasted time and taste.

But then what?
You dropped your guy and took me on,
It's everything I wanted,
But then what?
Would you get tired of my time?

]]> 2019-01-25 00:53:05 UTC https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/324197674 Halfway Right s145710 https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/324197795 I scream at myself when there’s nobody else to fight
I don’t lose, I don’t win, if I’m wrong, then I’m halfway right
I know what I want, but It feels like I’m paralyzed
I don’t lose, I don’t win, if I’m wrong, then I’m halfway right]]> 2019-01-25 00:54:02 UTC https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/324197795 Bloodstain s145710 https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/324198677 I'm gonna pull myself together
Gonna wait 'till it's forever
Gonna find someone who'll stay
Who's not afraid of what I'm asking for
I know love is never easy
With this scar that's gonna leave me
I would rather love and bleed than never feel love at all

And I'm bleeding
I'm alright with it
Darling, I'm alright with it
And I'm bleeding out
But I'm alright with it
Darling, I'm alright with it
It's just a bloodstain

]]> 2019-01-25 00:59:49 UTC https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/324198677 Inner Demons s145710 https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/324200583 They say it won't be hard, they can't see the battles in my heart
But when I turn away
The demons seem to stay
'Cause inner demons don't play well with angels
They cheat and lie and steal and break and bruise
Angels please protect me from these rebels
This is a battle I don't want to lose]]> 2019-01-25 01:13:22 UTC https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/324200583 Brother s145710 https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/324200962 Oh brother, we'll go deeper than the ink
Beneath the skin of our tattoos
Though we don't share the same blood
You're my brother and I love you that's the truth

We're living different lives
Heaven only knows
If we'll make it back With all our fingers and our toes
5 years, 20 years, come back
It will always be the same

]]> 2019-01-25 01:16:25 UTC https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/324200962 s145710 https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/324201629 2019-01-25 01:21:40 UTC https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/324201629 Hold On s145710 https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/324204921 Hold on, I still want you
Come back, I still need you
Let me take your hand, I'll make it right
I swear to love you all my life
Hold on, I still need you

]]> 2019-01-25 01:44:23 UTC https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/324204921 Scars s145710 https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/324312038 I tear my heart open
I sew myself shut
My weakness is
That I care too much
My scars remind us
That the past is real
I tear my heart open
Just to feel]]> 2019-01-25 13:56:11 UTC https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/324312038 Island s145710 https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/324313899 Almost so perfect
Way that I want you
I'm almost deserving when I get close to you
I disappear - lost in the waves - I go under, under

I am an island
You are the ocean
So close we're touching, completely surrounded
But I cannot have you the way that I want to
Because I am an island you are the ocean
No I cannot have you, I cannot have you without drowning.

]]> 2019-01-25 14:00:48 UTC https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/324313899 Duality s145710 https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/324314900 Duality
I have a confession that you will not believe
That you could not perceive this freak, gonna set it off
I have a confession, of a side that I hide

It's a cloak or disguise unleashed, gonna get it off
No, I'll never get away
Cause if I try to stray
It only holds me closer
No, I'll never get away
I'll have it any way

I'll never stop
I can't quite contain or explain my evil ways
Or explain why I'm not sane
All I can say is this is your warning
I can't quite contain or explain my evil ways
Or explain why I'm not sane

]]> 2019-01-25 14:03:42 UTC https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/324314900 s145710 https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/324536396 2019-01-26 02:01:40 UTC https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/324536396 s145710 https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/324536505 2019-01-26 02:03:17 UTC https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/324536505 s145710 https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/324536679 2019-01-26 02:06:16 UTC https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/324536679 s145710 https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/324537986 2019-01-26 02:27:17 UTC https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/324537986 s145710 https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/324537991 2019-01-26 02:27:23 UTC https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/324537991 s145710 https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/324538370 2019-01-26 02:32:07 UTC https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/324538370 Hey Brother s145710 https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/324628763 Hey brother
There's an endless road to rediscover
Hey sister
Know the water's sweet, but blood is thicker

Oh, if the sky comes falling down
For you, there's nothing in this world I wouldn't do]]> 2019-01-27 02:16:06 UTC https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/324628763 Strangers s145710 https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/328101162 we're not lovers, we're just strangers
With the same damn hunger
To be touched, to be loved, to feel anything at all
We're not lovers, we're just strangers
With the same damn hunger
To be touched, to be loved, to feel anything at all

]]> 2019-02-06 03:44:32 UTC https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/328101162 Bury a Friend s145710 https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/351531733 What do you want from me? Why don't you run from me?
What are you wondering? What do you know?
Why aren't you scared of me? Why do you care for me?
When we all fall asleep, where do we go?

I wanna end me.

]]> 2019-04-15 01:09:53 UTC https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/351531733 s145710 https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/351538106 2019-04-15 01:53:18 UTC https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/351538106 s145710 https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/351538640 2019-04-15 01:56:43 UTC https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/351538640 Same Love s145710 https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/358692338 The right-wing conservatives think its a decision
And you can be cured with some treatment and religion
Man-made, rewiring of a pre-disposition. Playing God
Ahh nah, here we go
America the brave
Still fears what we don't know And God loves all his children it's somehow forgotten
But we paraphrase a book written 35 hundred years ago
I don't know.

And I can't change
Even if I tried, even if I wanted to
Even if I tried, even if I wanted to
My love, my love, my love
She keeps me warm

]]> 2019-05-09 22:46:10 UTC https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/358692338 Sharp edges s145710 https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/361452224 Sharp edges have consequences
I guess that I had to find out for myself
Sharp edges have consequences
Now every scar is a story I can tell]]> 2019-05-19 05:48:43 UTC https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/361452224 Kids in the dark s145710 https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/361452332 Here we are At the end of the road,
a road that's quietly caving in
Come too far to pretend that we don't,
we don't miss where we started
Looking back, I see a setting sun,
and watch my shadow fade into the floor
I am left standing on the edge
Wondering how we got this far

They left us alone, The Kids In The Dark
To burn out forever, Or light up a spark
We come together, State of the art
We'll never surrender, The kids in the dark
So let the world sing
"What a shame, What a shame
Beautiful scars On critical veins"
Come together, State of the art
We'll never surrender The Kids in the dark

]]> 2019-05-19 05:50:45 UTC https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/361452332 Follow you s145710 https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/361452469 Show me what I can't see when the spark in your eyes is gone
You've got me on my knees I'm your one man cult
Cross my heart and hope to die
Promise you I'll never leave your side
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So you can drag me through hell
If it meant I could hold your hand
I will follow you 'cause I'm under your spell
And you can throw me to the flames
I will follow you, I will follow you

Come sink into me and let me breathe you in
I'll be your gravity, you be my oxygen
So dig two graves 'cause when you die
I swear I'll be leaving by your side

So you can drag me through hell
If it meant I could hold your hand
I will follow you 'cause I'm under you spell
And you can throw me to the flames

]]> 2019-05-19 05:53:04 UTC https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/361452469 Old Scars/Future Hearts s145710 https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/361452896 I won't fade away
Be forgotten or just cast away
This life is mine to live
I won't fade away
I am lost inside this endless haze of life
But this life is mine to live

We got scars on our future hearts
But we never looked back
No, we never looked back

]]> 2019-05-19 06:00:56 UTC https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/361452896 Scars s145710 https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/361453017 Try to tear us apart but know that we'll wear our scars]]> 2019-05-19 06:03:24 UTC https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/361453017 s145710 https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/369868696 2019-07-01 21:52:50 UTC https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/369868696 s145710 https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/369888132 2019-07-02 01:41:43 UTC https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/369888132 s145710 https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/369888179 2019-07-02 01:41:58 UTC https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/369888179 One More Light s145710 https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/369888911 Who cares if one more light goes out, in the sky of a million stars?
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Well, I do. ]]> 2019-07-02 01:47:50 UTC https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/369888911 s145710 https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/381362013 2019-09-08 21:25:38 UTC https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/381362013 Wanted s145710 https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/381362093 You know I'd fall apart without you
I don't know how you do what you do
'Cause everything that don't make sense about me
Makes sense when I'm with you

Like everything that's green, girl, I need you
But it's more than one and one makes two
Put aside the math and the logic of it
You gotta know you're wanted too

'Cause I wanna wrap you up
Wanna kiss your lips
I wanna make you feel wanted
And I wanna call you mine
Wanna hold your hand forever
And never let you forget it
Yeah, I, I wanna make you feel wanted

]]> 2019-09-08 21:26:12 UTC https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/381362093 s145710 https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/381362369 2019-09-08 21:28:40 UTC https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/381362369 Ghost s145710 https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/398254949 I tried it once again and I think I might black out
I should have left a letter but I had nothing to write about
My blood is all around me, I get dizzy if I stand up
The cutting part was easy but regretting it was so fucked.

Yeah, take the blade away from me
I am a freak, I am afraid that
All the blood escaping me won't end the pain
And I'll be haunting all the lives that cared for me]]> 2019-10-16 01:45:06 UTC https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/398254949 Coming Down s145710 https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/438573019 I could never be what you want me to
You pulled me under to save yourself.
You will never see what's inside of me
I pulled you under just to save myself

Was there ever any question on how much I could take?
You kept feeding me your bullshit, hoping I would break
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Step away from the ledge, I'm coming down

]]> 2020-01-31 02:25:55 UTC https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/438573019 Change s145710 https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/438573584 Yeah, look
I don't do drugs, I'm addicted to the pain though
Yeah, I been on it for a while, dunno how to put it down
Gotta have it, it's a habit I'ma break though
I just wanna take a hit, keep sayin' I'ma quit
Keep sayin' I'ma leave, but I stay though
I just want a little fix, I don't wanna take a risk
I don't like it when I drift from the safe zone
But lately, I been thinkin' I'ma have to,
Lettin' go of things that I'm attached to
World don't stop just because I'm in a bad mood
You don't know what love is 'til you holdin' onto somethin' that you can't lose
I swear I'm tryna get it together
Sleeves up, puttin' work in, tryna be better]]> 2020-01-31 02:28:20 UTC https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/438573584 pageholder s145710 https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/610269975 2020-06-04 05:57:09 UTC https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/610269975 Why You Gotta Kick Me When I'm Down? s145710 https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/610270785 But tell me, why you gotta kick me when I'm down?
You better pray I don't get up this time around
And why you tryna put me in the ground?
---
Yeah, I know it's all in good fun, but
Don't say it's coming from love now
I see those arms in akimbo
And don't set that phaser to stun
'Cause what doesn't kill me, well, it better run like hell
Yeah, you better run like hell]]> 2020-06-04 05:57:55 UTC https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/610270785 Stronger s145710 https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/610274645 Set me on fire
I'm still alive

Bet you didn't think that I'd come back to life

Stronger

Bet you thought that I was dead
But I'm not dead, I'm not dead

]]> 2020-06-04 06:01:29 UTC https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/610274645 Don't You Dare Forget The Sun s145710 https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/610276262 Well I know your laying back,
Contemplating your own death
Well just look at what you've done
Don't you dare forget the sun, Love!]]> 2020-06-04 06:02:49 UTC https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/610276262 I Apologize s145710 https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/610279913 One day the shadows will surround me

All these times I simply stepped aside
I watched but never really listened
As the whole world passed me by
All this time I watched from the outside
Never understood what was wrong or what was right
I apologize

]]> 2020-06-04 06:05:57 UTC https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/610279913 Hymn s145710 https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/610286524 Pretty reckless, pretty wild
Talking shit and we'll just smile
Don't you see these fuckin' crowns?
If you know what I mean, you on the team

This is a hymn for the hymnless, kids with no religion
Yeah, we keep on sinning, yeah, we keep on singing
Flying down the highway, backseat of the Hyundai
Pull it to the front, let it run, we don't valet
Sorry if you're starstruck, blame it on the stardust
I know that I'm perfect, even though I'm fucked up
Hymn for the hymnless, don't need no forgiveness
'Cause if there's a heaven, don't care if we get in]]> 2020-06-04 06:11:28 UTC https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/610286524 s145710 https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/610294729 2020-06-04 06:17:47 UTC https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/610294729 s145710 https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/610295761 2020-06-04 06:18:40 UTC https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/610295761 Those Nights s145710 https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/610298428 Stay up late and we'd talk all night
In a dark room lit by the tv light
Through all the hard times in my life
Those nights kept me alive

We'd listen to the radio play all night
Didn't want to go home to another fight
Through all the hard times in my life
Those nights kept me alive

]]> 2020-06-04 06:20:51 UTC https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/610298428 King For a Day s145710 https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/610303521 Please, won't you push me for the last time
Let's scream until there's nothing left
So sick of playing, I don't want this anymore
The thought of you's no fucking fun
You want a martyr, I'll be one
Because enough's enough, we're done

You told me think about it, well I did
Now I don't wanna feel a thing anymore
I'm tired of begging for the things that I want
I'm over sleeping like a dog on the floor

]]> 2020-06-04 06:24:50 UTC https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/610303521 Safe & Sound s145710 https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/919171649 I remember tears streaming down your face when I said I'll never let you go
When all those shadows almost killed your light
I remember you said don't leave me here alone
But all that's dead and gone and passed tonight

Just close your eyes, the sun is going down
You'll be alright, no one can hurt you now
Come morning light, you and I'll be safe and sound

Don't you dare look out your window, darling everything's on fire
The war outside our door keeps raging on
Hold onto this lullaby even when the musics gone

]]> 2020-11-13 02:59:56 UTC https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/919171649 s145710 https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/919186945 2020-11-13 03:11:07 UTC https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/919186945 s145710 https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/919187240 2020-11-13 03:11:21 UTC https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/919187240 Not ur Friend s145710 https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/1165703546 Hang up if you ever think of calling Me up, not afraid to say it, darling
Sorry, I'm not sorry if it hurts, I don't mean to make it worse
I've decided that I'm not your fucking friend.
Right now, there's not much that we agree on, Sit down if you need someone to lean on
Honest, if I'm coming to your place It's to say it to your face
I've decided that I'm not your fucking friend.
~
Darling, watch me disappear. Ignorance is bliss, I hear, and
I have always been sincere to you]]> 2021-02-04 19:28:09 UTC https://padlet.com/s145710/rw69hesh1l7p/wish/1165703546