"And I doubt you ever think about the damage that you did
But I hold on to every detail like my life depends on it
My undying love, now I hold it like a grudge
And I hear your voice every time that I think I'm not enough"

and everyone was confused
didn’t know why I was blue
couldn’t show them my wounds
had to bluff after the game
knowing it wasn’t the same
I put a smile on my face

cause I looked like I owned the ocean
after twenty years of staring at the sea and
all I could think about was the sand at the bottom
and how I wished that it would bury me
and how the speed of light is far too fast to
barrel into a tidal wave, last night I cried enough
to make the Pacific blush"