terima kasih ya, kakak. rasanya seharian disayang sama kakak sangat menyenangkan dan hangat kalo bisa seluruh dunia harus tau kalo aku dicintai sangat besa oleh kakak. terima kasih ^^

maaf ya kalo kemarin aku ada salah kata atau perbuata, jangan dilaporin polisi pls 🥺🫸🏻🫷🏻 dan terakhir jangan kapok ketemu aku nantinya hehehehehehe >_<

-N 🐯

dari awal aku memang tertarik karena adair sepertinya tipe yang, apa ya. he seems like the type that can treat you gently and with care; with a certain type of careful tenderness that's actually quite hard to achieve nowadays. certainly not without being condescending. but he managed to do it beautifully. semua pengidap eldest daughter syndrome, with the added chronic inability of letting other people take care of them, should have an ada in their life haha.

karena susah sebenarnya: to let yourself be that vulnerable and barring the soft squishy parts of you while also trusting that the person seeing them will not just trample all over them. but he didn't trample over them, he handled them with care actually. also he's quite fun to talk too. we have a lot of shared interests so maybe that's why.

if you're looking for someone who appreciate the finer things in life (aka the arts!! paintings and architecture and poetry!!), adair's the one for you. love our time together, will booked another session again, 10/10.

BUT (and I hate giving him credit for this…)

He’s also the kind of guy who listens better than half the world combined. The kind of big brother who hears the things you don’t say out loud. Kind. Affectionate. Weirdly good at making you feel safe, even after spending the whole day bullying you into an existential crisis. Like somehow, through all the chaos, he becomes the person you’d trust to catch you when everything else falls apart.

So yeah. He’s a menace. He’s a bully. He’s probably making fun of me right now as he reads this. But he’s also the kind of brother anyone would be lucky to have.

(Ugh gross I’m being sentimental. Don’t get used to it, Abang!)

10/10 would get bullied again.

Mas Sean, aku terimakasih banyak sudah ditemani beberapa hari kemarin ya! Makasih banyak atas semua asbunnya aku berasa bisa jadi diri sendiri waktu sama Mas, Mas Sean yang sabar banget mau ditinggal pacarnya ketiduran, Mas Sean yang mau aja nanggepin obrolan macam-macam kita mulai dari hidup di zaman prasejarah sampai hidup di zaman penjajahan, Mas Sean yang selalu makesure pasangannya nggak pernah merasa bersalah tiap ketiduran dan ngelakuin hal lain, Mas Sean yang kayak a walking green flag man, Mas Sean dengan segudang kebaikannya terimakasih, ya!

Mas Sean terimakasih ya, aku senang sekali ketemu Mas Sean, semoga bisa ketemu di lain kesempatan, ya!

It was intoxicating, our encounter was rather short but it was meaningful to me, love. You always associate yourself with something so evil like devil, but my oh my how can you turned to an angel when you love someone, sayang? Is this what they call duality?

But either way, I would love to thank you for accompanying me, loving me unconditionally, staying by my side and sharing so many thoughts. Can’t wait for more adventures with ya, my love.

Love ya! ❤️

-N.

I was only given a day to spend with you, and to be honest - a day never felt so fast, no matter how quick the Earth seem to rotate now. I too feel like we have so much in common, too many things left to unpack.

Though not many moments where we can show our love, but I can definitely feel the love overflowing from you. Caring, soothing. Full of effort. It's assuring too, giving out the vibe that keeps me real because I have trust that you'll still love me no matter who I am (might need to consider this to guess your Venus sign next time..). With that, I hope you enjoyed the time with me too.

Jangan makan yang aneh-aneh. Jaga kesehatan agar kita bisa ketemu lagi. I can't wait to unravel more of you next time we meet and be obsessed with each other furthermore. ;)

xx, M.

Just like the lyrics say, ‘You’re the light in my eyes, you’re the rhythm in my heart,’ being with you feels like music—like a heartbeat I didn’t know I was missing until you came in.

You’re my warmth, my laughter, my comfort. Every time you say my name or make me smile, it’s like that one line from the song: ‘I just wanna love you now.’ And Baba, I really do. I love you in all the quiet ways and loud ones too. The way you show up, the way you care, the way you make me feel seen and valued—it’s something I never knew I needed so badly until you were here.

Every moment with you feels like a quiet healing. You don’t just fill the silence, you bring meaning to it. Whether you're being silly, serious, or just simply there, you make my world feel less heavy. You make me feel like I'm enough.

So please, stay with me like the song says—‘Love me now, don’t let me go.’ Because Baba, you’re one of the most fulfilling parts of my life."

I love you, Baba. So much. Not just for what you do, but for who you are—for being this wonderful, hilarious, caring, and grounding presence in my life. You make my life feel full in ways I never expected. I'm truly grateful to be your daughter, Baba. It means so much to me.

I was actually worried about you during our session, knowing you weren’t feeling well but you surprised me. You had so much energy, fiery, teasing, relentless. So eager to roast me at every turn.

If I hadn’t been so sleepy that night, I would’ve kept watching more movies with you. That moment was genuinely fun. And those little comments you made between scenes that you thought they might distract me but they made the whole thing better. Even the horror movie started to feel like a comedy with you there.

I hope everything’s going well on your side. I left that session feeling so happy. May our paths will cross again soon, ya?

Take care of yourself, my big puppy.

With warmth from the south,

Selatan Giri W.

I was actually in a bad shape, there wasn't much I thought could be done, hence the resort to seek for a company and you did a good job in potraying the "more than friends less than lovers" I am looking for and succeed in delivering the "love hate" I am longing for. Makasih ya udah menghibur aku dengan kamu yang asbun. Kamu pun iya-iya aja pas digangguin. Terharu. Adair, my scrumptious lil gremlin, the only man who can make my Monday bearable, if it's not because of your existence, udah aku tinggalin apotik ini. Ya, aku ≠ sabar.

I hope you live happily and i hope your days will blessed with love, joy, and care. You deserve the world. Please take a good care of yourself, Da!

I apologize beforehand if there's any wrongdoings nor words that unconciously has made you uncomfortable, please know that none of them are intended. Please treat yourself gently, alias jangan banyak makan pedes please be kind to yourself. Tidur cukup dan jangan lupa minum air, selalu! I'll see you in another time. Meow.. (I love you).

Warmest Regards,

K.

I don’t say this enough (nanti kepalamu besar), but I’m really glad I met you. You’re like that one person who just gets it—the unhinged jokes, the chaotic energy, the deep talks, and whatever the hell things that define our friendship. It’s like Tom and Jerry but with more existential dread and stupid jokes. All hail nasi daun brengsek!!

What I enjoy most about our bond is how unapologetically I can be around you. No filter, no public-image concerns, just pure brainrot mixed with spontaneous borderline-cancellable joke. But I know that deep down, you're worse (and funnier). That’s chemistry.

I love that we can talk about absolute nonsense one second, and then meaningful discussionsㅡonly to end the conversation again with another silly banters. That balance? Gold.

You somehow know way too much about way too many things, and I love that tbh. Who else am I gonna talk to about niche academic theories and laugh halfway through because we’re both unserious?

You give me space to be loud, annoying, opinionated, smart (sombong dikit), dumb, inappropriate, curious—all at once. And somehow, instead of running away, you match my energy. Or insult it. But either way, I feel seen. You remind me that I don’t have to be perfect to be liked. I just have to be present. (I'm a DIIIIIVA 🌟)

So thank you for being the chaotic genius you are, for letting me exist in my most unfiltered form. Here's to more shared brain cells and cursed jokes. Don't run away from me!

With love, and mild hatred

Icolde.

I just wanna say thank you. Thank you so much. Thank you for being such an understanding boyfie. Need no words yet you could read me wholly. Thank you for being my companion through my trip. It was great, really great. I'm so glad that I have you in it. You're such a supportive boyfie as well. I could be myself with no mask. Yet everything feels so calm and chill around you. Thank you for sticking around but still being respectful to my boundaries. Thank you, thank you so much.

May I come to you just to feels calm for a moment?

Well, until that time, please take care of yourself, Ada!

With love,

S. ♡

Although we share so little time together and we're both busy with different schedules and all, it was always nice knowing you have someone waiting for you text at the other end. Thank you for giving me a sense, a feeling of belonging. Like I belong somewhere, with someone. For holding me so I know I have place to come back to. Still listen to your playlist sometimes and it soothes me well. Thank you once again for sparing your time for me, yes?

It was fleeting, but it surely left something. Thank you for being there when I'm at my lowest and busiest. Thank you. You probably have no idea how much your simple presence means to be that day.

Please be healthy and eat well, keep taking those vitamins, yes? I do hope you will be granted a lot of happiness too. Thank you, you.

Bahwa, bahkan setelah hibuknya jadwal demi jadwal, ada tempat bersandar barang sejenak. Terima kasih, meskipun singkat, untuk pertama kalinya sejak beberapa waktu terakhir saya bisa bernapas dengan lebih leluasa.

Kali pertamaku, memang, tapi siapa sangka bisa berdiskusi tentang keresahan-keresahan sebagai warga negara; sebenarnya banyak lagi yang ingin dibicarakan dan bikin memantik penasaran.

Cara berpikirmu, gayamu menguntai kata demi kata, semuanya tanpa cela. Lebih dari segalanya, rasanya nyaman berada di dekatmu.

Saya juga ingn haturkan maaf kalau dalam kebersamaan kita yang singkat, ada kesalahan dalam perbuatan atau tutur kata.

Ketika saya ketik ini, barusan ada kabar baik. Saya harap kamu berkenan mendengarnya begitu proses itu sudah saya lalui. (Ditulis dengan mengesampingkan rasa malu)

Terakhir, tolong jaga kesehatan dan tidur yang cukup. Tetap jadi Adair yang penuh cinta.

Salam sayang, R.

with much love,
your little sissy.

G.