my rebirth by chondy

cyn0cephalyy — 2022-08-06 10:39:47 UTC

i don't know my name

cyn0cephalyy — 2022-08-06 10:40:02 UTC

legally, i think it says chloe

cyn0cephalyy — 2022-08-06 10:40:42 UTC

but legalities can be changed

cyn0cephalyy — 2022-08-06 10:41:08 UTC

('i think' = i don't know what my chinese name means)

cyn0cephalyy — 2022-08-06 10:41:24 UTC

my father told me it meant jade

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(i used to think the meaning of the name was cherry blossom, but instead, it means 'blooming')

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i should know

cyn0cephalyy — 2022-08-06 10:56:31 UTC

what's in a name?

cyn0cephalyy — 2022-08-06 10:57:21 UTC

i've never been good with sticking to a name

cyn0cephalyy — 2022-08-06 10:59:10 UTC

i think i get it from my father

cyn0cephalyy — 2022-08-06 10:59:33 UTC

alvin > alan > al

cyn0cephalyy — 2022-08-06 11:01:02 UTC

my friends call me chondy, but it's short for chandler

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sometimes i call myself monte

cyn0cephalyy — 2022-08-06 11:08:26 UTC

i see montgomery gator in my head

cyn0cephalyy — 2022-08-06 11:08:38 UTC

i used to see montgomery montgomery

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sometimes i call myself reynard

cyn0cephalyy — 2022-08-06 11:16:32 UTC

it comes from reynard 'reynie' muldoon

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sometimes i call myself ollie, short for oliver

cyn0cephalyy — 2022-08-06 11:19:32 UTC

they make me happy

cyn0cephalyy — 2022-08-06 11:19:43 UTC

but no one understands, not really

cyn0cephalyy — 2022-08-06 11:20:52 UTC

☺️

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how could they? it is not their fault

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i feel that i am novelty

cyn0cephalyy — 2022-08-06 11:36:56 UTC

a newborn

cyn0cephalyy — 2022-08-06 11:37:22 UTC

by inventing and re-inventing myself, i am creating something original and previously unthought of

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cyn0cephalyy — 2022-08-06 11:49:07 UTC

it does not matter what my name was, is, and will be

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and yet?

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because i can choose to be whoever i want me to be

cyn0cephalyy — 2022-08-06 12:25:44 UTC

ephemeral

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fleeting

cyn0cephalyy — 2022-08-06 12:35:10 UTC

my days used to be an endless, torrential storm

cyn0cephalyy — 2022-08-06 12:35:22 UTC

sometimes, it was the misty type of rain that settled so slowly you wouldn't even notice you were soaked until your hair was plastered on your skull

cyn0cephalyy — 2022-08-06 12:36:03 UTC

sometimes, it was a relentless, angry downpour of lightning and thunder that pulverised you into the ground the second you stepped out

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but now?

cyn0cephalyy — 2022-08-06 12:41:58 UTC

i think i can finally see the sun through the clouds

:·)

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cyn0cephalyy — 2022-09-01 03:08:56 UTC

when people ask, i tell them it means 'cherry blossom'