https://padlet.com/BananaRei/qgfvueij93q0 Creative Journal | Personal Timeline en-us 2018-02-16 08:42:48 UTC 2024-10-15 10:12:43 UTC hello@padlet.com https://padlet-assets.s3.amazonaws.com/icons/Watchclock.png BananaRei https://padlet.com/BananaRei/qgfvueij93q0/wish/241874922 Seven years have passed, but it seems it was only just yesterday since she has passed away. The 10th of April 2010 had been a turning point of my past. It was the day my mother died due breast cancer. Since then, the years that followed had the grimmest memories and experiences I've had so far. It's surprising how far I've come and survived even to this day as I write this entry. 
If I have to describe it, it would be like watching a garden. The day's about to end, night time is coming as the darkness looms closer inking the sky black. Everything's dark as my eyes start to adjust in looking through the veil of black; this represents my dark days. In the dark, I only have the company of the flowers and stars which are my family and friends. They are separate realms and I want to keep it that way, but they kept me company as I wait for day to come. But even til now, the night's still young and I still have a long way to go.
There's a lot of room for me to grow, but I wish to be happy 5 or 10 years from now. I pray for that happiness to come, but I must make sacrifices to make that happen. If only I could go back in time to make amends or change what I've done, maybe things would be better today. I have lost loved ones, but found new love with new people. Amends I must make, continue to learn even from failures, but it won't be an easy journey. Yet I wish to make it]]> 2018-03-14 13:50:08 UTC https://padlet.com/BananaRei/qgfvueij93q0/wish/241874922 BananaRei https://padlet.com/BananaRei/qgfvueij93q0/wish/243036124 Desiree was born. That's me(obviously). I was named because I was "desired"; my parents wanted to try having another boy after my brother died, he was just 6 days old]]> 2018-03-17 04:27:11 UTC https://padlet.com/BananaRei/qgfvueij93q0/wish/243036124 BananaRei https://padlet.com/BananaRei/qgfvueij93q0/wish/243036330 I'm the youngest in the family of all girls. My sisters are a lot older than me with an age gap of around 10-13 yrs]]> 2018-03-17 04:33:12 UTC https://padlet.com/BananaRei/qgfvueij93q0/wish/243036330 BananaRei https://padlet.com/BananaRei/qgfvueij93q0/wish/243036601 2018-03-17 04:42:19 UTC https://padlet.com/BananaRei/qgfvueij93q0/wish/243036601 BananaRei https://padlet.com/BananaRei/qgfvueij93q0/wish/243036885 I can say I have lived a good childhood; we lived in wonderful neighborhood where everyone knows everyone, childhood friends, and family. 
My father is an Ilocano and my mother is Cebuana. Both of our familial sides are big, but we were more closer with our relatives in Cebu. Every summer we'd visit our relatives in Cebu and spend quality time together, we're a happy bunch. Those were the good days]]> 2018-03-17 04:51:54 UTC https://padlet.com/BananaRei/qgfvueij93q0/wish/243036885 BananaRei https://padlet.com/BananaRei/qgfvueij93q0/wish/243037328 2018-03-17 05:06:15 UTC https://padlet.com/BananaRei/qgfvueij93q0/wish/243037328 BananaRei https://padlet.com/BananaRei/qgfvueij93q0/wish/243042996 From Nursery until Grade 4, this school was my Alma mater. All my sisters attended in the same school until high school. I thought I'd get to finish there the same as them. Even though I didn't, I still treasure all my memories from that place. 
As a student, I was very active in my studies and performed well, even making it into the honors. I remember joining Story Telling contests and I'd make it to one of the top 3. One time, I won first place; I still remember like it was yesterday. Nanay was watching me from the audience, we'd always practice my lines together. She's my strength and inspiration. When I forgot my next line, I desperately looked straight into her eyes, and she heard my plea. Then she mouthed the words silently, and I followed and recited like nothing happened. That's how I got my first place(hahaha thanks nay xD]]> 2018-03-17 07:32:35 UTC https://padlet.com/BananaRei/qgfvueij93q0/wish/243042996 BananaRei https://padlet.com/BananaRei/qgfvueij93q0/wish/243043619 2018-03-17 07:42:38 UTC https://padlet.com/BananaRei/qgfvueij93q0/wish/243043619 BananaRei https://padlet.com/BananaRei/qgfvueij93q0/wish/243043734 Back then, I was more of an extrovert. I was very active; I was a Girl Scout and proud of it. Even during our Foundation Day, I was an enthusiastic child and would always dance in front with energy and smiles... all for my mom. ]]> 2018-03-17 07:44:16 UTC https://padlet.com/BananaRei/qgfvueij93q0/wish/243043734 BananaRei https://padlet.com/BananaRei/qgfvueij93q0/wish/243044944 I had a lot of friends as well. But there were times when I'd get into trouble with them. But in the end, we're still in good terms. ]]> 2018-03-17 08:01:16 UTC https://padlet.com/BananaRei/qgfvueij93q0/wish/243044944 BananaRei https://padlet.com/BananaRei/qgfvueij93q0/wish/243045199 2018-03-17 08:05:16 UTC https://padlet.com/BananaRei/qgfvueij93q0/wish/243045199 BananaRei https://padlet.com/BananaRei/qgfvueij93q0/wish/243045224 2018-03-17 08:05:46 UTC https://padlet.com/BananaRei/qgfvueij93q0/wish/243045224 BananaRei https://padlet.com/BananaRei/qgfvueij93q0/wish/243045269 After 7 years of studying in SSA, I was transferred to SJA in Mandaue, Cebu.  I lived with my relatives because my sisters couldn't support me yet. It had been only a year after Nanay died, so we were still adjusting.
Since I was from Metro Manila, I struggled with fitting in; I barely knew Bisaya and the kind of life they live there. 
But thanks to moving there, I got closer with my mother's family side. It was great to be with family again.]]> 2018-03-17 08:06:43 UTC https://padlet.com/BananaRei/qgfvueij93q0/wish/243045269 BananaRei https://padlet.com/BananaRei/qgfvueij93q0/wish/243047789 At school, I was still doing well in my studies and try to do my best in academics. But I wouldn't make it in honors anymore. 
When it comes to my classmates, I would only speak either English or Tagalog to them. Even though I was able to understand a few Bisaya, I rarely speak it. 
I may had a hard time with the language, I was still able to make friends and get along with my classmates. But I was only close with two people throughout the years. Around that time, I started to learn more about the value of friendship. It was also the time when I think I was starting to phase a bit in the introvert side.]]> 2018-03-17 08:44:55 UTC https://padlet.com/BananaRei/qgfvueij93q0/wish/243047789 BananaRei https://padlet.com/BananaRei/qgfvueij93q0/wish/243048632 Once again, I transferred schools.  I was back in Manila, and now I'm living with my sisters. Again, I had to adjust and leave a place just when I was getting used to the place.
This was the start of my high school, and I was already anxious of what would it be like. What will people be like? Would it really be like those in the movies?
My questions were soon answered, and I wasn't off to a good start. On my first day, I wore a baggy uniform. My sister bought a size medium uniform blouse that looked like a size LARGE on my skinny figure. It was so big on me that I had to constantly hold the cloth behind my back. I wasn't able to make friends right away. 
For the first time, I was bullied by a student. It made me hesitant to make friends, but I still do well on my studies. Soon enough, I was able to get by; there were people who approached me and I thought that maybe high school wouldn't be so bad after all.]]> 2018-03-17 08:57:03 UTC https://padlet.com/BananaRei/qgfvueij93q0/wish/243048632 BananaRei https://padlet.com/BananaRei/qgfvueij93q0/wish/243049206 By the end of the school year, we graduated. My sisters who were living in Manila back then attended. I was glad but sad at the same time. They told me that I will be transferring back to Manila to start my high school. Either way, it was fun while it lasted. This was a new opportunity to start over again.]]> 2018-03-17 09:05:28 UTC https://padlet.com/BananaRei/qgfvueij93q0/wish/243049206 BananaRei https://padlet.com/BananaRei/qgfvueij93q0/wish/243051509 2018-03-17 09:28:18 UTC https://padlet.com/BananaRei/qgfvueij93q0/wish/243051509 BananaRei https://padlet.com/BananaRei/qgfvueij93q0/wish/243052149 2018-03-17 09:35:16 UTC https://padlet.com/BananaRei/qgfvueij93q0/wish/243052149 BananaRei https://padlet.com/BananaRei/qgfvueij93q0/wish/243052215 Also I was already a weirdo back then]]> 2018-03-17 09:35:59 UTC https://padlet.com/BananaRei/qgfvueij93q0/wish/243052215 BananaRei https://padlet.com/BananaRei/qgfvueij93q0/wish/243052342 2018-03-17 09:37:42 UTC https://padlet.com/BananaRei/qgfvueij93q0/wish/243052342 BananaRei https://padlet.com/BananaRei/qgfvueij93q0/wish/243053304 Nothing exciting much happened around this year. Except this was also the year when my sister flew to Cebu to work and live there.]]> 2018-03-17 09:49:56 UTC https://padlet.com/BananaRei/qgfvueij93q0/wish/243053304 BananaRei https://padlet.com/BananaRei/qgfvueij93q0/wish/243054696 As for school, I was doing fine. Except this is the time when I realized how much I dislike my school. The number of friends increased which made the place more tolerable . They also introduced me to a lot of things like fandoms and things that I'm worked up about now. This was also the year when I attended my first anime convention event.

U U U G G G H H H it was a very embarrassing phase for me

]]> 2018-03-17 10:04:04 UTC https://padlet.com/BananaRei/qgfvueij93q0/wish/243054696 BananaRei https://padlet.com/BananaRei/qgfvueij93q0/wish/243055429 2018-03-17 10:11:13 UTC https://padlet.com/BananaRei/qgfvueij93q0/wish/243055429 BananaRei https://padlet.com/BananaRei/qgfvueij93q0/wish/243055871 2015 was a year of independence. It was also when my sister is part of a team in Ultimate Frisbee and she'd go take me to places whenever she has a trip with them. At that time, I was already fledged introvert, The mere presence of a group of people already overwhelms me. Yet, it was a great experience and I was still able to get used to her teammates in the end. ]]> 2018-03-17 10:16:02 UTC https://padlet.com/BananaRei/qgfvueij93q0/wish/243055871 BananaRei https://padlet.com/BananaRei/qgfvueij93q0/wish/243058269 2018-03-17 10:40:10 UTC https://padlet.com/BananaRei/qgfvueij93q0/wish/243058269 BananaRei https://padlet.com/BananaRei/qgfvueij93q0/wish/243058456 My adventurous sister would leave me home to travel. For days, I'd have to cook for myself and learn to live by myself and look after our place. One time she left me for 1 week, surprisingly I was able to manage.]]> 2018-03-17 10:41:22 UTC https://padlet.com/BananaRei/qgfvueij93q0/wish/243058456 BananaRei https://padlet.com/BananaRei/qgfvueij93q0/wish/243059201 When it comes to school work, my grades are pretty mundane. I was having trouble with my academics , especially Math.  For the other subjects, I was doing fine. Yet, I was still struggling to keep my grades reach 90 and above.
It was stressful, but to keep my mind off from it my friends and I tried to join making a film to submit for school. We didn't succeed but it was fun doing film making. So, I recycled the clips and made a video as a tribute for our friendship. ]]> 2018-03-17 10:48:26 UTC https://padlet.com/BananaRei/qgfvueij93q0/wish/243059201