MY JOURNAL by ZULAYKHA BINTI MOHD RAFIE BG

Mon, Sep 16

bgj240710860 — 2024-10-08 15:57:28 UTC

I woke up as usual and my dad took my mom and me to Muar for breakfast at Laman Ole-Ole Maharani. While my dad searched for parking, I noticed a man who looked familiar. “Dad, isn’t that atok anjang?” I asked, pointing at him. Atok anjang is my dad’s uncle. My dad called out, and it turned out to be him.

After parking, we met with atok anjang and his family and found a table for 12 to eat together. I had lontong, satay perut and hot milo. Later, my parents and I went to Pasar Muar to buy fresh groceries.

After we got home, I spent some time playing Mobile Legends. I played a few matches with Fazil, won some and lost some but it was fun overall. Eventually, I got tired after a long day spending my time with my family. It was a simple day but really enjoyable.

Tue, 17 Sep

bgj240710860 — 2024-10-08 16:26:24 UTC

I spent most of my day reading a comic named Home Far Away. This is my favorite comic and it was the fourth time I’ve read it. The story takes place in the winter of 1990, where a young man named Alan finds himself lost after growing up with strict religious parents. He currently cannot find any direction at home or through the church. However, when he meets Hayden, he finds someone he can relate to. Hayden introduces him to a freedom. Through their relationship, Alan begins to confront his past and the reality of acceptance. When Hayden meets Alan, he sees the pain that Alan carries and willingly helps him, even though Hayden is also looking for someone to call “home.”

This is the most emotional comic I’ve ever read. I read this manga while having Hades in the Dead of Winter by My Dead Girlfriend played on repeat to add more sadness so I can cried heavily this night.

Wed, 18 Sep

bgj240710860 — 2024-10-08 16:39:21 UTC

Today, I returned to my hostel after a week of holiday. My dad drove me to Bangi which was nice as we got to spend some quality time together during the drive. It felt good to catch up with him.

Once I settled back in, I started working on my pairing assignment with Shada. We had to do a text review which was not an easy task. We had to think a lot about what we read and discuss our ideas. Although it was tough, I appreciated working with Shada because she helped me see things in a different way.

Thu, 19 Sep

bgj240710860 — 2024-10-08 16:50:02 UTC

Today, all my classes were online. If I had known, I could have gone back to Bangi today instead of yesterday. I also discovered a song that matches my taste: “Good Luck Babe” by Chappell Roan. I felt somehow related to some parts of the song.

I spent the day doing Quizizz for Miss Azlin’s class which was pretty challenging. After that, I played Mobile Legends with my friends Fazil and Sofia. We had a great time teaming up and catching up between matches. Overall, it turned out to be a fun but unproductive day for me.

Fri, 20 Sep

bgj240710860 — 2024-10-08 17:06:56 UTC

Today, all my classes were online except for grammar. If I had known earlier, I would have gone home right away with Sofia using the KTM, but we had to stay for the grammar class which was the only physical one. Spending two days at the hostel for just one physical class felt like a waste. But, what can I do? I’m just a student after all and this is the path that I chose. Once the grammar class ended, Sofia and I quickly packed up and took the train home. I was excited to see my parents again after these two days.

My dad picked me up from KTM Pulau Sebang and drove us home but we arrived quite late since the traffic was terrible.

Sat, 21 Sep

bgj240710860 — 2024-10-08 17:13:46 UTC

Today, I spent a lot of time playing Mobile Legends with my friend, Fazil. In this game, you can go up different ranks and today the new season started, which means everyone has to start fresh again. I was really hoping to do well this season, but the highest rank I achieved was Legend III, which is good but not what I wanted.

I felt a little sad because I play this game a lot, but I still can’t get to Mythic which is the highest level. It made me think, does this mean I can do things well, but not really the best? I keep practicing and trying hard but it seems like I always end up in the same spot. It’s frustrating to feel like I’m stuck when I want to get better.

Sun, 22 Sep

bgj240710860 — 2024-10-08 17:22:37 UTC

Today, I had a lovely breakfast made by my mom that always makes me happy. After that, I took some time to clean my cat’s litter box, making sure everything was tidy for him. After the Dhuhr prayer, my dad drove me back to Bangi since I have classes as usual tomorrow (Monday).

I’ve decided not to go home next weekend. I often visit my parents every weekend, but staying here will help them save money on petrol and tolls. It feels good to think I can help out my parents in some way while focusing on my studies even though my mom told me to go home as usual.

Mon, 23 Sep

bgj240710860 — 2024-10-09 16:23:23 UTC

Today, my friends and I started recording for our Bahasa Arab final project. We had to act out scenes about colors. It was a lot of fun! We filmed different parts of the project around the campus. It was really funny when someone forgot their lines or made a mistake. We couldn’t stop laughing! Even though we had to redo some scenes, it made the day even better because we were all enjoying ourselves. It felt great to be working on this project together and having such a good time. I can’t wait to finish it and see the results.

Tue, 24 Sep

bgj240710860 — 2024-10-09 16:46:57 UTC

Today was pretty normal. I had my usual classes. It was nothing too exciting but at least I’m staying on track. I finished up my assignments. I felt great to get out of the way. After that, I called my parents to catch up and it was nice to hear their voices. For dinner, I ordered nasi bujang, a simple and cheap meal that I really enjoyed. Overall, the day was not really fun but it was nice in its own way. Just another regular day and I’m okay with that.

Wed, 25 Sep

bgj240710860 — 2024-10-09 17:00:57 UTC

Today was a bit of a rollercoaster. I paid my fees that costed RM1511 and it felt really pricey. I could see how tiring it must be for my parents to manage all these expenses. It made me reflect on their hard work and sacrifices for my education. I really wish I can get good grades in my exams this time. It’s important to me to show them that their efforts are worth it. I want to make them proud and repay them for everything they’ve done. I want to work hard and achieve my goals!

Thu, 26 Sep

bgj240710860 — 2024-10-10 03:57:15 UTC

Today was a busy day. I went to my classes, finished my assignments and practiced my transcription skills for the pronunciation test. There was a big conflict with my friends but I wasn’t the one who caused it. I decided to let everyone chill first and then apologized to everyone personally instead of avoiding the situation like someone else did. For dinner, my roommate and I went to a mamak restaurant which we hadn’t done in a long time. I had iced Milo there and I don’t know why I love it so much. It’s not too sweet from the condensed milk and it’s not too strong from too much Milo. It tasted just like the Milo from a Milo lorry! It was a good way to end the day because a small thing can make me happy.

Fri, 27 Sep

bgj240710860 — 2024-10-10 04:21:27 UTC

I’m really glad that everyone is okay with me now. The day felt so good and I don’t feel sad anymore. For dinner, I went out with Sofi and Jiha. We had our meal at the foodcourt in front of UniKL. I ordered sizzling. It was delicious and cheap. It only costed RM6. While we were eating, I spilled the tea about that one person who caused the conflict yesterday. I know I have my own flaws and mistakes but I don’t take people lightly like that person did. It felt nice to share the truth and clear the heavy feeling in my chest. We also watched late-night movie which was Pontianak Sundal Malam. It was not scary at all but funny due to its old graphics and style.

Sat, 28 Sep

bgj240710860 — 2024-10-10 14:37:19 UTC

Today was a quiet day. I spent most of my time in Sofi’s room with Jiha because we stayed there last night since all of Sofi’s roommates went home. Later, Jiha and I went out to the restaurant in front of our hostel, Hijau Kuning, to get some lunch. It was raining and we ended up getting wet after buying our food. Even though we got soaked, it was a lot of fun. Both of us couldn’t stop laughing. Maybe one day, this simple day will become a sweet memory to look back on. Then, I met Shada to finish our pairing work. We haven’t been on good terms since that day but we had to act cool to get the work done. Even though it felt a bit awkward, we managed to focus and finish everything. It wasn’t easy but at least we were able to put our differences aside for the sake of the assignment.

Sun, 29 Sep

bgj240710860 — 2024-10-10 15:34:59 UTC

I didn’t do much today, just finished my assignment and worked on my MARA documents. They were pretty complicated. I called my brother in Johor to ask him to print, sign and post some of the documents to Bangi. He got angry and asked, “Why don’t you come home if you have things to settle?” I tried to explain that I didn’t want to go home since I went home too frequently before. We had a bit of a fight but it’s just sibling stuff—we were fine later. At night, I played Mobile Legends with Fazil as usual. It was fun to relax and chill while playing the game.

Mon, 30 Sep

bgj240710860 — 2024-10-10 15:45:58 UTC

Today, me and my friends went to campus like normal. As UNIFEST started today and there were lots of vendors selling food and drinks. They had different kinds of spaghetti and drinks like coffee. I decided to try the vongole spaghetti and it was really yummy and superb. It was totally worth the price. The festival was great and it was nice to see something exciting on campus.

In the evening, there was a crazy heavy rain and all my shirts hanging at the corridor got wet again. It was so tiring and really made me feel sad. I didn’t want to deal with it anymore, so I decided to go to the laundry to wash my clothes again and put them straight into the dryer. At least that way, I wouldn’t have to worry about them getting soaked again.

Tue, 1 Oct

bgj240710860 — 2024-10-11 06:08:13 UTC

Today was pretty normal. I went to campus, attended my classes and then headed to lunch at UNIFEST which was in its second day. I had rice and buttermilk chicken for just RM8. The chicken was crunchy and the buttermilk sauce was creamy—definitely worth it! Dina and Naj got a buy 2 get 1 free latte deal and I got the free one. It was good even though it’s free. Big thanks for Dina and Naj for letting me get the free latte!

After I returned to the hostel, I finished up my assignments and then played Mobile Legends before heading to bed. It was a simple but enjoyable day.

Wed, 2 Oct

bgj240710860 — 2024-10-11 13:16:44 UTC

Today was a busy but good day. I went to campus as usual. My friends and I finished the last shots for our Bahasa Arab recording. It was a bit awkward since we had to work with someone we had problems with, but we stayed calm and got through it. Finally, the recording was done!

It was the last day of UNIFEST, so I made sure to try the mac and cheese Jiha recommended. It was RM13, but so worth it—it was the most delicious mac and cheese I’ve ever tasted!

I also bought some diamonds on Mobile Legends to change my username. My old username was Cloud, but now it’s Hiroki. I picked “Hiroki” because it’s based on a character from a comic called Brutal: Satsujin Kansatsukan no Kokuhaku. He is a handsome and smart character.

>.<

Thu, 3 Oct

bgj240710860 — 2024-10-11 13:25:14 UTC

Today was a good day. I went to campus for a birthday celebration for the students born in certain months from my section. I wore my jubah since I didn’t have any physical classes today. The food was so delicious and I made sure to try everything because that’s what I paid for, haha!

When I got back to my hostel, I started working on my MARA documents again. The documents my brother sent me had arrived, so I could finally start. Working on MARA stuff is harder than I thought but I hope everything turns out okay.

Fri, 4 Oct

bgj240710860 — 2024-10-11 13:40:42 UTC

Today was so frustrating. I handed in my MARA documents at Unit Tajaan and it didn’t go smoothly at all. I was already in a rush because I needed to catch the train with Sofia. So, I asked a senior managing the documents if mine were arranged properly. Instead of helping me, she told me to sit and listen to the announcement even though I had already done that. I just wanted help with my documents! She didn’t do anything at that time and it irritated me!

I ended up getting help from someone next to me. When I asked the senior again, she took my papers and barely looked at them. She just told me “Wait.” and checked my documents quickly without even going over them with me. She left me feeling really anxious. My OCD made everything feel worse and I couldn’t stop thinking about whether my documents were okay. She got good face but bad attitude. What a waste—Only God knows how much I hope her life could be miserable as she made mine.

Sat, 5 Oct

bgj240710860 — 2024-10-11 13:50:27 UTC

Today I had a nice, relaxing day at home with my family. I had breakfast with my parents and played with my cute cat. I also accompanied my mom to the graveyard and helped her cook lunch. I really appreciate every moment I spend with her, it’s always special.

I also decided to install Mobile Legends on my iPad because I thought it would be fun to try gaming on it. The graphics were great since it supports Ultra graphics, but the joystick was too big and hard to control, so I uninstalled it.

Then I remembered my dad didn’t want me to download any games on the iPad. I felt bad and promised I won’t do it again. Sorry, Dad.

Sun, 6 Oct

bgj240710860 — 2024-10-11 13:59:05 UTC

Today, I returned to the hostel as usual. Sofia gave me a ride from Simpang Ampat toll and her parents took us to see our future rental house. It’s on the fifth floor of a flat, and I was exhausted from all the walking, but the house was a great deal—only RM600 per month! It’s spacious enough, though not furnished but we decided to rent it for the next semesters.

After that, her parents took us to Little Bangi. I bought shawarma and takoyaki for my dinner. Once we finished, we headed back to the hostel. Big thanks for Sofia’s parents for their efforts and support!