Other ideas relating to images - Line is man made- colour and texture are natural.

Alladin Sane, magic in a match box all quite black thoughts underneath. This for me was the beginning of the painting, although we all agreed the painting were not good or nice I stood up for my theory that it was deliberate by the artist but sadly after looking at his practice this was not the case but maybe the director had chosen the artist as he had seen what I had seen in his work a dark, reflection and critique of society even if he did not know it !

I took this picture because with my thoughts on time i suddenly realised that here is an example of three sets of related times yet after a while i thought which is the real one !

dyke and sea was strange. The proximity and battle of power between them

was electric. I did these from memory and I liked the way the charcoal image on the right

transferred into the image on the left of the grasses.

The romantic kitchen sink cuts down the smart arse.

using the linkage in a way to explain the real to me. it made me feel clever and maybe

this is another form of Pataphysics that I must look into more.

drawing with painted faces before I coloured the. background

This was the second drawing done at home, done using the previous method. I wanted to get more contrast which I did but somehow it is so controlled and with that control you loose something.

Reflecting on this I thought long and hard about differences in the 2, enicially I preferred this image but something felt wrong. it is polished and lacks the raw emotion that I need in my work.

" LET YOURSELF GO AND DONT BE AFRAID OF THE OUTCOME " Should be my new mantra and secondly, " STOP CHASING RABBITS DOWN HOLES"

I think upon reflection although I find the image pleasing it does not highlight the message, as the piece of plastic to the top and left can through as delicate as a flower and does not show a contrast.

I like these odd strange delicate drawings and I will do more.

if I can not source inspiration I intend to create my own bizarre models to draw.

The Miro work was an obvious choice of enquiry based on Ians recent uptake of charcoal drawings. The building beautiful in shape and form but not normally a choice I would have thought he would make based on his views on the system and capitalism but I suppose the geometric shapes, were too beautiful especially to his engineers eye. This was probably why my eye focased on the money note in the corner of the page which is above.

Alex picked 2 artists whose work features heavily on the form, the first artist Saellia Aparico I thought was an interesting choice purely for the

way she creates almost sculpture like installs and I could instantly see what drew him to them. The work of the above Frazetta confused me as it was a clearly a male hand with volluptrous nude females hanging of the hand which to me seemed to be the opposite of his practice and his conversation into male sterotypes, of the powerful dominating male ! In actual fact the picture on looking made me uneasy, unless that was the intention as I was not aware of him before.

My immediate thoughts circles movement patterns. I am not familiar with the work of Parks and I actually thought it was Danilias own work as it was similar. The Rodchenko surprised me as I could not work out this connection and I still do not understand it.

The only thing clear to me through this is how I personally feel that Danilla is trapped within his practice like he was trapped by his addictions

I think he needs some resolution to free himself to explore other areas. He needs to let go

This video shows a kind of game, which I used to play with my grandmother when I was a child. 
We called it "Romeo & Juliet". 
I always wanted to make this ritual again, but the paper matches dissappeared from the market so many years ago.
I made the association of this dissapeareance to the changes in our society at the human relations level. 
The times have changed and nobody believes in affective bonds today, because they are deep and fragile. They are temporary and very easy to break.
Neither is possible to play "Romeo & Juliet".
But a few months ago, at the Tristan Narvaja fair, among a lot of empty match boxes ,I found this one: the only one which was full.

I attended this workshop on 27/04/24

"Fluid Painting"

I did not find it fluid and we were using acrylic on canvas.

In the first couple of strokes I liked the image but then I realised I had no background! Once I tried to add this in it all fell apart and quickly deteriorated.

This is a problem I have had with acrylics in the past, suddenly realising its because with oils you build up an image with acrylics in my practice its would be more fruitfull for me to not build on the strokes as the initial strokes are usually the ones I like.

This is something that has interested me before looking at the reverse of the canvas. with the light shinning through the image is better and gives an interesting poetic take like you are seeing something hidden, something you are not meant to see, but to discover. Like seeing an uncanny image out of the corner of the eye just for one minute.

Once I have solved the problem of the light sources this is where I am taking my practice forward. To discover the hidden, this helps explain my interests on the perception of Phemenology, the uncanny and explaining in visual terms my thoughts.

I relaxed into painting the original idea was to paint on both sides to see the effect, this proved difficult as I was not used to using thick paint on the surface and the oil paint also looked quite matt as it had no background to reflect it. I went about layering the paint on as, as per usual the first marks I liked but on upon holding it up to the light I could see every little brush mark which I wasn't sure that I liked?

So it was almost a repetitive process, re applying paint.

Half way through I realised that I could see something within the works the image that appeared to me was that of shoulders and chest and a side profile of the chin, with the heart of a person being wrenched out! I started to cry feeling it represented the image of my dying husband, his heart dying and his soul dissipating into the atmosphere and of course I had forgotten the hospital area was all blue, a colour that I never normally use for the connection to a memory of his body being taken away in a blue body bag.

Some how this picture had released the trauma of the event.

I was excited to find this in the Tate ehibitionas I knew nothing about it and had started to explore this method.

Today in the news, a couple of weeks after painting this, it looks like Israel is going to war with Iran! Yet another terrible war in a world that shows indifference to these situations and carries on "normal life". I have Ukranian and Russian students in the school where I work whom seem oblivious to the deaths and I wonder how?

In some ways this image reflects how the young are durable but self indulged shielding them from the outside world beyond their close surroundings.

We went to this with Ian. I had some sort of memory regarding these flowers and it appears I saw it last year at Tate Britain but it was at the end and the flowers had decayed and it was a brown watery mess, but I attracted to it otherwise I would not have remembered. What draws me to this work is the process of decay even in the image above with the mould already appearing the flowers have an ephemeral feel, being able to watch the transformation. when I saw this at the Tate the appeal of the earthy stains left on the wall from the decay flowing down was another kind of ephemeral feeling.

Regarding the rest of the work in the show apples, trees and sculptures nothing really aroused me and I came away with no great feelings. I do not feel that we have become that detracted from nature these days to feel that I need to see a tree in an Art Gallery.