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🎀 Saturday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

cheer dance was so much more.. idk..! than i expected. (took place on 11/06) i mean, i messed up like 5 times or more, but i just feel like! our section was really confident with our moves, our dance, and i'm totally happy.. but if we polished it a bit more it'd be a total dream! 😭

that's why we got second place! 🥈 but i'm still proud of the other sections, we really did do our bestest :)) excited to perform again soon!

🎀 Monday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

monday and tuesday are suspended because of the heavy wind and rain 😓 so that means we'll have exams as soon as we come back.. ouu... 💔 (praying it gets moved!)

i pray for those struggling because who knows our country might actually flood..! (and crumble) it MIGHT be the end of the world just because our government is corrupted and we have no flood control projects 🙁

ps. being able to edit posts without it showing is literally AMAZE. because i can do whatever i want anytime! 😻 + sucks we can only attach one image :(

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🎀 Tuesday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

i just realized that, from my past two posts, my vibe is kinda.. different! compared to other blogs, mine feels way more casual because.. i mean! throughout my life, i've had like 5 digital journals where i try to track my every day (but it only ever stays consistent for a while) so that might be the case! 😋

having a "diary" publicly is such a cute concept but i'm not sure if i can even upload regularly 😭 (who knows.. i might get lazy.. but we don't manifest that!) anyway, my first time having an audience, so thank you! i think..

ps. i am using way too much italic #mystrangeaddiction /joking! + this probably won't reach the intended audience, but! who's gonna read this? me! 😸

🎀 Wednesday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

for those of you who don't know me: i usually make reviewers every quarter to study for exams (my school has 4 quarters) and lately my workflow has been so behind compared to last year :(

i've gotten this strange feeling that like.. idk! i was insecure about sharing my own reviewers because maybe it's not allat 💔 it's not really about being judged by others, more like.. if it doesn't serve its purpose! if my work isn't enough..! but that's just me 😁

more context: i feel so tired everyday like i don't get what's happening to me 😔 i'm just not me! (the best version at least) but i think it may be because of my surroundings or pressure..

ps. the picture is so funny OMG LOLololoLOL 😭

🎀 Thursday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

you KNOW it's crazy when i spent my sembreak making those reviewers... actually, i had a ton of free days (because of suspension) to do it so it felt less stressful and i even went back to school feeling so energetic 🌼

that just reminded me of how tired i was last quarter 😔 (and that's sad! i pity myself.) as in, i was rushing (barely got any reviewers or studying done, even felt ultra sleepy during exams and had NO energy..)

ps. i still have a ton more to do, reality and deadlines just aren't hitting me hard enough in the face yet

grade 10 is so tuff (not for me.. heh... who said that! 💓)

🎀 Thursday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

i just realized recently how much these two are alike 😭 omg i love them so much (totally recommend the games they're from! 💯) they're similar in more ways than one btw.. but yeah! those who know...

anyway that's all 😁 (PLEASE i'll continue watching ace attorney when i have time)

ps. i can't wait for christmas break 😭 (actually!) + i need to hop on my november grind and post more than one post a day!

🎀 Friday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

exams for the 2nd quarter are finally over and i don't wanna think about it anymore! praying for passing scores.. i really did try my best i think! i was just a bit upset i forgot/skimmed over the info for the basic questions 😭 (photo is unrelated btw! i just found it funny)

you don't know how important intentional rest is, guys! so i encourage you to take breaks when you really need it, especially after a stressful time, so do things that make you happy and wind down! #selfcare

anyway, it's only mid-november and i'm already so hyped for 🎄 christmas 🎄 because i lovee advent calendars and gifts so much :D

ps. i really want to get back into webtoon again soon + just wait for my recommendations! :3

🎀 Saturday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

i recently joined one of my friends in this game and i got obsessed a little bit and started making some outfits :3 (these are only two, i'm gatekeeping the rest 😋) i'm actually surprised how much support it's still getting, like 142k active is unexpected (my opinion!)

anyway, it's such a vibe waiting for the adopt me admin abuse... i wonder what they have in store! 😁 (it's at 1 am though huhu 💔)

also, i don't know how to edit and keep the quality (i know it already sucks!) so i had to smack two screenshots together.. if you see the line separating them, no you don't! 🥺

random, but based off the way i speak i feel like i could totally be an influencer 😮 are you influenced!! (whoever doesn't believe in me are haters #popularity)

🎀 Sunday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

so yesterday (11/15) i saw a reel saying that affinity is a good editing software similar to adobe, and canva recently made it FREE, like i was souper hyped because hello.. design! 😮 i did check it out (not download) and it looks pretty promising!

fun fact: the reel said that canva actually bought it off its original makers, so idk, thanks for making it free!

if you like graphic design, i recommend this! ✨ i'm hearing a lot of success because tons of people are downloading it, so this might be your sign! #notsponsored #affinity

check it out here 😊

& watch canva's keynote video!

🎀 Sunday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

i logged onto this game 7 days ago (11/09) and was super surprised to see that they brought back wickery cliffs 😭

since it has been like 2 years, it was weird and it just felt mega off/weird? i went to blackwood manor and it was so laggy, boring, and empty because there were only 3 other players there aside from me 💔

honestly, lying about deleting it is crazy! (or maybe they did, and somehow brought it back?) it's really proving HOW desperate they are to get players on 😭

anyway, back to adopt me! their new taskboard and free daily egg are amazing updates and i totally love it 💖 even if bucks are kinda hard to earn, still, the updates aren't so bad!

🎀 Sunday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

this is a quote i found a while back and it really spoke to me so i just decided to share it with you guys 💕 (my bad the text is kinda unreadable! i didn't like the aesthetics of the others)

a good diva never gatekeeps.

ps. another random thing! i've been excited about our school field trip lately (i know it's in january...) so please tell me it'll be so hype! because of course i'll be taking photos 💝

but this is actually a really nice quote so i might use it somewhere :) as always, enjoy the rest of your day! #positivity

🎀 Sunday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

today is the birthday of one of my closest girls (who chose this emoji), 🦋! shoutout to her if she's reading this :)

nothing can truly explain how happy, and how proud i am, above all, for her. she is so independent and has made it through life after literally anything gets thrown at her! she's been with me since i was at my lowest (pandemic), and soafer loyal! i can't ask for anything more, i love her so much and hope she's doing her bestest always 🥰

ps. ponytown and meet up when? i miss the old, nostalgic days so much huhu i made soo much memories 😔

🎀 Sunday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

to start, i wanna say that i would've absolutely KILLED for this in 2022. bloxburg has been so dead ever since their new map came out, and i really think it's awesome!.. it's just that, idk! the fun just kinda disappeared 😭

anyway, you can get a "teacher" job now, and roleplay in the new high school! i love that they had interactable npcs and stuff! 😁 i spent like an hour just exploring the everything in game, and i got a feeling of nostalgia just doing my needs in my house and cooking..

it's the fact that i spent SO many hours on this back then, roleplaying, farming, and i will NEVER say it went to waste, because it made me so happy 😔💖

ps. i've been using google calendar and i absolutely love how it's so simple but works so well 😋 (i love trying to fill it up just so i can have the satisfaction of seeing it filled!)

🎀 Sunday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

i admire myself for how amazing, aesthetic, and cute this blog looks.. like who did that! little ol' me? 😻 anyway, it may look different on other devices, but i primarily use a monitor to check this out so.. i don't care how it looks anywhere else! as long as it's pretty to me.. 💘

also, this is random, but i was just thinking about the albums i have to categorize my posts! if you can see and observe, i use "misc. 🌼" the most, and it got me thinking if i should turn on multi-select or have more than one category per post 🤔

i decided no though, because it might get messy, complicated, or more of a hassle than what i have right now, which is mega simple! going back to my #minimallist roots

ps. it's kinda hard to find filler content, you know.. (i'm trying to make sure at least some of my posts are at approximately the same length) + padlet really needs a collapse post option 😭 (i can see EVERYTHING..)

some people don't know how much effort and time i actually put into this, even if it's just writing my thoughts yk.. i feel like anne frank or something 💀

🎀 Sunday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

i'm pretty sure i haven't talked about this yet, but (maybe) this is the best i could get for free! sadly i have no sample picture, but trust me it's really saturated.. its just a yellow-orangish tint on your whole screen (you can't adjust the strength of the tint if you're using free..)

i used this during exam week when i made reviewers, and it helped my eyes at least feel a bit better.. (i'm not delusional omg it HAD to have worked, even a BIT)

but anyway, if you sit at your computer a lot, use glasses, and your screen time is out the roof? you NEED something to help your eyes.. a miracle won't happen where you can withstand all the problems in the world!

🎀 Monday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

i just read this and it was literally so exceptional. a new favorite and my recommendation to you for today! 🥺 it's a slice-of-life and coming of age webtoon published in 2019. it's SO good for its time, i promise you! keep reading :D

it's definitely for you if you're... 😱

1. a sucker for a good plot - the events were written beautifully, and clearly so well thought out! (you will NOT regret this, come on..)

2. a lazy or slow reader - it's pretty short! (10 episodes and can be read in less than an hour, depending on your speed!)

3. in love with anime styles - the art is amazing and a lot of it reminded me of ghibli (kinda..) or other iconic animes!

now, what i really liked while reading it...

(SPOILERS ahead 🛑 skip to after!)

i loved, so much, how the letters served as a way to bring sori and eugene together 😭 like she was able to find a friend in such little time and learn to heal, to trust, and to kinda renew herself! in a way that i'm so proud of her :)

at some point, i was thinking "when will the letters end?" because 10 letters was actually crazy! i thought that eugene and sori would back off each other once there were no more, but i'm glad they didn't! nearing the end, i even thought yeon committed suicide or something..

this deserved every one of the 12.3M+ readers it has. spread the love! 💗

(good job! end of SPOILERS 🛑)

for my final notes, to really seal the deal! 💝

• it's a heartwarming webtoon and i got a little emotional reading it. the emotional impact is SO strong if you're someone who feels strongly!

• the characters' friendship is so sweet that you'll go "aww.." actually! it's kinda a melodrama :)

fun fact: the writer, Hyeon A. Cho, actually published a book of it! it costs money though..

note 🛑

it lightly tackles bullying in a way that may be sensitive to some readers. take caution!

where to read? 📚

download the app for free!

read the webtoon online!

🎀 Tuesday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

i'm super duper exhausted and overwhelmed from the things i need to do.. (this is what i get for resting too much 💔) i barely had any sleep today (or every day) #no time management

random! but when i work at night after 12 am i lose my concept of time and do things as if i have unlimited time.. (#puyat to the max!)

also i totally recommend the song attached! madison's voice is absolutely ethereal omg 😭 #coping

ps. previous post is so #paragraph warriors.. (that's not even THAT long omg..) make sure to read every bit, it means a lot to me! 🙁!!

🎀 Tuesday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

i've waited like 2 weeks just to send this. yes. i finally did it.

anyway, about my day, i just found out my school's newspaper team released its very first publication! (i'm a part of it) honestly it looks super amazing so i really commend the people who did the layout :)

fun fact though! the release of it has been delayed for almost a month... maybe they were busy! + i call it "saco" for short 😋

off topic: discord just introduced their orbs quests for mobile users! (shoutout to my friends because NOW they have to get on that grind!) 😡

🎀 Tuesday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

i was scrolling, looking for webtoon today and saw this! it's definitely unique but it's pretty long so i don't think i'll be reading that lolol 💀

most of the webtoons are legit the same thing. like why is there so much with royalty 😭 like i keep seeing the words "duke" "tyrant" "marriage" and they almost always have romance or someone dies! actually, despite always writing about love, seeing OTHERS' romance kinda cringes me out a ton.. 😅

i prefer some kind of mystery or thriller, i think? i kinda cringe at romance so much that i hope i don't see it! (like the "your letter" one, thanks so much for no romance 💘) but that doesn't mean i don't ship anyone ever (because i do! i'm juust picky..)

🎀 Tuesday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

hello guys and girls! 😁 so if you even know me, obviously i'm obsessed with adopt me, and i've been seeing some stories lately on instagram about other people holding an adopt me toy (and i'm totally jealous..) because mcdonalds has this thing going on! (it's in the happy meals)

i originally wanted a cat (other choices were axolotl or hamster) but they were sold out so i was given a winged horse 😞 they might end their happy meal thing before i can get a cat.. (i want it so bad people! 😓)

ps. my blog stopped working a little after i sent this post and i was freaking out like crazy like why couldn't i access it... i think it had a problem with cloudflare, which was, i believe, down at the time 😭 (it asked me to verify if i was human using cloudflare)

yes, i'm a human! 🥺

(reference to the game "no, i'm not a human")

🎀 Wednesday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

we're already required to get started on the second publication omg.. 😭 the "progress updates" align with my busy events next week so i'm kinda cooked, maybe.. i have to be so #responsible because i'm ALREADY behind on some things.. gosh, i can't wait for christmas break! 😁

also, the assignments are final already 😿 i legit just chose anything that seemed kinda okay for me to do? i don't have any idea at all yet, and i'm scared i might regret it, but we ball!

but you know, i'm happy that they're giving saco so much more credit, acknowledgement, and recognition than last year :) it makes me feel so important! (or idk because my pieces are not allat..)

ps. i've been listening to tyla and kehlani lately (it's not intentional, i have my music on shuffle regularly) and i'm kinda obsessed with After Hours by Kehlani and ART by Tyla.. please listen..

🎀 Thursday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

kinda falling off the blog motivation because i've been so busy (school! heh..) that i've been delaying and delaying WHEN i write blogs, so i have no idea what to write now! (because the idea's gone) 😭

we also got our exam scores this week and i realized how much i'm actually falling off.. (tell me why i got a lot of 30s/50 and no 40s! 💔) situational questions or "about the concept" are so confusing sometimes #visuallearner #memorizer

also, maybe it's the stress, but i got a lot of negative thoughts and feelings this week 😿 remember to always care for your mental health! it matters as much as your physical health :)

kaya pa ba, guys? 🌸

(to my filipino readers ihihi)

🎀 Saturday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

i just realized that it's ALREADY the end of the week, wow! and i remembered how i was dreading monday to just pass already 💀 also because i promised myself (and some friends) that i'd share my blog within this week. sorry! 😋 it completely slipped my mind

anyway, enjoy the cover, which is a panel from a webtoon my friend reads! she sent it to me and i thought it was so funny xoxo (but about reading it.. erm.. it's..!) (i don't read it)

ps. the "title" is supposed to be.. idk, do you call it a pun? i made it based on the thousands of notes i see my friend do.. one of my faves! (don't tell anyone 🥺) "you deserve to chow, king." #iconic #stolethat

🎀 Saturday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

i can't believe padlet updated AS WE SPEAK.. (not literally, but i just noticed this, omg?) i was complaining before about how we could only add ONE photo, that's why the bloxburg update post was a collage, but now we can have photo albums! #instagram

you DO NOT KNOW how hype this is 😻 omg i might start using it soon! (but i do enjoy my readers being able to see everything at a glance..)

so what do you guys think?! (i just wanna hear opinions but obviously am gonna use and maximize that feature 💝) also waiting for the day we can view posts based on category..

🎀 Saturday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

(ai mention 😱)

i may be kinda dumb but i just found something out! 😵 literally lesson learned omg! (it felt so eye-opening)

so let's take it from the top! what happened was, i had a voice message of me singing in messenger, but wanted to somehow "upload" it onto a website so i could just share a link of it to a friend on discord

i got a screen recording, attached it to google drive, renamed it, and it was so weird when i was trying to download it.. as in it was classified as "25 File" and i was ultra confused because usually it works and that never happens.. sorry i'm not a computer geek! 🤓

anyway i literally tried to convert it to mp3 and it repeatedly wasn't letting me, saying "error" "not supported" or whatever, then i finally decided to google it..

after i saw this, i checked the file name and whoop-dee-do! there were periods.. (because if you can't tell, that's how i write dates!) but luckily i was able to fix it and convert the video to mp3.. the end!

🎀 Sunday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

so overwhelmed from schoolwork that i decided to hop on roblox at like 3 am...

do you guys ever have moments where you don't feel like doing any assignments (basically procrastination) and your brain totally shuts off because it's late so you just wanna play a chill game! 🤩 well, this is that.. as a grinding girlie, i would love to just relax and play whatever (which is this!)

it was good and all though i wish i could've found something.. better! i mean this is kinda mid 😿 i didn't even really know what i was doing so that's not #truefun

🎀 Tuesday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

i was literally SAVED by suspension.. omg.. and i literally remember working on my research late last night, and it was raining (already daydreaming/anticipating suspension) and it did suspend! wow! (i am a nyaminyami believe btw 😁)

only people who go to my school will get the reference! 😎

it's like i have all the time in the world.. #restday for the overwhelmed people in the chat! (it's JUST tuesday bro.) also because i realized i have to do 3 major things, NOT just research because i've been focusing on it an awful lot.. (to-do lists are a must! 📝)

like, i have to paint something about my feelings? i'm planning to make a flowery mess with ribbons (idk! it's pretty), then i have to plan a literary piece about new years! (thinking negative to positive again 😊)

+ also itching so bad to watch ace attorney aaa when will the time come.. 🤤

i wonder if anyone's ACTUALLY interested in reading this much about my day..

should i start including a christmas counter? there's only a month aka 30 days until christmas.. 😋 like this:

─★ 30 days until christmas 🎄⋆ .˚

🎀 Tuesday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

i was just complaining about how i always get the same darn pets from cracked eggs (turns out, the pets all SUCK) and i ended up hatching a legendary quetzalcoatl from an aztec egg 😱 really blew my mind! + the new salon painting feature (they updated it, i only noticed now)

here's the code if you want the same color:

0Y1E2B0M0U

ps. "lucky 5000" is just something random that came to mind!

also excited for all the christmas updates coming this week.. (school so stressful i don't wanna do this anymore! i want my almost month-long break now! 🤤) tbh i've been so busy i barely have time to blog on weekdays.. (i didn't expect this)

fun fact! i saw a short/reel today that said something like:

• before criticizing someone's work, you should ask how they feel about it.

• why? because once you start saying your opinions, they'll invalidate their own ➡ leads to bad feelings

• if you clearly communicate and acknowledge how they feel ➡ more understanding

i just wanted to share that, because i think others should know it :)

(personal flex that i kinda already knew this beforehand!)

🎀 Thursday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

i really underestimate how long tasks take to do..! (i answered that in my ishape too lol 💀) because of research, i ended up cramming an asynchronous task in filipino for like 2 hours (excuse my struggle!) and submitted at 11:57, where the deadline is at 11:59 (obvi!)

legit i didn't fully understand the story so i just put whatever i could.. this is because i ended up taking an afternoon nap! 😞 (the puyat is real but unfortunately not a valid excuse)

random! because my cheap plastic claw clips kept breaking, i bought a metal one (as recommended by my friend) in hopes that i wouldn't have to buy again! but.. it.. broke.. 😁

(missed 29th ALREADY because i was busy..)

─★ 28 days until christmas 🎄⋆ .˚

🎀 Thursday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

it was lowkey supposed to be abstract and no lines/drawings but i thought it looked so lost without lines.. but painting this was so healing! 🩹 (was so good that i decided to do this at 1 am since i did this right after cramming something else!)

i rushed this for like 1-2 hours the night before (painted it in 1 hour and outlined for the rest of the time) so i wasn't really feeling that motivated to mix colors much.. 😁 (that's why it's so vibrant! that's the given paint colors)

the theme here is just that i wanted to incorporate (the same things i always paint) water, flowers, leaves, etc.. also, the lore for the colored border is that my paintbrush accidentally ruined the white border so i just said "we ball i guess.." and colored the whole thing 💝

+ the basis i'm using for which post (out of multiple in a day) i'll decide to put the "... days until christmas" is honestly just based on what i like (what i FEEL!)

🎀 Thursday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

i want to introduce you to a wonderful app i found named widgetable! to make it short, i'll give bullet points 😊

you should totally download it because:

• daily responsibility! you take care of plants (if you have) every day, mimicking real-life duties :) it builds consistency, perseverance, and proficiency 😉

• builds friendships! by working with your friend to raise a pet (co-parenting), you get to coordinate with them to feed, bathe, and care for the baby 😁

• a cute decorative! in its name, "widgetable", there's a ton of widgets you can put on your home screen!

the app's features involve:

• location tracker (for friend and you)

• mood jar & mood bubble (you can see history too!)

• sleep tracker (based on times you use the device)

🎀 Thursday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

i have no idea if i can say that i'm ready for tomorrow because i'm legit insanely nervous.. like it'll be major stressful (i am getting NO sleep) because tell me why our pre-defense is only hours away and we're STILL making revisions and changes.. we also had a "mock-defense" that honestly didn't help me at all either 😭

along with our research, we have another major project, which is the puppet show for kinder! for this one, i think it'll be easy because my character has like 3 lines, but still, i have so little ambag on this.. (i was locked in research, trust me!)

out of the 6 subjects we have in a day, i'll have 2 performances and 4 quizzes.. (i hope they get moved.. pls.) and i have to do this Q&A about our cheerdance since grade 8 is having this interview thing 😞 (can't wait to interview an entrepreneur?)

i swear guys! once this stressful freaking week ends, i'll be the most jolliest bee to ever work.. life will be so fun once i'm finally free (malaya! malaya! 😿)

still, i can't believe it's already tomorrow.. wish me luck 💝

🎀 Friday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

because of my research, i've only been getting like 2 hours of sleep everyday.. and today being my pre-defense? i totally couldn't believe it. also, because i also have a puppet show for kinder today and 2 quizzes, i was ULTRA stressed.. focused on research though!

spoiler: the quizzes ended up being moved because we used the class time for preparation for the puppet show!

i was already anticipating that i'd cry today because of the stress (i was really on the verge of everything.. i felt like i did SO much..) but i never thought i'd cry after we got ACCEPTED. ✊

all the late nights, all the work, all the DOUBTS i had, and for it to actually be accepted? be worth it? i just felt so so grateful for everything that happened.. 😭 the times i felt overwhelmed, rushed, worried, because my group had to cram.. and even with a million mistakes, a million revisions,

we did it. (or did we.. 😜)

+ thank you to my groupmate who libre us mcdo! 🤗

and dear me,

i am ever so proud of you for being able to do this. pushing through, working hard, because it all PAID OFF. thank you for the everlasting dedication and hard work, because YOU truly did your best. 💝

for the puppet show, seeing the kids was such an experience! (if i could be a kindergarten teacher at my age, i would..) i'm so happy our hard work paid off here as well because the performance was definitely worthwhile! the kids enjoyed it and were definitely so happy :)

─★ 27 days until christmas 🎄⋆ .˚

🎀 Saturday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

i've been wanting a digicam so bad. anyways! my mom got me a smart watch (this is an early christmas gift) and at first i was kinda like "oh okay.." because i do want that digicam BAD! but it's actually not so bad.. like i'm kinda obsessed with it! 😁

it's very interesting and includes, first and foremost, a game! (2048 only..) then the random stats like bpm, spo2, bp, stress (for some reason) and time apps like stopwatch and timer! literally cannot stop touching this thing.. 🤤 also i had some trouble with setting a watch face but eventually i did it! since it's temporary i just chose a random picture of me ehe

also includes steps! one of the main reasons i even love this thing 😻 i'm not big on the notifications feature because i think it might become a distraction actually (do you think this will be allowed in school?..)

random, but i haven't worn a watch in so long that i forgot which hand i put it on.. a lot of right-handed people, like me, tell me to put it on my left wrist.. but i kinda feel like i used to put it on the right? i can't remember.. 😵

if you're curious about the price, i actually don't know btw!

─★ 26 days until christmas 🎄⋆ .˚

🎀 Sunday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

you know, i can't believe that this month is already ending.. compared to others, it feels like it's been a bit longer? (definitely the research!) #endofachapter

i'm still major upset but i've accepted that this school year, i haven't been taking as much pictures as before.. it could be for the following reasons!

• burn out (perhaps i took too many last year that i kinda just.. stopped! this year)

• academically focused (procrastinating? cramming for a tight deadlne? uh huh.. i thought so..)

• too chopped (refers to me btw! maybe i look mega weird so that's why i don't want photos..)

but anyway! a new year is coming.. also having a mini career crisis again since we have career day in 2 days.. the last time i thought about a job was when i wanted to be an interior designer 😭 at the time, i was so sure i wanted that (until i saw how impossible ardes seemed) until coercion basically led me to doubt that choice..

so now, i don't know what i wanna be 😿

─★ 25 days until christmas 🎄⋆ .˚

🎀 Monday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

finally, the first day of christmas is here! i'm so excited omg.. (i know! i say it in every single post bro 💀) also, i wasn't able to attend the admin abuse for today (technically) since i was unfortunately fast asleep.. sucks that i wake up only a little after it ended! to be fair, i used some energy today so..

i can't believe adopt me hasn't opened their gifts yet.. if i could open a whole advent calendar in one sitting, i would! (but actually probably not, that's kinda weird.. overconsumption hello!)

so the theme i chose for saco, (if i haven't said it yet) is new years! that's cool and all, but what's common for this theme is something happy, joyful, about the celebration, really.. i'm planning to try to make it sad, depressed, to somewhat hopeful and inspiring for people who have the "christmas blues"

not everyone celebrates christmas nor do they feel the joy of the festive spirit so this poem aims to shine light on that! also because i recently saw a youtuber i watch (jay from the kubs scouts!) play two pretty sensitive games where one handles depression, and the other, abuse, so i decided to go with that kind of sadness

anyway yeah! i guess you'll see the final results soon :)

ps. i wanna keep this in the november just because.. i'm not sure if i should count it as a part of it though! + i'm not ready for another busy week omg.. (teachers will start giving more assignments i'm so dead)

─★ 24 days until christmas 🎄⋆ .˚

🎀 Monday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

happy december! earliest merry christmas.. #herewegoagain

i didn't realize it was ALREADY december but anyway so glad we can drag posts here! new month, new posts! heh.. i still have to finalize the november posts and do a ton more stuff 🥦 ohmygulay 🥦

just a school update, i recently finished another poem for saco! it's so rushed that i did every stanza individually so the poem doesn't really.. align.. 😿 (if only i did prose!) i'll be sharing it soon :) unless i get busy.. again! but you guys know i love my blog 😋

still souper overwhelmed, the feeling is just killing me, actually.. i tend to become so forgetful (i even forgot i did to-do lists for a second) and i've been majorly sick 😷 i have all the phlegm in the land.. (actually started wearing a mask for once!)

additionally, i want to say i wish people appreciated the work of others way more 😔 for example, when i do daily reminders and i send it to others, i expect you (the "reader" of these reminders) to actually read it! especially if it's ALREADY summarized. it pisses me off if you have the audacity to say to my face, "oh, actually? we have that today?" when i already mentioned it beforehand.

people don't know that making something shorter is harder than making something longer :(

ps. this is a special post because it's the first one! :3

🎀 Monday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

shoutout to one of my friends for giving me this croissant from saudi arabia btw! (people should totally start giving me food..) it tasted amazing but definitely lacked filling (still would try again!) 💝

just a random fact about me that some don't know is that i actually love doing outlines! (like in english) it helps me stay organized and i didn't realize it was actually "outlines" despite knowing that lesson.. 😋

also! daily reminder for me to really maximize the school's resources.. like i'm paying for the experience, i should go to the library way more! sadly i'm not a bookworm but i do use the laptop sometimes or read the newspaper :)

+ it's almost december 3! it's been a long time since i waited for that day.. i remember i used to sing heather by conan gray almost all the time when someone asked me for a sample of my singing 😭

🎀 Monday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

here's another song recommendation! it reminds me of my gacha phase but i feel like i can't remember ever watching a video using it 😿

+ i took a look back at the music i used to listen to and omg pluggnb remixes are so fire! (for me) but i dunno what that means lolol 😛 the only reason i did this was because i started using actual youtube music.. (the site) and not youtube 💀

still can't believe that i managed to cram the poem in time omg.. actually, the elapsed time is VERY similar to the time as the previous one, with them only having a 1 MINUTE gap 😮 i work efficiently guys.. (it's like 4 hours broski)

random but i just found out today that (iho & don) are actually spanish, not filipino.. wow! how totally influenced we are 😭 and might i add that my overuse of (🤑) is getting a bit concerning like where did i pick that up from omg..

🎀 Tuesday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

you know, i don't know how people do these stuff.. when i first joined gameboysix's nonogram on roblox, i was so SHOCKED 😦 because the person i was with completed it so fast.. alone! the thing is, it's almost purely guessing or probability that usually (for me) takes long, so it really takes skill!

i was interested in solving one though, so i found this online nonogram and i solved it! (but to confess, i stopped trying midway and started guessing lolol) but THIS one has a pattern, the one in roblox has NO pattern (randomly generated) and you only have 3 tries 😵

ps. thinking of maybe changing the emoji in the blog dates to maybe something chrismasy! feeling ⛄.. (hello snowman by sia!)

─★ 23 days until christmas 🎄⋆ .˚

🎀 Wednesday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

bro..i was so locked in for school that i totally forgot it was heather day 😭 honestly, i've been so locked in (locked in or procrastinating?) that i've forgotten a lot of things by now (another chance to use to-do lists) if only i had someone to swap jackets with, am i right! #justmeoverhere

at least i had time to read the newspaper from my school library! i don't actually read it though, i mainly look for the comics, crossword, or horoscope but i do read some i find interesting :3

ps. ehe you won't believe the cramming i'm doing! (for the blog..) i secretly make almost all the posts at a later time, it's crazy..

─★ 22 days until christmas 🎄⋆ .˚

🎀 Wednesday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

i just took a look at my spotify wrapped and it's not very satisfactory! my top song (i hate it so bad.. it does NOT deserve its place at all) i believe i had that on loop and ended up falling asleep on it for a DAY.. please spotify monitor the whole year and not one day omg. 😵

anyway i attached some of the ones i got!

the ones that were, well, on the podium, were actually those i was expecting! now i know i totally need to get on that listening grind! (i mean 11.3k mins is not good enough at all.. if youtube had a wrapped it would be amazing for me!)

maybe i'll have better luck with yt music! (idk if it's synced with normal youtube because that's what i use)

🎀 Thursday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

so recently, i wanna tell you guys about this challenge my english teacher gave us! it's not graded nor mandatory, she told us that it'll serve as practice for the future (because some colleges make you do a lot of reading..) and obviously i'll do it! it only has to be a short story but i'm still looking 🧐

to be honest, i'm really not big on reading anyway (as i always say, i'm more of a writer 🤷‍♀️) but after reading our recent literature, the lottery ticket, i was able to do physical annotations + comments, and THAT really motivated me to read more! just you wait, i'm gonna become a reader..

actually, i found this book from the library's newly acquired books, but unfortunately it's shs.. i don't know if i'm allowed to borrow it but i guess we'll see tomorrow (wish me luck) 😭

i'm kinda a nerd because i love making school-reference jokes 🤓 like! i would totally hang myself on an aspen tree if i don't get that stupid book..

read the lottery ticket here!

(so you can understand my joke ehe)

─★ 21 days until christmas 🎄⋆ .˚

🎀 Friday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

and hello to all the late night freaks! of course i'm awake at 2 am formatting my blog.. (at least it's not the research. heh.) 😎 somehow full of energy! (but i'll be so tired later.. this is only because i took a 4 hour nap lolol)

i just wanted to say that this quarter, i'll really have to lock in! (might determine my grades..) especially science bro 😁 you will not believe all the terminologies i'm hearing about the endocrine system! this is NOT like the respiratory system bro. holy doctorism! 👩‍⚕️ (that reminds me of pointilism. ohno.)

also to add, a treasured quote

from my old mama (advisor); 💗

i love you from the bottom of my hypothalamus.

(those who know! 😋)

bulleted randoms 😴

• you guys don't know this but i think of over 1024 thoughts per day to add to my blog but i keep forgetting!

• i'm going to slowly start sharing my blog to get exposure.. (i swear bro)

• the advent calendar for adopt me has been serving nothing recently.. hopes are in the negative!

🎀 Friday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

(typing this at late 11 pm but let's pretend it's as if i was in the moment earlier at 3 pm 😁) + book reveal!

hi guys! (let's refresh..) i was JUST jumping in joy because i was able to get the book i wanted! 🥳 (technically..) and i feel like it's the best thing ever because it's not even that long! it has 167 pages and looks so compact so i'm excited to read it 😮 i am NOT lying when i tell you

I FELL IN LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT.

frick whoever got the first book before me.. anyway, maybe this is what fate has in store for me! it.. probably.. isn't that bad to read the sequel before the first part, right? 😅 it's literally linear text.. i HAVE to read it in order bro!

anyway, we have a long weekend (no school on monday) so trust, i can totally finish this in 3 days! and also the other stuff i've been procrastinating on..

just you wait until i get my HANDS on the first part..

🎀 Friday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

i actually was really happy because i was thinking about the book the whole day ehe.. but i ended up crying because of some conflict so that upset my mood around 5 pm 😿 because of that, i took a 6 hour nap (until 11 pm) so it's practically morning for me!

the adopt me update just rolled out 😛 it looks amaze and i am so hyped for this event! just a bit upset that we get like 1-2k gingerbread from the bah humbug minigame AND ice skating 😔 i could've sworn we got a ton more before.. also reminiscing when i'd be ice skating in christmas 2021 🤤

regardless, the christmas pudding house is an absolute dream 🥰 as a builder and stuff, it is just so feel-good to have a house so festive and lively for so cheap! (you have to complete 15 pet needs)

anyways, i'm totally grinding for the tree sasquatch! it takes 450 pet needs though.. that might take me the ENTIRE event to earn.. ugh! 😵 or maybe i won't even get it bro. how is it ONLY a rare pet? the kitty bat was easier to get and it was a legendary.. + what the heck! i can't get the daily egg.. i already reported it huhu 💔

also daily reminder to anyone and everyone that:

your feelings are always valid 💞

─★ 20 days until christmas 🎄⋆ .˚

🎀 Saturday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

i forgot to mention this yesterday, but basically discord made their own "wrapped" because its their 10th anniversary 🥳 i wish they did it every year because it's pretty cool! i managed to get into the top 0.19% for messages sent (heh.. yapper..) and i'm so obsessed with the avatar decoration! (i just added my pfp in there)

never thought that i'd get 38h in vc though! (i almost never vc) but now this makes me curious about my all-time stats 🤔

anyway, wouldn't you say i'm getting kinda better at blogging? wink wink! 😉 + i think my sickness is coming back.. oh my gosh..

⛄ Saturday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

i just wanted to share the poem i wrote for slam poetry in school (and this was a written work!) we only got 10 minutes for this but i guess it was kinda fun 🤷‍♀️ again, if you know you know! warning: very rushed!

Married to a man who foolishly led me away

He stole my heart and called it a day!

An escape was all I needed— this ticket to lead me out

I know what he's thinking; even if no words leave his mouth

Why didn't I take the chance to leave this wretched place behind?

For now my husband is out of his head, soul, and mind!

I still have my own dreams, even if I make no noise

Because I'm who started it— with the sound of my voice!

turns out we had to use imagery.. heh.. i hope my teacher considers this! 🤑 so what do we think guys!

ps. i just changed the date's emoji to be ⛄ but it's not as flashy as the ribbon.. anyway, it's fine! :) + you do not know how i've waited and YEARNED for the weekend! oh yes!

+ can't believe that some people are ALREADY able to get the tree sasquatch omg.. it's been like so quick ever since they gave us this pet! (adopt me btw)

⛄ Saturday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

i just released some pets into the pet releaser! (remembered it was a thing..) and got like 20k points for giving away a ton.. for context, i actually worked really hard for a while so i could dump all the pets in there in one go 😎 as in i hatched a dozen cracked eggs, got the same stupid pets, aged them fully (some neon) and that all added up to 20k!

did you know that common full grown neons are worth like 2.5k points? so it just means that hard work is actually worth it (because newborns are worth soso much less, like 500?)

i was able to hatch an ultra-rare pomeranian from the crystal egg (my first one) and i guess it's kinda fine.. still wishing for dango penguins though 🤒 give me legendary already! (apologies that it's a bit aged up 💀)

spoiler alert: my luck went a billion times down after this.. i kept getting bad pets from eggs i worked so hard for! omg!

regardless, i guess i should be grateful for what i get.. 😭

⛄ Saturday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

i attached a clearer version of the cover art because Ilya Milstein (artist) and Milan Bozic (cover designer) deserve that recognition!

haven't started yet because i'm kinda nervous.. saw a ton of names lolol (such as uncle SATORU? hello gojo) and i'm a bit scared that i won't feel as much as emotional connection to the characters because, well, i don't know the context of anything.. 😿 but will take notes! it says on the back:

"Characters leave and return, fall in and out of love, and some eventually die."

so i'm just wondering what's gonna happen here! anyhow, i'll update you guys on my journey, trust! 📚 i wonder if this will inspire me to read more 🤤 but i'm not sure if i have time! i have like a dozen assignments all the time omg

ps. just realizing the beauty of japanese-translated books.. 😺 first, the cover is gorgeous + i would love anything that's not like those tiktok cringe romance books.. but yes! i'll start reading now :3

⛄ Saturday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

i was really sleepy the whole night 😴 as in the only reason i've been staying up is because i just remembered there's admin abuse! i wonder what they'll give us (hopefully it's gingerbread 😭)

update: we got a humbug and 30k gingerbread.. although 2 humbugs (22k) would've been more "worth it" than 15k! but i guess people just prefer money more 🤷‍♀️

anyway, can i just say that the bah, humbug! minigame is totally irritating me.. i'm not motivated to play it at all because it's so boring and hard to earn money in bro 😿 the admins say they raised the earnings, but i get like 1-3k at most.. what happened to the 5k i got ONCE 😦

+ random but i was just thinking that (huhu) i am so low on photos and stuff this year.. how else am i gonna remember grade 10! (or maybe it's just not a year to remember 💔) like i can't tell if i "fell off" or got severely "burnt out" to the point i lost interest? like hello..)

─★ 19 days until christmas 🎄⋆ .˚

⛄ Sunday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

i've been ignoring other stuff lately (procrastinating because i feel lazy to!) to endulge in my interests 🥰 unlike the things i ACTUALLY have to do, i'm almost done with reading my book and close to getting the tree sasquatch! you may see the attached image 😇

ignoring the 8 hours i spent on adopt me (today alone) getting this tree sasquatch pet is actually really easy! adopt me counts other pets, so if you take care of, maybe 5 pets at once, (5 pets is crazy!) it'll help you a ton 💖 also the 2 new tasks regarding gingerbread is actually such a nice way to earn faster (especially ice skating)

for the book.. just trust me bro! i'm like 80% there and it is so amazing 🤤 nothing like what i expected! but then again, i don't know what i was expecting lmao

and i just lost my kinda "streak" on block blast omg.. i accidentally placed a block without thinking and that led to my downfall! gg to my 100k+ high score i guess.. (heh gatekeeper 😝)

⛄ Sunday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

ps. i'll still make posts about the book after i finish (about the ending) but i'm literally 10 pages away from done and i'm tweaking so bad! (in a good way) like OH MY GOSH 🤭

it makes me so happy that.. i think we have a good ending! this book is so positive that it's really such a feel-good story omg.. (no wonder, it's an international bestseller) anyway i love the fact that they added like a whole letter in here for me, the reader, to read! i absolutely love it when writers do that 🥰

in such a short time (i'd finished this book for sure in 2 days) i've gotten so attached to the characters but i feel like the way i envision them in my mind is definitely far off from what they actually look like 💀 anyway, it's still such an amazing book!

there's a couple in the book and regardless of any other factors, their love just makes me MELT like they ARE the standard 😭 i would love to meet them.. also, even if this is a fictional book, i've been believing like all the places and stuff that's been mentioned (i plan on finding out if some of these things are actually REAL)

as a writer i love adding references (as much as i can) to my work all the time, it's kinda my watermark, so look out for that :)

─★ 18 days until christmas 🎄⋆ .˚

⛄ Monday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

how i love making puyat.. (have i mentioned we have long weekend 🤑) + my reading was interrupted because i ACTUALLY got the tree sasquatch! 😻 thank you SO much to everyone and their pets who helped me reach this in 2 days..

it truly is the product of my very hard work (i mean 450 tasks? man!..) and i'm soso proud of myself for that :)

i finally finished the book! it was honestly amazing, such an experience and i loved it so much.. the ending is definitely so satisfactory 😊 i think the entire book, no matter the character, is just about self discovery ✅ but closing that last page was so bittersweet, you don't even know 😭

also i adore how, by the end of the book, the morisaki bookshop truly has so much life, story, and love to it! those 167 pages tackled life topics so beautifully and of course i'm so thankful to Eric Ozawa (the translator) for the amazing piece! 😁

i can't wait to read the first part but at the same time i'm kinda scared to get attached to the characters AGAIN and experience all the heartbreak AGAIN!.. 😅 buf for the meantime, i'll read any reviews i can find 😎

⛄ Monday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

so hello! today, i was immediately entranced by a big beautiful red sign that read: "buy one, get one free" so that's exactly what i did 🥺 i seriously did spend around 2 hours walking around the smallest book space ever (not even much options, nor is it a bookstore)

it took me forever to choose two books i actually wanted because a majority i saw were romance or had a writing style that icked me 😓 i'm very specific when it comes to choosing! this experience made me so happy despite the pressure i got after the workers started staring at me 💀 (which caused me to quickly choose a second book, i only "truly wanted" one of the books)

also, i wanted to recommend to you guys to start preparing in advance way more if you don't already because it does make a difference! even if you know what you want to do, your mind may tend to forget or, having to do more stuff, it'll just feel like a hassle to you 🤷‍♀️

making a routine is definitely one of the things WE need to have in 2026! consistency really is key, y'know? anyway! yearning for the day i can find more books then 😋 i'm happy to hear any recommendations btw (i like fiction)

ps. missing christmas 2024 in adopt me because the upate & minigames were ACTUALLY peak 😭 need to really get on my grind soon.. (but this year kinda sucks 😞)

⛄ Saturday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

so i've been gone.. (almost two weeks!) but let me EXPLAIN what the helly happened to me 😭 you may be wondering if i quit or something (no way that's happening! #perseverance) but i promise you i didn't! i just took an insanely long break (i probably needed that) but i'm ready to totally come back 😎

what happened was, my stupid internet (pldt btw) went out for a literal week.. that was december 9-16! for the past days i've been kinda stressed preparing for the last few days before christmas party 😅 and i still have mandala art to do! gosh!

over the course of a week, being offline, i had like nothing to do (but it was such a refresh!) i actually planned on grinding and studying for exams early but that didn't push through because, well, no internet! it also made me realize i am just an internet girl 💀

anyway! in short, christmas party was amazing, and i'm absolutely IN LOVE with my gift (like omg am i so excited to use it) it shows that being ultra specific with what i want really pays off because it matches all descriptions exactly! thank you so much secret santa 💞

─★5 days until christmas 🎄⋆ .˚

⛄ Saturday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

just a quick post before the clock hits midnight! i recently arranged my calendar to include fictional characters' birthdays, and whoop-de-doo, we have yttd! it's been such a long time since i've seen this fandom or the characters omg and the fact i have all christmas break of freedom is so amazing!

happy birthday to this beautiful girl, kanna kizuchi! (i love her and actually prefer her over gin) to this day, i still think the game is amazing so you should go try it! the characters' lore is just so delicious and the art style is what glues everything together 💖

the way some scenes (such as this) just brings so much life to it— and despite not being voice acted, the shakes, light changes, and typing text sounds are already an experience in itself! what a masterpiece 🤤

⛄ Monday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

omg! i didn't have time to post yesterday because i was pretty busy and i needed that rest right after 😭 anyway i get everyone's (or some are) pretty busy for christmas! (yet i don't know what to do to make it special for me.. yet!) so i wish you guys a merry christmas in advance 😁

once that or new year hits, i'll totally be sending a message just talking about the whole year #sentimental that's me guys! then, just a reminder, don't hold back! we have ALL christmas break to binge watch, grind on games, sleep forever, and do whatever! do NOT let this opportunity slide 😒

additionally, i ordered a digicam online (i'm so desperate) but i'm nervous because it might be insanely horrible.. pray for me once again! i decided to pause myself and open it on christmas eve 😉 (that's only because i barely get any gifts)

ps. after the christmas counter, i'm planning to add a counter for until classes start again.. i just wanna have some sense of that, you know! and also, confession.. i haven't read the book (spring on rendezvous lane) for at least 4-5 days now 💀

oh! i'm also planning to release a story soon (hopefully) and it's more of a.. erm.. like, you learn something from the story! it's just one of my amazing thoughts (philosopher ba yarn?) but it's still in planning huhu 🤧

─★3 days until christmas 🎄⋆ .˚

⛄ Monday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

i recently watched kontrabida academy and it's a total recommend! 😮 i actually thought it was a series for a while now (i have no idea why) but it's actually an almost 2h movie (even though, it does have potential to be a series!) but i do appreciate them getting straight to the point

here's the description! (netflix)

Between her dead-end job, family troubles, and failed relationship, Gigi's had enough — until a mysterious TV offers her the chance to get even.

notes: kontrabida means "villain" and did you know this film was on netflix's top 10 for almost a month? go philippines.. ⭐

some people actually don't like lengthy media if there's not much drastic changes in the story, but SOMETIMES i enjoy them because it helps give more details and make a connection to the audience (because they keep coming back, like a routine, you know?)

the only reason i now know that is because of the reviews i saw about the book i read (more days at the morisaki bookshop) 😭 they didn't like it for that same reason, but what's so bad about it 💔

anyway, i need to lock in binging more media.. 😵 i do nawt have much time to read, watch, and game! (but i did just get my second tree sasquatch recently 🤤)

⛄ Monday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

so i couldn't contain myself.. i said, forget it! and opened the digicam box.. i mean, it's not thaat bad 😁 (reassured by friends) but if you're some kind of photography enthusiast, you'll jump me because the resolution is HORRID 😔 i can see every colorful pixel in the pictures i take omg.

but whatever! it's a whole aesthetic i guess 🤷‍♀️ (even if i'm not that kinda person) plus i should just be grateful that i even got this because it's pretty okay for it's price + already has a ton of space, can picture and record 📸

it's a bit "special" if you catch my drift (because it's not a famous brand, or even branded, so whatever!) but okay 😭 i just hope it lasts long or i can make use of it (this is actually a christmas gift that i chose)

teaching myself to be confident in my decision! 😤 this is good and i shouldn't be so judgemental.. it has feelings too! ✅ on the bright side, i found out how to use its TF card and card reader to transfer to my laptop 😎

next time, i'll be designing it! (adding stickers) and also maximizing the 64 GB space it has.. (i know guys! it's a lot. i wanted to maximize the chance so i just said, fudge it 😴)

ps. wish me good luck on this journey (if there even is one) 😓

⛄ Tuesday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

i spent around 5-6 hours on making a strawpage and it's.. finally done.. but i DO NOT recommend this because it has no undo button + doesn't let you copy paste. like! when i design, i use copy paste to be quicker (because bro, to get these maximalist designs, i have to find AND remove bg then paste it.. but adding another step to the mix? it seriously took up SO much time. 👎)

i do suggest you check mine out though! i'm just soft launching it since i might have more ideas on what to add 🤷‍♀️ but anyway, the only reason i used it was because i wanted something new and well, it's a challenge 😭 (despite it pmo, it has unlimited elements unlike carrd!)

ps. mobile users totally have it better because the main little grid is limited to a phone screen (in edit mode) so check that out! sadly no animations, but i hope it looks magical still 🥺

here it is! xoxo (hype me up here)

https://iamryokie.straw.page/

hot take! lowkenuinely is SO cringe and i don't know why people are creating words like this.. it just makes words longer, like what's the point in TEXTING? plus it sounds so utterly stupid 💀 back in my day, people created acronyms and not ridiculous words..

⛄ Tuesday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

do you get the title? if you read it, it's "life is better to be cute" (haha i'm so funny 😆) anyway i just wanted to make a joke!

introducing, chibify! try it at https://www.chibify.com/

this adorable site lets you customize a cute avatar but is limited (in all aspects, but ESPECIALLY poses 😞 what a shame!) i think it was june 2025 when i found this and i do enjoy the cute look of it 🤤 this little doll is what i use to represent me! (sometimes)

the UI is so cozy and it reminds me of wii (but i wouldn't know, i never used wii before) and i think they used to offer shipping (as in you could order your chibi) but unfortunately i saw that they temporarily closed it as a precaution for covid-19 😭 (i thought that was over yo)

─★2 days until christmas 🎄⋆ .˚

⛄ Thursday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

merry christmas! i apologize for the late post but i was kinda busy for the previous 2 days celebrating 💯 (by that, i mean eating a ton and playing adopt me) i hope that this season is filled with blessings for everyone and that we're able to take the time to appreciate what (or who) we have :)

totally enjoying my break by doing nothing at all (because there's some science behind that! doing nothing is ACTUALLY you being productive frfr manifest that) and i wish we do get a lot of rest and the recharge we SO need 😿

although i didn't get or give much gifts, this is still the season of giving 🤷‍♀️ (it doesn't have to be tangible!) sop spread happiness and love where you can and make the world a little bit of a better place, guys!

here's to more wonderful years where we can prosper and achieve big things! 🍷

ps. will be starting a counter for the days until christmas break ends by tomorrow! hopefully i don't cram the assignment we were tasked to do this break.. 😭

─★0 days until christmas 🎄⋆ .˚

⛄ Friday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

adopt me has made it harder actually, for people to trade from alts.. here are the barriers i found out 😷

• you can only trade ultra rare and above! (meaning you can't GIVE + need trading license)

• new accounts can't trade (you must wait 2 hours 😭)

• everyone must have AT LEAST one pet in their inventory.. ("you can't trade away your last pet!")

so if you can get past those.. good for you! (it genuinely takes a while 😭 a long while.)

this guy whose wolpertinger i'm petsitting (shoutout to @Vnxabri on roblox) just said he's making alts to get mrs. whiskerpips and i thought it'd be impossible with less than 30 minutes left BUT he said he could just get trade licenses tomorrow and get advent NOW 🤯 (that saves so much time! eye-opening statement! why didn't i think of that!)

update: HE'S FILIPINO 💅🥺

─★10 days until school 🎒⋆ .˚

⛄ Saturday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

i just finished the book i've been reading for more than 2 weeks! (i mean i read the last 20 pages that i left for about a week.) and honestly i don't really like it 😔 i'm just not into romance like that! but the last, say, 50 words, were at least a bit feel-good since the guy said something about him finally being home and that's great!

i appreciate the effort and work put into this book, i totally do, but it's just not for me. after i read the first 5-10 pages, i immediately thought of selling this book. it's just not for me! 😓 what pissed me off too is the lack of commas. it's EVERYWHERE but especially at the start. commas make a DIFFERENCE okay. 💔

reading text, especially the words chosen, make a huge impact on how the reader perceives it already. but lacking commas? it's just SO annoying 😭 because i had to correct a ton of dialogue in my head JUST to imagine it correctly.. like.. it also takes away emotion in the text (if there is any) and ruins the ambience completely. (for me!)

aside from that, i guess it's not so bad. i just didn't like how the romance is so direct and confusing.. but maybe that's how humans are, right.. 🤷‍♀️ the characters just took it TOO fast as in it had a love at first sight trope which.. went too fast! so.. 😭

i just finished it for the sake of finishing it, but i really didn't like it. (i'm sorry 😔) check out my stats on goodreads! (sorry i'm such a newbie..)

─★9 days until school 🎒⋆ .˚

⛄ Sunday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

i totally forgot there'd be admin abuse and i got a little surprised seeing jesse's (an admin) chats in my private server 😭 still upset that i missed the last admin abuse.. (i want old king coal so bad.) all because i fell asleep! (whatever, health is more important!) anyway, for this one, they just gave away a japanese snow fairy, 10k gingerbread, and a yarn apple 👴

in the moment, i said it was a "christmas miracle" because i was talking to my friend and the mood was a little off, but when admin abuse started, it just meant we could hop on 😋

with only a week left, i so need to get my grind on! i can't believe school is coming back so fast. also, can't forget 2D tuesday (since adopt me added that recently, and i forgot) but i probably won't ever get it because of school 💀

also, yesterday i took a few pictures with my digicam and i actually think they don't look so bad 😮 i think that using flash (or not really "flash" because the light just.. stays on 🤷‍♀️) helps the pictures come out a bit better, which is cool!

ps. are we excited to finally read the first part of the morisaki bookshop? will i finally get to borrow it? please pray for me 🥺

─★8 days until school 🎒⋆ .˚

⛄ Sunday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

i haven't told you guys yet, but i've been getting into nancy drew (games) lately 🥳 they're actually really awesome, and though i'm not into vintage stuff (since the oldest game being made in 1998), and the graphics lowkey pmo, i'm just respecting the work like i mean it could be good for its time 😭

i genuinely am interested in it though 😎 shoutout to AdventureGameFan8 on youtube because i've been watching their nancy drew playthroughs 😁 (never fail to serve me!) it's a secret how far i've been watching out of the 34 games, but i hope i can finish it soon

actually, i accidentally watched the 23rd game instead of the early ones because it got referenced.. but it's really great! i loved the characters, story, spook, but the ending was really anticlimactic that it upset me :(

honestly, i think most of the endings are that way, especially the older games because they kinda rush to the bad guy and the ending, but who knows! maybe the more recent games (when i get to them) will be way more awesome 🤷‍♀️

also, i find it kinda funny how other characters like bess and george already have a set appearance, while nancy drew is STILL unknown and unsure (after 34 games..) and we only get glimpses of her 💀

⛄ Sunday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

there's a fun site i discovered recently (that i also forgot to tell you guys about!) my friend told me about it (this was during the time my internet went out) and i play it sometimes 😋

this is the site! 💪

https://murdle.com/

it's a cute little mystery-solving thing daily (it's kinda the same process though) and great if you're bored 🤷‍♀️ they actually have a published book of it! (but i don't know anything about it)

i recommend you to try it out at least once :) and i believe the mystery is longer on sundays (lucky you! today is sunday 😎) i also suggest you to have a paper or somewhere you can take notes for this because you seriously need to remember stuff.. (unless your memory is insane good)

⛄ Sunday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

today i just had the most brilliant idea to make a magazine of me and my closest girls 😮 it's gonna be year-long (like research? lmao..), fun, and such a good memory to keep! i plan to make it on canva then upload it onto heyzine and it'll look absolutely magical 😎 it, mostly design, being a one-man job is gonna take forever but it'll be worth it in the end!

i just hope i got enough motivation and coordination to make it.. i'm not the only one though, since i will ask my friends to contribute in the info i'm going to put :) this idea was heavy heavy inspired by a reel i saw on instagram about an 18th birthday magazine, so i thought: why not sweet 16, and for all of us? it's the perfect idea! 🤯

i already started planning and i have big hopes for this to work but again, kinda skeptical since 2026 can be unpredictable 😭 the main idea is the concept: sweet 16. each individual girl will have their own "chapter" in the book and she's going to have cute little surprises to look at! sure, it'll be an ultra late birthday gift, but also an amazing keepsake!

with this, i'm hitting a thousand birds with one stone because not only will all of us do like 10 trends in 1 magazine, it'll be gorgeous! (mark my words.) the only concern i guess, is printing it. good thing i won't be! 💀

⛄ Tuesday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

december is ending soon! still not ready to say goodbye to 2025 😭 anyway, today i thought that i just felt so weird 😔 like i didn't feel like myself! long story short, turns out i have a slight fever (no wonder i felt so sick 💀) nonetheless, ignoring that pain, i was able to work on the mandala art and very very little of the magazine!

again, my hopes are so high for 2026 to ACTUALLY be our year! also your sign to search up your specific chinese zodiac because i think you're luckier if the year aligns with your birth year 😮 2026 is the year of the fire horse guys

i hope and pray that everyone struggling now will be able to reach higher this year! to my batchmates, all of them, i hope we all see each other again on moving up day :)

but for now, i think it's time i take a rest! come on, it's new year, let me take a little break 😷 stay tuned for my school field trip! (which is in january) and i also might be going to japan in the summer 🤭

enjoy the rest of christmas break without worries! you deserve it, cutie <3

─★6 days until school 🎒⋆ .˚

⛄ Tuesday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

also, i urge you to try out something new this upcoming year! something to record your memories, you know 😁 here are SOME ideas

• vlogging/making videos (of your life!)

• journalling (be it art, junk, daily life or something else 🤷‍♀️)

• something for the future 😎 (like time capsules or future-me letters)

• the list goes on and on.. (planners, bucket lists, challenges)

trust me, these will make a difference in you AND your life! holding on to memories you make is really vital and for me, it helps you remember who you once were 😊 (in a good way!) also because it's an amazing time to start since it's literally THE new year..

additionally, i actually plan to start a junk journal with my best friend where we exchange it every month 💯 just don't know how it'll go through!

this is ALSO your sign to involve your friends, family, or whoever your loved ones are, in these records. not because of the memories you make with them, but also for motivation 😭 doing something solo is sad (no offense!) and you can lose interest in it because of continuously doing the same routine (unless you have insane determination)

for me, i'm so like that! so taking breaks, trust me, will definitely help 🙏 it'll also increase your bonding points with one another and the connection will be stronger 🔮 (could even work with your special someone..)

🎀 Friday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

hello, happy new year! time to say goodbye to 2025 😴 the year is finally over omg i can't believe how fast that was.. anyway! i was feeling a little like i wanted to have a tumblr blog (for publicity) because my friend has one but erm.. i don't know if it'll hit the same as padlet! i do wish i was able to get some audience 😭

i was thinking of reading the other book i got (ps. i don't think i ever showed the 2 books i bought on december 8.. that's when the internet was gone so huhu 💔 but it is now attached!)

so excited to go back to school and borrow those fat books i've been wanting.. oh yes..

─★3 days until school 🎒⋆ .˚

🎀 Monday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

so hey, it's been a while! i am back to school (sadly) and i am NOT ready to go back to allat.. i just found out this song existed (apparently made 4 years ago and it's thúy's debut song) but i do love thúy!

today was an amazing day because i got to see my friends again and was able to borrow the first part, finally! (i know right, i JUST came back) i asked the librarians for it and one of them legit PULLED it out from their BAG (did they reserve it for me? omg i'm blushing! 🤭 but on a serious note, i couldn't tell lmao)

i'll be updating on it! i'm planning to read it tomorrow so i could cram it on january 6-7.. (6️⃣7️⃣) also because it's a perfect 1-month from the time i read the other one! i actually saw that book on display (More Days ...) and kinda was wondering why it's not on the shelf 🤷‍♀️ (maybe it's THAT good)

ps. i love peanut brittle! 🥜 been forever since i last tried it omg! i was able to taste some because my relatives gave us from baguio 🤤 and! did you know after "ps." you can do "p.p.s"? (i got that from nancy drew..) i didn't know that, which is why i've been doing message distribution so there's nothing after "ps." ...

🎀 Tuesday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

been in love with my new claw clip lately! (sadly overpriced but the memories will make the price fair i guess..) it looks like a pink seashell which is why it's so good 🤤

just did nothing except farm and spend all my gingerbread in adopt me! i WAS supposed to grind all day because it's the last day but i took my sweet time and took an afternoon nap earlier! (for 4 hours, how energizing..) health is my priority guys 🌿

i only got up to around 500k this event because it isn't as easy to farm compared to previous ones.. 😭 anyway, i also got a cute makeup rotator (?) from my mom! it's like a condiment thing, but for makeup, and it's kinda huge, but i like it :)

gonna need to add more pictures to my blogs omg.. (like the picture girl i am 📸) it's looking really boring just words on words on words! also, for nancy drew, i'm binging the playthroughs, promise..

you know, i've always wanted to consume more media (like anime, books, games, get into fandoms ...) and i'm so excited that's finally happening! just you wait until i get educated on nancy drew AND ace attorney (peak) and then get to reading more books 🤓

hoping to get my school library card at least a bit filled by the end of the school year actually 😋 that, then work on exams, magazine, and then end-year projects.. whoop-dee-do!

🎀 Tuesday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

been left with kinda nothing to do but it actually feels peaceful! yesterday and today, i had such a restful rest after school and it feels amazing 😊 my mind feels so clear! except that i really wanna procrastinate.. i have like 5 pending but i'm just avoiding all that, you know!

i have barely been reading the book 😭 (i tried to read in school but well kinda busy) i'm not even past page 10 yet.. holy laziness.. (for "health" am i right!) i'm just taking things chill at a time only because i have field trip this week 💀 (dying for it to happen omg)

spoiler: i am SO behind everything because all i did that week was rest, procrastinate, and i guess just waste time doing whatever 💀

🎀 Friday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

i just dowloaded duolingo! it looks so cute (but that's just my avatar because i didn't know you could make your own 😮) i got it out of impulse because i've been seeing ads everywhere and thought: why not, right! 😁 plus i do need to learn japanese if i'm going to travel.. at least the basics maybe 😭 i'm COOKED in a foreign country omg the locals are going to jump me so bad..

spoiler alert: i just found out the app's doodoo trash ai slop because my friends started absolutely clowning on the app immediately after i told them! (guys it WAS cute.. i guess..) apparently, everything's just for show, like the streak will motivate you, but the app won't work..

a wise quote from one of my best friends! ⭐

"ask any duolingo user and 99 out 100 of them don’t even know how to speak the language on their 450th streak"

so i guess they don't recommend it! i guess duolingo is (in my opinion) a little below okay but you should play it casually only.. rely on other sources for actual learning! 🙏

🎀 Sunday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

since i've been so interested in books lately, i've been trying to find more means of how to get books.. (i wanna read a ton of books so i can show off lolol) anyway, i wanted to share 2 glorious sites i found (long ago) that are soso helpful for reading books online!

1.) https://openlibrary.org/

• limited library, has a "borrow" feature on SOME books (i haven't tried it yet!) amazing, but not much "recent" or "trendy" books

2.) https://oceanofpdf.com/

• absolute dream! more books available, can be read in pdf or epub (note: copies here will have fewer pages than actual printed copies because the words have been compressed (?) but it should be complete!)

3.) https://www.goodreads.com/

• not for reading! site to track books, give and read ratings, and explore community faves :) check out my profile here!

don't forget to give donations to them if you are able! especially ocean of pdf, they are AMAZE 🤤 happy reading! have some fun literature in your life guys..

but remember! there's always something different about reading printed copies (which is why i love going to bookstores) + it's more immersing :D also, if you ask me, my favorite genre might just be fiction 🤷‍♀️ (a HUGE hater of "young teen romance" btw..)

🎀 Sunday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

doesn't the cover look so cool? omg 🤤 so i found it last week and subscribed because i was intrigued by the description, and reading it, it's so interesting! 😮 basically: bullying, power, and manipulation.. i have a feeling the vibes i'll get is "you can't trust anyone" because that's how it's looking so far from all the PLOT TWISTS.

they're literally insane and i did NOT expect any and it's ONLY episode 11 holy 😭 i recommend it if you're interested in bullying themes (i think our mc will get revenge 🤷‍♀️) the artstyle is cute and i like the hook!

just saying though, there's like 104 episodes.. but at least it's completed! (since 2023) but if you're reading it on the webtoon app (like me..) after episode 11, you're gonna have to watch ads for every single episode 💀 (maybe it's worth it!..)

ps. just found out the same creator also made "paradise on earth" 🤯 that, i did not read, but i was also interested in it! go check it out guys 😛

🎀 Tuesday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

suddenly i'm so busy guys! (or so tired?) the week JUST started and i already want it to be over so bad 😴 everytime i feel tired after school, i end up sleeping, but when i wake up i'm so.. reality-lagged? 😭 it feels like i don't know what's going on and what i should be doing + as if i have a million things to do, but i don't!

i don't know if it's the fact i have no time management.. (i do! sometimes.) but i've been just ultra tired okay 😿 i got like 2 hours of sleep for today, arrived early to school, and forced myself to stay awake and show energy for all subjects 💔 my teachers are totally strict and attentive omg so i really have to be present!

but the thing is i feel so tired like to the point that my muscles feel so weak, so dead, and it just makes it so hard to work 🙁 i don't know if anyone can relate! the workload and PRESSURE especially is killing me so bad 😷

honestly though, like everyone i know has been stressed out too lately, like we need to calm down! the year just started.. give us a break.. 😂 actually, to this day, it still is surprising to me how i wasn't as tired last year 💀 like this girl used to go home and GET to work! i overworked myself soo bad.. 😁

🎀 Wednesday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

finally, it's midweek! i'm hoping to maybe borrow or start the "before the coffee gets cold" series soon (because it's cute!) 🤤 + being home alone gives me an odd sense of peace and responsibility.. heh..

anyway, just got a new project where we study some special occasion speeches.. i actually got awfully lucky because i got the very last spot out of 38 people 😭 (and maybe an easy type.. actually, i was thinking of it a ton beforehand!)

the hardest, for me, is probably speech of dedication, after-dinner speech, commencement, and roast.. but i definitely would cook for toast or motivational speech! (i do those all the time heh..)

i know it'll technically not be impromptu per se, but i'll have to do memorization for mine.. + the previous batch did impromptu speech last school year! this year, we did extemporaneous.. please LET us go..

ps. i went home surprisingly not sleepy despite getting like 3 hours of sleep because i "slept" (heads down) a lot in class today! it feels amazing not being so sleepy but that's also because i wasn't as active or exerting of energy at school today 💀 having a life comes with a price! 💔

🎀 Wednesday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

i randomly made a cute avatar of me because i wanna use it as a pfp somewhere in the future.. watch out! here's the link, check it out :)

wow.. i can't wait for a million more projects.. 💔 my freedom is going to be GONE and my calendar is going to be FULL 💀 but anyway, i've read to S1 of the pyramid game! the girls are so confusing there (because you can't trust anyone!)

but did i mention we have aheb (ang huling el bimbo) auditions tomorrow.. shoot! for those unaware, it's a play that my batch are going to do with only limited time to prepare.. i would love to act but i don't know ANYTHING about it yet.. and it's already TOMORROW. talk about deadlines! who cares, if there's a cough-up queen, cognac queen, i'm a cramming queen.. (first 2 are ace attorney references 😉)

also a moment of silence (and a shoutout) for my friend whose phone probably got hacked.. poor her 😿 she woke up one day and her phone data went poof! never connect to public wifi, kids..

ps. i can NOT stop missing adopt me's 2d tuesday holy cow! it happens at 5-6 am for me, which is the time i leave school, that's why i always have a hard time! 😔 anyway no more chit-chat, i gotta lock in. 😵

🎀 Saturday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

happy weekend! finally i get to rest after SUCH a long freaking week omg.. FINALLY! i literally collapsed when i got home (no joke lolol) i passed out for hours 💀 i'm gonna take this weekend and do whatever i want before i have to lock in for like 3 heavy projects.. why do i have to do soo much!.. 😞

anyway, i was able to borrow this book from the library! please imagine this because i only attached a description from goodreads.. when i got there, the whole series was lined up (excluding the green one) so i was shocked! (because normally they're lost and separated) i thought it was my lucky day because i chose today since on previous days it wasn't there, and i was able to borrow it! 🥳

actually, i even found a bookmark stuck in it (which i will return when i'm done..) which is cute! i'm kinda.. erm.. anxious? about reading it because i'm not sure if it'll be good.. i do have some expectations though because it was, i believe one of the "most read" books during goodreads 2024, is popular, and the main-ish plot is actually really interesting

what i'm WORRIED about is that maybe i won't like the writing, or (i saw a bad comment saying this) it might be annoying for me because they're repeating the "rules" of the magic every 3 pages 🤷‍♀️ who knows! (fun fact! turns out one of my best friends tried reading it before but dropped it because it was uninteresting 😿)

ps. congrats to all the shs bazaars that participated! i hear some are really really good and i'm proud of them even if i didn't buy anything 😭 (i'm just broke man! + couldn't find anything good but OTHERS totally did..)

🎀 Saturday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

previously, this was scheduled at 1-2 pm somewhere in the world, and tons complained about it because people had school at that time 😭 for me, it was 5-6 am which is mega early, i know! so i was like, never able to get it.. anyway, since adopt me has been releasing PEAK updates lately, they even changed the times! now it's..

12:00am Pacific (5pm South Korea, 7pm Eastern Australia)

8:00am Pacific (4pm UK, 5pm Central Europe)

4:00pm Pacific (7pm Eastern USA)

yippee! i might actually be able to get it now 🤩 also, here's some of the "peak updates" i was talking about:

• the pudding house is now tradable! (great! i have like 5..)

• other inventory items (previously ONLY pets) are now lock-able! (yippee! i've been wanting this..)

• inspector shepherd (finding 3 sneaky pets gives 50 bucks!) very fun 👍

• announced they made 12k bans, 130k+ trades reversed, and 26k support tickets resolved! woo! 💝

🎀 Saturday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

time for you guys to get another school update! so, i have a presentation next week wherein i have to memorize a script.. (easy! no biggie.) basically, it's about our lesson, "special occasion speeches," and i actually got really lucky with mine! it's a farewell speech, and i'm the very last to act (meaning last subject, last performance next week friday, yippee!)

aside from that, i'll have to do an audition for a play we're going to do (per class) entitled "ang huling el bimbo"

(aheb for short!) which is.. wow! actually, it's funny because my teacher said he was worried for us because we're mostly conyo 💀 (it's in taglish) i'm planning to be "miss ima" following a script made by the last batch 😋

it's actually such a coincidence that my competitor (someone who's auditioning for the same role) is my very own SEATMATE 😭 it's also crazy because we're both shy omg.. i might be cooked! you know what, i'm fiinee if i don't get the role. 😁

we're doing a play because we're learning arts from mapeh (music, art, physical education, health) right now 😷 kinda sucks that we do have to make pixel art and pointillism though!.. #cooked #sodone

this is why i can't handle being an art student! digital visuals are totally different from traditional art.. 🙏 whatever design i like to do digitally is like so much easier and more convenient than working hands-on!

ps. shoot! i gotta start studying too.. for exams.. wish me luck in doing that while i cram a webtoon and a book! 😵

🎀 Saturday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

you know, it actually does take a while to do this stuff.. 😭 like, as a night owl, all i do online is maybe blog, update goodreads, keep up with my streaks.. i guess it's consistent-ish but idk!.. anyway, for pixel art i'm unsure still on what to do but i think my signature might just be sakura flowers and lilypads! (i made my painting that)

also i'm gonna have to use my digicam more.. 💀 i thought i'd be using it like crazy but i just haven't been! (not since field trip) i mean, i can NOT be living everyday as if it's so boring.. this isn't me! (i refuse to accept) let me go back to my VLOGGING era 😿 somebody save me!

random too, but maybe just to fuel my self-confidence.. (context! i volunteered to help a little with script but i ended up becoming the full-on producer.. i did NOT agree to ts!) MAYBE i'm not that bad at tagalog guys! we never know.. i mean, some of my lines were used in the fliptop 😁

i totally got that! i can ask for suggestions too if ever 🙂

🎀 Saturday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

so hi! the title isn't literal, but i just chose it because i've been soso lazy lately 😿 i'm thinking maybe i got used to doing things i love (like blogging and reading) that for some reason i became lazy when it comes to things productive.. like reviewers omg i can NOT do ts properly 😭 i keep getting bored less than a lesson in.. and i just try to reason with myself that the subject is hard to make a reviewer for 💀

there's absolutely no problem with resting but i think sometimes i force myself a little bit too much to do things i like, maybe, just to feel "productive" and then feel ultra nothing when it comes to acads.. 😅 the topics are just so.. ugh! it's only natural i start getting lazy.. i think!

the problem is just that some subjects now are not purely memorization (which is what i'm used to - reviewers by definition) especially biology, where we learn using flow charts and concept maps now 💯 if only i could input all my notes into something digital, am i right! would be a million times more convenient omg 😓

i'm conscious about a lot of things, you know, especially the time 💔 maybe that's why sometimes i'm so stressed whenever i don't feel or do anything productive.. i just wish i had a break again guys!

🎀 Sunday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

i have been so so obsessed with this game ever since i downloaded it a few days ago! i've BEEN wanting to play this game lmao (i think "is this seat taken?" is on my wishlist..) but it really is fun 🥺 it's available offline and free on google play store (since i think it's not the original, that's why!) unlike the one on steam being like 300 pesos.. wow! 😭

nothing beats the original 🤷‍♀️ (it has perfect 5 stars on steam) but still a total recommend! i love cozy and cute games so much 😋

speaking of, when i have time, i should start playing more games on steam and itch.io (i look like such a nerd ONLY using roblox.. 💀) i had some friends before that really maximize steam and i think that's cool just because! (but then again, my laptop's really old so i don't know if i would be able to game.. maybe one day!)

+ i also just downloaded google calendar and padlet on my phone.. previously both of those were laptop-only, so now that i have it with me, hopefully i can be more efficient! (note to self, when i have the time, decorate phone asap 🙏)

🎀 Sunday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

steam must be feeling very generous to have a sale at the very start of the year! nonetheless, their design always goes so hard and i'd be buying a ton of games if i had money (heh.. shopping addict..) but one of my favorite genres is definitely mystery— like, who doesn't like a good detective game?

🎀 Sunday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

first time determined to read a series as long as this! (it reminds me of the shatter me series, even if that is definitely way longer..)

also, even if i'm maybe nowhere close to finishing all the books i wanna read, i'm just anxious that maybe i might run out of books to read next 😭 (that shouldn't be a problem though.. there's like centuries of books man! i'm just picky 💀)

i'm more into binging books actually, (only if i like them!) but since this series (or the first book) isn't divided into chapters, i find it a bit hard to stay interested (since it's like not motivating me that the pages are so long) i do take breaks though! + the last time i was at my school library, i saw all books except for the 5th one, so i wonder if i have to read that one online.. 💔 (pray i won't!)

random, but maybe it's OUR sign to get into poetry and writing! after consuming so many words, i was thinking, maybe i should start making my own works 🤓 i mean maybe! i could publish on wattpad or ao3 (but i'm not a fanfic girlie honestly, i like making original works) but still thinking of a pen name..!

the thing that inspires me the most to write is basically for my future self 😺 i see others say like "this is a song i wrote at 13" or "oh i made this novel at 15" and it's just so amazing to have an achievement like that.. also because of sentimental value! one day, i'll look back at this and think of how much work i put into it 💯

🎀 Sunday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

started reminiscing about the times i made a taglish summary of noli me tangere chapters 40-64.. that was peak! 🤤 the only reason i bring it up is because i'm going to compile it for my friend 💯 (what a flex that i made something like that! i wonder what my screen time was back then lmao)

bingo! i'm not sure because it normally isn't exact, but i spent around 16h 15m that time making reviewers (all in general) wow! i just love admiring how much effort i put into those reviewers.. that means, for past me, i won't let myself give up guys! 🥰

update on the book, i'm almost done! i'm totally returning it tomorrow so i can hopefully start on the second one 😋 (fun fact, i hid it in the library.. heh..) stay tuned for my review (if i even do one)

ps. imagine i'm too tired to blog tomorrow.. but honestly, polishing these (bold/italic-ing text & proofreading) is tiring too 💔 if only i could be unemployed forever and just do whatever i'm passionate about everyday! that'd really be a dream..

🎀 Sunday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

after over half an hour of practicing for my aheb audition, i'm losing hope.. who knew i was so bad at acting! 😁 it must be cool for theatre kids to be able to be so expressive and free in their field.. i am NOT that! but to be fair, i didn't take classes for anything, i'm just all self-taught 😞

today, i've been afk farming on royale high (which is kinda useless since, come on, 10 cloud cash per 10 mins? that's so nothing..) even if i don't play, just because i wanna earn something! it doesn't disconnect you for being afk (which is ideal! exactly what i want) and it's great for when i actually wanna lock in acads 🥺

unlike in adopt me, i have to jump every few minutes or i forget i'm in-game, so it's way harder.. actually, i'm looking for recommendations! what roblox games do you know that fit this criteria? (i'll try guys.)

🎀 Monday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

so tempted to read it immediately but decided i should read some more of the webtoon.. (pyramid game) i am so far from done! + the title, what i mean by "manipulative kids" is the fact i believe they're all still in high school 💀

update: my face when i read peak... 🤯 maybe i'm glazing but tell me WHY this webtoon is so so GOOD 😭 omg! there's so many freaking twists that i can NOT get enough i could not recommend this any more..

i might just be obsessed with school drama and hierarchies but okay! i'm actually getting more and more nervous with each panel i read because i WANT a good, happy ending but it feels like EVERYONE is turning on each other, and even though i'm a hopeful person, i'm scared guys! 😓

to prove i'm reading: episode 68, wow! i hate jaeun 😁 (i love making "those who know" moments) + i swear, once you start reading, you just get sucked in.. (i cannot afford to procrastinate though huhuhu omg 💔)

🎀 Monday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

ps. a cute bear as the photo here because all i really wanna do is sleep.. (napabuntonghininga!) i am such a prisoner in this life, guys 😞

i got to borrow the second part of the series today! i am so suffering with the weight of the projects this week.. at least reading is fun, maybe 😢 i do want to mention though, while i was reading the first book, it took me about 50 pages to realize "CLANG-DONG" is the bell chime of the cafe's front door.. who describes the bell like that? 😭

i actually don't know the stories of the other books in the series so i'm kinda going in blind.. i will try to do research though before reading 😓 (saying that like i have time.) you know, time management is way more harder than you think!

you can't anticipate or know what days you'll be more tired than others, and maybe how many hours you'll spend procrastinating or doing unrelated tasks.. (self shoutout is crazy!) working is hard! a big factor in group works is definitely motivation and communication 😶 which, honestly, i feel like we got 0/2!

it's so clear that NOBODY wants to do this, which is exactly why it's hell week.. but we kinda have to! just drained from everything, i feel so.. idk! even if i do enjoy being a leader when it comes to certain assignments, it starts to feel heavy when i'm not so confident in my skills for a particular area 😔 (shoutout to filipino!)

🎀 Monday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

just a little sneak peek of the book.. i'm so happy i finished it! the only thing, or my duty, that takes long when i read books is my little "documentation" afterwards 😭 i really don't want to forget the feeling, the experience, which is why i choose to record (or take note of) it 🤷‍♀️

i just note down characters and fun details, take photos of quotes, interesting pages, errors, then i list down and find definitions for advanced words i don't know (i know guys, i'm such a dummy for not knowing all the words in the world 💔)

although a ton of books and movies have different genres, such as thriller, horror, whatsoever— one common denominator among all my works (for sure) will be some kind of emotional value or moral lesson to the story 💯 i think that would be my writer's signature! even if it's not all that special, that's definitely something that will make a piece of literary, truly mine :)

🎀 Wednesday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

fun note: the title here is ironic because i'll be presenting a farewell speech tomorrow for a project 🤧

i finally finished the webtoon! (spoiler: it's a good ending one, yay!! 🥺) as always, i let it go with a heavy heart as the drama and development really contributed to the amount of emotions i feel now.. (i'm gonna cry bro 😭) after 100 episodes, i now know at least 10 of the girls in the "happy class" (though i forgot some names) and the ending is so cliche that it could make me laugh a little! (in a lighthearted way)

in short, a lot of the girls had trauma that explained their actions and maybe some were born that way 🤷‍♀️ but as always, everyone is capable of change! :) i absolutely love that they ended it on that message, and i can say the webtoon is definitely my cup of tea ☕

now in a sentimental mood, maybe i should bring up the fact that i made an account on "medium" which is a site where people just post.. blogs? or insights, rather 🥳 i had an idea to do the same long ago but never followed through, and i think this is also a good way for me to gain exposure 💯

i only know it because one of my projects is sourced from one i found on it! (actually, could kinda be reddit too, but idk! i don't use it.)

ps. as for the 2nd book of btcgc (before the coffee gets cold), i haven't been reading it because my interest isn't that high after knowing what to expect from the following books.. it's more of a comfort read for when you're bored, and i don't mind it's repetitive if i take it in that way 😁 (i even learned to blame the translator instead. maybe the og is peak!)

+ wishing one of my best friends a speedy recovery because she's going to be absent for the rest of this week due to "acute otitis externa" 💀 (it's because of me guys! i'm so loud..)

🎀 Saturday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

realized i had to blog again omg.. i died for a little bit on here! i have to rush studying AND carrying a project in only one day because i'm gonna be busy the succeeding days 💀 in short, i delivered my farewell speech maybe okay-ish (i hope!) i remember being crazy nervous to the point i had to glance at my notes over and over again 😭

definitely was fueled by the pressure of having to memorize my script word-for-word and fit into a time limit 💔 about aheb, the main roles were given! i might audition, for real this time, but after exams.. and then we have pointilism! i say it's stressful because i probably won't be able to make good reviewers this quarter due to my very busy schedule 😓 so cooked!

i hate how much work i have to do.. also the script i'm working for is for a "podcast" project where 3 subjects grade fall under.. i guess this might be karma because i didn't do much for past projects 😷

hopefully i'll be able to catch up, well, everywhere, if i have the time! gosh.. kinda cooked for allat..

🎀 Saturday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

i'm not sure if i'm unbelievably tired, bored, or both, but i've been doing like nothing lately.. i feel gooey like how ditto looks from pokemon! i only managed to finish like 1 science lesson, which is the reproductive system, and nothing else.. i'm not even sure myself what i should or could do 😭

i don't even wanna do this anymore! i wanna do other things.. i'm so so miserable! i wish i could practice the 4Ds we learned.. (delete, delegate, delay, defer) i wish i could delegate tasks to my members AND they would do it!

i hate doing so much and all i get is a "yes" as if they didn't read ANYTHING nor understand and guess what, i spent like hours on that, okay!.. 💔 my "fun" or break activities today were like posting 2 stories on instagram and picking toys from my toy box to keep.. (since my parents want to give them to charity because i have WAY too much.)

aside from all that, i wasted a ton of time by talking to friends, of course, and then watching reels.. (i saw a lot of cute trends or transitions.. i'm so jealous! 😿)

ps. pinkpantheress' stateside (song) ft. zara larsson is so the next hot, big thing! i absolutely love zara's verse and the overall spin off of the song.. could've never guessed it was stateside!

🎀 Tuesday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

i have no idea how my classmate was able to make reviewers unlike how i have been cramming! 😵 (nah guys, they just da real time management..) anyway, i had to renew tales from the cafe because i haven't been able to finish it 😭 i'm like halfway guys trust! also, "CLANG-DONG" is apparently the doorbell.. what kind of legit CAFE has a doorbell (ts is insane!)

also, i forgot to mention, the librarian let me keep the magnetic bookmark because they don't think the owner's coming back for it 💯 the experience has been so amazing and i feel so very rich (gift ideas for me fr) i also saw some interesting books in the library and i fell in love with reading all over again 🤤

the magic of looking around bookshelves, reading titles, synopses, and the books smell is such an experience.. i really felt it today! (is it because of the stress?) 💀

anyhow, i just finished making a script i've been procrastinating forever on, and i think i just reached flow state or something because my adrenaline (?) is crazy rn! i feel so leader-like, and all the tasks to assign, things to do, are just flowing in my brain.. 😻 what i'm nervous for, still, is the editing..

please extension! we're the slowest group, if i haven't mentioned that yet, and even 2 day extension would be amazing. although i don't wanna edit, i'm paranoid i'll have to polish it if ever (i'm lowkey a canva pro but capcut newb) 🤓

🎀 Wednesday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

the science biology exam was definitely.. something! at least it's over amirite 😭

so happy that i got home early today (around 3:30 pm compared to the usual 5 pm? what a BLESSING 🙏 because of that, i was like not tired and despite scrolling for 2 hours straight i pulled myself to study for the next exams 🤤) but the subjects tomorrow (ap, tle, math) are actually so much lighter (i feel like 86 billion francs have been lifted OFF my chest 😇)

i'm gonna spend my free time reading, doing script, and enjoying whatever i wanna do, thank you lord! (or maybe i should totally start prep for friday...)

update: i stopped relaxing once i found out my groupmates messed up! (they recorded lines of a script that ISN'T done and that kinda infuriates me because who told you to do that! 💔)

fast forward! i did like 3 rants and did a lot of the script but now i'm just tired... and going insane! it took out a LOT of time while i still have so much others to do. 😵 (I HATE MY GROUPMATES!) i don't know if anyone heard it loud enough!

🎀 Friday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

the stress is lowkey getting to me.. i got so triggered that i started crying and ranting about my group and stuff 😭 i lowkey don't know what to do anymore because i've been kinda all over the place and not productive at all.. (i won't even be happy over the weekend because i have more work to do!)

update: at least exams are over now! i felt so free and took a long, deserving nap because i studied for these exams like never before! i don't usually study this near to the exam dates, but due to other stuff.. i had to! i kind of struggled but it's over now 🥳

unfortunately, we are now only a quarter away from ending 10th grade.. i don't even know what strand i want 😿 + i didn't take any entrance exams so i guess i'm staying in this damned school.. i heard that shs is definitely on a different level of.. everything! so i'm just ultra scared 💔

can you imagine that the tuition's going up too? someone's getting.. greedy! i do wonder where our funds are going when they increase the tuition every year.. like, i do hate this school! (they promote ai SLOP)

daily reminder to always appreciate all you have because you never know when you're gonna lose it 💞

🎀 Saturday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

getting over someone is not easy at all. (for me!)

i feel like "moving on" means forgetting a piece of you that you used to love; it's kinda like a "grudge" you have to hold (if you put into perspective!) i'm not really a person to hold grudges, so after a while i'll maybe forgive the person 🤷‍♀️ if i go back to that person, it's not because i want them back, necessarily, but because i feel like we're okay right now (if that makes sense!)

he's someone i loved a lot and i don't think that love is going to go away ✊ (even if it won't be romantic in the end, it's in a way that i want to support him and all that) i think we all deserve to be happy in this world, (we only have one life, y'know!) and, i guess, it's inevitable that you will lose some relationships :(

i carry a piece of everyone i've ever loved, 💝 and i don't regret any of the memories that once made me happy, because at the end of the day— that's me!

ps. we didn't end on a bad note, i'd say it was pretty okay, but after kinda distancing from each other (as in no talking at all even if we agreed to stay friends) maybe that was our way of accepting the break up! 💘 (i feel like he could hate me now though)

just decided to give you guys a bit of a story on my love life! (this is about my ex btw)

also, the "idea 🧠" tag is actually used to give my thoughts on whatever topic! (even if i never used it before) kinda ironic it was about this though 😭 i do think over like a million a day to blog under this category, but i just don't because of the lack of motivation AND time 💔

🎀 Saturday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

this is LITERALLY a lifesaver because who knew like all the works on medium was blocked by a stupid paywall.. now i can read whatever i want with ease! (just you guys wait for my publications omg i'm gonna hop on after like.. a good few weeks!)

here's the link, of course! https://freedium-mirror.cfd/

(please support them if able to!)

remember to be wary that:

• i'm not sure it always works! (what if it gets banned like bato? woah, forbidden name..)

• probably not all medium works published are able to access on freedium

if you love reading or writing about literally anything (basically blogging) or you use words a lot, i recommend medium to you! it's a site where you can read people's thoughts (kinda like reddit but also not really..) on stuff (i mostly read motivational ones) try it, might be your cup of tea! 🍵

check it out today! https://medium.com/

moral of the story, be cautious of who you spill the gossip to.. keep this between a few people! (but it is SUCH a gem oh my golly)

🎀 Thursday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

so.. my bad i haven't posted in days ever since february started! i've been busy the whole week doing projects 💔 (and i still am as we speak!) heh.. my group's editor is ghosting us and our output is a day overdue.

i've been stressed about our output ever since wednesday because i THOUGHT i could rely on our editor to finish it.. i've reminded him every single day so he has no excuse to having forgottten or something 😔 (i told myself not to underestimate anyone huhu) but i guess the work was, maybe, too heavy for him? (especially since i expect a lot)

update: luckily, we were able to finish and submit! (the minus is gonna be crazy on our grade..) turns out, my group's editor was ASLEEP 😭 apparently, he didn't get ANY sleep the night before and ended up passing out for over 12 hours.. (peer assessment is getting a low score 😿)

sadly, i had WAY too much contribution to this.. as in i lost sleep on most days because of editing and working on this while the rest of my group didn't 😵

🎀 Friday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

i feel so finally and totally free! (aheb reference) because i've finished most projects, the work is finally off my shoulders, and i even had a 2 hour call with my best friend 💘 it really made me realize our ldr (sadly!) but also i felt super happy because i did feel connected to her 🥺 makes you grateful for what or WHO you have in life!

this is my last weekend until i'm busy for days and have to decide my future j*b 😭 kinda scared for ncae! (i don't get it) for context, it's a nationwide "national career assesment examination" for grade 10 students in order to determine your best future strand (like mbti lol)

before, it used to be handwritten, so it'd take the country a whole year to release the scores (because people were already enrolled..) but now it's computer-based! i'm gonna sit down and stare at a bright screen for 6 hours straight with only ONE 15 minute recess during those hours..

also i scratched that itch for my shopping addiction.. i bought some magnetic bookmarks for myself! 🤑 they look absolutely adorable, or should i say, adorkable! and i'm soso obsessed :) no regrets! (except for the high shipping fee..) if i had unli budget, i'd love that forever!

ps. sadly i'll have to start on my work for the 3rd saco publication.. i kinda wish we published every month so that there'd be more history! i guess it is heavy though on the layout and news team because they lowkey do the most! (some non-profit organizations do this though! publish literary works in a digital zine)

🎀 Saturday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

credits to google (aka someone else) for the attached photo!

the adopt me update is crazy peak 😻 i got like 2k bucks in less than 5 mins (it beats for 2 mins) due to the big heart beating! adopt me MIGHT actually be cooking.. makes bucks farming so much easier but, in my opinion, it's not that fun since all you have to do is find hearts 😢 (happens every 10 mins btw!)

it's the easiest way to farm EVER because you can easily be carried 💀 i wonder if they're gonna try to nerf it because of that or maybe they'll keep it and spoil us! (random, but i just got reminded of how the vampire in dead rails got nerfed, i believe both player and npc 🤧 but that was so long ago!)

bring back speedy stables! was my favorite minigame to date because i farmed soso hard for that update with my friend.. it was boring for while, which is why i stopped farming much on it and went to royale high 👍

also, if i haven't mentioned it yet, i'm now afk farming on royale high more because i wanna get the fountain girl set! if i've already said that, just reminding 🤷‍♀️ i need to start farming for the all-year-round available seasonal sets 🤤 (i don't support their decision of this though, it makes me sad!)

ps. cooked! i don't have a valentine 😎 (living the single life) suddenly everyone around me is a couple though 😭 (girl whatever!) happy galentines to the girls out there.. valentines isn't just about romantic lovers anyway! (i'm gonna do acads.. KIDDING!) off topic, can't believe it's actually 2026 already..

🎀 Saturday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

school has been lowkey bringing out new interests within me! previously, i've gotten interested in pixel art, editing, and scrapbooking ever since i did those as school assignments.. now i find pointillism and podcasts cool! i swear, i'm such a creative person that i just wanna do all that for fun one day 😭 personal projects about to be crazy!

also, excited much? saturday JUST hit and i'm already spamming blogs at like 12 am.. guilty! you can't blame me, when the influencer persona comes on, i reach flow state.. (NEED to binge those popular media one day though) i shoud be resting, actually, but i'm enjoying myself right here!

additionally, i borrowed a new book from the library which seems really cute! i got it because i know one of my best friends have it, and the reviews i saw on goodreads (⭐ 3.77) of course 😋 hoping it's good! (reveal soon..)

the book i previously read turned out to be horrible.. (murder in aisle 9 by jim schembri; ⭐ 2.79) it has very few reviews and no best-selling anything! it isn't really thriller or what i expected at all 💔 i'd say it's an unnecessarily long story 🤷‍♀️ it's as if you took a short story that ends with a twist, and made it a 100-page book.. (which isn't that good if you think about it)

anyway, in my reading journey, i'll give only good and true reviews and recommend only what i absolutely love! (coming from your favorite picky reader 🤤) + i kinda wish i could add music to my posts like insta, but staying consistent with that would be crazy...

🎀 Saturday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

for those checking my goodreads reviews, i'm going to refer to the actual rubrics on each star to show how much i actually enjoyed the book, which is

⭐ - did not like it

⭐⭐ - it was ok

⭐⭐⭐ - liked it

⭐⭐⭐⭐ - really liked it

⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐ - it was amazing

i'm hoping i don't glaze any (which is giving a book a good rating even if i didn't like it that much) and remain fully honest! because if you lie, the only person you're lying to is yourself 🤷‍♀️ right!

ps. was also thinking of giving readers of my blog a name! like how my podcast group project, metro memos, called its listeners ka-memos.. and how fandoms have something like that too! like katseye and eyekons 👁 i'll have to get creative guys.. expect an answer in like 10 million business days!

but lowkey, a default title i use a lot is "cuties" like i feel like it's kinda my watermark! plus, i have no idea where else i'd take inspo, since my page is kinda general 😶

🎀 Saturday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

surprise! this is the book :) turns out my best friend's copy has a fat disney logo printed on it, yikes.. also, turns out there are comprehension questions on the back! or, it's called "literature circle questions" found on page 187 😋 for clarity, i have the scholastic version, if ever it may vary with others..

ps. i WILL be sharing the questions for you guys once i finish reading it! i have no idea how to conceal it if some of you don't want "spoilers" though.. maybe.. just don't read it! 🤷‍♀️

a little quote!

We found ourselves looking forward to coming to school, to seeing what bizarre antic she'd be up to. She gave us something to talk about. She was entertaining.

At the same time, we held back. Because she was different. Different. We had no one to compare her to, to measure her against. She was unknown territory. Unsafe. We were afraid to get too close.

don't wanna spoil too much, but i think it's really sweet even if i'm just 30 pages in 🥺 i have high expectations for this one! unsure if i'm bias, but the writing isn't that bad either 😮

🎀 Sunday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

happy night! spent my whole weekend relaxing that i forgot what i had to do for school 😭 cramming again, am i rite! anyways, my whole batch must be freaking out with their top 3 courses for tomorrow.. also, i heard top 3 colleges will be asked too?.. heh.. undecided queen, am i right 😉

the list of courses to pick from is soso limited 😿 i was dreading thinking of picking what i don't want until my mom told me to just pick what i want and that actually made me really happy.. EVERY single time i've heard career recently, i've been crazy depressed thinking of going for computer-related jobs, when my heart is NOT there at all 💔

creativity and design is forever where my heart is at 💝 never will i choose templates or already-existing works, i love innovating and ideas and art and.. that's just me! 🌺 i wish one day i could just marry rich! 😞 someone just come get me already huhu

sure, i totally find computer kinda interesting.. but as a job? i feel like it just won't fulfill my purpose 😔 life is kinda tough in this aspect omg! totally see the perspective of this one message i saw a friend say before:

... i never got the point on why we have to go to years of schooling

... sure it builds character and knowledge for the future but what if i just want to roam the earth freely

ps. still haven't scratched that itch of making a short story! ideas are literally everywhere.. i just am not doing anything 💀 once i get my stuff together, i swear..

🎀 Sunday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

looking back on my older posts, i'm really proud of how far i've come! the title i used for a poem i made, change is subliminal (meaning below the threshold of consciousness), is really true! you never truly see change until you compare it side by side 😉

actually, sometimes, when i think things, i feel so wise because these topics are usually what i think about! it could be all over my medium page (by now, if i had started already) but who knows!

motivational words really resonate with me, so maybe that'd be my theme, but it's also what i'm really good at 😅 i feel like i'm used to that theme in text, to the point it really suits me! when i was younger, i always loved comforting others, making them feel better, because who doesn't like spreading kindness?

🎀 Monday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

so.. wow! grade 10 is ending soon.. am i cooked? of course! 🤯 all of the tasks are going to come in like crazy and we'll have like no time to do them! ESPECIALLY the research.. heh. shoutout to my wonderful groupmates! 🥰

i was going to enjoy today and rest before the ncae.. maybe finish the book, binge some movies, but no.. NO!.. suddenly my saco literary head reminds us that the piece is due.. tomorrow? 😵😨 what! i wasn't aware of this! i thought it'd be due WAY later..

the previous publications gave us 2 weeks to work on it, but now we got 5 days? and that's 3 days excluding weekends.. how? how will i make a piece that's meaningful in 800 words in only a day left? oh wow. cooked! 😁

anyway! my theme is easy anyway.. it's love, like always 💀 i was interested in another theme actually, which is "difference of being loved and being needed" 😮 unfortunately it became taken immediately. so i'm stuck with "letting go of relationships that no longer nurture growth"

gosh! i told myself i'd try to do prose, maybe a short story, but 800 words is totally constricting.. i am NOT gonna make it 🤣

update: i'm struggling to make a prose.. i feel like it's kinda coming out to be a poem..? honestly, i'm just putting whatever sounds and looks good with the font.. here's a sneak peek!

For a candle bereft of fire is solely wax.

i actually was soso worried thinking i forgot how to make a poem 😭 i can NOT take forever on this so i hope i finish soon.. the procrastinating was crazy! i'm also guilty of overusing "advanced" or archaic words 💔 cooked!

🎀 Tuesday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

my beautiful gorgeous considerate diva of a saco literary head just gave us an extension on the deadline until 8:30 pm 🥺 i was eventually able to finish! it was NOT easy and i actually did struggle.. it's only difficult because i'm not familiar or used to being good at describing or storytelling 😿

the ncae exam was lowkey fun and i had nothing to worry about 🥳 i had a great time (except for filipino) and wish it had more of the disagree-neutral-agree system.. the 5 hours actually felt like nothing! who knew taking tests took so long 😭

my favorite part was the perceptual accuracy and response efficiency (pare) wherein we had to click choices for 200 questions in 6 minutes! your girl is competitive like CRAZY.. my hands were sweating, cold, shaking, but i never once took my hand off the mouse 😎 (unsure how long i ACTUALLY took because of no timer!)

i'm actually really glad the ncae is computer-based and one day only, because i wouldn't be able to handle this on paper.. 💀 also, was really feeling that it was friday already :( so i'm ultra bummed that we STILL have school..

update: i took roughly 5 hours to complete 502 words, creating a "short story" for the 3rd pub 😦 that's lowkey wow! it was so time-consuming, guys.. it's entitled "a candle, evermore" btw!

🎀 Thursday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

warning: unfortunately, my internet has gone out yet again! (today february 11) i will be uploading this the second i get internet.. - with regards, past sowie! ☆

i don't think i've told anyone yet, but this valentines is oddly hard for me actually 😭 it could lowkey just be because i'm single! but it's genuinely killing me.. there's SO much love around me and i'm getting memories like crazy.. is THIS what fate wants me to do 💔

i actually have been reading love letters lately! It's taught me to romanticize writing more and i will definitely be doing so in the future 😁 might be a wee bit personal.. but i even dug up a letter my ex gave me last year 😷

forget being "desperate" or delusional! back in the olden days, people ACTUALLY yearned and showed their love properly, way better than what society is today.. love is just a powerful thing, and we need to use it well ✊

i also do think it's cute when couples have their own little signature inside joke or something in the relationship, because it's a thing only you two know about! i'd LOVE to have something like that..

once you end a relationship with someone, (in my case, romantic) it really makes you rethink all that's happened.. like the conflict, love, memories, and it just makes you wonder why you did that, or maybe why it turned out this way?

as much as i'd love to contact him again, it's probably crazy unlikely and unaccepted in today's world, so i guess i'll just express my feelings in words 💖 (writer ba yarn?) and.. heh.. i have a research meeting tomorrow!

ps. i SWEAR i am writing this on the day mentioned.. promise! it just sucks how much i've been thinking about love (it's so stupid) especially near valentines.. and i actually have a lot of stuff i never got to say! 😶

🎀 Friday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

happy friday the 13th! unfortunately, i did not get gifts 💔 (lowkey expected though) instead, i gave chocolates to the teachers 😷

today, i had a realization that i can be sour when it comes to the relationships of others (which is bad!) it's not something to be simply labeled as jealousy, it's like.. something else! i've heard some people feel the same as i, and it's very very valid! it's a sad thing though, that romance is so instrumental in one's life.. (wow! big words! you see, i learn from books 🤓)

also, the little valentines area my school's student council prepared is kinda cute! it features a love wall, small photo area, and 4 bands to perform, 2 a day for 2 days! (if only i wasn't single..) i did leave at least 5 hearts on the love wall 🤭

ps. working on 3 posts at a time is crazy multi-tasking! (i failed to fill in any for the past few days, so i'm making up for that!) i wish i had more to blog about 😶 life is so boring, really! all i can talk about are my thoughts.. i don't wanna do research anymore! 😵

🎀 Saturday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

one of my best friends just introduced me to letterboxd! now i can chase books.. and movies 😎 my personality is going to be amazing after i consume all kinds of media 📈 i think it's pretty cool!

come follow me here: https://letterboxd.com/sowie_movie/

also, kindly recommend me stuff to watch too! i'm not much of a movie person, but, i wasn't much of a book person either, and look where that got me.. 😁 + my best friend just told me she checks our dms for movie dates because she tells me when she's watched a movie.. = i won in life! 🤩

ps. even if i've started relaxing on weekends, the crazy workload is haunting me.. school, oh school! why must you do this 😵 if only i could go to japan.. (like two of my research groupmates, consecutively btw! 💀) i DON'T know what we're going to do for research, bazaar, aheb, and.. aha.. 🥶 i'm SCARED!

also, mosquito season? chickenpox epidemic too? why are we in such a bad time! at least maybe we won't have heat index this march.. (i read something about it in the newspaper 😁) let's see if it's true!

not only that, kinda nervous about my grades.. what if i don't get honors? 😿 plus, sadly i won't get any other awards.. huhu.. i'm so useless.. (in another universe, i would've gotten a "best in (this)" 😀.. maybe!)

🎀 Sunday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

this song finally came out (like 2 days ago) and i've been promoting it all i can! they've advertised this song everywhere for about 2 months or more and i KNOW it's going to be a hit soon 🙏 it's such a dream, you guys should listen to it!

even though i feel kinda lonely this valentines, 6/6 teachers said yes to being my section's valentine last friday! (so not alone lolol) and! i received a rose with 3 cake pops bouquet from (secret 😛) yay! it's like the only thing i got..

random! one day i will have my own linktree.. yearning for that amazing insta profile 😭 (being a perfectionist sets you back a ton) still, excited for what fate has to offer me!

ps. it's highkey the bare minimum, but i still get surprised when people spell my name right 💀 i just saw a list with ONLY my name mispelled.. wow! it's so common to get it wrong, i guess 😢 (it just means i'm special!)

also, what are you guys still doing? i'm waiting for acknowledgements on my posts by hearting! kindly leave a heart 🤨

🎀 Tuesday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

guess what? i finished the book (my lola's love letters) which i.. unfortunately forgot to mention! it's a really great book. i gave it 4 stars on goodreads! (makes me proud of filipino culture) having read two good books back to back feels great 😊

i love receiving gifts as a love language 🥰 i say that because today my parents bought me some stuff!

i was never that "aesthetic" kinda stationary girl who uses a journal, diary, or something and has a dozen highlighters, pens.. whatever, you get what i mean! so, i always hear the popular products, like muji pens and campus notebooks.. so i did try a muji pen! 😁

i thought it was crazy expensive, 60 pesos for SOME pen, but it's actually so good.. 🤤 i used it for like 2 months and only now did it run out of ink! in the first place, it didn't even have that much ink too 😮 just bought more, so updating when it runs out..

bro i swear once i have my own money i'm gonna buy so much 😿 deep down i love material things.. learn to say NO to shopping sprees guys! 🚫 i can't say i'd be irresponsible though, because i am a SUCKER for cheap stuff! i lovelove sales so much

🎀 Tuesday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

it's all piling up..! 🥺 somebody save me.. the work is FINALLY showing 💔 are we cooked. i'm actually soso scared, nervous, anxious for it to even start because i'm going to do so much everyday.. i'm more worried i might accidentally forget a task, actually! (losing my mind 🤩)

with only ONE month left, we have to cram so much! even worse that next week is foundation week, meaning no classes and only activities, equals MORE tired! heh. i have SO much labor to do.. i'm going to be more hands-on than ever 😿 why are all the deadlines so near?

procrastinators to the MAX. my research group hasn't even started yet! help us 😭 i don't even know what to do anymore! i wonder if i can still balance my personal tasks with all this work.. i'm going to be a slave to academics! 😵

🎀 Saturday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

i think it's pretty obvious why i haven't been blogging!

today, i had some conflict (?) about my bazaar's "meet the members" post.. i've been icked about how it was so off theme, compact, and did not incorporate other ideas, so i did it myself! even if i'm done, i'm still kinda disappointed.. my groupmates probably are too, in me.. 💔

why are pinoy icons so hard to find.. am i even filipino at this point! incorporating jeep, street signs, and lights are SO hard 😭 i love design with all my heart and never wish to start hating 🥺

ps. apparently we were moved to being the very last bazaar? why bro! 😿

update: i'm losing my mind bro! what even is reasearch? oh my gosh.. 😁 variable? constant? this is SO confusing and we only have a week left! 💀 somebody help us

🎀 Saturday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

happy march everyone! after 2 weeks, i'm back to blogging! i missed it oh-so much and hopefully i can get back to my routines.. (even my calendar is so empty! i haven't done other habits in weeks too 😭)

here's my reasons for inactivity (for those maybe worried!)

• research. this will be done soon! except.. i don't know if we're.. gonna make it.. 💔 we are NOT done.

• sadness. i think i lowkey lost track of stuff and started thinking crazy negative, but i wanna move past that!

• cramming & stress! only 2 weeks left of school, i need to do assignments AND goodbye gifts 😿

i actually didn't think of going back to blogs until my friend told me he was going to check my blog.. shoutout to him! ⭐ + blogging makes me happy & feel consistent, so!

don't worry, more posts to come! i've just been delayed in a little bit of everything because of research.. (we're MAJOR procrastinators.) once the school year is done, i might have even less posts actually.. i don't wanna take a hiatus though 😓 (who knows! i might? i might not?) what will i even talk about in the summer bro.. 💀

post marked special because i came back :3

🎀 Saturday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

am i late to the party! i recently got into listening to lyn lapid again, and i think you should too! i haven't listened much to her ever since i got her as top 1 on my, i think, 2023 spotify wrapped, because of her album tlit21c.. she's amazing though, i love her! 😁

i think of her as a not-so popular artist, so i'm so surprised when others actually know her songs!

🎀 Wednesday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

new hyperfixation just dropped! another cute find-the game for me to play.. roblox knows exactly what to recommend! in my opinion: super awesome 😎

hey you! wanna try it? click here!

bring back gaming guys! 😅

i've been playing this kind of game for a while now, and i feel like they really connect with me now! i play them when bored, nothing to do, and it's a pretty chill game, really! actually, i even played them when i was sad nobody would play with me 😁

i've tried a ton by now so i definitely encourage you guys try it! genuinely enjoyable for me 🤤 here's some roblox recommendations, with link! 😉 yay!

• find the toasties (i'm an og)

• find the markers (heh..)

• find the cans (cute designs :3)

• find the sheep (even cuter!)

• find the eggs (wow! 500!)

tip: these are best played with something in the background! be it music, movie, anime, or crime documentary.. it's fun, trust me 🥰

warning: unfortunately often includes obbies.. this is NOT for the weak 😭

🎀 Saturday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

all the candy-looking stuff is kinda making me sick.. but this update is cool! excuse my avatar.. i somehow managed to get the jackpot, wow! gambling is so fun 🎲 i find this update really creative actually! waiting on the minigames for sure, hope they won't disappoint..

they actually added.. urm.. i'm gonna call it donut gliding? basically, it's winter ice skating but 100 times harder.. bro, what am i supposed to do with a donut floatie and i have to control it to get eggs in a sea of chocolate! 😭 ts is ACTUALLY impossible.

+ been really thinking that maybe someone could gift me books (from my goodreads tbr), canva pro, or capcut pro! 🥺 i'm working off of free on everywhere..

👒 Saturday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

hello everyone! i am.. back. apologies for my crazy long hiatus 😭 i completely wasted the entirety of april (a whole month off my summer break) on.. nothing actually! i was souper unproductive, lazy, and all i did was eat and sleep. (i'm sorry! 😓) i, for some reason, just felt really tired and ended up doing nothing.. but i hope to improve this month!

honestly, maybe i was post-tired from school? (this girl just making excuses 🤷‍♀️) i promise i will be updating you all soon! 🙏 but legit, i was just so dead for some reason.. i wasn't reading, writing, or doing things i love 😨

ON topic, i think it's super cool about how we can have so many thoughts in a day 🧠 personally, i definitely think a ton in everything i do, and it reminds me of why i even started a blog! basically, to put my thoughts down somewhere— to share the inside of my mind! (i just have blogger brain 😎)

heh.. i've also been thinking of all the past projects i have dropped or have not been working on! i really need to focus on my writing skills.. + don't worry, i don't feel that rusty from my hiatus 💪 i can still blog! 🤩

i do, in a way, feel happy about the idea of a hiatus though! it's nice to have a physical, mental, or emotional break every once in a while, and NOT force yourself to keep going when you can't, so i hope you guys will be prioritizing self-care as well :)

ps. decided to use a cute emoji (👒) for the dates because it's SUMMER! but the heat is killing me.

👒 Saturday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

moving on to the million dollar question! 💸 what has happened in the past month? and am i okay?

first, yes! i'm perfectly fine.. in fact i feel refreshed! mentally. for the rest, i'm not that productive with all i wanna do, but that's okay :)

now, i've honestly spent a few days doing a digital clean up on MY end because, if you know me, i take a concerning amount of photos. that has led me to 99% full storage 😁 on my phone! so i've been taking my sweet time to delete, sort, and organize them manually because i get a little sentimental about these moments!

it also led me to "backread" against my will. wow! what memories those were! but in my honest opinion, i think i just got really burnt out at some point for.. everything 💔 being real with you guys, i've been getting a LOT of notion reels, but i haven't used it in a long time :( and I'M the notion girl 😱 (a little worrying)

and.. if you scroll online, i think you'd know the existence of tomodachi life on nintendo switch.. i am yearning SO bad for it 😭 i swear.. one day i will have everything i want in this world!

song recommendation?

catch catch by yena 💋 here!

👒 Monday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

i had the itch to go back to danganronpa.. so i did! i faintly remember when i played it last (i think i wasn't that familiar with it + it was like back in march?) but after completing the second class trial, i so got this! 🥳

the bullet time battle or whatever is what totally ticks me off though.. i spent over 30 minutes on that.. ALSO the closing argument (aka the comic) 😨 it is SO.. mysterious? like, those panels can be ANYWHERE 😿

i also recently checked in on webtoon.. (just to see if anything i was reading before had any updates!) and i saw momfluencer again 😱 backstory, it's this pretty interesting webtoon i read during the start of the school year (so addicting because of the drama ngl)

if you plan on reading it, just know it's pretty wacky + the characters are ALL morally bad.. (if my memory serves me well) 💀

the system is just insane because tell me why they uploaded a WHOLE season 2 (like over 75 episodes) but i have to unlock them all with 7 coins each? usually i access them using the "watch an ad for free" but it wasn't there, and i have to wait HOLY 502 DAYS. like, they're set for a whole year 😭

👒 Tuesday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

happy reverse 50/50 day! it is the 5th of may 😁 (and also only 5 days more until mothers day!) ps. i have NOT watched star wars, i don't understand this "may the 4th be with you" ?

do you guys have any ideas yet? 🥺 i'm probably going to make some kind of simple diy craft.. (hello 5-minute crafts!) + i have or know like nothing my mother would like.. she has everything she needs.. 😿 (more than, actually!) giving gifts is pretty complicated, especially when you need to find something they need > want (in some cases! or, this is what i prefer 🤷‍♀️)

+ music recommendation! (because i can't get this song out my head 💀) listen to "in my room" by julia wolf! (it's a kinda popular song, i mean i've seen it in a few reels + it has over 152M streams on spotify)

here's the link to the lyric video for the vibes!

when i first listened to the full song, i got kinda "band vibes" from it, does anyone feel me on that? i also would love to sing in a band someday btw 🤤 i have a songbook of a few songs i'd love to hear in a band too! (i put the lyrics and all, but my friends give some suggestions too 😊)

👒 Thursday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

so i spent the day yesterday playing overcooked 2 on ps4.. it is such a good game i love it so much 🤤 i swear if only i had someone good to play with, we could reach a higher score together. it's so tough actually because of certain stages' obstacles 😤

following that, my reader's and writer's block has been SO bad 😭 i have barely done anything related any of that! really, i've just been playing games.. 💀

fun fact! i learned the existence of "writer's block" before reader's block, because if you know me, you'd know this 🤷‍♀️ but short backstory, i did love writing stories before i liked reading books 😁 (this girl was NOT bookish before)

ps. does anyone else get stressed during monthly sales? (like, online shopping.. heh! guilty 🔗) like i have to get my whole cart ready! and i'm so #procrastinator.. kiln me! 😵

👒 Thursday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

something i have noticed (for a while now) is that i've been playing games more now.. and enjoying them! like, i have urges to play this, that, or i experiment with different games, and when i think about it, it's kinda foreign 😭

this is because (around last year) when i was REALLY productive with tasks and projects, i also didn't play or enjoy much games.. like, i was LOCKED in 💀 i might sound emo, but you could even say that i didn't have fun playing games at all! so it's kinda crazy 😋

actually, watching jay (from the kubz scouts) lately, it makes me kinda wanna be a gamer myself! (or youtuber) i'm definitely underestimating the time, skill, and experienced needed to become one though.. (equipment is ACTUALLY so important 😿)

but one thing's for sure, i'll definitely try to become a content creator in the future.. (what do you guys think i'd post❓) i have some ideas what i'd do, but i do wanna hear some thoughts! 📣

my biggest dream is to be an all-rounder girlie 💞 (i kinda am :3)

👒 Thursday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

i don't believe i've mentioned that me and one of my friends decided to try doing impromptu speeches every night for a week 😋 well, it's true, and it's cool!

after listening to a few speeches or speaking performances recently (and also being a proofreader) i wanna say that i really love listening to people and giving my thoughts or suggestions to them 🌼 from seeing them light up to actually improving so much is an amazing thing to experience 😁

+ that's why i'm a fan of giving compliments, whenever i can, to literally anyone 😊 it can make someone's day and it's so free! (i love free things)

therefore, i think everyone should do it more, too! uplift others, give them confidence, and support each other so we can all improve as people 🙏 constructive criticism, given and taken nicely, can be really beneficial in this process too!

actually, if you're having trouble with your words, i suggest you try the sandwich method! (which i did learn from someone else in the past) which is, good-bad-good ✅

nobody likes hearing too much criticism, so make sure to point out their good parts, and speak gently (or more enthusiastic?) about what they can improve on (i swear this is key to being less judgemental, or to seem that way to others)

👒 Friday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

does anyone else get the feeling of wanting to experience something again for the first time? 😱 (i bet, because i hear about it a lot!) i probably feel that way towards reading.. (my goodreads has been SO inactive)

when i look at my page, i remember all the excitement i had when i first started reading 😿 like, i was scrolling books EVERYWHERE to add to my tbr list and was just so enticed by all the books 😭 (don't get me wrong! my algorithm still provides me with bookish content) i think another reason i've been in a reading slump was because i've been reading ebooks..

reading physical books is actually not sustainable because of the war now, but resorting to ebooks has always made me feel so lazy 💯 holding a book and turning its pages just hits different! i actually yearn for a home library in the future SO bad

ps. the image is kinda unrelated! but basically, it's me (or my self-insert character in game) holding a Ramen Neko 🐈 (it cost me like ¥200) but if you played it before, you should check out the update! it looks amazing especially because it's Japan's Golden Week 🥳

👒 Friday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

so.. after listening to the paper lily ost (again) i had the itch to replay the miss knives battle! but the thing is, do i even have a save to that point.. (let's pray steam will let me play it today! 🙏)

also i absolutely love that that they added an option to skip it.. it's just so amazing and kind 🥺 but i never skipped it. i never back down. (i got it after over 400 tries and a few hours) but also because i truly loved that game so much and ms. knives' backstory 😿

i am so very excited to play the full game someday! (because it won't be free, and i currently do not have the funds to purchase it..) they said it'll take years, but i'm willing to wait & look forward to it :)

ps. if you guys were curious, check out my next post to read all my live thoughts when i was playing the battle with miss knives! (i would say those things if i was streaming frfr) + the image attached to this post is after the fights btw!

👒 Friday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

i was able to load paper lily! 🥳 luckily all my saves are intact and i'm able to play, but i have no idea what part i'm on.. (i had to search a walkthrough) turns out miss knives' battle did have 2 parts! heh.. wish me luck 😭

+ just to flex a little.. did you know i got through it with (i believe) no tutorials? it shocked me so much that i was so proud omg 🤩 (back then)

but you know, if i was a game creator, i'd be so proud seeing my game's lore be paragraphs long on a wiki made by fans 😱 literally the biggest achievement you can make. knowing your art is out there and loved must feel amazing!

ps. shortly after starting, i realized that one take jay is NOT in the building (my bad! kubz scouts reference.. one day i will have my own trust) because i really thought i was himothy playing the battle 😵

lacie's 2 lives was driving me insane and i feel really overstimulated from the battle already.. kiln me! the bombs or whatever while i'm trying to avoid knives are THROWING me off. i kept forgetting the "bombs" the second time were fire too..

finally, i just closed the game (meaning all unsaved data from that play is now gone) and the battle was so unbelievably easy that i feel ASHAMED. why did i take so many tries to beat that before 💀 for each checkpoint, i took 6, 4, and 10 tries respectively.. (HUGE improvement if you ask me.)

"I didn't know that my vision would get blurry if I cry."

oh my sweet girl 😿 her story made me cry before because i loved her so much and felt so bad.. the story also surprised me a lot because i'm a sucker for lore.

👒 Saturday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

i'm so in love with opening packages.. (former "unbox with me!" video watcher here.. but also because romanticizing life is fun!) the dopamine it gives is so 🤤 like, after ordering online, i just can't wait to get my package that i genuinely start YEARNING 💔 (ps. maybe i'm using these terms wrong as a gen z myself 😿)

also, i say this because 5 of my packages arrived TODAY. that was so quick 😁 (but felt long because i was looking forward to it) them coming all at once was more of shocker to me 💀 but reality check! 🌎 i'm just addicted to buying useless stuff..

actually, i'm a huge money saver but i also love online shopping.. (i don't want it to turn into a habit or addiction in the future though huhu) though i love getting things for free, cheaper, or by deals, i will not be swayed like the average customer 😤

there's just something to shopping that gives me dopamine okay.

ps. you guys should never forget to blur, erase, or snip your personal details shown on the package until it's illegible or whatever, because that's how scammers get you! stay safe when throwing your trash 💯

👒 Monday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

don't wait for the perfect time, instead do it now! it's like i say..

take the risk or lose the chance :)

i wanna share some things that push me to consume more media (like games, books, movies, etc.) starting with the stats!

i like to use steam/itch.io, goodreads, and letterboxd to record all that i've been doing, and watching it grow is so satisfying 🙏 (an alternative would be making your own lists or checklists) also cool because you can say you know it or learned something! ps. i personally don't compare myself, so i hate leaderboards, but this is like a personal little tracker, so it's totally different! 😉

ideally, i want to consume more media than scrolling (because it's souper useless and i'm such a scroller to doom) basically, it's just that i have a lot of screentime already, so why not put it to use by going crazy with consuming media? 🥳

secondly, do it to be a cooler you! the more knowledge you have or informed you are on something can actually help you in speech or debate! (you can learn stuff and unconsciously apply it, it's great 😁)

thirdly, have fun when exploring more media :) like the hook at the start says, do it now! some games, movies, or books may not be accessible forever, whether it not being available, or you not being available! so spend your time wisely, and well! 😎

hopefully you guys can start enjoying media outside your comfort zone! 💋

👒 Tuesday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

so, what inspired me to write this was a reel i saw, where someone said that, to them, watching movies is like eating a meal; you munch it down and forget about it. but it doesn't always have to be that way! (even if you have bad memory) 💯

this may actually be connected to the other post, because as i said, recording media you consume using those apps or sites (steam/itch.io, goodreads, letterboxd) is an awesome way to remember how you felt about a movie, book, or game at the time!

other ways can be talking to a friend about it, making your own, personal reviews in a journal (may be time-consuming), or creating something to remind you of it! (usually art, like a drawing, poster, design, etc.) it can also inspire your future works (like how poets and writers get inspired) ✍

or an easier way, form your own takeaway about it immediately after finishing it! (something i learned from my english teacher) this is when you ask yourself, "what's something i learned, or a lesson i can take with me from this?" 🧐 (this was when we analyzed a ton of english literature)

and there you go! try these tips so you can open your mind to more media and not immediately forget them :) looking for the beauty in little things like this can definitely change your life ✅

bonus tip! if you have time, try analyzing the story or plot of a game, book, or movie and learn more about it to become more media literate (which i'm not that knowledgeable on, but maybe you can be!)

👒 Wednesday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

all my life, i've wanted to be some sort of leader or role model to others— to inspire, to assist, and to lead 🦸‍♀️ unfortunately, i don't usually get the chance to be one, so i'll share some things i think leaders should do!

• include everyone - very important! make sure everyone is involved in the conversation or idea, no matter how small

• be transparent - be honest with progress, plans, and criticism (or room for improvement) this way, everyone can communicate openly and should be up to speed!

• incorporate ideas - choosing one idea can be tricky among many great minds, so try mixing them into one! (i do this often) it turns one's idea to one shared idea 🤯

• accept differences - sometimes others may be difficult, like acting, answering, or just doing things differently from you, but if that's what they find comfortable, talk to them and try to work with it :)

ps. this is a pretty personal post to me because of how i've always watched others lead, while i stood by the sidelines, waiting for my chance (hopefully it'll come soon!) i hope this can help others, or maybe some can relate to me! 💝

i heard when people experience something negative, they may also become the ones who can battle it best (i can't word it perfectly, but something like that!)

👒 Wednesday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

note: yes, i know! i've been doing a ton of (is it called self-help posts? like self-help books..) whatever genre this is! but my mind is just flowing okay 😁 i love helping others! + i also know that school is NOT near (yet..) but these are tips in advance for school! 😿

for me, (as a pretty organized person) i like to create to-do or checklists for tasks with especially tight deadlines + when time is very limited 😭 (trust me, it's SO easy to lose track of them all) what i like to do is switch between tasks a lot (so i don't get burnt out or take too long on one task)

basically, i like to do important or school tasks first, then switch it up by doing another or a not so stressing task! (like organizing my photos, videos, etc. just stuff i need done) 🙂 (it's kinda like pomodoro, but it's just work on work on work) (i'm a big hater of pomodoro.. it's just not for me! 🤐)

prioritize your mental health! stop doomscrolling and start sleeping. (for the sake of your sanity) because when the week gets busy, EVERY second counts 😨 unfortunately, "distractions" aka hobbies will have no more time..

👒 Thursday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

when looking for seishun in my (roblox) "continue playing" list, i couldn't find it for a while.. until i searched it (in the search bar) and found out it was moved to another game 😨 (for some reason!)

anyway, i joined back, and it feels so different now.. (they added servers by age group) but it looks cool!

they have apartments now, that's for one! i can tell it's still a work-in-progress, but i see so much potential and i think it's a wonderful addition 😁 (former royale high player here..) i can't believe it changed so much though, when i last played it 6 days ago 😮 (i'm growing an attachment to this game)

seeing some people genuinely roleplay in this game reminds me a lot of the old days.. i used to spend HOURS roleplaying on royale high, adopt me, or bloxburg and never get bored of it 😭 i was just that kind of girl!

ps. i only like the game for roleplaying with friends and buying nekopops, i don't usually roleplay here a lot

👒 Thursday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

i've recently come across this game (in google play store) called life crush story! i know it looks and sounds odd, but it's an interesting + addicting game if you like collecting badges (aka game endings) 😮 its premise is kinda hard to explain, so i suggest you try it out yourself! (it's free on app store) 🥳

this game was so eye-opening for me to the difficulties of life.. when i kept getting born into a poor family, i swear, it was so hard for me to be successful 😭 i started wishing for a rich family and all (i didn't even know there was an average family!) i think the game portrayed the hierarchy super well though 🙂 (despite its simplicity)

i would definitely play this game if i was bored on the way home, and even tell a friend about it! currently, i have 16 out of 55 endings.. (because the skill check is CRAZY hard.) i have yet to get on the grind for this one! 😁

seeing as this game was super unique, i got interested to check out their other games! i love quick turtle 🤤

👒 Thursday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

this new spotify thing has been all the rage lately.. (at least on the insta stories i see) and i finally checked mine out 🤤 i did NOT expect that the first song i ever streamed would be "look what you made me do" by taylor swift 😭 (but be real, it's always taylor..

i am so in love with my top 120 songs + 1 first streamed song playlist.. it is SO PEAK 🤯 i find all the different genres so funny because the switch up is insane but i also think it's souper sweet because i remember when i used to loop every single one 💞 (i'm gonna have so much fun listening from now on! 🎵)

reminiscing these old songs is so fun because of all the different moments in my life 😮 thank you for reminding me of the beauty in music oh my gosh 🥺 (but i swear so many anime edits used these songs back then.. they probably own all the songs in the world!)

ps. i don't know about you, but i've been obsessed with right back by karlee girl lately! here, listen to it!

👒 Friday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

today, i randomly decided to check out nikocado's channel (weird urge!) and ended up diving into some drama between him and stephanie soo (aka rotten mango) which happened 6 years ago 💀 all videos are like an hour long (more or less) and watching them on 1.5x speed is tricky!

after listening to both sides, i wanna share my own experience of something like it

work in progress.

i know i'm lazy.

👒 Friday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

i've been so interested in quick turtle's (indie development team) games lately, so i decided to try out another one from them! which is this, don't get fired! the design looks super cute, and it's a huge coincidence that i'm writing this on the day of its 10th anniversary 🥳 (woah! but i do agree, it is kinda crazy that people still struggle at work..)

compared to life crush game, this one is more idle (since all you do is click then wait a while for your bar to refill technically..) and i guess, time-consuming 😿 it still is a nice game though! you sacrifice, work your way up, and everything is a risk to your job 💔 (the highest i've gotten is like, full-time employee or something!)

every time you get fired, it's kinda like a rebirth mechanic (since you can level up your skills, and it'll stay, even if you get fired!) i'm still trying to get more endings though.. (or ways to get fired) but because it's so risky, i'm hesitant, because i don't wanna lose it all 😫

👒 Saturday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

art and design is NOT for the weak 😨 (that's why i'm going stem!) just a short recap (if i've ever mentioned this project on my blog..) i'm making a grade 10 wrapped, which is just photo collages for every month of the year! even if it's so easy to look at, it takes me FOREVER to do. (which reminds me of webtoon artists, wow!)

i guess this is what they say when you can get tired even when you're doing what you love! 🤐 truly, i tried my best to do all the 9 months, but i ended up getting tired and forgetting about it for a few days.. 😿 but now, i'm almost done!

really, i put so much work into every photo and slide.. from arranging them, cropping, choosing specific photos among thousands of them, to polishing, counting, and animating... 😵 it is a lot!

through all the pain and efforts i made, in the end, it's worth doing just to make my friends happy (even if only for a moment!) 😁 plus, it's a super sweet gesture, and ANYONE would be lucky to have something like this!

anyhow, it should be finished anytime soon, and i'll be releasing the numbers! (like amount of photos, etc.) but i'm not sure if i can get elapsed time i worked on it.. (heh, i use canva a lot 😉) maybe they should add a stopwatch!

👒 Saturday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

i swear, summer break really throws me off so much.. 😭 as someone who used to do so much every day (school, blog, personal projects, etc.) i've been reduced to doing so little, and honestly, prioritizing sleep and rest. 😔 (which, don't get me wrong, is super good!)

so, context is! i usually manually record my screen time on my devices (phone and laptop) but the records only go back for 4 weeks until it clears itself, so i missed a few weeks 😿 i only remembered to do it now.. (also, the reason i do it is so i have a sense of how much time i spend online! 🌐 so maybe i should lessen my hours..)

i JUST enabled notifications for it because i really need to start remembering! your girl is NOT gonna be able to store every single thing in her brain 💔

in addition to this, i've downloaded a lot of new apps.. (if it's not already obvious from my previous posts!) some are games, the others are.. i don't even know what genre 💀 i really need to organize my phone sometime. (soon, trust!)

so, if you're a bit of a busy body, try turning on notifications! (don't manage it all alone and risk losing a streak or something.. it could be important!)

ps. pay attention to your notifications, don't go and clear them all! 🙏

👒 Saturday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

hello! i decided that, if i'm going to make the most out of summer, i'm gonna start binging some webtoon 😎 (as other people do..) so drop any webtoon suggestions you have for me! i also wanted to do this because i feel like i have all the time in the world.. #unproductive

coming back to all my subscribed series, most of them are done by now! 🤩 but.. i remember, i was reading so many series at once before, that i couldn't even recall the plot of many 😭 i'm gonna have to reread a lot of these 💀

so, a little fun fact about me! in the past, i was really against watching incomplete or ongoing series, etc. (especially if they were popular) because i believed that, if i waited until it was fully done, then i could watch it all at once, no waiting, no forgetting! 🤓 super genius.. (maybe little me was wise beyond her years!)

ps. and just like other people, my to-read and to-watch lists are ever-growing.. i need to CONSUME the media fast 🤤 (and i also need to organize my lists actually!)

👒 Saturday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

it's good to have a little self-appreciation post once in a while! make sure to cheer yourself on well 🤩

so, i was just looking at my profile (purposely unspecified) and i thought, wow, i'm awesome! looking at what i have set up (name, pfp, about me, etc.) just made me feel so proud of myself 😭 like, i did that! and i just think a little art and design can make anyone's profile so much cooler 💯

if you're passionate enough, making a carrd, strawpage, readymag, or any other site-making thing for an introduction card, i suggest you go for it! it's tiring and time-consuming, but you'll be rewarded with a confidence boost 📈

as the caption states, i did that! i didn't hesitate when i wanted a strawpage. and now it's awesome 😁 you don't need talent to make a design, just a vision and your heart's passion 😉

ps. i'm genuinely not sure if i already used this caption or not, but if i did.. no i didn't! 😋 it's just TOO good of a caption. (hello from the ariana grande fan in the back!)

👒 Sunday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

by the time you read this, my posts should be polished and organized by now! i hope nobody ever sees my page when it's messy.. 😬 by messy, i mean i just have a ton of posts going on and i'm not done typing them 😿

honestly, though i do like making blogs, it can turn into a chore (even when i reach flow state) because despite not having much of a schedule, i still try to post as much as i can to reach at least 30 posts or something..

the way i try to type as much as content as i can in these can feel tiring (because it's like.. my mind doesn't have much to say!) but this can help with speech, so maybe it can enhance my skill with words 😭 (i hope!)

maybe this is a sign that i need to expand my vocabulary! (i don't know how i can get accustomed to any new words though..) i mean, i used to find some advanced words for my poems but then forget them right after 💔 (my bad!)

ps. i'm not sure if the scheduled posts feature has always existed, but it's a super cool thing that i need to maximize more 😮

👒 Sunday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

so.. this post is kinda random! i just wanted to clear things up (mostly with myself) on my calendar (mainly) and blog, i use the term "media" to describe erm.. stuff that exist! 😓 like, i say it when referring to books, movies, games, etc., and i didn't search it up or anything, it came to my mind when i was thinking of an umbrella term for all of that 😭

i searched it recently to check out what it means, and it means a lot! it means the internet, newspapers, videos, photos, etc., so i don't even know if i'm correct to use media to refer to those things 😿 (somebody tell me!) but i hope so!

anyway, as my letterboxd current description states, i'm aiming to consume more media! hopefully i will be so very knowledgeable after it is all consumed.. (and i need more movie recs because my netflix is running out of things to fill my letterboxd with)

ps. the image above is from pinterest! i randomly chose it for this post, and it reminds me so much of my friends 🥰 (they used to use reaction images just like this all the time!) it's so cringe too.. but to be cringe is to be free!

👒 Monday (•˕ •マ) .ᐟ

this game is pretty silly and its premise is actually really interesting to me! 😋 basically, it's a "job application" and you do a ton of fun minigames (not your classic ones) so that, in the end, you get hired! honestly, it reminds me of a game that jay (from the kubz scouts) played, doki-doki action game! (check it out.) 😌

but back to this game.. my favorite test was the lemonade stand one because i had the 30-day option enabled, and it was really fun! it took me maybe over 30 minutes.. 😅 but i would definitely play it as a game on its own! (it was so addicting to me)

a lot of the tests were cool to me, and i did catch some references.. (i think!) i recognize the bitlife "get out of jail" minigame.. heh! bitlife used to be such a hit back then, you know!

also, as a (roblox) badge collector, i was very pleased with all the badges rewarded to me at the end of this 🥳 i wish real life job applications were as easy as this.. before you play, i want to warn you that my playtime was a little over an hour! (but some finish it quicker)