What to pack for your trip! by https://padlet.com/lainiefefferman1/vcfa2022 Lainie's presentation bulletin board en-us 2022-02-06 14:19:47 UTC 2026-01-10 08:10:20 UTC hello@padlet.com https://padlet-uploads.storage.googleapis.com/1569547192/26ed14ee5e0a57b8770e788af596ae84/IMG_3406.heic On the way home from Radiohead concert - hour and a half in a rowdy train full of strangers singing together all the way home - incredibly organic, subversive and magical. https://padlet.com/lainiefefferman1/vcfa2022/wish/2031710277 2022-02-06 18:36:13 UTC https://padlet.com/lainiefefferman1/vcfa2022/wish/2031710277 https://padlet.com/lainiefefferman1/vcfa2022/wish/2031710539 Traveled to Europe with Father and recorded Jewish orchestral music with Slovak Radio Symphony. First time dad had been back to Europe after surviving the Holocaust. It was an incredibly healing experience for him and connecting with the musicians was important for me. ]]> 2022-02-06 18:36:28 UTC https://padlet.com/lainiefefferman1/vcfa2022/wish/2031710539 Pink Floyd - Wish You Were Here in middle school changed my life! https://padlet.com/lainiefefferman1/vcfa2022/wish/2031710718 2022-02-06 18:36:40 UTC https://padlet.com/lainiefefferman1/vcfa2022/wish/2031710718 deep satisfaction is subjective. https://padlet.com/lainiefefferman1/vcfa2022/wish/2031710858 2022-02-06 18:36:49 UTC https://padlet.com/lainiefefferman1/vcfa2022/wish/2031710858 Listening to Songs in the Key of Life by Stevie Wonder in 1976 on my Aunt's stereo on her shag carpet. Changed my life and melted my brain. https://padlet.com/lainiefefferman1/vcfa2022/wish/2031711192 2022-02-06 18:37:12 UTC https://padlet.com/lainiefefferman1/vcfa2022/wish/2031711192 Oscar Suh-Rodriguez https://padlet.com/lainiefefferman1/vcfa2022/wish/2031711359 After an intense gig with a punk-rockabilly band, my buddy Dave and I drove home. The band morale was pretty low and, despite having some fun at the gig--playing all choatic-like, were just in "a mood." Dave asked me to put something on so I put on "Through the Fire" by Chaka Khan. It hit both of us hard and was a fantastic deep cleanse]]> 2022-02-06 18:37:23 UTC https://padlet.com/lainiefefferman1/vcfa2022/wish/2031711359 Reading a book about Wagner and listening to the examples lainiefefferman1 https://padlet.com/lainiefefferman1/vcfa2022/wish/2031711463 2022-02-06 18:37:30 UTC https://padlet.com/lainiefefferman1/vcfa2022/wish/2031711463 https://padlet.com/lainiefefferman1/vcfa2022/wish/2031711483 Seeing Jazz legends like Miles Davis etc. in person in the 60s. ]]> 2022-02-06 18:37:31 UTC https://padlet.com/lainiefefferman1/vcfa2022/wish/2031711483 https://padlet.com/lainiefefferman1/vcfa2022/wish/2031711586 In Sept 2021 I got to take part in a choir tour with Northern Harmony, got to teach and perform 2 of my compositions in our program. After years of not singing in a group, it was such an amazing, heart-warming experience to sing and play instruments non-stop for almost 2 weeks - A "consuming" experience...]]> 2022-02-06 18:37:37 UTC https://padlet.com/lainiefefferman1/vcfa2022/wish/2031711586 Listening to Rhapsody in Blue, alone in a dark room at age 11 or 12. First experience of concert music as being transcendent https://padlet.com/lainiefefferman1/vcfa2022/wish/2031711728 2022-02-06 18:37:46 UTC https://padlet.com/lainiefefferman1/vcfa2022/wish/2031711728 https://padlet.com/lainiefefferman1/vcfa2022/wish/2031711851 The first time I heard Kiri TeKanawa sing Strauss Four Last Songs; the first Mahler 2nd; Ravi Shankar at Monterey Pop.

]]> 2022-02-06 18:37:54 UTC https://padlet.com/lainiefefferman1/vcfa2022/wish/2031711851 https://padlet.com/lainiefefferman1/vcfa2022/wish/2031712822 Participating in international choral festival as a 13 year old. First experience traveling abroad as well, so total culture bomb while experiencing overwhelming level of musical collaboration.]]> 2022-02-06 18:38:56 UTC https://padlet.com/lainiefefferman1/vcfa2022/wish/2031712822 playing in a big circle for hours with 19 other bassists, all very different musical personalities https://padlet.com/lainiefefferman1/vcfa2022/wish/2031712959 2022-02-06 18:39:03 UTC https://padlet.com/lainiefefferman1/vcfa2022/wish/2031712959 I remember a lot of meta-levels of satisfaction, i.e. having a conflicted or ambiguous musical experience, but feeling a growing satisfaction over the following days and weeks as the experience progressively integrated with/contributed to my broader interpretations of my life experiences. https://padlet.com/lainiefefferman1/vcfa2022/wish/2031713329 2022-02-06 18:39:28 UTC https://padlet.com/lainiefefferman1/vcfa2022/wish/2031713329 playing live music for the first time last residency made me feel high for days https://padlet.com/lainiefefferman1/vcfa2022/wish/2031713340 2022-02-06 18:39:29 UTC https://padlet.com/lainiefefferman1/vcfa2022/wish/2031713340 feeling powerful - like the most of myself that i can be! lainiefefferman1 https://padlet.com/lainiefefferman1/vcfa2022/wish/2031716000 2022-02-06 18:42:17 UTC https://padlet.com/lainiefefferman1/vcfa2022/wish/2031716000 biggest advice - you need to play how you'd sing it or you'll never feel it. The movement/the meaning won't connect unless you're feeling like you're talking/singing to the audience. https://padlet.com/lainiefefferman1/vcfa2022/wish/2031718804 2022-02-06 18:45:04 UTC https://padlet.com/lainiefefferman1/vcfa2022/wish/2031718804 Having my music performed often makes me feel like some of my self-control is undermined by how deeply it affects me. I find that release/surrender deeply satisfying. https://padlet.com/lainiefefferman1/vcfa2022/wish/2031720114 2022-02-06 18:46:19 UTC https://padlet.com/lainiefefferman1/vcfa2022/wish/2031720114 It was very special performing the percussion break in the larger context of this piece... https://padlet.com/lainiefefferman1/vcfa2022/wish/2031722481

]]> 2022-02-06 18:48:51 UTC https://padlet.com/lainiefefferman1/vcfa2022/wish/2031722481 oscarrrrr https://padlet.com/lainiefefferman1/vcfa2022/wish/2031722610 collaborating with my no-wave trio. we would meet and write together and spend 2hrs at a time, writing and arranging every second in person. When we didn't know what came next, we would search by jamming. then SUDDENLY, we'd find it in the middle of playing....we would all lock eyes and know we found it]]> 2022-02-06 18:49:03 UTC https://padlet.com/lainiefefferman1/vcfa2022/wish/2031722610 The result of a piece I wrote and re-wrote for a dance company over 10 days with daily revisions .Most fun work I have ever done. https://padlet.com/lainiefefferman1/vcfa2022/wish/2031723074 2022-02-06 18:49:30 UTC https://padlet.com/lainiefefferman1/vcfa2022/wish/2031723074 https://padlet.com/lainiefefferman1/vcfa2022/wish/2031723593 Free improv with a group of people in reality.]]> 2022-02-06 18:50:04 UTC https://padlet.com/lainiefefferman1/vcfa2022/wish/2031723593 https://padlet.com/lainiefefferman1/vcfa2022/wish/2031723602 Performing my first live-stream show solo, for my Birthday Dec 2020... ]]> 2022-02-06 18:50:05 UTC https://padlet.com/lainiefefferman1/vcfa2022/wish/2031723602 1) Audience was so immersed that they were dead silent at the conclusion of performance. 2) When the audience clearly 'got it' in the context of a new work. 3) Original work performance with positive feedback. https://padlet.com/lainiefefferman1/vcfa2022/wish/2031723613 2022-02-06 18:50:05 UTC https://padlet.com/lainiefefferman1/vcfa2022/wish/2031723613 making/composing a musical experience for students and watching them enjoy it! lainiefefferman1 https://padlet.com/lainiefefferman1/vcfa2022/wish/2031723845 2022-02-06 18:50:16 UTC https://padlet.com/lainiefefferman1/vcfa2022/wish/2031723845 watching students new to improvisation go for it and be fearless in their first concert https://padlet.com/lainiefefferman1/vcfa2022/wish/2031724160 2022-02-06 18:50:37 UTC https://padlet.com/lainiefefferman1/vcfa2022/wish/2031724160 https://padlet.com/lainiefefferman1/vcfa2022/wish/2031724620 Singing with my parents. Dad passed away 9 years ago and the memories have become more satisfying over time. ]]> 2022-02-06 18:51:09 UTC https://padlet.com/lainiefefferman1/vcfa2022/wish/2031724620 https://padlet.com/lainiefefferman1/vcfa2022/wish/2031729726 jealousy of other's opportunities arising from non-career relationships, such as working with a successful childhood friend or relative or...

]]> 2022-02-06 18:56:16 UTC https://padlet.com/lainiefefferman1/vcfa2022/wish/2031729726 I am very uncompetitive. I do, however, deeply resent it when sh*t floats to the top. https://padlet.com/lainiefefferman1/vcfa2022/wish/2031731109 2022-02-06 18:57:24 UTC https://padlet.com/lainiefefferman1/vcfa2022/wish/2031731109 https://padlet.com/lainiefefferman1/vcfa2022/wish/2031731270 I become jealous when I see another arranger write for a great ensemble, and I didn't get that chance, especially when I know or feel that I'm better than them.  I have to remind myself that that's their blessing/opportunity, not mine.]]> 2022-02-06 18:57:34 UTC https://padlet.com/lainiefefferman1/vcfa2022/wish/2031731270 I'm jealous when someone has an exciting project that is through a relative or personal/social relationship https://padlet.com/lainiefefferman1/vcfa2022/wish/2031731578 2022-02-06 18:57:52 UTC https://padlet.com/lainiefefferman1/vcfa2022/wish/2031731578 https://padlet.com/lainiefefferman1/vcfa2022/wish/2031733066 Group consensus is that competitiveness sucks...]]> 2022-02-06 18:59:35 UTC https://padlet.com/lainiefefferman1/vcfa2022/wish/2031733066 https://padlet.com/lainiefefferman1/vcfa2022/wish/2031733662 1) We each have a unique spot in the whole, 2) Fear of other's success is the wrong motivation when not doing something yourself, 3) We're not competitors to be in the big picture of artistry]]> 2022-02-06 19:00:15 UTC https://padlet.com/lainiefefferman1/vcfa2022/wish/2031733662 https://padlet.com/lainiefefferman1/vcfa2022/wish/2031733745 I don't remember one. All good!]]> 2022-02-06 19:00:20 UTC https://padlet.com/lainiefefferman1/vcfa2022/wish/2031733745 observing how "the hang" is just as effective and sometimes more effective at creating opportunities than the work you could put in on your own https://padlet.com/lainiefefferman1/vcfa2022/wish/2031733753 2022-02-06 19:00:21 UTC https://padlet.com/lainiefefferman1/vcfa2022/wish/2031733753 I was jealous of people's confidence rather than opportunities that they would get https://padlet.com/lainiefefferman1/vcfa2022/wish/2031733820 2022-02-06 19:00:25 UTC https://padlet.com/lainiefefferman1/vcfa2022/wish/2031733820 I've admired the technique of some performers very much and been envious of it. Later, I've realized that there's no music I'm inspired to make that requires that kind of technique. I've also realized that, after getting over being dazzled by the technique, I haven't actually enjoyed the music that much. https://padlet.com/lainiefefferman1/vcfa2022/wish/2031734208 2022-02-06 19:00:53 UTC https://padlet.com/lainiefefferman1/vcfa2022/wish/2031734208 WHAT WAS QUESTION 4? https://padlet.com/lainiefefferman1/vcfa2022/wish/2031738091 2022-02-06 19:04:59 UTC https://padlet.com/lainiefefferman1/vcfa2022/wish/2031738091 produce an indie hit--hopefully only 2-3 years away! https://padlet.com/lainiefefferman1/vcfa2022/wish/2031742701 2022-02-06 19:09:50 UTC https://padlet.com/lainiefefferman1/vcfa2022/wish/2031742701 To have my compositions be requested (without prompting) for performance https://padlet.com/lainiefefferman1/vcfa2022/wish/2031746164 2022-02-06 19:13:35 UTC https://padlet.com/lainiefefferman1/vcfa2022/wish/2031746164 fear is not helpful https://padlet.com/lainiefefferman1/vcfa2022/wish/2031746254 its about doing wHAt you are aching to do. "use the good china even if is plastic". do it now...like even if your playing is compromised, have the solo concert anyway.]]> 2022-02-06 19:13:42 UTC https://padlet.com/lainiefefferman1/vcfa2022/wish/2031746254 getting good commissions https://padlet.com/lainiefefferman1/vcfa2022/wish/2031747563 2022-02-06 19:15:15 UTC https://padlet.com/lainiefefferman1/vcfa2022/wish/2031747563 Writing for myself to perform, not just writing for others and performing others' work. For some reason I've always been intimidated by that! https://padlet.com/lainiefefferman1/vcfa2022/wish/2031748153 2022-02-06 19:16:00 UTC https://padlet.com/lainiefefferman1/vcfa2022/wish/2031748153 Fear can definitely a hinderance of what we can and can not due as well as who we surround ourselves. Learning to conquering it and surrounding yourself with positive people and open more more motivation, learning opportunities, and inspirtation as well as motivation https://padlet.com/lainiefefferman1/vcfa2022/wish/2031748474 2022-02-06 19:16:24 UTC https://padlet.com/lainiefefferman1/vcfa2022/wish/2031748474 The term "goal" is maybe a poor fit for this idea, but: continuously riding an edge of change and growth, finding a place/modality to function within that is familiar enough for me to be articulate and sensitive within it, but also foreign enough for me to be deeply engaged with sorting through an unknown space, manifesting spontaneous new elements out of uncertainty. https://padlet.com/lainiefefferman1/vcfa2022/wish/2031749573 2022-02-06 19:17:44 UTC https://padlet.com/lainiefefferman1/vcfa2022/wish/2031749573 https://padlet.com/lainiefefferman1/vcfa2022/wish/2031749734 The word "goal" implies something linear to me: a timeline, a deadline, final, static. I find my musical/creative life is more cyclical in nature and something that I'm constantly experiencing with opportunities that I'm hoping for coming in and out of focus. 

I do think I'd like to make more time in my life for live performances, jams, etc. once covid isn't such a huge impediment!]]> 2022-02-06 19:17:56 UTC https://padlet.com/lainiefefferman1/vcfa2022/wish/2031749734 https://padlet.com/lainiefefferman1/vcfa2022/wish/2031752581 Write something that taps into the same thing that the music I loved did, and have people hear it and have it mean something to them the way that music did for me. Venue / format doesn't matter so much. Headphones would be fine!]]> 2022-02-06 19:21:02 UTC https://padlet.com/lainiefefferman1/vcfa2022/wish/2031752581 https://padlet.com/lainiefefferman1/vcfa2022/wish/2031762742 Less past, less future, more present moment. Focus on the community and not the individual!]]> 2022-02-06 19:32:24 UTC https://padlet.com/lainiefefferman1/vcfa2022/wish/2031762742 you know, i don't think i need to do the same kind of performances i did before pandemic. i want some scaled down, scaled back stuff to play at house concerts that when i play it'll give me the same good vibes i feel when i bake someone a cake. that's where i'm at. lainiefefferman1 https://padlet.com/lainiefefferman1/vcfa2022/wish/2031823001 2022-02-06 20:45:28 UTC https://padlet.com/lainiefefferman1/vcfa2022/wish/2031823001 https://padlet.com/lainiefefferman1/vcfa2022/wish/2041409299 Seeing a large scale cover band for the first time at the local fairgrounds. Just doing Bad Company, Cars and ZZ Top covers, but there was so much power, and it felt so real to me, like all the records I’d been listening to brought to life.]]> 2022-02-11 00:32:08 UTC https://padlet.com/lainiefefferman1/vcfa2022/wish/2041409299 https://padlet.com/lainiefefferman1/vcfa2022/wish/2041430877 Playing a packed fraternity house at my college on a Saturday night, when our short-lived fusion band was at its peak. Everybody knew everybody: there was a connection and empathy with and from the audience that could never be replicated.

A quieter highlight was the “grand opening” of two friends’ restaurant bar. I’d already played there once or twice before (hence the quotes) and was a regular doing mostly-instrumental dinner music. But this was meant to be a celebration, and a little rowdier. By luck, the battery in my acoustic died, so I just played my electric archtop, which can do most acoustic stuff fine, and more if the rock stuff. Anyway it fit me and that room just right that night, which helped me solo and even sing more confidently, which I’m turn made it easy to maintain a fun & relaxed rapport with the audience.]]> 2022-02-11 00:47:42 UTC https://padlet.com/lainiefefferman1/vcfa2022/wish/2041430877 https://padlet.com/lainiefefferman1/vcfa2022/wish/2041566516 I felt jealous of a friend: not for a single opportunity, but for a series of times he would just get “advanced” money for a new instrument or to travel to NYC or London…but looking at it now, I’ve probably benefited just as much from others’ generosity…and have hopefully shown a little myself]]> 2022-02-11 02:29:49 UTC https://padlet.com/lainiefefferman1/vcfa2022/wish/2041566516