Shame and Others' Perceptions by

Shame and Others' Perceptions by https://padlet.com/bashebir269/o4n82u7ppocqusnd MY CRITICAL QUESTION: How do we fight shame and the need to influence others' perceptions of us in order to be able to express our true selves? en-us 2023-05-04 00:40:30 UTC 2025-10-14 14:13:09 UTC hello@padlet.com bashebir269 https://padlet.com/bashebir269/o4n82u7ppocqusnd/wish/2598138163 2023-05-20 04:14:01 UTC https://padlet.com/bashebir269/o4n82u7ppocqusnd/wish/2598138163 bashebir269 https://padlet.com/bashebir269/o4n82u7ppocqusnd/wish/2598141799 2023-05-20 04:27:12 UTC https://padlet.com/bashebir269/o4n82u7ppocqusnd/wish/2598141799 ANNOTATED BIBLIOGRAPHY bashebir269 https://padlet.com/bashebir269/o4n82u7ppocqusnd/wish/2598147516 2023-05-20 04:48:42 UTC https://padlet.com/bashebir269/o4n82u7ppocqusnd/wish/2598147516 SPECIAL SAUCE bashebir269 https://padlet.com/bashebir269/o4n82u7ppocqusnd/wish/2598147919 I decided to do a participatory experience where I write down every meaningful interaction I've had for the past 5 days and how they made me feel. Every night, I started writing down everything in a notebook. The first night, there wasn’t much, I was intimidated to go up to talk to my professor about a personal matter but I didn't notice anything as important. But on the second day, I noticed that I was hesitant to share my thoughts in my Chemistry class. I was very hesitant to the point that I didn't say anything, but since I was aware of what was happening, I decided to do it regardless. Writing it down, I realized that the thing holding me back was people's opinion of me. In my head, I was thinking about what my classmates would think of me. I felt the need to be validated or well acknowledged in class and I wasn't getting that so far. So I was very reluctant to express myself. However, once I said what I had to say, I was struck with a sense of relief and joy. It felt good to do it, it felt good to know that I overcame that fear. I also felt that same feeling when I volunteered at a chance to host an Instagram live for a nonprofit organization. Speaking in public and overall being the center of attention is not my thing so doing this was a big deal for me. Although I was regretting what I was doing when I first had a few people join, I felt like I was on top of the world once I finished. I felt like nothing was holding me back and I really liked that honestly. That’s what I really liked about these 5 days, I spent the days doing things I wouldn’t normally do and being conscious of how different interactions were making me feel. I noticed that I was comfortable around friends and people I have known for a while but felt intimidated around older people and people with more authority. I went into more detail while writing in my journal about how I felt, so I really enjoyed reflecting on that. I learned a lot about how I viewed myself and the people around me. In the end, I realized that I’m anxious to do certain things out of fear of being judged but people will judge you regardless. So if there’s one thing I took away, it’s that we can’t control how we are perceived and there’s no way of even predicting it. ]]> 2023-05-20 04:50:35 UTC https://padlet.com/bashebir269/o4n82u7ppocqusnd/wish/2598147919 ORIGINAL ART bashebir269 https://padlet.com/bashebir269/o4n82u7ppocqusnd/wish/2598149182 My original art is a poem. This is a poem I wrote from reading different notes I took about different interactions I had. I was just sitting by myself reflecting and thought of my critical question. I started writing some observations down and got to this poem.

What are they thinking of me?

How are they seeing me?

Are they judging me?

A never-ending cycle of questions

Limiting my capacity

A never-ending thought process

Of what they see in me

Could I have done it differently

Could I have ensured their acceptance of me

Truth is I know the answer

I know I can’t change how others see me

I know I can’t change their perception of me

But I can’t help it

I seek validation

I seek recognition

I seek appreciation

From the people surrounding me

But the only validation I can guarantee

Is from the voice within me

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