After reading the blog post that I created Last May 22, 2020, which is during my birthday. I was so optimistic back then that everything will end immediately because all of us is already struggling so I bet sooner or later by December 2020, we are already recovering, but, I was wrong. I would never thought that we'll be labeled as "World's Longest COVID-19 Lockdown" according to TIME's Magazine. I feel like I clowned myself thinking that the government will promptly restraint the spread of the Virus, knowing how ineffective our healthcare system is. 

After a year, I recognize and observe the ethical issues that revolve around the community I lived in, one of which is how incompetent and inadequate their emergency response and restraining the COVID-19 from spreading, as I can see there are still people around our residence, going out with out having their face mask on and some of them are having their own parties.

In addition, as I was able to cross around with the different topics and issues in Social Media every day, I notice that most individuals also showed how irresponsible they are especially with the "social media influencers" as they were able to film themselves violating health and safety protocols, it is a shame though because what if their followers would also do the same thing that they did, as a famous personality in social media they should have the capability to educate their followers. One of the examples of this issue is the "Baguio Party" that was organized by Tim Yap and was attended by 33 other personalities, The viral videos showed guests dancing closely together without masks or face shields. Aside from KC Concepcion, the event was attended by several celebrities, as well as Mayor Magalong, who is also the country's contact tracing czar and later on was resigned for that position. Based on the News, they were fined 1,500 pesos each. It is actually quite unfair when you compare it to what the "Piston 6" have been through as they were only outside of their home because they wanted to earn a living for their hungry families, as the quarantine, jeopardized their health, and their jobs and means of livelihood, they were also fined, but are also got detained for days. Only for these famous personalities to have a public apology and a fine of 1,500 pesos and what they did is already justified. 

Through this, I become smart with what I watch, what to read, who to follow on social media, and who to spend time with. The pandemic highlights the social injustices in our country, it showed the privilege that these personalities have. 

I mentioned last year that I started working out and doing yoga since it is the only escape I have to keep me sane and a breather every end of the day, I realized that later on I also deprived myself of eating and I had these fear of gaining weight, as I wanted to eagerly see the results of how fit I am and due to the standards that famous models are showing through the Internet, I pursued on wanting to have those kind of shape, that result from me having an Eating Disorder or Anorexia Nervosa. Luckily, I persevere every day to get that thought out of my mindset, and also thanks to my peers and family as they are also helping me get through it before it gets worse. 

To be honest, at this point I feel weary because I am already being lethargic of my everyday routine, although I already tried to go out once every other week just to eat or walk outside starting December 2020 while also still practicing health and safety protocols of course. I also feel fortunate since both of my grandparents have been both vaccinated and I am also looking forward that soon enough I'll be vaccinated as well.

I've been into K-pop since 2012, and up until now I still love the relaxation that they provide especially when I am studying. 

One of the reasons why this is the choice of music I am into is because I love dancing. If I have time I will try to learn their dance steps, I also try to record myself dancing to their dance challenges on TikTok hehehehe and sometimes it become part of my workout routine or go-to playlist when I am cleaning my room

You know when they say music has no boundaries, K-pop has proven it a lot of times in our society. Even though I can't understand their language, you can feel it in your ears down to your heart what they are communicating through their music. There is one particular song that I can relate to so much because it's about comforting and talking to her youth, it is about the dark times when we felt like giving up our own life but still try to hold on to no matter what. It become my inspiration that I am not alone, that as a youth there will be a time where we try to question ourselves or felt like we have no hope for a better tomorrow. In the coming of age stage, we try to learn and discover more about our lives, and it's nice because music is there to comfort me during those days.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sLZ_koI3qi8