https://padlet.com/dietree/dietree1122_nna en-us 2017-10-24 13:31:04 UTC 2017-11-07 14:17:29 UTC hello@padlet.com dietree https://padlet.com/dietree/dietree1122_nna/wish/200354301 Tough day rough night,
I can't bring myself to social life lately,
I want to avoid the reality...huh...funny, and make it to fantasy...but darkness come want to be my community,
I look around me, there was empty,
I am lonely and it hard to gain the smiley,
No matter how hard I try, there's always something disturb me,
something big that really change me from hyper-acti to anti sociability...
So what biology wants me to be?
Why chemistry make me live in this crazy?
Better I seat in front of TV and eating Potato crispy,
but still the hell depression won't run from me 

Huh! Walk and talk, share and care, jog and blog, yoga and meditation for flexibility alpha and omega, that is what online therapy said if I want to flee from this depression ability, but today still I live in anxiety, I think I can't help myself healthy...so where I need to bury this kind of bully?
Shall I talk to friend that make me like puppets line?
Shall I talk to people that consider me as the comedian at movie time?...I got no one, I got no one to trust, to make me calm...
I living in separated world, my galaxies realm small than the smallest stone...and here I'm born in insanity,
Hahaha...It shatter me,

Today I pick up my pen and write it up on the book page, the great sharing place, and I start my line with those words "Blind" , I write it properly with broken heart of mine, and only the broken can see the broken me, and the broken like me will feel how pain it like to be,
Then I realize "It's okay, if I'm not okay" because the pain need time to heal, because sad need time to get the smile reveal...that why people always said "Hope is stronger than fear", "You is stronger than your thought"
Then, I stop writing...Feel great for today I live my day, and now I feel how to struggle the life hope the pain go away...
Glad to say that I am survive, survive from suicide the permanent solution to a temporary problem...but nobody knows how the problem that make you burn..burn your souls, burn you more, more, more, and more...
I pretending the hardest would be easy, easy, easy huh? 

Easy?
It wouldn't easy to hide the pain,
It wouldn't easy to force the lough again,
are you insane?
Maybe that why I keep myself to blame,
shame, critical sick of brain, it embarrassed,
To anyone who's feel like the same way as mine,
I'd like to say that you completely alive this time
because you the one who's struggling to fine,
Despite you can't see the future life,
but you can see what I see,
you can feel my lonely,
and I assume you are perfect,
even though you are bleak...
In your bleak you find the way how to shine the light,
you can find the way to fight,
and you can make everything wrong to right
and I know it will bright just in time,]]> 2017-10-25 12:13:17 UTC https://padlet.com/dietree/dietree1122_nna/wish/200354301