Hello. <3

lnesana — 2016-09-14 14:38:35 UTC

hi there, idiot. ehe. my idiot. eep. first of all, i'm really sorry i have to type for this month's monthsary. i have been occupied and i'm afraid i wouldn't be able to finish on time. but, i promise i will write next month baby! i know you love my handwriting so much. shot. aha.

how should i start this letter? hm. i know things have been really rocky for us baby ever since the last monthsary. mostly it was caused by me, honestly. i wonder how did you endure all my nonsense and crap baby? eep. so sorry for the word, but i'm so pissed at myself sometimes. ; ; i wish i could be mature like you sometimes so at least you won't feel like you're dealing with a little kid. eep. i can be mature too, baby!

but, i'm glad we have a good and sweet moments as well. i'm so happy whenever i have the whole day with you. spending time with you is so precious, i love it so much, baby. being with you never feels wrong. it feels like home. it may sound so cheesy but it is the truth! you have no idea. i wish you could be me for a moment whenever i'm with you, but that's impossible. pmsl.

gosh, i'm running out of things to say. let me just reminisce to the time where we almost, you know, where i almost lost you. i must be crazy that day, baby. i know you were hurting so bad. but, losing you for that few minutes were hell. i cannot imagine my future without you. i was so lost, oh gosh. i don't even know what to do without you. i guess this is why people said do not be too dependent on your partner. but but, what to do? i am head over heels for you. i don't mind to depend on you for the rest of my life, baby. if you want to, of course. ehe.

i would also like to take this chance to assure you about something. ehe. as you know, i will be starting my uni soon. which means, i will be having schedules on the day, back to normal. we can get through this, right? i'm sure we can, baby. when you said that we will be drifting apart, it saddens me a lot. i'm surprised you have that kind of thoughts. but baby please, we will never drift apart. i'm always yours to love and keep. i'm all yours, from head to toe. okay? it will just be like last time baby. let's just keep cherishing the time we have when we meet at night, mhm? more cuddles, hugs, and kisses juseyo. <3

i would also like to apologise about last night, baby. i should not have made our mood down. gosh, i have been doing that a lot lately, it seems. i know i'm so annoying. i would kill myself already if i were you. how can you even handle me and my unstable mood. meep. i am sorry i demand so much from you, baby. i am content with what we have now but sometimes i do feel like i want more. i know it is not the right time, baby. you don't have to say it is just because i made so much noise last night. do not pressure yourself, mhm? i will keep quiet and behave and just enjoy whatever you offer to me right now. ehe.

this is pretty short, i guess.eep. i'm sorry i have been so out of focus lately. i really need to put myself together and stop being sick and start eating healthy stuffs! meep. i want to be healthy for you baby. so i can accompany you a lot lot lot more! <3

happy fourth monthsary, my baby rascal.
i love you. i love you so. i love you so much.
i will never want to share you with anyone else, you are mine.
i am going to keep you selfishly.
cheers to many many more months together, mhm? <3

HAPPY 4TH MONTHSARY! by

Hello. <3