CREATIVE JOURNAL # 1 ( MY WHOLE EXISTENCE) by Renz Rigonan https://padlet.com/renz_rigonan/n6haxda6e12k I NEVER ASKED TO BE MADE BUT WHATEV`S I GUESS en-us 2018-04-07 06:42:48 UTC 2026-04-12 05:09:19 UTC hello@padlet.com Chapter 1 ( Genesis) renz_rigonan https://padlet.com/renz_rigonan/n6haxda6e12k/wish/249400432 I was born through the love of my parents on that specific date. It came about as darkness then POOF! light and i was blinded by the light which caused me to cry. Im just kidding but im just telling this like that cause hey its my story ok so going back. I was held by my mom and comforted and for some reason they say that I was lucky cause unlike my older bro. He was born premature and I was born Healthy. Anyways yeah I was with my mom and they were deciding a name for me and they thought Titus Marcus was a good name but no it sucked it sounded bleh! So they decided to go with Renz Matthew R. Rigonan and thats how my life started.

]]> 2018-04-07 07:01:55 UTC https://padlet.com/renz_rigonan/n6haxda6e12k/wish/249400432 Chapter 2 ( Toddler Days) renz_rigonan https://padlet.com/renz_rigonan/n6haxda6e12k/wish/249401462 So from what i heard as stories from my mom I was held by my cousins and they played with me and one of my cousins dropped me and I cried. Most of the stories from this time is people dropped me by accident or I lead myself in accidents on my own cause I moved alot. And my mom also told she doesn`t remember when I first started talking she just told me that one day I just started talking and bam. And I remember during these days my brother hated me alot because he keeps on lining his animal toys all organized and in one line and i would runover them with my walker ah those were the days. Another key part of this days is I remember watching old VHS tapes of Disney movies and in one of the trailers shown it showed the trailer The Little Mermaid and in one scene wherein she was singing and reaches her hand in the surface I was blown away and from that day I knew I wanted to create something like that. ]]> 2018-04-07 07:19:46 UTC https://padlet.com/renz_rigonan/n6haxda6e12k/wish/249401462 Chapter 3 ( Preschool or How I`d like to call it the Good Times Nursery Part 1) renz_rigonan https://padlet.com/renz_rigonan/n6haxda6e12k/wish/249401888 Ah Nursery that was the time I have very few memories. Thats where I met my first set of friends who seem to dislike me at first and thats where I met my first crush. Her name was Jairus and she is a girl she was the only girl in class so of course I had a crush on her. But I think she wasn`t interested cause she`s always with this other boy and yeah I moved on and thats were we had our first art class where in I didn`t know how to draw and my teacher showed me my brothers drawings and I was inspired and thought I could do better than that and I did and thats were I started to learn how to write and ever since then I already had good penmanship even though both my parents are doctors and have bad hanwriting I was unique I was an artist. and I was third honor in our class cause I was smart then and that was the start of my road to victory. ]]> 2018-04-07 07:28:40 UTC https://padlet.com/renz_rigonan/n6haxda6e12k/wish/249401888 Chapter 4 ( Preschool Part 2 Kindergarten) renz_rigonan https://padlet.com/renz_rigonan/n6haxda6e12k/wish/249402995 Kindergarten was my greatest year in preschool I was considered a superstar cause I had a new box of crayons I think 64. I had the grades that made me second honor in class. I was actually good in Math, Science and the rest of my subjects I was actually smart then and I won all sorts of awards best in art silver medal and I had more friends than ever and we played during breaks and everything was fun no bad memories at all]]> 2018-04-07 07:48:21 UTC https://padlet.com/renz_rigonan/n6haxda6e12k/wish/249402995 Chapter 5 ( Preschool Part 3 Preparatory renz_rigonan https://padlet.com/renz_rigonan/n6haxda6e12k/wish/249403512 Preparatory was the last year of my Pre school days and I don`t really recall much All I remember was I was a teachers pet I was assigned to alot of things like being a conductor of the National Anthem I became a speaker like giving speaches in foundation days and graduations and I developed an ok singing talent but not really good. And just to add something I had a weird ideas of stuff before like i thought there were only 2 countries Philippines and America. I thought America was on top of clouds because we had to use airplanes to get there and I thought that after preparatory you already going to apply for a job and work.]]> 2018-04-07 07:57:48 UTC https://padlet.com/renz_rigonan/n6haxda6e12k/wish/249403512 Chapter 6 ( The day I entered Hell) renz_rigonan https://padlet.com/renz_rigonan/n6haxda6e12k/wish/249404277 Grade 1 the day I entered Don Bosco I thought things were gonna go smoothly but boy was I wrong my world turned upside down I experienced bullying first hand, I lost my confidence the teachers were strict it`s like you have no freedom and I was so shy and had less friends. And at home my neighbor friend he was like third year highschool we already knew eachother ever since I was in my toddler years so yeah we were close but he`s a bad influence I think cause he`s the one who first introduced me to porn on Redtube, I learned to swear, he would play games with us which were creepy games like locking us in the bathroom with no lights at all, chasing us around his room with a butcher knife, stripping us naked in his room and of course since I was super young and knew nothing I thought it was harmless and fun but now I realize I was friends with a pedofile and was almost raped. Grade 2 First Holy Communion one of my friends in preschool we became classmates again and became best friends. Grade 3 I made a new friend hes name was kurt and he was my new best friend my whole grae school days. He gave me a nickname of bubblegum because when he first spoke to me i had bubblegum all over my face and we always talked alot and played and my circle of friends grew and grew and everything was fine. And one of my classmates died cause of dengue and we were all shocked of that news. Grade 4 I was a sort of bully to my pre school friend because he was my classmate there was this one time wherein he was eating a snack and I took it from him and through it to the ground and I told him that he was littering and he should pick it up and he didn`t talk to me for a few weeks and I felt guilty and realized that I should watch my actions because you don`t know the consequences of it. Grade 5 I was sort of bullied by my friend Kurt. Grade 6 The same as grade 5 but sadder cause I had a conflict with Kurt and we didin`t talk for months and then we forgave each other and everything was ok again and we graduated and we separated cause he moved to a different school.]]> 2018-04-07 08:11:54 UTC https://padlet.com/renz_rigonan/n6haxda6e12k/wish/249404277 Chapter 7 ( High school worst and ok years of my life) renz_rigonan https://padlet.com/renz_rigonan/n6haxda6e12k/wish/249406109 Grade 7 the worst years of my life because I have no friends and everytime we have group works I am always last pick and no one really wants to talk to me so every break I just buy lunch from the canteen head to the stage and talk or maybe just stare at my only friend the clock until break is over that was when I realized that sometimes you just have to be alone and not force yourself on any groups or cliques and just be yourself. Because I had this expereince where there was this group in class they liked anime and I tried to hang out with them and one them said whats he doing here which really struck me and made me realize that im not wanted. Grade 8 still no friends so the usaul routine until during the third quarter someone in class actually noticed me and talked to me his name is Meinard and we became best friends and also theres this other person in class he just idk likes to disturb me like idk if it`s bullying or being friendly but he bit me in the arm and he would make me do things that were weird and I actually enjoyed doing those things. Ok Grade 9 so I have a friend in class this time and I chose Industrial Drafting cause I think that was related to drawing and i love that so ID I have a friend Meinard but we were so far apart in class cause of seating arrangements and then during AP class we had a diad activity and I had no partner and I was forced to partner up with my seatmate and that is how I met Nalus ever since then He would talk to me follow me around make fun of me and all sorts of things that friends do and then the three of us me Meinard and Nalus were instant friends. So yeah as the months past our class grew a bond and we became close to each other and was like a family. During the third quarter in grade nine my grandmother died and that was my first experience of a family member that I actually loved died which was sad for me. Grade 10 still the same classmates cause we are a block section so we grew closer and the year was fun and more pressured cause graduating of course and we had fun and then graduation  and we were separated and yeah i guess Don Bosco was not a living Hell afterall I guess, maybe IDK.]]> 2018-04-07 08:41:26 UTC https://padlet.com/renz_rigonan/n6haxda6e12k/wish/249406109 Chapter 8 ( The summer that turned my world upside down) renz_rigonan https://padlet.com/renz_rigonan/n6haxda6e12k/wish/249407412 So after graduation summer arrived and as usual summer was fun rest all day all night. And our family planned an outing to go swimming my cousins were there and we were there and my father was sick but we still went there and went swimming. But during the night when we were all gonna sleep I heard my mom scream and my Dad was having a seizure and we all panicked and my dad was brought to the hospital and afterwards we heard he was dead on arrival and my family was devestated because a family outing which was suppose to be fun turned to a tragedy the cause of his death was brain Aneurysm he hid it from me and my brother and my mom and it was too late when we found out. and of course we need to move on so I tried to move on and I also felt guilty because I was never really close to my Dad and every time we talk we usually argue and is it wrong that I didnt really cry much when he died. Anyways that was when I realized that I am not the center of the world because I had this mindset that everything I say will happen and everything falls under me and that life is temporary and we will all die soon.]]> 2018-04-07 09:02:54 UTC https://padlet.com/renz_rigonan/n6haxda6e12k/wish/249407412 Chapter 9 ( Game changer renz_rigonan https://padlet.com/renz_rigonan/n6haxda6e12k/wish/249408368 Ah the time I entered I academy actually everything was new to me because from an all boys school to a Coed wow improvement. And so far it was no impact much for now but hey atleast I am making new friends and they are not male thats an improvement. And I learned a lot in drawing more and I want to know more and yeah thats my life so far.]]> 2018-04-07 09:16:28 UTC https://padlet.com/renz_rigonan/n6haxda6e12k/wish/249408368 Question 1 renz_rigonan https://padlet.com/renz_rigonan/n6haxda6e12k/wish/249409062 Is there a center or central theme in your timeline and life? If you will give a title for your timeline what would it be and why?

- I think the central theme of my timeline is me because everything i said revolves around me because well i am the storyteller of this timeline and it shows how i grew through my experiences and the lessons I learned and the roots of what eventually lead me to becoming me. ]]> 2018-04-07 09:28:13 UTC https://padlet.com/renz_rigonan/n6haxda6e12k/wish/249409062 Question 2 renz_rigonan https://padlet.com/renz_rigonan/n6haxda6e12k/wish/249420614 Identify the turning points in your timeline. What were the thoughts, feelings and actions that you experienced?

-  The turning points in my timeline were my origins and how Renz became Renz and the second one is the experiences I had in life that formed my thinking and how i act and lastly are the lessons learned form the actions i made which lead to consequences that I am glad of and regret.]]> 2018-04-07 12:26:35 UTC https://padlet.com/renz_rigonan/n6haxda6e12k/wish/249420614 Question 3 renz_rigonan https://padlet.com/renz_rigonan/n6haxda6e12k/wish/249420849 Who are/were the most significant people in your life? How did they influence you?

I think the people who were the most significant to  me are my mom, my brother, my dad.

- My mom because she was always there to support me and comfort me whenever I have a problem she was always there ready to help or hug me.

-My Brother because he was the one who inspired me to start drawing because when I saw his drwings before I thought they were cool and I thought I could do better than that.

-And Lastly my dad because he`s the one who showed that I should grow up and be responsible in my actions because of the unnexpected consequences it holds.]]> 2018-04-07 12:30:52 UTC https://padlet.com/renz_rigonan/n6haxda6e12k/wish/249420849 Question 4 renz_rigonan https://padlet.com/renz_rigonan/n6haxda6e12k/wish/249421212 What would you change or add, if you could? How would each of these changes or additions affect your life, or even change its present course?

- The truth is I don`t want to change or add anything because Im proud of who I became and thee experiences even though it`s weird helped me to grow. But maybe the only thing I want to add is I wished I got closer to my dad when he was still alive.]]> 2018-04-07 12:36:20 UTC https://padlet.com/renz_rigonan/n6haxda6e12k/wish/249421212 Question 5 renz_rigonan https://padlet.com/renz_rigonan/n6haxda6e12k/wish/249421345 Where do you want to be in a year, 5 years, and 10 years? What do you expect your future timeline will be?  

- 5 years from now I see myself working hopefully in the Animation Company that I want which is Walt Disney Animation but its ok if its a smaller company. But 10 years from now I expect to work in a much bigger Animation company and have a supporting soulmate if ever someone notices me. 

- And I expect my Timeline in the future to be fully expanded and contain the experiences I gained from living.
]]> 2018-04-07 12:38:43 UTC https://padlet.com/renz_rigonan/n6haxda6e12k/wish/249421345 Chapter 10 ( the present catches up) renz_rigonan https://padlet.com/renz_rigonan/n6haxda6e12k/wish/249423337 Well all I can say is that I am thankful for my friends and my family because they help me grew into an actual person. ]]> 2018-04-07 13:07:23 UTC https://padlet.com/renz_rigonan/n6haxda6e12k/wish/249423337