May u meet days that make u smile for no reason, people who make u feel at ease, and moments that remind u how precious growing up truly is. I hope you get to enjoy your youth without rushing through it, without feeling like you have to figure everything out right now. You deserve to just be live, laugh, and breathe freely.

May your life be filled with comfort, new memories, and soft happiness that stays. You deserve every bit of peace the world can offer! :DD

Anyway I’m genuinely grateful for the way you’ve continued to exist, to grow, and to try, even through the weight of things you never talk about. I mean, me akhirnya tau there's a cool person di Jogja anjay gurinjay. You’ve done so well, Hans, more than you give yourself credit for. I hope you know that your presence means something, not just to the people around you but to the world itself 🫵

You’ve come so far, Hans, and I hope you can finally see how far that really is :D

I hope one day you get to experience all of that for yourself; to walk down those streets, to see the cherry blossoms in spring, to drink coffee in a little cafe while watching people pass by. I hope you get to see the version of the world that feels a little kinder, a little softer, just like you deserve!

You’ve worked hard, Hans. You’ve endured and grown in quiet ways that not everyone sees, but I do. And I really wish that someday, when the time is right, Japan will be one of those places that welcomes you with open arms and a place where you can finally slow down, feel at peace, and smile without thinking too much ;[ haik haik!

Dear Future Hans,

I hope you’re doing okay out there wherever you are, whatever version of yourself you’ve become. I hope life has been kind to you, but even if it hasn’t, I hope you’ve stayed gentle. You’ve come so far already, and I know it hasn’t always been easy. But you did it!

I hope you still find joy in small things: ngabisin waktu di rooftop sambil lihat your Mr. sunset or listening to a song that feels like home. I hope you’ve learned to rest when you need to, to let go of the things that weigh you down, and to forgive yourself for moments you couldn’t handle perfectly :]

May your days ahead be filled with peace that doesn’t ask for permission to stay, laughter that feels easy, and people who see you for who you are. And if u ever forget how far you’ve come, I hope you look back and realize you’ve always been growing, even when it didn’t feel like it.

2. What’s something that made you smile recently?

3. If you could go anywhere right now, where would you go?

4. What’s one advice you’d give your younger self?

5. If your life right now had a background song, what would it be?

6. ALASAN MASUK POLISI? SIAP!

By the way ini interactive section, you are free to answer it or not kok, there's no pressure :]

I don’t know whether we’ll still be able to stay in touch in the future, but I hope you get everything you’ve ever dreamed of, even if I’m not part of it. I know you’ve lived a very heavy life, and I hope there will be someone who truly understands you or maybe they already exist, and you just haven’t realized it yet. I hope they treat you the way you want to be treated, and give you sincere love until you truly feel, deep down, that you are genuinely loved by someone ;D

All I know is that my presence was only a tiny pea in your life, something that meant nothing at all. Still, I’m deeply grateful that the universe once brought us together, and I won’t regret anything. Thank you for being part of my life, Hans. I learned so many things from you, things you may never even realize. I’m sorry if I was never enough for you.

I hope you truly find your way to London or Paris. I’ve always been waiting for that moment.

With love,
Chii.