https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym Logbooks, Classwork & Other Work en-us 2018-01-06 20:00:06 UTC 2023-06-24 09:57:29 UTC hello@padlet.com https://padletuploads.blob.core.windows.net/prod/220558490/f718cac9ed1575d02547f2d501dc75a7/VGc8A4YP.jpg BSDC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/219102841 2018-01-06 20:07:36 UTC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/219102841 BSDC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/219150783 1. Whole Text
2. Dorothy Lines so I can fill in between when is tending back ]]> 2018-01-07 14:19:22 UTC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/219150783 BSDC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/221025368 Sorry for the Length. My edited version with subtitles couldn't be uploaded for some reason. ]]> 2018-01-12 16:14:29 UTC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/221025368 BSDC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/221049472 I'm so happy and made up! I'm shocked! Thank you.
It will play ignore the Thumb Nail.
Spent the whole bus journey home using up my data listening to the Wiz soundtrack and reading the script. 
Again]]> 2018-01-12 17:07:14 UTC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/221049472 BSDC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/221524857 Voice of Influence: How to Get People to Love to Listen to You https://g.co/kgs/6Ak144 ]]> 2018-01-15 19:55:14 UTC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/221524857 BSDC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/221524949 Voice of Influence: How to Get People to Love to Listen to You https://g.co/kgs/6Ak144 ]]> 2018-01-15 19:55:49 UTC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/221524949 BSDC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/221525120 Voice of Influence: How to Get People to Love to Listen to You https://g.co/kgs/6Ak144 ]]> 2018-01-15 19:56:41 UTC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/221525120 BSDC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/221525460 Voice of Influence: How to Get People to Love to Listen to You https://g.co/kgs/6Ak144 ]]> 2018-01-15 19:58:50 UTC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/221525460 BSDC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/222034902 By the second part of the audition, I was somewhat aware of my lack of chance for the role I auditioned for. I don't identify this as putting myself down and shooting all possibilities away at all, I refer it to being realistic. the preparation part of the audition stages is vital as my Dad always quotes "fail to prepare, prepare to fail." So often I class preparation  as being organised which it very much is, learning the correct texts as listed on the brief, applying appropriate techniques beforehand, and putting plenty of hours in to ensure a polished audition piece. This scales down to the smaller matters such as bringing bottled water on the day, preparing food and planning travel. I have learnt whilst these preparations are key to success, they are all outwardly materialized sources. I have learnt within this process that as much as there needs to be these components in place, inward preparation is also a key step in order to determine success and achievement. Therefore I justify that these thoughts and emotions about having low chances of the guaranteed role, is the internal preparation that is needed.

Resilience is a major aspect of the industry in fact, when I research and watch interviews with actors they all mention the ability to keep pushing forward and not take things personally (especially on Gurus channel). This is something that I have always lacked the skill in, because whilst I accept these terms that is evident throughout my life, the way in which it I allow these event to impact on my self esteem or mood is not a healthy nor appropriate trait within said industry. That's not to say I become a Diva and thrown a strop at whatever doesn't go to plan, but I can diagnose a negative thinking spiral. Something in which everyone with a brain experiences which will feature the most common thoughts "Why is this happening to me? I deserve better? I work hard..." and so the negative thoughts will spiral and  the self esteem will lower and the resilience within the next turbulent time will decrease. I have learnt that this is normal. But how do you prevent an almost state of depression? Preparation, and this is something that I practice and can apply to most things within my life.

Therefore through me realistically thinking and preparing myself for perhaps rejection is a way to combat negative thinking and learn the skill of resilience. At the same time, I didn't give up my chances of auditioning and as previously mentioned in a logbook I learnt to "Take my time & Take my time". The next stages of the audition meant that all peers auditioning for main cast would re-audition is different combinations. This is always something that I find daunting mainly because of picking up a text that I haven't had much time to prepare with. IE, reading the script back to front (literally) and then the right way in order to determine character goals and obstacles. As well as this I am an enthusiast to annotating which means highlighting the lines and scribbling notes and of course with a minutes worth of text in an audition room this is not possible. When I felt myself stumble or trip over a word, I persisted and carried on, perhaps it sounded bigger in my head, or maybe not.

On the one hand whilst I did feel slightly uncomfortable, anxious and subdued I didn't do the response of flight, instead I used my adrenaline to fight if you will. I believe that because this was the first time where I acknowledged meditation and preparation within the mind, it was a success in terms of staying somewhat relaxed and above all to concentrate. Getting focused is something I deem I'm very good at, I love the thrill of the work i do and the Performing Arts craft so much so that I am forever venturing into my imagination. I love this idea of feeling breathless because of the work I enjoy. But, whilst I use this to my advantage in an audition environment in can spiral out of control. To my knowledge I have never let it ruin my chances, but I find that actually I can apply more thought when more relaxed. Through this process I have learnt the skill of channeling my passion for such subject into ways of creative thought rather than disruptive knocks at the door of my head distracting me. I can drive this energy into creative contagious without feeling overwhelmed and flooded with thought. Therefore through this process I have learnt that when walking into an audition room with not an empty head space, but a relaxed one, I can concentrate on channeling this passionate energy and adrenaline into pockets of creative thought.

This is a useful skill because there could be a time that I allow my thoughts to completely take control, and this could result in loosing focus, fear or not performing my best. How I achieve a relaxed head space is through taking care of my mind and body. I find it a chore to sit still and not wok. Any available free space I get I'm reading, working, writing anything relatable to performing. Even now its lunchtime and like a right loner rather than being out with friends I'm i  the library working now. Whilst it can get lonely, I thrive of what I love to do. So I find it a chore to sit down and now look for things relatable within performing arts. This is why meditating is so useful and why I have found it to be a learnt skill by applying it into scenarios such as this. Meditation is a practice many to reach nirvana. I try my best to focus on my breath or symbol, but random thoughts will flood through, this is normal. But rather than acknowledge the thought, be mindful that the thought is present rather than the context of the thought. When this is achieved I find it can settle my nerves in turn inviting a relaxed head space so that I can embody that of another.

I found it more difficult reading with actors up on stage than when asked to read a text alone. I hope this is a normal attribute because I like to think I am a team player, and its a skill Universities are looking for. But there are events in my life that prove I find working as part of a small team difficult. However on reflection, this does not mean I am incapable of producing successful work within a team, it just means I am more nervy as part of a team especially around the same age as me. For some reason I find I can work best with most ages but my own, however this is something I am working hard on. In actual fact when I approached the tutors with the question "I want to know roughly what grade I am working at, and what I can do from now till Cabaret to improve it?" There response baffled me slightly by saying "With you its different." I interpreted this though as with me its individual attributes I need to improve rather than my contribution to the art.

"There was an issue with lateness. Not applying to feedback correctly." If I'm going to be honest, this is completely true and it comes back to resilience again. It is something I have GOT TO LEARN, I cant cry at every single upsetting thing and my attitudes need to change when given constructive criticism. Ultimately II know its for my most successes in life, an improvement, but there is just a part of me that tends to but a defensive shield up and I think this likens to my bullying experiences. At the same time, this should not be an excuse I NEED to work on my resilience, which I am applying to everything I do. As well as this the issue of being late surprises me its something I have always been very obsessive about, like getting a 2 hour early bus so I know I will be there on time and early. Recently this has lacked, and rather than identify why, because I don't know, I have simply taken this on board and done my very most to combat it and now I think its begin to go back again. I believe it was self exhaustion, which is normal for everybody around they end of the year, I work hard, like most people.

Overall the biggest skill I have learnt because of this process is the ability to adopt a relax head space through many techniques so that I can fully embody a character. I believe this process has been a clear indication of the success of such skill and will be something that will be useful for University auditions. In addition I recognize how sometimes it may not be because an auditionee has done a poor job but rather, the qualities of another candidate matched the criteria and synopsis of that particular thought in mind. On reflection to the casting choices, I was completely surprised by what I had been chosen to perform. Not only Evilene but understudy for the scarecrow! I feel extremely grateful to this choice of character, and I think it resembles how perhaps I did not do a poor job but instead Gage was more incredibly suited. In fact Evilene makes perfect sense and I am looking forward to exploring her character, it seems a lot of fun! So bearing this in mind I have learnt how everybody has different qualities, skills set and techniques that are all useful in themselves but perhaps not fitting for a particular role.

Above all I have found this process to be a complete learning curve not within particular techniques learnt; but through my own personal journey of handling experiences. It has been a perspicacity of trial and error, so identifying what could be changed and rectifying this with different approaches. For example distinguishing how my mind often wanders during auditions so how can I stabilize this? Through preparation like meditation and has this been successful? In what way could it help me in the future? This is the procedure I like to advance within all areas so that everything becomes a personal journey of learning.

Strength: I allowed the day of auditioning to flow as what may. Through beginning the day with 20 minutes of meditation without allowing others to distract. I kept a positive, and relaxed frame of mind and reflected on everything as an opportunity to learn.

Weakness: I asked the question "Are we performing or do you just want to listen to the vocals?" and Josh answered with the most obvious answer "it is an audition, what do you think?" Later on another classmate asked a similar question, and it became obvious that I needed to apply the skill learnt within the first audition stages. To 'Take my time & Take my time". I feel like I concentrated so much on the vocal aspect and I was conscience of not blocking any other members because then I wouldn't be a team player. That I lost a level of my physicality, and I naturally held myself in a stance whilst gently shifting feet.

Target: To imply a relaxed head space within other auditions as well as in Musical lessons. I will reflect on this after my first University audition happening on the 10th. Also within future musical logbooks.




]]> 2018-01-17 12:29:13 UTC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/222034902 BSDC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/222842915 Strength: The ability to prepare
Weakness: Beginning off singing quietly
Target: To discover more about the different types of singers such as Alto. ]]> 2018-01-19 16:17:22 UTC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/222842915 BSDC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/223802281 Strength: My ability to acknowledge my way of working, learning and achieving to then apply this within a practical setting that a proved a success. Through my opportunity to be productive, memorise direction and adjust to an understudy position.
Weakness: Perhaps a negative thought cycle that produced thoughts such as 'your getting in the way' 'just looks like your arrogant' 'you wont be a useful understudy' Yet this is normal behaviour within the mind and I feel I dealt with those in the appropriate response. ]]> 2018-01-23 14:54:29 UTC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/223802281 BSDC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/225408999 2018-01-28 17:43:40 UTC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/225408999 BSDC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/225411475 2018-01-28 18:01:34 UTC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/225411475 BSDC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/234177621 2018-02-22 12:45:22 UTC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/234177621 BSDC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/234181069 2018-02-22 12:54:35 UTC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/234181069 BSDC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/234184124 Wanted to upload videos from class rehearsals. But they are photos that the tutor took instead? With sound. ]]> 2018-02-22 13:03:15 UTC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/234184124 BSDC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/235996598 I came prepared to lesson with my annotated script and other work in aid of character development and my understudy role 20 minutes early. The same select few helped to build the rostra with the stage blocks, I included. It was apparent that a few people were going to turn up 20-25 minutes late, so the majority of the class decided to undertake a warmup led by all of us who were here. This proved a success because it showcased out teamwork capabilities and the capacity to enrol with our initiative. Rather than be unproductive waiting for tutors to direct.

Unfortunately todays lessons were not as successful as previous in terms of my main character Evilene as the cardinal focus point has centred around the scarecrow. As main cast for him had work to catch up on, whilst these lessons had been successful I felt a lack of proficiency. Due to the fact that it was decided upon the director that my understudy would block the scenes of Evilene. In my opinion this was a poor choice because even though I was understudying the scarecrow, he was not needed for these two scenes and I was quite capable of multi rolling.

 I did nominate myself to do it within these lessons but I think the director saw a window for my understudy to rehearse. This seemed appropriate at the time but on reflection it meant that even though I had annotated the script, observed and even approached Grace for some information it didn't run as smooth. I acknowledge that I'm a Kinesthetic learner from an early age and I can watch, listen, write, whatever, and this will all help but I have to physically do it for it to stick. Despite the fact I had rehearsed in my own space in my own time, I was alone which greatly impacted communication with the winkies and other characters.

I pinpoint the latter part of the day as unsuccessful because I feel or was made to feel like I was the main catalyst for not being able to leave at 4.30pm. Well one, I know that 4.30pm is our time to leave anyway and on a Tuesday I stay in the Library till 7.30pm so it didn't affect me. This may sound a little selfish of me, but I have learnt to be more resilient and self supportive because I wanted to get this scene upto scratch. I don't believe this decision was down to me but all of us are a factor in our own right. In hindsight I should have proposed the idea that I run through the scene with me, but having already been advised not to by the Director I felt as though I would be holding up the class. So I continued as the Scarecrow.

Therefore the focus is to move past this slightly awkward rehearsal and learn the song 'No Bad News' of by heart and schedule in a rehearsal where we can all practice the scene or those who turn up. The other contention was the relationship between Eveline and the Underling which meant skipping this section and organising a rehearsal in our own time. I feel that this will be more successful because its Ben and Kayce who are the cast in my directing and we know w can work together. Mainly though it will be helpful not to have time pressures and the disturbance of everyone else so I look forward to blocking these two scenes.

The other thing I should add is the singing. How I have made it an issue. Over time I have told myself "I cannot sing and only somewhat character sing" and it's something that me and my family always joke about. The truth of the matter is that during the University audition at Carlisle the tutor said to me "the only mistake you made was coming in here and saying you can only character sing. You stayed in your comfort region. You have the potential everyone can sing". There is a lot of axiom in this piece of critical advice, I'm not sure how much truth there was when saying theres real potencial. But I identify that this is the problem, I've built my or barricade like in the lesson the Director said "I need to commit." I don't know where this has come from because I've always loved singing and do sing. Maybe its the comparison between me and really good singers which I'm never going to be. But the sooner I accept this and break down the barrier the quicker I can actually grow within singing.

The most considerable success I can extract from this session is during the one run through of my song I tried to focus on the vocal aspect rather than the movement, physically demonstrating a character ect... At certain points I was either put of by the Director singing who actually kept me on track and the moment of the backward jump lift. The very fact I had a go is the ascendency that advances me as a performer, I am willing to tackle the fears/doubts because that is what mellows a performer. So whilst I was not technically accurate or in tun all the time, I had a go. It's not that there are people watching me because if anything those energies spur me on. Its my inner perfectionist that dibiliates my actions through the fear of not doing it with justice or the way I want it. I am my biggest enemy. Which is something I identify and with a lot of rehearsing and practice I can easily resolve.

In addition I was especially majested to follow the simple (not so simple) exercise in front of everybody led by Josh. I thought that by finishing the song with a comedic over the top and high energy out of tune note comprehended the character well and added comic effect. But through following Josh's criticism he simply asked me to scale up and back down two notes to then finish on a bigger note. We must have done this ten times and I wasn't expecting so much from Josh at that moment, I thought we would just move swiftly on as usual. This led me to think "was I really that bad?". But I quickly demolished those thoughts and adopted a target within it. This soon helped me to progress my vocal aspect and forward think to what objectives need to be overseen. To stand on the tallest block on the rostra and to unveil my voice as free as I did with no music, or character to mask the quality of sound coming out from my mind was quite nerve wracking. But having already had a similar experience at my University audition which was 100% more frightening I found this 3 minute exercise quite liberating.

On reflection I can see why Josh wanted me to sing as myself because it means I am technically accurate within the vocal aspect. I did notice how my character was instantly lost, but it doesn't mean that I cant portray the character. Obviously I realise how it is important to be in tune especially in terms of grade spec. I do feel a little embarrassed about these events but its was certainly a great learning curve. I've learnt that before going at something with full speed and try and include everything at once you get systematic overload. But through learning the ...

*breath places
*the rythm
*the tune
*the lines
*the voice
*the character vocally
* the facial expression
* the body language
* The physicality such as choreography

If we break these mediums down like the above you get a more rehearsed yt authentic and accurate performance. Of course there are more mediums than the ones starred but the point is to  start with the basics and work up. I will link an aftermath version of the exercise undertaken in the class as described and an improved version. I felt that at the  time I kind of put up this excuse of 'well it's enough just top have a go' which is an attitude so rare for me. Now in my own time I am going to rehearse these basic techniques to ensure I am fully committing.

Strength: I gave everything a go including things I was slightly uncomfortable with! I demonstrated initiative though building the rostra and working as part of a team to warm up. I remained disciplined by being quiet when not on stage rehearsing, asking for help on a few unsure steps, responding efficiently and professionally to feedback and treating everything as a learning curve. I came to class with full energy and when directed "you can be even bigger, more dramatic on that bit" I took that and echoed it so that I was extremely loud, angry and the character.
Weakness: Perhaps the notes at the end was a little skeptical which resulted in embarrassment. Maybe it was perceived as mocking the whole thing I don't know, but it was a genuine decision created by myself in that moment of time. Try not to take everything to heart, which is something I have greatly improved through my actions but still sometime acknowledge the thoughts and feelings. However these never i terupt my responses and ability to try again with full effort.
Target:
-Learn all the lines to Evilenes character within 2 weeks.
- Learn Evilenes song word for word and enhance greater vocal technique by next week.
- Continue to build confidence within vocal ability. ]]> 2018-02-27 16:53:11 UTC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/235996598 BSDC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/238719693 2018-03-06 16:36:41 UTC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/238719693 BSDC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/238726125 Strength: I was able to use initiative by getting on with work as for 80% of class time I wasn't needed. I spent roughly in summary 3 hours working towards No Bad News in preparation for today and gave everything a go. I responded well to some tough feedback. 

Weakness: "not to be rude but you sound like a man. You literally sound like a man. Like Mufassa from the Lion King". 

Target: to attempt to rehearse singing it with full effort but not resort away from the comedic aspect of it. Use both your internal instinch on making it comedic through this 'man in drag' aproach but take into consideration your vocals.]]> 2018-03-06 16:45:10 UTC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/238726125 BSDC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/244028522 2018-03-20 14:13:59 UTC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/244028522 BSDC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/244074511 Today was a day of theory due to the Unite festival taking place all of downstairs. Which meant that Josh the tutor would pull certain people out to run through songs in the music studio and I am very grateful for this. I have experience with playing particular roles such as this and I am comfortable with the physical aspect as well as facial. I have made it my target to continue developing my singing voice which in all honesty I don't think I met last year. In performances such as Les Miserable where I played Madame Thenardier and Grease as Rizzo everything  apart from proximity was instinctual and from me. Including a lot of the singing but since my almost two years at college I have identified the science behind singing and I want to go back to the basics as I feel subject to never really exploring this before. Therefore since my first few weeks at college I have made one of my overall targets to be singing and actually tackle this 'fear' of not being able to sing.

So I'm not the greatest sing and I'm never going to be x factor worthy and produce albums and even be Christine in the Phantom of the Opera. But I have proved to myself that I am at least capable of being at least in rhythm, character and a reasonable tune. But still I persist on feeling less confident whenever singing approaches; and I think I have made this particular song a bigger challenge than it needs to be. This time with Josh has given me the satisfaction that I can be capable of achieving what I have set out to which is my visionary example of this character in my head.

Furthermore I can identify particular techniques that the tutor had used in order to build confidence because ultimately that is the biggest hurdle for me. The first technique Josh used was throwing me into the deep end by playing the music and wanting to hear me sing it which I can understand. However disappointing though as I chose to flight instead of fight which is unusual for me and I stay in the perimeters of my comfort zone which ironically is more embarrassing. I had almost worked myself up into a frenzy about being out of tune that I resorted in not showcasing what I had worked on at home. So actually I have this disposition that this lack of faith in my work within singing resorted in a situation that I would be fearful of more?

Josh recognized this and so it became more of a team effort where Josh would begin singing and naturally I began to commit to it more. Whilst Josh was mostly louder and more the character than me it definitely encouraged me because I guess I dint feel as though I was in a lonely lost environment. In recent rehearsals this decision to sing over the top of me has put me of singing it completely but oddly it was the opposite this individual time with the tutor. In response to this the common technique that I have used within Directing is this simple method of repetition through showing an action/ voice and the trialing the action/ voice. Whilst I am a individual that works better I think with the freedom to explore and a strong connection with my instincts; yet still in a mature and respectable manner. In the case where singing applies I refer to copy that of the director because it restores faith within me that I am meeting the requirements the director has actually set out. Whereas usually I prefer to adopt a perhaps egotistical approach where I abide by what has been set but through my own adaptations.

After two sessions with the tutor one before break and the other after it has restored faith in my ability. In some way I have achieved my aim by going completely back to basics through almost striping the character away and demolishing the quirks, to just sing it to its correct rhythm and tone. Now I feel that I can begin building the character within the song by adding growls, grunts and the genuine character I envision. The benefits of this means that my character is more authentic but above all kit proves to me that character singing is not the only thing I am capable of. Above all though it ha been an interesting challenge so far because its fun to actually tackle a blues rhythm rather than just listening to one. This concept fascinates me because I find the origins/ culture completely educating and inspiring so to do some sort of branch or variation.

Strength: Despite my lack of efforts at the beginning I still entered the room and took everything on board as criticism. In actual fact I think I have developed a strong mindset because I did not take any feedback personally. Whilst it is a natural behavior to be somewhat defensive from feedback I have acknowledged this reaction and translated it into a positive challenge. Despite this frustration within myself I have enjoyed this individual time that I can find daunting!
Weakness: Steph, its this lack of confidence because ultimately its that that ripples into your work and prevents you from achieving what you have set out to do. But I think my response to this has been beneficial to not only Kayce where this initial research began to take place but to me also. Through reading books, surveying the general public on confidence and other explorations.
Target: To continue developing this song by practicing the stripped version and begin adding the character as well as continue to learn lines. ]]> 2018-03-20 15:14:09 UTC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/244074511 BSDC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/244117247 2018-03-20 16:14:51 UTC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/244117247 BSDC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/244117248 2018-03-20 16:14:52 UTC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/244117248 BSDC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/244117270 2018-03-20 16:14:53 UTC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/244117270 BSDC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/244117294 2018-03-20 16:14:54 UTC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/244117294 BSDC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/244117331 2018-03-20 16:14:58 UTC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/244117331 BSDC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/252516126 2018-04-17 11:45:12 UTC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/252516126 BSDC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/252517376 2018-04-17 11:49:24 UTC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/252517376 BSDC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/252520077 2018-04-17 11:58:28 UTC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/252520077 BSDC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/252520832 2018-04-17 12:01:36 UTC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/252520832 BSDC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/257980708 2018-05-04 11:07:45 UTC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/257980708 BSDC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/258028022 Yesterday was always going to be difficult which is why I'm reflecting today. Yesterday a friend from school passed away and it was his 3rd year anniversary. He was two months older than me. Ben Turner passed of Cancer. He's always within my thoughts.

Despite this I came into college wearing Blue which was his chosen favourite colour. That day we had a talk from Emma, Deputy Director, who very professionally noted all of Fleet Street about this petty immature schoolground behaviour that I can agree with. Yesterday I was on the verge of tears but if I sat there crying or left the room, then what sort of reflection is that on me and the rest of Fleet Street?

Whilst everyone has their own levels of what is hurtful and what isn't; it bothered me that students were being catty yesterday to one another, whilst I was here mourning a friend. It bothers me that students cannot be professional, responsible and act there age as well as leave the drama for the stage. It bothers me that students are announcing things such as "I wanna dye." "Im gonna kill myself" blah blah blah as a way of comedic expression, they don't really mean it, but as odd as it sounds its a trend. Its deemed fashionable to say such a serious subject matter whilst I was mourning a friend.

You could call me overly critical, judgemental or is this my place to say about others? It sounds as though I hate everyone. This isn't true. Everyone is talented in one way or another. But there attitudes bother me. Especially on a day where my emotions are heightened because I'm mourning a friend.

Why am I including this in a logbook? Without sounding egotistical I think it illustrates my level of dedication. How I can somewhat focus on the task in hand and just get on with what is being directed. It shows a sense of maturity and awareness that I went the whole day yesterday following instruction, performing or theory working and not one person knew yesterday.

The funny thing is only one person approached me randomly, someone I don't really associate with, and asked "you okay lovely?" I guess you could say I put my guard up and replied with the professional "yes thankyou are you?"

Now, I'm not saying I want a huge fanfare and people parading around me saying "are you okay? what's wrong? blah blah blah" but there was a lack of empathy. Despite this I can't expect people to be telepathic.

Today there have been several occasions where people have left because of 'petty' situations and craved the attention. Yesterday I just wanted to leave and sit in the open air to meditate on a friend. Instead as hard as it was it has been 3 years and I persisted on what was actually a physically orientation day. This means that I was up onstage alot whereby the Director Josh was giving me some instruction; that I professionally responded to without question as well as use my own artistic license to create.

Oddly these emotions that I just wanted to vent helped me in performing as the Wicked Witch who is extremely angry. Despite this I don't think it was my best performance because I think it was the otherside of the spectrum where tears were disorientating my vision. I carry on creating and following instruction, not, taking the satisfaction of announcing such anniversary (today still no one knows and no one has asked). I guess what I'm trying to reflect upon is my level of maturity, professionalism and the fact that I could use such powerful emotions to fuel my performance. Rather than expressing them at people or storming out. I am proud of my efforts yesterday and it has been a real eye opener. That actually I need to be my own best friend and self soothe. Just like my puppy does.]]> 2018-05-04 13:42:27 UTC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/258028022 BSDC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/262366113 2018-05-21 14:02:12 UTC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/262366113 BSDC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/262366359 Mwahhahahahahahahahahahah!]]> 2018-05-21 14:02:48 UTC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/262366359 BSDC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/262366498 2018-05-21 14:03:09 UTC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/262366498 BSDC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/262366664 Ben stepped in last minute from understudy to actually appearing as my slave in all the performances. So thank you to Ben because without him the scene wouldn't have survived. ]]> 2018-05-21 14:03:29 UTC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/262366664 BSDC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/262367427 Poor Ben on the last Night I actually took my shoe of and he had to kiss my bare foot!]]> 2018-05-21 14:05:21 UTC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/262367427 BSDC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/262367543 2018-05-21 14:05:39 UTC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/262367543 BSDC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/262367654 2018-05-21 14:05:54 UTC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/262367654 BSDC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/262367855 2018-05-21 14:06:20 UTC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/262367855 BSDC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/262367972 2018-05-21 14:06:38 UTC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/262367972 BSDC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/262368586 To have cast photos was actually an idea suggested by me to Cat which was then forwarded to Director Josh. Of course it was inevitable to have cast photos but I feel as though if it went suggested by me the we may have forgot. I believe photos to be extremely important. ]]> 2018-05-21 14:07:53 UTC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/262368586 BSDC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/262368726 2018-05-21 14:08:16 UTC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/262368726 BSDC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/262368810 ....................but there is a reason behind this. Within this experience I have learned that it is so important to liaise with like minded people and actually you can go clubbing after the last performance with people who you only met three days ago. This experience has taught me that you can form contacts with people you meet in the industry such as Ri who I shared two pound cocktails with. It goes to show that through making contacts with like minded people, you can not only have a good time but also resort too for future work or products. So if I need a makeup artist or a good night out.................................]]> 2018-05-21 14:08:34 UTC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/262368810 BSDC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/262369021 Luckily I made my pound worth while by taking tea bags and gratefully used the staff room kettle. I had an evening performance after screaming in the matinee and so my voice was desperate for lemon tea.

https://www.healthline.com/health/best-tea-for-sore-throat
Antioxidants also help with healing tissue. Some teas and herbal blends provide anti-inflammatory effects that may help reduce pain and swelling. Drinking fluids can keep your throat moist and reduce your risk of dehydration. This may help reduce irritation and pain in your throat.

After the performance in the midst of post show depression I was surviving on hot water and peppercorns or tablespoons of honey as I had three long shifts serving customers and chatting away with no voice. ]]> 2018-05-21 14:09:03 UTC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/262369021 BSDC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/262369188 2018-05-21 14:09:31 UTC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/262369188 BSDC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/262369394 I had all of the first half to wait backstage until I made an evil appearance in the opening of Act Two. So casually me an Ri made this ridiculously silly video and posted it on the Instagram account. I believe its still there and got many many views. Whilst I remained professional backstage it is also important for me to remain in connection to my childhood self and this video is one example of the innocent fun possible backstage. Also this was the matinee performance where I stepped in as originally Grace was acting as Evilene but felt satisfied after the previous matinee. I made sure she was comfortable with her decision and stepped in. ]]> 2018-05-21 14:10:04 UTC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/262369394 BSDC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/262369551 Who was amongst the makeup team to do a fab job with all us dramatic students. ]]> 2018-05-21 14:10:30 UTC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/262369551 BSDC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/262369755 It made a creative Boomerang though. Almost magic. ]]> 2018-05-21 14:10:50 UTC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/262369755 BSDC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/262369900 We got given the option to login with the Fleet Street Social Media handles and post publicity stunts and so I thought I would get those involved behind the scenes. These following are just a few that made it on there. ]]> 2018-05-21 14:11:15 UTC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/262369900 BSDC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/262370090 I only walked into the room to top up on a little foundation, next thing I'm positioned in front of the white wall by Gage and getting my photo took. I was even missing my leather Jacket!]]> 2018-05-21 14:11:43 UTC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/262370090 BSDC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/262370227 This was an image included as publicity n the Fleet Street Studios Instagram Page. It was taken by students and an individually devised tableau. ]]> 2018-05-21 14:12:05 UTC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/262370227 BSDC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/262370346 This was quite an emotional picture to take because I always get excited when I see a place that reminds me of what it would be like in a real sector of work. Just missing the lights around the mirror and obviously all the equiptment.]]> 2018-05-21 14:12:24 UTC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/262370346 BSDC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/262370628 2018-05-21 14:13:02 UTC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/262370628 BSDC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/262370757 I learnt all about Megs (Right) paid experience within the West End and how it will lead onto contacts afterwards for future work. This was taken pre-show and was an interesting mature conversation about options amongst this diverse career path.]]> 2018-05-21 14:13:18 UTC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/262370757 BSDC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/262370950 Of course the bad witch is the funnest to play! Backstage on Show One.]]> 2018-05-21 14:13:37 UTC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/262370950 BSDC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/262371122 2018-05-21 14:14:00 UTC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/262371122 BSDC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/262371867 Trial Hair and Makeup accompanying our costumes ready for a full run through and last minute tech changes. The performances were the following days. ]]> 2018-05-21 14:15:56 UTC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/262371867 BSDC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/262389645 2018-05-21 15:02:25 UTC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/262389645 BSDC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/262389909 2018-05-21 15:03:05 UTC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/262389909 BSDC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/262390313 2018-05-21 15:04:03 UTC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/262390313 BSDC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/262406231 2018-05-21 15:41:43 UTC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/262406231 BSDC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/262406322 2018-05-21 15:41:59 UTC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/262406322 BSDC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/262406415 I learnt the skill of using other tools or equipment as other objects in aid of the set. I helped cut and design the floor as well as print most of the brickwork on the floor. You can see its half included in the photo.]]> 2018-05-21 15:42:15 UTC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/262406415 BSDC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/262406490 I helped to shade the pillars and go over some of the green and yellow as well as paint black. I came in on my days of before rushing of to work with paint all over me. ]]> 2018-05-21 15:42:30 UTC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/262406490 BSDC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/262406569 This was the sign I ripped of on the final performance.]]> 2018-05-21 15:42:44 UTC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/262406569 BSDC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/262722200 2018-05-22 15:01:11 UTC https://padlet.com/BSDC/n303rc764wym/wish/262722200