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nuintrebaokms — 2022-04-14 20:22:18 UTC

to be honest meeting u was the one of the best things that happend to me i'm so thankful that i met u bcs u tought me how to love someone but you moved on so quickly and i was so naive to think i really meant that much to you as same you mean to me, i still miss u everyday and sometimes i want us as close as before, i still wanna do everything we used to do but then i realize that we can't and it's sad, you remember "i know your probably asleep" i'm extremely honest when i say that these were my first paragraphs for a boy written from the heart, i was really happy when I stayed until 5 in the morning to send you the messages soo that i could wake up and see you reading them and you was like "🥰🥰 i love you" and even if it was something simple and short, it made me happy. you probably won't realize how much I loved you, jesus i really loved you so much and you were a very special person, maybe you don't realize but i always tried to make everything perfect until i started believing that I'm not good enough and to feel jealous of any girl, there have always been people who have told me that look what he does, that he is with you just to fuck you, he's not a good person, it's just in your head and many other things said that made me hate you. ....i knew from February that there would be no more summer for us or the idea of being together in the summer, since then i had to think about it, i didn't want to give up even if i knew we wouldn't see each other anymore and that's why i did all this stuff for that i wanted to keep you by my side to prove to you that i can be well even if inside i knew we had to distance ourselves from each other but i wanted to show everyone that I can have something serious with you and that you don't use me just for what they think, unfortunately it wasn't like that, in febr when i blocked you everywhere and i wanted to give up on you but as you made the mistake of texting me and looking for me i said that oh wow maybe you really care about me and that i can do something with us but the reality It's just that this summer , i could have had something and i didn't want to tell you that .ah hei you waited a year for nothing and i can't come to see you anymore soo if you want we can end things and try when i can see you, i can t do this..i understand that you don't trust me anymore, but i swear that if it wasn't the distance and not all the things happened, (erika, alexandra, jura etc) including 2 months, if I stayed with you, it was enough to make you proud of me and show you that i'm not a bad person as you think...i can't say that it still hurts or that i still crying for you but i still think of you as if i were going out with you or how it would be if i saw you again and let's just talk, you know the feeling is awful to know that i'm coming in resita and that we can't see each other when this was something important for me, especially since i'm going home and i always start crying because I know that i miss you. trust me...i tried a lot to try to get over it, i thought that if i started talking to other boys, going to parties, drinking, taking drugs, stay with wrong people just for fun, i would start to forget about you but i tell you honestly it didn't work...i put a lot of boys in your place but i can't anymore and i have trust issues and i can't trust them or anyone who tries something, i think that if i put you above everyone and everything. you never left me and i was wrong...i miss you and i m sorry for everything that happened between us.. now i miss you more than ever and it s like you can t decide whether or not.. you still care...i still have the picture..i look at it everyday and it motivates me to do better everyday, but at the same time it makes me feel like I’m at my lowest because you aren t here anymore...anyway i want to say a thx bcs you make me feel needed, wanted, and cared about. you are absolutely amazing. the most amazing person i have ever met and don't let anyone change you. and i know it's time for me to move on but i really can t, i keep trying but ur just stuck on my mind 24/7..i really do love you and I miss you alot, i messed it all up...i wish I never fucked things up between us 2...you gave me my happiness and everything and now I've just lost it all... honestly I wish I could have u back but i can't and that it, right person, wrong time but not all things are ment to last anyway, take care, love you <3 ah wait "i just want u to know that i still have fellings for you buttt i still hope that one day you will feel the same as me and maybe we can be friends again...and about my parents, i can’t do this anymore, so if you ever see this, you are the only reason for me to keep going and i m fucking proud.⚽️❤" It's not the last thing i want to tell you, i want to tell you once again that you will have a special place and again i miss you a lot and if i ever have the opportunity to see you again in my arms i won't let you go anymore
December 31, 2020
i cried for hours, my eyes were swollen and i took a picture to remember how i felt, that in the future when i look back, not to make the same mistake, i knew even then that true love means support and affection but i chose to close my eyes because i wanted to believe that you would come back and you will love me as much as i loved you, it was the worst Christmas of my life and the worst new year but i realized we make our own happiness and those around us are never to blame for our unhappiness and that i was the only one who brought me sad jealousy and like me . i was the single one who have the impression "he goes out with other girls" even if you do it or not, it was my choice to cry everyday, just as this year is my choice to smile and be well alone but at the same time without you it seems like something is missing i try to forget the idea that “I need someone to complete me or to be good to me. " but you don't need anyone to be happy. because happiness is a choice and comes from within, not from without. and yes people are the way they are and they don't change, but they can evolve, but this can only happen if they want to and i don't realize that, i really want to force you to be another person but you re special as you re are and trust me i love you and i know what a good person you re, and if you re here and you read this i just wanna say that i fucking miss youuu AGAIN AND I WANT UB but i guess isn t that simple like i say that...well just to know that i m still waiting and...i m waiting to see you in my dm and if i didn t it s going to be hard as fuck but i m trying again to move on...🥺🥺 take care please...ily

nuintrebaokms — 2022-04-16 16:50:04 UTC

timpul le rezolva pe toate...se va pune candva asta si cu tine?...

. by ss.

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