https://padlet.com/kimiboku/cairitheloser there's only you for me en-us 2017-05-29 02:57:34 UTC 2025-11-09 13:42:16 UTC hello@padlet.com https://padletuploads.blob.core.windows.net/prod/202074110/8fc5c9a4c7a169cde3d1cb885eeb3335/IMG_8555.png kimiboku https://padlet.com/kimiboku/cairitheloser/wish/174182734 Hello cai cai!! I love writing letters but you don't know that right. You have a lot of things you don't know about me but remember what I said, yes? About taking things slow and getting to learn more about each other even if by accident. YES YES. This would be my 2nd letter to you! Like, ok I know I love letter but I really hate typing them out you know how lazy I can get I don't even type out complete sentences, soRRY YES. Oh my jian ( see what I did there ) I realised how frequent I used the word yes to end off my sentences, ok gotta stop gotta blast gotta go. N E WAY, it's the 29th! Happy one month, ha ha. snaps fingers. Ok kidding, we've known each other for half a year, yes? ( FUCKKKCK OFF JIAN, STOP USING THE WORD YES ) and you're still hella kinky hella obnoxious and nags me a lot. And also you tell me how much you love me every day, VERY EMBARRASSING VERY DIFFICULT FOR MY POOR HEART. Even though I don't say it back sometimes, you know I do ok. In the little things I do for you, I do
liillllkkkkkkkeeeeelllooooooooooooove you 2. LISTEN, shit is about to go down 

I'm sorry, yes, this should always be what I say to you every day, my first words to you when you wake up and you say good morning to me in the afternoon at 2pm even though it's not morning. wt.f your sleep cycle. I'm really sorry for hurting you too much and making you go emo nemo every day and always neglecting your feelings towards me in the beginning but I just......................... bREAth es it's really difficult to forget past loves and i'm a jerk and im pretty silly and I just find it really hard to really really .,,............ i'm sorry. But you know what, I dont search for my past in you anymore. That day, when I said I was sorry yes ( FUCK ) 29th? I was pretty sick and I had a slight fever and ok, this may be pretty lame but I found out that whenever i'm sick, my true feelings would come out and i'd be slightly vulnerable and basicallY LIKE A DRUNK LOSER WHEN I'M SICK BECAUSE I HAVE NO FILTERS WHEN I'M SICK AND I RUN MY MOUTH OFF and yes ( FUCK x 2 ) you were the second person in my mind who I wanted to take care of me, first being my family kekekeke, but I was quite flustered because you hated me by then and probably didn't want anything to do with me due to the way I treated you and I spent an hour just, thinking, y'know. I was thinking on some garden I JUST LIKE THINKING OK, I THINK A LOT I'M A THINKER, and I was like, ok I need cairi. BOOM. And then you called me stupid and I was like yes ( fuzKCk ) I deserve that. I'm really sorry it took me suuuuuuuch a loooooooong time to finally come through and im pretty fucking relieved you didn't want to throw me away again. JAIN DROPPED COUNTER FROM CAIRI: 3 MILLION FUCKING TIMES!!!!!!!!!11111111!!!!! stop dropping art woman, they're really valuable and they can sell for millions. Wait, you wont sell me away right because I don't want to be with anyone else right now TT_________________TT i'm sorry I couldnt reciprocate back then properly because i'm still inexperienced and I didn't even want to think about getting into something new because new experiences makes me puke as in it makes me sick as in it's scary and it stings and you just want everything to disappear once it ends and never emerge from the shadows again and please forgive me for all the wrongdoings I did i'm still learning how to properly open up my heart so im really sorry for the mistakes i'll do in the future that might hurt you because of my stupidity.

I didnt know what I felt when I realised I hurt you really badly I think I cried ( crybaby jian is back in the house ) for 2 weeks straight every night and I got really sad but I probably only deserve just as much because you were probably in a worse condition than me and I just uGH THINKing about it makes my heart hurt again. KEKEK, I bet you've never had a boyfriend/girlfriend who cried this much like wtf I can fill the han river with this much tears AND SPIT but it's ok because I only cry in front of those I really care about and am comfortable with I dont even want to cry in front of my......................... closest friends............................ but you make me cry at the drop of a hat................ forest of the fireflies.............. fuck you........................... .. thank you for taking care of me always and I know I already told you but you really made me genuinely smile during my lowest times HAA AAAH. Circa,,,.... december-january? I really was very depressed during that times I didnt know what to do with my life I didnt really laugh that much I was just an........ emo nemo...... thank you. Thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you and i'll always make you remember that even if my voice becomes hoarse from saying it even if my fingers fall off from typing too much and even if the heavens scold me and smite me i'd write to you from heaven with the letter only just containing those two words.

 I really enjoy our moments together like, wtf you make me smile even when i'm teasing you. You're so cute and so concerned it makes me laugh sometimes. I'd be like “oh, I got a bit of rain on me :-(“ and you'd be like “MY FUCK.IGNS. SWEET BIG BABY DOESN'T DESERVE THIS INJUSTICE COME, LET ME WRAP YOU UP AND OK, LOOK, I'LL PAMPER YOUW ITH MANY KISSES SHUT UP JIAN YOU LVOE MY KISSES, MY FUKCING BABY.” i'm shy. But I really like that. I like that you care for me and I want to pamper you tenfold in return. And our little dates that I always fall asleep on evERY DAMN TIME LIKE, FUCK NO I M SORRY BAO BEI I WANTED TO STAY UP BUT MY STUPID BODY WON'T LET ME. And you'd be upset and i'd be upset at myself but in the end we'd always make up. Correction, i'd always have to make up to you. clenches fist. I also like our movie dates!! EVEN THOUGH I ALSO FALL ASLEEP MORE SO THAN OFTEN I UFCKIN G UFUCKED UP SHUT THE UFUKV. We still have to watch cat funeral together. And uhh, silent voice. If it comes out! And HORROR MOVIES, YES!!

I don't really know what to say now, I know this letter is lame like me and you'd probably be like why am I with this loser but too bad because you're stuck with this loser for a long time. You should know that I love you too like a lot a lot I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I like you and I appreciate every little thing about you and you're very wonderful and I dont deserve you but I got you and I just want to [ looks up at the heaven ] thank I owe you one for the team. Even though I don't show it but I really do care for you, even when I'm fighting monsters and PAWNING NOOBS and doing my quests in my games you're always in my mind i'd be like, OH LOOK, ANOTHER
VICTORY, I SHOULD TELL CAI CAI. But then you'd be like pfft loser nerd.

Also, I want you to share your feelings with me too, especially if you're mad at me or irritated or you know, some days where you just want to punch the hell out of me yes those days I want you to say them out I don't care if you shout it even just as long as it doesn't escalate into something bigger than a misunderstanding because I really cannot read atmosphere or feelings or whatever and i'm usually the densest creature on the planet ( FUN FACT: MERCURY IS THE DENSEST THING???? ) so I really can't come up with a conclusion and I get really sad and weird if you suddenly get pissed at me.

Also (2), stop watching porn you already have enough porn in the form of me, jian. I'm already sex for the eyes. No touching though. #LMAO!!!!!!!!!!!!1111111!!

I really should end off here because, hey guess what, my fingers are getting really tired and i'm getting really lazy but yes chu chu xoxo heart heart you are the best



crybaby, cai's baby
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