CCCP Diverse Asian American Experience by https://padlet.com/maxinezhao394/lwjelhk6tx7znmoq Here is an anonymous board for you to share your thoughts and experiences. Please only share appropriate images and words! This is a safe space (: Feel free to heart any post and affirm one another <3 en-us 2021-08-04 17:00:06 UTC 2026-03-04 21:31:25 UTC hello@padlet.com As of now, I feel pressured in transferring from CC to a university because of my family's expectations and also my own. https://padlet.com/maxinezhao394/lwjelhk6tx7znmoq/wish/1669194475 2021-08-04 18:36:30 UTC https://padlet.com/maxinezhao394/lwjelhk6tx7znmoq/wish/1669194475 being distant from my friends when physical touch and quality time is my love language https://padlet.com/maxinezhao394/lwjelhk6tx7znmoq/wish/1669194509 2021-08-04 18:36:33 UTC https://padlet.com/maxinezhao394/lwjelhk6tx7znmoq/wish/1669194509 https://padlet.com/maxinezhao394/lwjelhk6tx7znmoq/wish/1669194761 Anxious about transferring ]]> 2021-08-04 18:36:56 UTC https://padlet.com/maxinezhao394/lwjelhk6tx7znmoq/wish/1669194761 https://padlet.com/maxinezhao394/lwjelhk6tx7znmoq/wish/1669195023 looking forward to transferring to a UC and hopefully studying abroad in Korea to connect deeper with my own culture]]> 2021-08-04 18:37:22 UTC https://padlet.com/maxinezhao394/lwjelhk6tx7znmoq/wish/1669195023 I feel anxious but excited to start the Fall 2021 semester because I will be applying to UC's this semester while also taking a full course load :') https://padlet.com/maxinezhao394/lwjelhk6tx7znmoq/wish/1669195197 2021-08-04 18:37:38 UTC https://padlet.com/maxinezhao394/lwjelhk6tx7znmoq/wish/1669195197 https://padlet.com/maxinezhao394/lwjelhk6tx7znmoq/wish/1669195350 Optimistic]]> 2021-08-04 18:37:53 UTC https://padlet.com/maxinezhao394/lwjelhk6tx7znmoq/wish/1669195350 Nervous https://padlet.com/maxinezhao394/lwjelhk6tx7znmoq/wish/1669195372 As an Asian first gen college student getting ready to start the transfer process, it's definitely nerve wrecking due to the pressure, stress, and expectations. It'd be a lie if I say those factors don't heavily impact my being and trust in my own capabilities. ]]> 2021-08-04 18:37:54 UTC https://padlet.com/maxinezhao394/lwjelhk6tx7znmoq/wish/1669195372 I recently started a new job so I’m a little nervous on how I will perform in my position. Imposter syndrome is a bit difficult to combat. https://padlet.com/maxinezhao394/lwjelhk6tx7znmoq/wish/1669195535 2021-08-04 18:38:05 UTC https://padlet.com/maxinezhao394/lwjelhk6tx7znmoq/wish/1669195535 my family expects me to be a straight-A student and excel, and eventually support them. choosing my career is based on what i can tolerate and will be able to earn enough, but not necessarily what i really want to do. https://padlet.com/maxinezhao394/lwjelhk6tx7znmoq/wish/1669195594 2021-08-04 18:38:11 UTC https://padlet.com/maxinezhao394/lwjelhk6tx7znmoq/wish/1669195594 mxteza20 https://padlet.com/maxinezhao394/lwjelhk6tx7znmoq/wish/1669195710 looking forward to starting a new chapter in my life]]> 2021-08-04 18:38:19 UTC https://padlet.com/maxinezhao394/lwjelhk6tx7znmoq/wish/1669195710 Finding a balance between being super productive but also finding time to relax and take breaks https://padlet.com/maxinezhao394/lwjelhk6tx7znmoq/wish/1669195933 2021-08-04 18:38:38 UTC https://padlet.com/maxinezhao394/lwjelhk6tx7znmoq/wish/1669195933 taking naps and being honest about needing to take things off my plate and knowing how to say no to more responsibilities https://padlet.com/maxinezhao394/lwjelhk6tx7znmoq/wish/1669196094 2021-08-04 18:38:51 UTC https://padlet.com/maxinezhao394/lwjelhk6tx7znmoq/wish/1669196094 It is hard to deal with pressure. I also have very strict aunties who I live with and I haven't really gone outside since the pandemic happened. It's been very hard for me to socialize and adjust to a new environment because I grew up in the Philippines. I also feel pressured by my cousins who grew up here in America. https://padlet.com/maxinezhao394/lwjelhk6tx7znmoq/wish/1669196264 2021-08-04 18:39:00 UTC https://padlet.com/maxinezhao394/lwjelhk6tx7znmoq/wish/1669196264 It’s hard seeing others being able to enjoy their summer and go out when there are responsibilities I have that don’t allow me to have a break like them. https://padlet.com/maxinezhao394/lwjelhk6tx7znmoq/wish/1669196293 2021-08-04 18:39:03 UTC https://padlet.com/maxinezhao394/lwjelhk6tx7znmoq/wish/1669196293 mxteza20 https://padlet.com/maxinezhao394/lwjelhk6tx7znmoq/wish/1669196463 meditation]]> 2021-08-04 18:39:16 UTC https://padlet.com/maxinezhao394/lwjelhk6tx7znmoq/wish/1669196463 Affirmation https://padlet.com/maxinezhao394/lwjelhk6tx7znmoq/wish/1669196469 I am practicing remembering this: Everything I do, I should not have to do because I "have" to, but everything I do must come from a place of love.]]> 2021-08-04 18:39:16 UTC https://padlet.com/maxinezhao394/lwjelhk6tx7znmoq/wish/1669196469 Balancing on campus, hybrid, and online classes for Fall 2021 https://padlet.com/maxinezhao394/lwjelhk6tx7znmoq/wish/1669196747 This upcoming fall semester coursework is definitely scaring me, even though I consciously signed up for them hahaha I'm excited to learn, but also afraid of not doing as well as I want to. ]]> 2021-08-04 18:39:37 UTC https://padlet.com/maxinezhao394/lwjelhk6tx7znmoq/wish/1669196747 for all that they're hard on me, my family makes is clear how much they love me in actions, but also in words. my closest relatives have also tried to adjust to understanding my mental health and states instead of forcing their views on me, and try to help me feel better and create safe spaces for me! https://padlet.com/maxinezhao394/lwjelhk6tx7znmoq/wish/1669196811 2021-08-04 18:39:42 UTC https://padlet.com/maxinezhao394/lwjelhk6tx7znmoq/wish/1669196811 https://padlet.com/maxinezhao394/lwjelhk6tx7znmoq/wish/1669197032 Talking to close friends to destress has definitely helped me cope with a lot of things. They were there to listen to me and give me positive affirmations and all around help me feel better. ]]> 2021-08-04 18:39:51 UTC https://padlet.com/maxinezhao394/lwjelhk6tx7znmoq/wish/1669197032 stressed https://padlet.com/maxinezhao394/lwjelhk6tx7znmoq/wish/1669197239 there are many expectations that i have to uphold as a first born child and being forced to have a path solely focused to make money for the money. ]]> 2021-08-04 18:39:56 UTC https://padlet.com/maxinezhao394/lwjelhk6tx7znmoq/wish/1669197239 excited to transfer and meet new people, learn new things! https://padlet.com/maxinezhao394/lwjelhk6tx7znmoq/wish/1669197335 2021-08-04 18:40:04 UTC https://padlet.com/maxinezhao394/lwjelhk6tx7znmoq/wish/1669197335 https://padlet.com/maxinezhao394/lwjelhk6tx7znmoq/wish/1669197340 I am anxious because I just learn my application term this summer.]]> 2021-08-04 18:40:04 UTC https://padlet.com/maxinezhao394/lwjelhk6tx7znmoq/wish/1669197340 Exercise and eating a healthy diet - not just to look my best but it really does help me feel best prepared to take on my responsibilities https://padlet.com/maxinezhao394/lwjelhk6tx7znmoq/wish/1669197477 2021-08-04 18:40:15 UTC https://padlet.com/maxinezhao394/lwjelhk6tx7znmoq/wish/1669197477 Music has helped me a lot and opening up to my friends is very helpful too. Finding time to just settle down and relax is very therapeutic! https://padlet.com/maxinezhao394/lwjelhk6tx7znmoq/wish/1669197557 2021-08-04 18:40:23 UTC https://padlet.com/maxinezhao394/lwjelhk6tx7znmoq/wish/1669197557 https://padlet.com/maxinezhao394/lwjelhk6tx7znmoq/wish/1669197599 Watching TED video]]> 2021-08-04 18:40:26 UTC https://padlet.com/maxinezhao394/lwjelhk6tx7znmoq/wish/1669197599 Resting. Allowing myself some time in the day to think and sit with my emotions without the influence of others calms me down. All without isolating myself at the same time. A balance is always important. https://padlet.com/maxinezhao394/lwjelhk6tx7znmoq/wish/1669197964 2021-08-04 18:40:54 UTC https://padlet.com/maxinezhao394/lwjelhk6tx7znmoq/wish/1669197964 https://padlet.com/maxinezhao394/lwjelhk6tx7znmoq/wish/1669198083 Knowing that things will eventually get better. We have to hope for the best and take the steps that are needed in order to achieve our goals and overcome obstacles. ]]> 2021-08-04 18:41:03 UTC https://padlet.com/maxinezhao394/lwjelhk6tx7znmoq/wish/1669198083 https://padlet.com/maxinezhao394/lwjelhk6tx7znmoq/wish/1669198120 I definitely feel stressed about transferring knowing that my family are very collectivistic and are always involved in my decisions and what's best for me. However, I'm taking a leap of faith and trying to self advocate for myself for the first time towards my family.]]> 2021-08-04 18:41:07 UTC https://padlet.com/maxinezhao394/lwjelhk6tx7znmoq/wish/1669198120 Being able to make my family back in the Philippines proud is what makes me hopeful, they are my source of strength and motivation! https://padlet.com/maxinezhao394/lwjelhk6tx7znmoq/wish/1669198171 2021-08-04 18:41:12 UTC https://padlet.com/maxinezhao394/lwjelhk6tx7znmoq/wish/1669198171 Thinking about all of the knowledge and experiences I could gain at a UC, as well as all the people I have yet to meet :) https://padlet.com/maxinezhao394/lwjelhk6tx7znmoq/wish/1669198180 2021-08-04 18:41:12 UTC https://padlet.com/maxinezhao394/lwjelhk6tx7znmoq/wish/1669198180 Brief breaks https://padlet.com/maxinezhao394/lwjelhk6tx7znmoq/wish/1669198341 During these months, I've been making time for strolls at the parks, exercising on the treadmill, drink more water, nap when needed, and eating consciously. Besides those, I also try to go on self-dates to reconnect myself with the present and just slow down and rewind. ]]> 2021-08-04 18:41:28 UTC https://padlet.com/maxinezhao394/lwjelhk6tx7znmoq/wish/1669198341 resources related not only to my academics and professional life, but also for my identity as an Asia Am and my health https://padlet.com/maxinezhao394/lwjelhk6tx7znmoq/wish/1669198387 2021-08-04 18:41:32 UTC https://padlet.com/maxinezhao394/lwjelhk6tx7znmoq/wish/1669198387 Even though I've just finished my summer semester, I'm feel a bit stressed with my UC application and the upcoming fall workload. https://padlet.com/maxinezhao394/lwjelhk6tx7znmoq/wish/1669198546 2021-08-04 18:41:46 UTC https://padlet.com/maxinezhao394/lwjelhk6tx7znmoq/wish/1669198546 seeing the progress I am making in breaking intergenerational trauma patterns https://padlet.com/maxinezhao394/lwjelhk6tx7znmoq/wish/1669198889 2021-08-04 18:42:13 UTC https://padlet.com/maxinezhao394/lwjelhk6tx7znmoq/wish/1669198889 My major is nursing. It's a highly competitive major. I will start the nursing program's application after completing this Fall semester. I feel anxious for accepting in nursing program in any CCC or University. https://padlet.com/maxinezhao394/lwjelhk6tx7znmoq/wish/1669199048 2021-08-04 18:42:28 UTC https://padlet.com/maxinezhao394/lwjelhk6tx7znmoq/wish/1669199048 Money seems to be on my mind a lot. I tend to ask myself “Do you have enough saved for when your transfer?” “How will you juggle University and work at the same time” “Will adjusting be something I struggle with?” Applying to Scholarships and working does help ease my mind. https://padlet.com/maxinezhao394/lwjelhk6tx7znmoq/wish/1669199154 2021-08-04 18:42:36 UTC https://padlet.com/maxinezhao394/lwjelhk6tx7znmoq/wish/1669199154 Watching Olympics & Running & Swimming https://padlet.com/maxinezhao394/lwjelhk6tx7znmoq/wish/1669199398 The Tokyo 2020 games has been keeping me feel good and I am able to destress when I watch the volleyball games and watching my role model has been really inspiring. Running also helps whenever I am stressed and when I'm at the beach, I enjoy swimming and running along the shore.]]> 2021-08-04 18:42:57 UTC https://padlet.com/maxinezhao394/lwjelhk6tx7znmoq/wish/1669199398 https://padlet.com/maxinezhao394/lwjelhk6tx7znmoq/wish/1669199536 Living up to my parents’ expectations. It can be overkill sometimes and it drains all my energy and sometimes leaves me in a dark place. They expect me to transfer to a good UC so that they can brag to others about how their first-born is attending a well-known college. ]]> 2021-08-04 18:43:09 UTC https://padlet.com/maxinezhao394/lwjelhk6tx7znmoq/wish/1669199536 My past, present, and future makes me hopeful https://padlet.com/maxinezhao394/lwjelhk6tx7znmoq/wish/1669199830 When things get tough, I step back and reflect on the past and present self and situation. Lately, my growth as a person and towards my endeavor makes me hopeful to continue what I'm doing. ]]> 2021-08-04 18:43:34 UTC https://padlet.com/maxinezhao394/lwjelhk6tx7znmoq/wish/1669199830 Going Abroad https://padlet.com/maxinezhao394/lwjelhk6tx7znmoq/wish/1669200359 I want to dive into my Korean culture and learn more of my country's past and I am also hoping to go study abroad in other countries like Japan, Australia, Switzerland, Singapore, Germany, and etc.]]> 2021-08-04 18:44:13 UTC https://padlet.com/maxinezhao394/lwjelhk6tx7znmoq/wish/1669200359 English is not my mother tongue, so I have difficulty in learning. Because my major is nursing, I must get a grade A for all courses. However, I need to go to work part-time, so I don't have enough time to learn. I also worry about the school fees for the nursing program when transferring. Moreover, I don't know whether I will get Asian-American anti-racism when I apply to schools. https://padlet.com/maxinezhao394/lwjelhk6tx7znmoq/wish/1669201124 2021-08-04 18:45:10 UTC https://padlet.com/maxinezhao394/lwjelhk6tx7znmoq/wish/1669201124 Communicating & Not Knowing where to go https://padlet.com/maxinezhao394/lwjelhk6tx7znmoq/wish/1669201747 Coming from an immigrant family, it's hard to reach out to others and I tend to keep everything to myself, unable to share with my own family members and friends. I don't know where I want to be at as well and there are so many expectations of me as the first born from my family members.]]> 2021-08-04 18:45:57 UTC https://padlet.com/maxinezhao394/lwjelhk6tx7znmoq/wish/1669201747 Resources & support about Jobs, Internships, and Shadowing https://padlet.com/maxinezhao394/lwjelhk6tx7znmoq/wish/1669201972 Recently, I've been struggling with landing internships and starting how to reach out to job shadow. Despite researching and shooting shots, it feels like I'm still stuck in one place no matter how far or fast I feel like I'm running. Networking and connecting is hard in the current social environment. ]]> 2021-08-04 18:46:20 UTC https://padlet.com/maxinezhao394/lwjelhk6tx7znmoq/wish/1669201972 Transferring and being able to be independent is exciting. Having my own space and having a new environment is something I look forward to. New opportunities. https://padlet.com/maxinezhao394/lwjelhk6tx7znmoq/wish/1669203087 2021-08-04 18:47:40 UTC https://padlet.com/maxinezhao394/lwjelhk6tx7znmoq/wish/1669203087 https://padlet.com/maxinezhao394/lwjelhk6tx7znmoq/wish/1669203166 Definitely, stating my concerns towards my family without being judged for what I'm feeling and being more open towards my closer friends. As much as I enjoy helping others and family with their problems, I tend to close myself away from others and let the problems and stress linger around. As much as I enjoy helping others, I can't be a hero/heroine for others knowing that it can emotionally drain me.]]> 2021-08-04 18:47:45 UTC https://padlet.com/maxinezhao394/lwjelhk6tx7znmoq/wish/1669203166 https://padlet.com/maxinezhao394/lwjelhk6tx7znmoq/wish/1669204556 I feel both excited and nervous. I am looking forward to my future life on the UC campus, and at the same time, I am nervous about applying to UC.]]> 2021-08-04 18:49:55 UTC https://padlet.com/maxinezhao394/lwjelhk6tx7znmoq/wish/1669204556 Making tik toks is something that gets my mind off of things. it’s fun while also being something I dont need to have commitment for. https://padlet.com/maxinezhao394/lwjelhk6tx7znmoq/wish/1669204604 2021-08-04 18:49:58 UTC https://padlet.com/maxinezhao394/lwjelhk6tx7znmoq/wish/1669204604 https://padlet.com/maxinezhao394/lwjelhk6tx7znmoq/wish/1669208481 Just knowing that my experiences and willingness to share makes me hopeful that I'm able to share my stories and struggles to others that might be in a similar situation as me. Also, taking these struggles and experiences have shaped the person I am today that is more confident to take more opportunities to reach my goal.]]> 2021-08-04 18:53:53 UTC https://padlet.com/maxinezhao394/lwjelhk6tx7znmoq/wish/1669208481 Playing guitar or watching YouTube https://padlet.com/maxinezhao394/lwjelhk6tx7znmoq/wish/1669208594 Whenever I'm unable to cope with the school work anymore, I usually turn to my guitar and go online to watch fun things]]> 2021-08-04 18:54:02 UTC https://padlet.com/maxinezhao394/lwjelhk6tx7znmoq/wish/1669208594