These are the vexations of life.

Those people that force themselves into our lives.
Or those drivers who just can’t speed up their cars.

Those are the vexations of life.

These broken bones and scars on my face.
Or those conversations that we forced and faltered.

These are the vexations of life.

Parents that keep going and going and going.
Or those pesky people that just won’t go away

These are the vexations of life.

Those nights where you are just starving to the core.
Or attempting get the thread through the needle hole for the millionth time.

These are the vexations of life.

 Failing tests that you procrastinated on.
 Or staying up all night and coming an hour late to class.

These are vexations of life.

Instead of lemons, life throws a bucket of water at you.
Or when that time of the month kicks you right in the uterus.

These are the vexations of life.

When beauty standards are just too damn high.
And even making something simple as a choice.

That is just some of the vexations of life.

First day of college is anxiety

Presentations are anxiety

The night before an exam is anxiety

Stress is anxiety

 

Being alone is anxiety

Talking to people is anxiety

Making a good first impression is anxiety

Expressing yourself to the fullest is anxiety

Falling in love is anxiety

Watching a climactic scene in a movie is anxiety

Holding hands is anxiety

Putting your trust in someone is anxiety

Breaking up is anxiety

People are anxiety

 

Waiting at the arrival lounge is anxiety

Waiting at the departure lounge is anxiety

Getting that phone call is anxiety

Waiting outside a hospital room is anxiety

Trauma is anxiety

These walls are anxiety
These thoughts are anxiety
The knife in the kitchen is anxiety
Blood is anxiety
Overthinking is anxiety

Stress is anxiety

People are anxiety

Trauma is anxiety

Overthinking is anxiety

Standing at the edge of a cliff is anxiety
Dying is-

For I’ve sinned,

It was a late Saturday night,

As I should be heading home,

But I’m drunk on liquid gold,

Forgive me, lover,

For I’ve sinned,

I was the one who let us go,

After foolish mistakes after another,

But the one who make us break,

Was my one night ache. 

 

Forgive me, friends, 

For I’ve sinned, 

I’ve been lying,

I say I’ll be there for them,

But when things get real,

I bolt and chill.

Forgive me, teacher,

For I have sinned,

With all the pressure I had to endure,

I felt hopeless and there was no cure,

To cheat on him I could not bear,

But the thought of disappointment,

I dare not to care.

 

Forgive me, body,

For I have sinned.

I have tortured you endlessly,

I don’t know why and I don’t know how,

With all the food,

I chose to force it out.

The weather forecaster betrayed me

The puddle that ruined my boot betrayed me

My drained phone battery betrayed me

The broken public tele betrayed me 

My cheating boyfriend betrayed me

My dog who’d chosen him over me betrayed me
Our friends who took his side betrayed me
My leaked pictures the next day betrayed me
The two shots of vodka betrayed me

My low alcohol tolerance betrayed me

My best friend who knew I was drunk betrayed me

The guilt in his eyes when I sobered betrayed me

My dad betrayed me 
His late night returns to home betrayed me
The perfume that lingers on his shirt betrayed me
The glinting blade on my sink betrayed me

My happiness betrayed me
The voices in my head betrayed me

God betrayed me

I betrayed myself