Another part of it is my insanity. I genuinely believe in my own capacity as a human and truly believe if I set my mind to something, I can accomplish literally anything. It's an immature, childish, and potentially stupid belief which drives both action and unparalleled confidence, yet also oftentimes arrogance and laziness.

Even the seemingly childish TV shows I watch to kill time can provide me with new philosophies or eyes to admire and perceive the world through. For example, from Arcane, the series I mentioned earlier, the writing is immaculate, but another thing I want to touch on is its dialogue. A single line changed my entire perspective on everything. "In the pursuit of great, we failed to do good."

As someone with expectations as tall as mountains and ambitions as large as the sea, this really stuck with me.

Or looking at another form of media, social media. It affects the way I see the people around me, the people who make my world unique. It allows me to form greater and deeper bonds with them as well.

However, on the flip side, these sources of media can often inhibit my ability as well. Since the industrial revolution and the modernization of earth, humans and their time have become currency among the elites of the elites, and my time is no exception. Almost everything in the modern world tries to appeal to us to take from us, whether it be our time or our money, and the things which we truly need to do is often far less appealing and far harder to do. THIS is what stops 99% of people from succeeding in my eyes, and as of right now, I am no exception. Every day I waste on media is a day that will never come back, and is a day I could have spent achieving a better version of myself. But again, we can't simply ignore the upsides of Media, so what do we do?

In my eyes, the answer is as simple as it is difficult to truly execute. It is to simply find the healthy balance. For example, as of right now I can admit I do not spend a healthy amount of time on social media, and I need to do better to not waste as much time, which I can try to do by simply properly organizing my day and not allowing myself to take the easy way outs and make compromises. To recognize the value of my time and my existence and to do better for past me, present me, and future me.