"I Feel Like Giving Up, Next Thing I Know I am in a Place I Shouldn't Be In:" a solo exhibit documentation by Gwyn Buenavista

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Brainstorming ideas

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@little_dchan

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@monelimelise

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comicstarlatte on Ao3

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https://archiveofourown.org/works/44984659

mizerymizuki on Ao3

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u/DaddyDanyu in r/SadPoems

famia_87 — 2023-02-13 07:57:47 UTC

umm.. yeah. no really the author is "umm.. yeah"

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princiere on Ao3

famia_87 — 2023-02-13 08:12:19 UTC

RESULT OF THE CONSULTATION ON THE 15TH OF FEBRUARY

famia_87 — 2023-02-15 02:13:07 UTC

Ma'am likes and approves the idea of escapism YAYYYYYY LET'S GOOOOOOOO shaking and crying as we speak

All she needs to hear is the way of execution how to execute everything that is not already done or "common"

edit in the concept map: reason for isekai self insert is the means of escapism

famia_87 — 2023-02-15 02:15:10 UTC

i gotta thank this one for helping me carry all the doubt and overthinking into this amen godbless

famia_87 — 2023-02-15 02:38:52 UTC

//off topic

famia_87 — 2023-02-15 02:40:51 UTC

how to remove a label help

my initial decision for the execution:

famia_87 — 2023-02-17 01:01:52 UTC

due to the fact that i have near to 0% knowlege in animation i will pursue making comics

“I Feel Like Giving Up on Life, Next Thing I Know I am in a Place I shouldn’t Be in” initial plan

famia_87 — 2023-02-17 02:25:18 UTC

~~DO NOT REFER TO THIS DOCUMENT ANYMORE~~

Please scroll down <3

date: from feb 7 to feb 13

famia_87 — 2023-02-17 06:15:05 UTC

made an initial concept of how the universe hopping would occur

famia_87 — 2023-02-17 06:42:37 UTC

yes, i own this account, and i was making a thread of my OC who is similar to the MC of the story. she used to be a model of my own persona, but changed to be her own character.

i also made the drawing, and that's what she looks like as a king.

date: feb 15-feb 22

famia_87 — 2023-02-17 06:43:25 UTC

character design #1: the self-inserted MC

famia_87 — 2023-02-17 16:45:50 UTC

forgot to mention that the differences of the real world and the fantasy realm can be determined like the OMORI artstyle.

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famia_87 — 2023-02-22 08:03:49 UTC

more notable works that have similarities as my idea include:

famia_87 — 2023-02-22 08:14:25 UTC

Genshin Impact - the premise of the game is to explore a whole new world as one of the twins. and we must find our other twin as we unravel secrets of this world. currently, we're on the 4th region and the game is nowhere close to finishing just yet. there's not much revealed on where the twins came from before they entered the current world of Teyvat. similarities include: going from one universe to another, exploring current world

famia_87 — 2023-02-22 08:28:32 UTC

Peter Pan - ah yes, the classic. "When you wish upon a star, makes no difference who you are." except that the second star on the right will open up to a whole new place like you've never seen before. Unless you got yourself pixie dust, going there seems nearly impossible. similarities include: consciously being led by a mysterious being (definitely not suspicious) and being taken to neverland

famia_87 — 2023-02-22 08:35:19 UTC

Lost Boy by Ruth B. - Wew...for a song that's inspired by Peter Pan, it just hits so hard. For some reason the song is somber, serene, a hint of loneliness and melancholy. Perhaps this is what the mc feels. The song starts off, the persona being described as someone who is in isolation from the world, having the moon as their only companion through the night. I assume that the persona is a deeply depressed person, someone who couldn't find themselves in the world they're in, and who just feels so ignored by everyone therefore not making many friends. Many viewers have their own interpretations on this song and it's just as beautifully sad. p.s. i regret not finding this song out sooner 💔💔

background concept

famia_87 — 2023-02-22 08:39:38 UTC

background concept

famia_87 — 2023-02-22 09:24:37 UTC

inspiration (this is the Devildom, the realm of demons

famia_87 — 2023-02-22 09:26:11 UTC

comic panels

famia_87 — 2023-02-22 09:32:57 UTC

RESULT OF THE 2ND CONSULTATION ON THE 22ND OF FEBRUARY

famia_87 — 2023-02-22 10:25:36 UTC

Nice!! Conceptualized a lot of stuff, gone through the premise of the story. some things needed to be clarified:

1. How does the MC really end up in the self-insert world? does the shooting star have any relation to it?
2. how does the MC transition from one world to another
3. what happens when they do end up in another world? what will they reflect on? what would they think of the place?

forgot to mention! what franchises am I going to use for the comic???

famia_87 — 2023-02-23 23:15:49 UTC

yes how tf didn't i mention any of this. oh wait till you read what i place. you're gonna be jaw dropping kind of surprised hahahahaha

Obey Me! Shall We Date?

famia_87 — 2023-02-23 23:17:43 UTC

Obey Me! is a dating sim where you date seven demons (now with additional 5 side dateables) and be the "one master to rule them all!"

The main character land in the realm of demons called 'the Devildom' as an exchange student of a program that helps in uniting or unifying the three realms, those realms being the Celestial Realm, the realm of angels, and the Human Realm.

Why did I choose this franchise to self-insert from?
Because I am into the game as of the moment, I have always been since March 2020, though this game was released in December of 2019. What makes this game special is that, compared to most otome games where the MC is an already preset self-insert (aka. the typical brown-haired, blue eyed woman), there's no specifics as to what the MC would look like, therefore it's to the player's interpretation as to what their MC would look like, or, in this case, self-insert themselves into the world of Obey Me and make headcanons as to how they would react to this situation or that situation.

What's also very special for Obey Me aside from the non-specific-look for the MC, the MC is gender-neutral, which makes this game open to all players, whatever their gender is. This is what made this game the most popular game of their developing company, NTT Solmare, as they surprased more downloads than most of their existing games as of now (given that they have removed games from the playstore that are also most beloved by their veteran fans).

I do adore this game, even until now, because of the many potential it has, and it served as a gateway for many content creators alike to process their own ideas, alternate universes(AUs), and HCs. It's not that new to many fandoms as every other fandom does this, but Obey Me is still one of them, and as someone who's been in the fandom for a long time, throughout different social medias, I have encountered many creative artists and writers and even lore enthusiasts and it's really lovely to see that.

but then i've been thinking that if i couldn't make it to the final production schedule i might as well have to cut it down from 3 to 2 franchises.

famia_87 — 2023-02-23 23:54:26 UTC

also i chose these franchises by interest rather than popularity because it's a franchise i can work to my interest.

famia_87 — 2023-02-23 23:56:39 UTC

but would it make more of an impact if i choose a franchise that's more popular and more well known?

character design #2: Lucifer, the Avatar of Pride

famia_87 — 2023-02-23 23:58:51 UTC

ALSO LOOK: layout of the exhibit 👀

famia_87 — 2023-02-24 00:01:05 UTC

from top to bottom: banner that shows the name of the book, frames that contain the character designs, the storyboards, initial sketches of the panels etc., the description of the book (summary/synopsis) bonus qr code for something i forgot, display table that contains 3 copies of the books

oh my god help

date: feb 24-march 1

famia_87 — 2023-02-24 00:01:32 UTC

“I Feel Like Giving Up on Life, Next Thing I Know I am in a Place I shouldn’t Be in” STORY

famia_87 — 2023-02-24 02:32:02 UTC

~~DO NOT REFER TO THIS DOCUMENT ANYMORE.~~

Please scroll further down <3

what if i just stick to one fandom only in order to lessen my load?

famia_87 — 2023-02-25 09:46:11 UTC

what if i make it a series??? a volume???

famia_87 — 2023-02-26 02:38:25 UTC

3RD CONSULTATION: uhh...if i don't got me..at least the Lord got me....CAN I GET AN AMEN!?@??@!?@

famia_87 — 2023-02-27 08:14:17 UTC

GOD DAMN THERE'S SO MUCH NEEDED TO BE DONE!

1. Make a proper outline for the story. NEED A STORY OUTLINE.
2. Put myself in the shoes of the MC because it's about me! or try to write the details in 1st person perspective?
3. If you want people to know that you're referencing off of a game, show it. (e.g. the MC playing Obey Me, finding out scenes that make no sense)
4. REMEMBER YOUR MAIN PURPOSE OF WRITING THIS STORY: E S C A P I S M
5. Differentiate the MC from the game characters. also probably the real world and the game world.
6. "Do no compromise the quality of your artwork."

just realizing that making the story sequence after sequence is dumb asf and i think i just got an ick from myself

famia_87 — 2023-02-27 08:24:21 UTC

i didn't realize there's a mix between 'comic' and 'storybook' until now 😳😳

famia_87 — 2023-02-27 11:44:10 UTC

EYES HERE!!!

famia_87 — 2023-02-28 15:08:54 UTC

STORY OUTLINE GOD

famia_87 — 2023-02-28 15:25:46 UTC

OK WOAH ART PRODUCTION IS A GO LEAP TO THE SKY IN HAPPINESS AND GLEE

famia_87 — 2023-03-04 08:28:26 UTC

-narrow the plot to make it introductory about the characters
-transition how the character goes to the dream world in art form
-dont rush the story!!!
-Panelists' suggestions for printing will be "Duma Prints"
-make online copy of the story
-make introductory statement of the franchise used

march 4

famia_87 — 2023-03-04 08:39:35 UTC

may or may not change the character design again

famia_87 — 2023-03-04 08:48:20 UTC

edit on march 4: no

famia_87 — 2023-03-04 08:48:51 UTC

we're sticking to Obey Me

famia_87 — 2023-03-04 08:49:38 UTC

march 7-14

famia_87 — 2023-03-09 01:41:18 UTC

MAKING THE STORY FOR REAL. WITH THE CHANGES OF THE PLOT TO MAKE IT INTRODUCTORY FOR THE TWO STARRING CHARACTERS

PROLOGUE AND FIRST MEETING WRITTEN DOWN

famia_87 — 2023-03-09 01:44:46 UTC

edit: added chapter 3!! and chapter 4!!! i need to be faster ngl

HAD TO GET MYSELF A PDF VERSION OF THE REFERENCE BECAUSE YES HOW IS IT DONE I WONDER

famia_87 — 2023-03-09 01:45:52 UTC

context: this is the first book of the Tank and Fizz series that was released in 2015.

edit: march 12

famia_87 — 2023-03-12 07:19:39 UTC

too much work!!! i guess

EYES HERE!!! a lil reminder

famia_87 — 2023-03-14 02:12:41 UTC

STORY OUTLINE GOD

SETTING MOODBOARD (will update everytime)

famia_87 — 2023-03-14 04:04:50 UTC

I FORGOT TO WRITE MY PLAN

famia_87 — 2023-03-15 16:58:13 UTC

1. Finalize the outline
2. Write the story
3. Finish the story within two weeks of art production. That means I basically will have at least 5-4 weeks of art production (good lord)
4. After finishing the story, have it proofread by at least two writers, and also with someone who has never played Obey Me as a test subject.
5. After proofreading and finishing up changes, read the reference story and layout how to illustrate the segments.
6. Go ham with the illustrations but make sure to differentiate the character designs and the transition!

march 15-21

famia_87 — 2023-03-17 08:11:10 UTC

FINISHING UP THE STORY W/ ADDITIONAL PROOFREADING AND GLOSSING OVER THE REFERENCE STORY

UPDATE: CLIMAX AND ENDING NEARLY SECURED

famia_87 — 2023-03-17 08:11:55 UTC

Will need to go over the rising action and the falling action as to not make it seem rushed and too drawn-out.

edit: just gonna proofread the conclusion. i guess

PROOFREAD CHAPTER CHECK! #1

famia_87 — 2023-03-17 08:49:20 UTC

1. Prologue - yes
2. Chapter 1 - yes
3. Chapter 2 - yes
4. Chapter 3 - yes
5. Chapter 4 - yes
6. Chapter 5 - yes
7. Chapter __ - x
8. Epilogue - x

UPDATE: DONE ALL DONE LIKE 50% DONE (I say this cuz i'm splitting 50/50 for the writing and art respectfully)

famia_87 — 2023-03-23 15:09:48 UTC

SCREAMING FINALLYYYY

march 22-march 28

famia_87 — 2023-03-23 15:13:43 UTC

THE WRITING HAS ALREADY BEEN FINISHED AND WILL NOW GO TO THE ILLUSTRATIONS

almost forgot to mention that i have made inquiries from Dumaprints and will continue to keep in touch with them!!!!

famia_87 — 2023-03-23 15:14:11 UTC

I FORGOT TO WRITE MY PLAN: UPDATE!!

famia_87 — 2023-03-23 15:15:14 UTC

~~1. Finalize the outline~~
~~2. Write the story~~
~~3. Finish the story within~~ ~~two weeks~~ ~~of art production. That means I basically will have at least~~ ~~5-4 weeks of art production~~ ~~(good lord)~~
4. After finishing the story, have it proofread by at least two writers, and also with someone who has never played Obey Me as a test subject.
5. After proofreading and finishing up changes, read the reference story and layout how to illustrate the segments.
6. Go ham with the illustrations but make sure to differentiate the character designs and the transition!

PROOFREAD CHAPTER CHECK! #1 update

famia_87 — 2023-03-24 02:22:33 UTC

1. Prologue - yes
2. Chapter 1 - yes
3. Chapter 2 - yes
4. Chapter 3 - yes
5. Chapter 4 - yes
6. Chapter 5 - yes
7. Chapter 6 - yes (but pending to add more writing incase)

measured an available table:

famia_87 — 2023-03-24 03:51:34 UTC

length: 39.5in
width: 23.6in

will remeasure again later

HIHI HOHO ILLUSTRATION DRAFTS

famia_87 — 2023-03-25 19:01:12 UTC

edit march 28: motivation is dwindling once more. sigh.

AUGH

famia_87 — 2023-03-28 13:28:00 UTC

almost had a burnout week but i must stay unfettered 💅

March 29-April 4

famia_87 — 2023-03-29 14:17:16 UTC

apparently my goal to have all illustrations made before holy week has now diminished. and all i wish is another chance in life <3333

shrinking this because yes emphasis on the illustrations

famia_87 — 2023-03-29 14:19:42 UTC

0(-( this is the story btw

I FORGOT TO WRITE MY PLAN: UPDATE!!(2)

famia_87 — 2023-03-29 14:20:39 UTC

~~1. Finalize the outline~~
~~2. Write the story~~
~~3. Finish the story within~~ ~~two weeks~~ ~~of art production. That means I basically will have at least~~ ~~5-4 weeks of art production~~ ~~(good lord)~~
4. After finishing the story, have it proofread by at least two writers (hasn't given a response yet huhu), and also with someone who has never played Obey Me as a test subject.
5. After proofreading and finishing up changes, ~~read the reference story~~ ~~and~~ ~~layout~~ ~~how to illustrate the segments.~~
6. Go ham with the illustrations but make sure to differentiate the character designs and the transition!

HIHI HOHO ILLUSTRATION DRAFTS

famia_87 — 2023-03-29 14:22:14 UTC

added 2nd drafts of the illustrations

NEED TO HAVE AT LEAST 2-4 DONE THIS WEEK BECAUSE MY GOD

famia_87 — 2023-03-29 14:23:48 UTC

im just gonna display it im gonna snap

famia_87 — 2023-04-03 14:35:40 UTC

NEEDS COLOR ILLUSTRATION 1 (PROLOGUE)

PLEASE BE GUIDED1!!! for guide, just scroll down :>

famia_87 — 2023-04-04 05:37:06 UTC

Newest posts are at the very bottom pls this is all i can manage to arrange my lil padlet board *Dies*

INTRAMS MANGGUY NAKAINGON AHAY NAA UNTA KOY NAHIMO NA DAGHAN

famia_87 — 2023-04-04 05:44:36 UTC

date: 15TH OF FEBRUARY

famia_87 — 2023-04-05 13:36:34 UTC

no

famia_87 — 2023-04-05 13:41:46 UTC

famia_87 — 2023-04-05 13:46:06 UTC

NEEDS COLOR ILLUSTRATION 2 (PROLOGUE)

APRIL 5-11

famia_87 — 2023-04-07 04:30:28 UTC

I NEED TO WORK FASTER!!!!

famia_87 — 2023-04-07 04:30:42 UTC

famia_87 — 2023-04-07 04:31:03 UTC

NEEDS COLOR ILLUSTRATION 3 (CHAPTER 5)

NEEDS COLOR ILLUSTRATION 4

famia_87 — 2023-04-08 13:18:49 UTC

(CHAPTER 4)

NEEDS COLOR ILLUSTRATION 5

famia_87 — 2023-04-09 15:57:41 UTC

aka. my most favorite part of the illustration. fight me. (CHAPTER 1)

needs color illustration 6

famia_87 — 2023-04-09 16:01:19 UTC

possibly the one with a lot of emotions. im not kidding. BTW THE DISPOPORTIONS ON THE EYES ARE ON PURPOSE I WILL EVENTUALLY SHADE OUT THE LEFT EYE WHEN I COLOR (CHAPTER 3)

ANOTHER TIME CONSUMING ILLUSTRATION

famia_87 — 2023-04-11 01:55:45 UTC

NEEDS COLOR ILLUSTRATION 7 (CHAPTER 2)

7 illustrations out of estimate of 13

famia_87 — 2023-04-11 01:57:06 UTC

POSTER!!!!

famia_87 — 2023-04-12 08:30:57 UTC

NEEDS COLOR ILLUSTRATION 8

famia_87 — 2023-04-12 12:39:55 UTC

NEEDS COLOR ILLUSTRATION 9

famia_87 — 2023-04-12 12:40:50 UTC

GRAYSCALED ILLUSTRATIONS READY FOR TEXT AND SPEECH BUBBLE ADDITIONS AS WELL AS FLAT COLORING AND FURTHER RENDERING

famia_87 — 2023-04-15 02:22:24 UTC

UPDATE: APRIL 18 AKA 2 DAYS FROM D-DAY

famia_87 — 2023-04-18 12:45:22 UTC

OK SO I DID GRAYSCALE OF ALL ILLUSTRATIONS BUT THEY TURNED OUT BAD WHEN RAN THROUGH OVERLAY BLENDING MODE SO I HAD TO REDO MOST OF THEM. ALL IN ALL I HAVE LIKE 9 ILLUSTRATIONS UGHH

FINAL, ILLUSTRATION 1

famia_87 — 2023-04-18 12:49:43 UTC

FINAL, ILLUSTRATION 2.1

famia_87 — 2023-04-18 12:51:03 UTC

FINAL, ILLUSTRATION 2.2

famia_87 — 2023-04-18 12:51:30 UTC

FINAL ILLUSTRATION 3

famia_87 — 2023-04-26 04:41:59 UTC