So evidently the first thing he did once he was released from the hospital was not pick himself back up and try again. Having difficulty readjusting to a life that was once his, Jongdae recoiled from his closest friends and found himself floating on the outskirts of society. This was where he met his stairway to hell. In form of a social outsider much like himself at the time, he met his first lover. Perplexing and toxic and all the same enchanting, his first boyfriend lead him easily into a scene of partying and drinking. He liked the way he numbed from the music blasting through his body and the alcohol shooting through his veins. Jongdae found himself caught in a noxious environment with a manipulative lover. One who played him like cards and discarded him quickly thereafter. Sinking past rock bottom, Jongdae only immersed himself deeper into his unhealthy lifestyle. At this point he was popping ecstasy at least three times a week and spent more of his time hungover and drunk than he did sober. 

Which was when he was picked up by a certain savior of his life.

And guided to the light again by that said certain savior, Jongdae now lives (almost) as normally as he did before his life became a hot mess. He still wrestles with a phobia of singing he'd developed since being hospitalized, struggling to breathe in the fear of his voice not coming out as it should, like before. But he's working on it. And he has a figure of unending support to aid him.